Tell me about your last binge....

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  • Famof72015
    Famof72015 Posts: 393 Member
    Now who weighs themselves the day or two after and see all the water weight gain and then get down on themselves? Me.. I do. How long does the water weight stay on?
  • JeepHair77
    JeepHair77 Posts: 1,291 Member
    Last Thursday. My husband took his mother to the grocery store Wednesday night, and came home with two packages of Oreos. They were 2/$5, he says, so of COURSE he bought two!

    Oreos are the one food that I cannot seem to moderate. I know this about myself, which is why I typically don't buy oreos at all. When we DO have them in the house, I ask my husband to hide them from me, but this time, I didn't.

    My daughter and I each had a few oreos that night, no big deal, I was all proud of myself for my control.

    I was working from home on Thursday instead of going to the office, because of a weirdly-scheduled doctor's appointment. I had some leftovers for lunch, logged it, and got myself two oreos.

    Then, a little later, I got two more.

    Then, a little after that, I thought I'd just have ONE more.

    Lather, rinse, repeat. At some point, I realized that there were only a few left in the package, so I just gave up and ate them, too. Finished the entire package in less than 24 hours, save maybe 3 cookies that my daughter ate the night before.

    Combination of things- 1) the very PRESENCE of my trigger food, the oreo - I swear, if I know they're in the house, I become obsessed and they occupy my thoughts kind of constantly (I know how crazy that sounds); 2) change in routine. I don't mindlessly snack at the office, but when I'm working at home, I think I eat more, just because it's there and it's easy; and 3) being home alone. It's stupid, because my husband encourages me to eat more, most of the time, so it's not like I have to hide my eating from him. But when it comes to my sweet tooth, some sort of sneakiness finds its way out, and if I'm going to binge on sweets, I'm going to do it alone.

    That was a bad day, and I was so angry with myself. But it happens. I didn't log it or calculate the calories, I just tried to focus on getting back on track, and recognizing the reasons why it happened means I can try to avoid that particular trifecta.
  • mazmataz
    mazmataz Posts: 333 Member
    edited September 2017
    JeepHair77 wrote: »
    Last Thursday. My husband took his mother to the grocery store Wednesday night, and came home with two packages of Oreos. They were 2/$5, he says, so of COURSE he bought two!

    Oreos are the one food that I cannot seem to moderate. I know this about myself, which is why I typically don't buy oreos at all. When we DO have them in the house, I ask my husband to hide them from me, but this time, I didn't.

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    Same. And they are always so bloody cheap (even here in New Zealand where 99.9% of groceries cost more than USA/Canada/UK). I did the exact same thing last Thursday. I have such a sweet tooth and if I have a real craving, I'll buy a 300cal chocolate bar and work it into my calories. Only this time I had a little glance around the store and saw that a full 16 cookie pack Oreos was 50c less than this tiny chocolate bar I was about to buy. And they were only 45 cals each - if I only have 2 or 3, then that's less money and less calories? Brilliant!

    Only I knew. Knew. That I was in complete denial. I put them in my desk drawer after lunch and had three. Then three more...and before the afternoon was out I has finished the whole packet :'( . And in addition to my other post on this thread, that was my other binge.

    Oreos and Nutella are my crack. Keep them away from me! >:)

  • celiah909
    celiah909 Posts: 141 Member
    Yesterday, half a thing of brownie ice cream. I don't know what triggered it and what stopped it was the ice cream running out. I felt like crap for the rest of the night.
  • quiksylver296
    quiksylver296 Posts: 28,136 Member
    To steal @AnnPT77 's phrase..."Not truly a binge (not completely out of control, just freely overeating)"

    I stayed home with a migraine last week and for some reason could not get enough carbs. Four toaster waffles with peanut butter and syrup, eight pieces of toast with butter, and a peanut butter and brown sugar sandwich, all before lunch. Didn't log it.
  • Last few days. Lots of M and M's and plain biscuits. Stupid *kitten* cramps and migraine. when i could eat chocolate is all i wanted. Feel like more crap than i did the other day.
    Am unimpressed that my cramps are worse and have been triggered by the change in diet.
    2 little packs of M and M's ..... i used to be a huge chocoholic so this is probably better than before, just very disheartening.
  • seltzermint555
    seltzermint555 Posts: 10,743 Member
    JeepHair77 wrote: »
    Last Thursday. My husband took his mother to the grocery store Wednesday night, and came home with two packages of Oreos. They were 2/$5, he says, so of COURSE he bought two!

    Oreos are the one food that I cannot seem to moderate. I know this about myself, which is why I typically don't buy oreos at all. When we DO have them in the house, I ask my husband to hide them from me, but this time, I didn't.

    My daughter and I each had a few oreos that night, no big deal, I was all proud of myself for my control.

    I was working from home on Thursday instead of going to the office, because of a weirdly-scheduled doctor's appointment. I had some leftovers for lunch, logged it, and got myself two oreos.

    Then, a little later, I got two more.

    Then, a little after that, I thought I'd just have ONE more.

    Lather, rinse, repeat. At some point, I realized that there were only a few left in the package, so I just gave up and ate them, too. Finished the entire package in less than 24 hours, save maybe 3 cookies that my daughter ate the night before.

    Combination of things- 1) the very PRESENCE of my trigger food, the oreo - I swear, if I know they're in the house, I become obsessed and they occupy my thoughts kind of constantly (I know how crazy that sounds); 2) change in routine. I don't mindlessly snack at the office, but when I'm working at home, I think I eat more, just because it's there and it's easy; and 3) being home alone. It's stupid, because my husband encourages me to eat more, most of the time, so it's not like I have to hide my eating from him. But when it comes to my sweet tooth, some sort of sneakiness finds its way out, and if I'm going to binge on sweets, I'm going to do it alone.

    That was a bad day, and I was so angry with myself. But it happens. I didn't log it or calculate the calories, I just tried to focus on getting back on track, and recognizing the reasons why it happened means I can try to avoid that particular trifecta.

    I get it!! When we have certain things in the house they consume my thoughts. I try not to buy larger packages of sweets, cookies, ice cream, etc, because even with some of the things I CAN moderate pretty well, I find they start to get in the way of healthier eating.

    For example, instead of a huge chickpea or tofu stir fry with tons of vegetables, rice, and 2 cookies, I will mess around and leave off the rice from my dinner, and eat fewer chickpeas or tofu, and instead I'll log and eat 7-8 cookies. Same calorie count. It's just not a good idea. There's an ongoing line in our house from the old Pink Floyd song, my husband will say "You can't have any pudding if you don't eat your meat" and actually that's even funnier because we don't eat meat period (at home).

  • Calliope610
    Calliope610 Posts: 3,797 Member
    I rarely "binge". However, at times, I do make a conscious decision to eat much more than I know I should and I am willing to abide by the consequences of that decision.
  • AMV91
    AMV91 Posts: 86 Member
    Today. I had my six weeks postpartum check up. I have lost a whopping 5 lbs of the 45 I gained with my son. (Totally my fault, I came off of restriction and ate everything for nine months, stupidly thinking I'd lose it all without effort like I did with my first.)

    I bought a pack of cookies at walmart and had 1300 calories of them. I could have ate the rest but stopped because this isn't helping, they don't taste good, my belly hurt and I just need to work hard and move on.
    I also hadn't ate yet today because of IF and I was later than normal from my appointments, its always easier to binge when hangry.
  • MegaMooseEsq
    MegaMooseEsq Posts: 3,119 Member
    edited September 2017
    Famof72015 wrote: »
    Now who weighs themselves the day or two after and see all the water weight gain and then get down on themselves? Me.. I do. How long does the water weight stay on?

    I weigh myself every day - the water weight comes and the water weight goes. It usually takes 1-3 days for me to drop a particular spike, but everyone's different, and since there are multiple things that can trigger water weight gain that might overlap, it's always going to be a bit of a guessing game. Patience is the key.
  • cmriverside
    cmriverside Posts: 32,267 Member
    Famof72015 wrote: »
    Now who weighs themselves the day or two after and see all the water weight gain and then get down on themselves? Me.. I do. How long does the water weight stay on?

    I weigh myself every day - the water weight comes and the water weight goes. It usually takes 1-3 days for me to drop a particular spike, but everyone's different, and since there are multiple things that can trigger water weight gain that might overlap, it's always going to be a bit of a guessing game. Patience is the key.

    Yeah, I figure after a binge is the most important time to weigh. It usually takes 1-3 days for me, too. But to be fair, I usually drop down to 200 under my maintenance for those 1-3 days. I've been at maintenance for years, so I'm pretty dialed-in.
  • AnnPT77
    AnnPT77 Posts: 24,759 Member
    Famof72015 wrote: »
    Now who weighs themselves the day or two after and see all the water weight gain and then get down on themselves? Me.. I do. How long does the water weight stay on?

    I weigh myself every day - the water weight comes and the water weight goes. It usually takes 1-3 days for me to drop a particular spike, but everyone's different, and since there are multiple things that can trigger water weight gain that might overlap, it's always going to be a bit of a guessing game. Patience is the key.

    Yeah, I figure after a binge is the most important time to weigh. It usually takes 1-3 days for me, too. But to be fair, I usually drop down to 200 under my maintenance for those 1-3 days. I've been at maintenance for years, so I'm pretty dialed-in.

    Oddly, it usually took 1-2 days for me while losing, now - in maintenance - 2-3.
  • kimothy38
    kimothy38 Posts: 840 Member
    I made grain free and sugar free granola - was absolutely divine until I burnt it. Strangely though I like the flavor of overcooked food so I ate it anyway. I ate waaaay too much, maybe 1-2 cups so. My tummy didn't like me much after that and I seriously paid for it. Serves me right. Won't do that again.
  • AnnPT77
    AnnPT77 Posts: 24,759 Member
    To steal @AnnPT77 's phrase..."Not truly a binge (not completely out of control, just freely overeating)"

    I stayed home with a migraine last week and for some reason could not get enough carbs. Four toaster waffles with peanut butter and syrup, eight pieces of toast with butter, and a peanut butter and brown sugar sandwich, all before lunch. Didn't log it.

    I've been trying to be better about logging indulge-y days. I did it like religion while losing (even overages), but I've gotten worse about that in maintenance. Part of it is that I've usually eaten some crazy-long list of small amounts of lots of things, some of which are hard to estimate (local bakery feta focaccia, for example), so it seems tedious. But it is useful to have the data for "was it worth it" assessment in the cold light of day: I'm analytic to a fault. ;)

    That's an impressive lot of bread, BTW - but then I'm not much a bread girl. :)
  • nowine4me
    nowine4me Posts: 3,986 Member
    edited September 2017
    It's so interesting to hear people's triggers. And helpful to know I'm not alone. Being tired or out of my routine are typically what set me off. Or sometimes, just a rainy day when I'm not able to get outside and walk.

    I'm trying lately to be super aware (or mindful) of triggers and to catch myself in the moment. The first thing I ask myself is "is eating more of this going to taste better, or make me feel better?" Sometimes it works and sometimes I keep eating it regardless. Sometimes I eat a pint of ice cream so I can get to it before my husband does. So in addition to being a binger, I'm also a little bit of a food hoarder.
  • macclone
    macclone Posts: 85 Member
    I had mac and cheese with bacon for dinner. Still stayed under my goal for the day.
  • ahoy_m8
    ahoy_m8 Posts: 2,825 Member
    Thanks for all the responses. Good definition, IMHO, whoever described binge criteria as alone, in secret and out of control. My binge tendencies have, over many years, become less frequent and less voluminous. But they still happen. I'm an emotional eater, so sadness or stress is my trigger. I can leave a package of Oreos untouched for months if I'm in a good place mentally. But I'll eat a chocolate Easter egg thats been sitting in the pantry >2 years when I get really sad and can't find any other chocolate. Yes, that happened.

    Also, over-restricting, especially following a binge, is a recipe for a future binge for me. I totally agree with the comment about a lack of sleep making it harder to stay on plan. It just makes me hungrier. My willpower is no match for increased ghrelin & decreased leptin. So I WILL overeat but not necessarily binge on too little sleep.

    Good awareness questions, nowine4me. Eating more never tastes better. It never solves the source of the sadness or stress. Being over-full to the point of pain never makes things better. But sometimes it does feel comforting to eat more.

  • CynthiasChoice
    CynthiasChoice Posts: 1,087 Member
    Last Monday. I visited my mom and she was stressing me out (long story and lots of reasons). I helped her get groceries because she was struggling with some health issues. We bought a packet of creme horn pastries to split. I ate one, with a plate & fork, like a civilized being...six to a pack, so we each had two more in a baggie. I'd already had a small brownie and a hamburger a few hours earlier, mind you. I was roughly at my calorie limit for the day even after the hamburger & brownie, and I definitely hadn't eaten as healthy as I'd like or as I do normally. I feel like having even one creme horn was just comfort/stress eating because she was doing my head in with her own issues and gripes.

    In the car driving home from her house, I ate another creme horn. Then I licked the creme filling out of the last one, breaking it in half to get all of the creme, and it didn't even honestly taste good but I just felt like I "had" to have all the sugar in that moment. As I was eating it, I thought about how stupid it was, and how out of character for me. I haven't done anything like that in ages. I'd also thought of throwing the two creme horns out the window (not the bag though, I wouldn't litter something like that just edible food).

    As a result, I felt sick to my stomach and humiliated as well. It wasn't worth it at all. Once in awhile, my husband and I will get a couple of donuts and coffee that is outside of our calories/macros but it's totally worth it to me and fun and not shameful at all. This was totally the opposite experience for me. I was in my car feeling like a rat pushing a button to get a pellet of food or something. The pastries were not even very good, and the filling just tasted like fluffy sugar with no real taste. I felt extra weird about it because a week earlier I'd noticed a packet of the same pastries in the supermarket and thought, "Man I could eat all six of those" and eating this stuff in my car, at night, secretly, was just not even behavior that I normally have ever had even during the many years when I was morbidly obese.

    I think we all have low moments and that was one of mine. I hope this doesn't sound lame because it's "not a true binge" (roughly 500-600 calories)...for me, it definitely was. I've been controlling my calorie intake for years and this was a fail for me. I'm moving past it though. I'm pretty sure if that happened again I'd pull over and just throw the two creme horns in a convenience store garbage can.

    Your story is painfully familiar to me. It almost sounds as though you were punishing yourself with the cream horns - even the first one. You must have been "swallowing" a lot of anger that day, and maybe feeling mad at yourself for not being able to re-direct your mother.

    There's no easy answer to dealing with these emotions, but you know for sure you don't want to attempt to deal with them with food again. Try to label the emotion(s) you were feeling when you decided to eat cream horn #1, #2 and #3. Then write a script for yourself that's short and easy to remember the next time a similar emotion triggers you to eat inappropriately. Both a negative and a positive statement help, like: "Eating this won't get me what I really want." and "I'm courageous and strong." Your own creations will be better than mine!

    For now, don't beat yourself up. Just see it as an opportunity for growth and success next time.

  • CynthiasChoice
    CynthiasChoice Posts: 1,087 Member
    My last binge happened before I gave up added sugar and flour last December. Before that, every day was a binge - I mean eating way too much every few hours. I remember one day eating slice after slice of cinnamon toast - so many I lost count. Once I changed my diet to eating mostly protein and veggies, my urge to binge subsided.

    When the urge does resurface, I combat it by eating rotisserie chicken, lol. I don't know why that works for me, but it does. I sometimes go over my calories with the chicken, but then it's over. I'm convinced that there's a biological component to my (previous) binging. Too much sugar/carbs in my system sets me up for repetitive out of control eating. My new way of eating helps me feel strong and in control. It's so peaceful!! And I really value that.
  • Graelwyn75
    Graelwyn75 Posts: 4,404 Member
    My last binge happened before I gave up added sugar and flour last December. Before that, every day was a binge - I mean eating way too much every few hours. I remember one day eating slice after slice of cinnamon toast - so many I lost count. Once I changed my diet to eating mostly protein and veggies, my urge to binge subsided.

    When the urge does resurface, I combat it by eating rotisserie chicken, lol. I don't know why that works for me, but it does. I sometimes go over my calories with the chicken, but then it's over. I'm convinced that there's a biological component to my (previous) binging. Too much sugar/carbs in my system sets me up for repetitive out of control eating. My new way of eating helps me feel strong and in control. It's so peaceful!! And I really value that.

    I have noticed the same thing for myself. If I have a day of inactivity and add in any amount of sugary, fatty foods, it seems to trigger this insane urge for more of the same as well as out of control hunger. I always found that I had to put in an intense workout after a binge in order to 'reset' everything, so to speak.