The Beck Diet Solution. How to think like a thin person.

Awesome mama. Keep up the great work!! I think it is amazing how much easier some choices are now that I have tools to combat the temptations!!

The more the merrier!!

Shonna. How is the workbook? Is it worth buying??

Mama, thanks for sharing. As you have already lost so much weight I am sure that you have talked a lot of the challenges already. I personally just have a hard time actually not going over on calories currently. I am giving myself time--and that is what really matters. I won't make it if I don't master the challenges, so I am planning on making this book my handbook to go back to when I have trouble.

Here is today's posting:

So yesterday, Instead of stopping the foolishness I kept giving myself excuses and fooled myself into eating what I wanted in the afternoon. It didn't help that the dinner I made wasn't done until after 7. I know that I need to be a lot better at making sure I start dinner early enough to have it done on time. It was really good (cafe rio pork) but then because I hadn't calculated the calories beforehand I talked myself into not logging it and the excuses abounded. I did however resist the ice cream craving I had. I purposely didn't go downstairs so I could avoid the freezer. I sometimes feel like I have a devil and angel on my shoulder talking to me about food--perhaps I am just going crazy, I am sure I have had this before but I never noticed it before. I will think I am hungry I want chocolate, and then my good thoughts will say I don't need to eat right now. Hunger is not an emergency, I can wait until my next meal when I will have _____. All this time my hand is reaching for the chocolate even as I am opening it I will tell myself it isn't too late but I still open and pop it in my mouth as if I am being rebellious. I even tell myself I don't have to swallow, I can always spit it out. There is some part of me that I have not figured out yet, I am getting a payoff from food that I am not ready to give up yet. I need to figure that out.

Now to digress. Day 20 is Get Back on Track. I obviously need this. So when you are tempted to keep eating when you know you shouldn't you do the following. Acknowledge your slip: I shouldn't have eaten that, it was a mistake, one mistake is not going to make me gain weight. Then Recommit: Re-read parts of the book as necessary and response cards as well as the advantages list. Finally, Draw a symbolic line: Instead of waiting for another day say Here's the line, right here, where I stop this unplanned eating. Mark that line by brushing your teeth, going out for a walk, calling a friend or some other non-eating related activity. As always, give yourself credit. Watch out for feelings of failure, we all make mistakes, It is normal to stray from your diet from time to time. Nobody's perfect. Continue to eat normally after a mistake and learn from it. Just as I learned I need to be better about getting dinner on time, there are many things we still need to learn about ourselves. That is what this journey is all about. Learning who we are and how we deal with things.

I also realized I need to make sure I have all my response cards filled out and available so that I can pull them out and read them when I start the battle of the minds. I know that will help.

Anything you see that I missed? I am attempting to lay it all out there so that if there is something I don't see you all can call me on the carpet. I appreciate that.

Thanks for following me on this journey!

So I have been attempting to make sure my written work--the response cards are as up to date as the chapter I am on I have not quite caught up but will be there soon.

Today's task is to say oh well to disappointment. You can't stop sabotaging thoughts but if they cone you can tell them oh well. Meaning. I font like this but I'm going to accept it and move on. Oh well decreases the struggle and focuses your attention elsewhere. It seems almost to simple. But it works. I don't want to write my food plan for tomorrow, oh well. I want a cookie, oh well.

Today's task is to counter unfairness. I have often thought that it is unfair that I can't eat what I want to all the time or that some people are skinnier than I am with less work, sometimes it seems so unfair that I have to even think about watching what I eat because I should just be the size and shape I want to be. The truth is that life is unfair. We have all been given different circumstances and situations because we have agency. Really it all comes down to choices. In this instance I can choose to think that it being unfair that I can't eat say a piece of chocolate cake. Or I can say yes I would like a piece but oh well I would rather be thinner.  The fairness issue doesn't seem so big when paired with the choice. Staying where I am, On track to diabetes and cancer doesn't sound so great. But being model slim having the energy and flexibility to move however I want to sounds so much better.  The book suggests a response card something to the effect of:  when it seems unfair to me that I can't eat something acknowledge that I am right. Then ask myself which unfairness would I rather have: not being able to eat this or not losing weight?  Then say, "oh, well," and get on with it. 

Mama you are awesome!! I am changing things up--will write later but here is a motivational video for today: http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=MajG1SPoNj0

So I have come to the realization that I have not been very vigilant in planning and so I have not had the feeling of unfairness or depravation. I have been eating whatever I please anyway. I am seriously considering going on either the eat clean diet by tosca Reno or the biggest loser eating plan. They are actually quite alike so I may be using both. I am going to be reading more into them this week. I just am needing an actual meal plan to follow as pulling it out if my head only works when I am planning ahead. Which I have not been doing lately. So today I went through and put reminders on my calendar to alert me when it is tine to exercise and all my other daily activities in general. I need that extra reminder. I also got some poster paper today to put my advantages on as well as motivational quotes and reminders. I am getting my environment set up even better.  Time to write up my meals for tomorrow. So more tomorrow.