My journey journal

Sunday sharing; I am on a week long road trip with my husband. We took our two boys to my mom's yesterday cause we figured the travel would be easier without the little ones. They don't mind at all. And she asks for them all the time. Grandma is their best friend

How am I doing?: I am anxious. Instead of relaxing on this trip I am feeling guilty. I feel like I'm doing something wrong. Or am waiting to mess up. And it's truly unwarranted. I pray for peace. Not just for me but for others who also struggle with anxiety. God bless and Amen.

Obstacle this month: week long vacation to visit family and attend a graduation. That meant eating out every day or eating food prepared by family. Also meant changes to my eating schedule.
Overcoming obstacle: I stayed consistent with logging. That helped me stay accountable and aware. I refrained from fried foods. I choice veggies, salads and low cal proteins. I also used the hotel's gym to get in some exercise. Half way through the trip I started going over my calorie goals. But I believe I was able to minimize the damage by sticking to those habits. My at home weigh in showed that I am down 3 lbs

allenic10 thanks for sharing. Your courage is inspiring. And I am excited to hear about your progress. That is so awesome!

Official weigh in this week; only down one pound from last week, down seven for the month. I didn't meet my target goal loss of 10 pounds this month, but I saw that coming. Right now I am not bothered by that though because I have changed my mind about what I want. When I started this journey (again) two months ago it was about reaching a target goal of 150lbs. However, as each day brings insight and opportunities for healthy living I am becoming less focused on my numbers and more on my self. I focus on choices, actions, reactions, beliefs, misbelieves, and the age old question "how does that make me feel?". I am starting to be mindful of and more thankful for my present health instead of pressing and stressing over a number. Don't get me wrong, I still have goals. But they are daily and weekly goals. Like my daily calorie goal and my weekly work out goal. I figure as long as I keep myself healthy the rest will work it's self out. God bless and stay focused

Saturday Success: this week was a trying week. My nerves were all over the place. Seems like everything got to me. Actually, it started last week and rolled over into this week. And today I'm still dealing with a professional issue with a client that has my mood and mind unfocused. I pray resolution to that situation and that my heart won't be hardened to receive instruction/direction.
Challenge: I have noticed that my calorie intake has increased. I am sure that's because I am an emotional eater. Actually I'm an emotional EVERYTHING! Last week wasn't soooo bad because I stayed focus. However when I got into my feelings these past couple of days I saw that I became unfocused with an "Oh well. Might as well" attitude. Last night was the eye opener. My husband made me a wonderful dinner of baked catfish and broccoli, which is a huge deal cause fish Friday used to be fried catfish with French fries. Anyway I ended up eating 3 slices of pizza. And then some cookies. And then some chips.
Overcoming obstacle; be mindful. Now that I am aware I can adjust accordingly. And continue to sign in and log my food. The good, the bad and the ugly. That helps with accountability. Lastly, stay committed to weekly workouts cause that will help reduce the damage.
God bless and distress

Soooo... I haven't asked anyone to help me yet. (That's how hard it is to ask for help!). I managed to reign in some behaviors to get back on track. But then came the promotion at work! I found that I had an apathetic attitude again when under stress. It was "I don't care". I didn't want to think about or work on my eating habits because I had so many other things I was thinking about and working on. And I didn't make any time to work out. Thank God for meal planning and healthy grocery shopping. So even when I wasn't thinking, the food I reached for and ate was still pretty nutritious. That helped to keep me from falling too far off the wagon. But, with the transition to the new job duties and the holiday time with the family, I will admit that this wasn't my best week. Credit to myself tho because it wasn't the worst week either. God bless and meal prep!