Women 200lb+, Let's Be Unafraid This August!!!

Renewed2021 wrote: »

If I'm gonna get serious about this, I need to remove temptations. Purging my cupboards today. Fortunately, there's not much to purge but there's enough to do some serious damage to my weight loss journey. I'm not ready for moderation yet, so I'll do without and allow myself small treats on occasion. This is my tipping point. If I can hold out and not restock my cupboards with junk, I know I can do this!

I find if I can get myself to go out and purchase an individual treat, I do much better than "a big package that I can preportion". If I do the preportioning, I just eat 2 - or 3 portions!! good job cleaning out temptation. i too have trouble with moderation!

@Renewed2021 I wish I could give you a big hug. I've been surprised here and there by emotions that I wasn't ready for, as I lost (28 of probably 100-130, so not even that far in my journey!) Something in me is very afraid of letting go of this fat shield. So I'm there with you, working to get out of hiding too.

I'm the same with moderation. I can eat a pint of ice cream, or I can leave it in the freezer (and fight it off day by day.) I cannot--so far--eat a serving of ice cream and put the rest back.

sargemarcori wrote: »

letting go of this fat shield

This morning, I had to walk the dog from the vet. Simple act, 1.8 miles, I was ready. Yet, all I could think of was, "I wish I was fatter so no one would proposition me, or honk at me, or look at me." That was totally real. But then I remembered, that random persons are not living me I am. Yeah, but it was there. Remember how comforting it was to be morbidly obese, completely invisible? Like I am only 80 down 70 to go. So I am halfway there, on a really slow journey. Imma take my time and learn so I can maintain. Honestly, I wasn't really invisible then. And I had the same amount of honks, propositions at my highest height. It is just when I was younger it was horrifying and terrifying. I am a bit shy, and I do not like to "stand out" at all. But I can't control stuff outside of me, I can barely control me - so I have to learn how to deal with my thoughts and all of the situations I find myself in. I know this. It is just random thoughts, was there ever a fat shield? What did it really shield me from? I don't really know. I thought it was there, I thought it was real...

Update:
SW: 216
8/8: 208
8/15: 208
August GW: 199

I found myself a bit frustrated this week when I weighed in and had not changed a bit. But then I remembered that two days before I recorded my 8/8 weight, I was at 210. Then I did a mid-week weigh in and I'm down again. So my CW is actually 205 and I've lost 11lbs overall. Which is at least going in the right direction.

For the last year I have started a diet and then lost about six pounds before I went back to old habits. I think my body was just expecting the same thing again so when I lost 8 pounds and hit 208, my weight loss stalled for a minute. I feel like it's kicked back into gear now which has made it easier to stick to my calorie and exercise goals.

I'm using a method called habit stacking to build healthy habits. This month I'm working on the following habits:
1. Drink 85oz of water daily - I'm pretty hit & miss on this one. I hit it about 50% of the time.
2. Stay within my calorie goal 5x/week - I'm holding strong to this habit and am tracking and hitting my calorie goal at least 5x/week. This has really allowed me to give myself grace and not feel so deprived.
3. Move intentionally every day - I'm learning that everyday is a vast difference from what I normally do and it's overwhelmed me quite a bit. So I'm showing myself grace here, too, and trying to stay active more than I'm not (at least 4/7 rolling days)
4. Weigh in once a week - I've been weighing in twice per week. I need to cut it back because I feel I am putting too much emphasis on that number and not enough on how I feel.

NSVs this month:

• Tight Jeans fit again! Yay!
• Can feel myself becoming more full with less food.
• Did a 3 mile hike last weekend when a month ago I could barely walk to the end of my street
• Sex drive is coming back finally!

@goal06082021 @sargemarcori @justanotherloser007

I resonate with so much of all you have shared, and I cannot explain the comfort in knowing that I am not alone in these thoughts and this struggle. I really thought I was.

I absolutely love the metaphor/illustration of the mountain and the valley. I'm starting to believe if I saw the whole journey I'd quit now. But the next step is visible and it doesn't look that hard....

Hi I’m 53 and 5’6”.
Original starting weight: 257.8 1/14/21

Aug Start Weight: 221.5 (7/31/21)
Aug Goal Weight: 217.5
Ultimate Goal Weight: 170

Aug 7: 221.8 (+0.3)
Aug 14: 220.8. (-1.0)
Aug 21: 219.4 (-1.4)
Aug 28:
Aug 31:

I’ve reached my first goal of 220 lbs!!! I’m shocked as I didn’t have the best week diet or exercise wise this week. I gave up on my monthly squat challenge halfway through as my left knee started hurting after doing them. I’m sure my form was off but I didn’t want to push it. My knee feels fine now. I had a scary follow up doctor appointment for my eye yesterday and got all good news. I feel so relieved.

@Renewed2021 I could really identify with a lot you’ve said. I’d suffered with feelings of not being good enough for most of my life. And it was all related to men. From my dad and ex-husband leaving for other women to various boyfriends over the years. And I had a lot of therapy. I gave up on men 7 years ago. I’m sure that’s part of the reason I gained weight. And when I gained weight I magically became invisible to men. Voila! Now I’m losing the weight for me and my health. And I’m the happiest I’ve been in years.

5'3 48 (2013 HW 277)
Aug 1: 203.6 - goal for month 199 - Onederland
Aug 8: 201
Aug 16: 200.8
Aug 21: 196

Even with water fluctuations I can safely speculate that I have goal, and am actually in onederland.

So my goal is always to maintain, and if I lose that is very good. On the 1200 cal a day except for Sundays which are 1445 (maintenance calories at 130 lb goal weight) seems to be working perfectly.

Joining a gym today, a weird gym, but whatever - the hubby seems to think it is a good fit for our needs.

Physical Therapy is flash bang awesome!! Where has this been all my life, I was able to fall asleep without muscle relaxers before I went to bed!!! I haven't done that since 2016 when my pain almost caused a heart attack and freaked out my Dr. so much he has had me on blood pressure meds ever since. So maybe, if the pain is starting to get managed - I can re-look at the need for BP meds eventually. That is a nice thought.

NSV I can wear a size 18 pair of jeans - which is officially 10 sizes down from size 28. I don't know why I have them - probably on sale and they didn't have any bigger size?? In my best dreams I couldn't have been anywhere near size 18.

Ya'll are doing awesome! The food recipes are nice, the plans are good. We can do this ladies! It seems like men aren't really here..

Weigh-in day!

Age: 30
Height: 5'3"
SW: 252.8 (11/13/2020)
CW: 216.4 (7/31/2021)
8/6: 216.4 or 215.8
8/14: 215.2
8/21: 214
8/28:
GW for August: 210
GW for 2021: 196
UGW: 144 by end of 2022

Okay, I'll take it! I really was not expecting to see a loss this week - I've gone over budget more days than I care to admit (although not by much - I was obviously still in a deficit), and I'm halfway through a course of antibiotics that tend to cause water retention. I don't think I'll hit 210 by next week, but maybe I will actually hit the -40lbs mark and maybe I can buy myself that cute dress this month after all! LMAO.

I've also been stressed about my younger cat this week; we took him in to the vet last month for some scratches on his nose that weren't healing, and that's now turned into 3 rounds of bloodwork and a sudden reluctance on his part to eat his food, which is a HUGE departure from his usual personality (he'll damn near take a finger off if you're too slow giving him treats). His nose is just about back to normal, just one little patch left where the fur is growing back in, but the bloodwork has come back with elevated calcium levels which could be stress or could be parathyroid-related. They're doing a full CBC workup, but the lab will take 7-10 days to get back to us, which might be closer to 2 weeks given the holiday weekend coming up. The loss of appetite is new, and I think it's emotional; I think he's decided he doesn't like being shut in the other room alone to eat, which we have to do to keep the older cat from eating his wet food, so now I or my husband have to sit with him in the other room for awhile until he decides he's hungry. Last night he laid in my lap for about half an hour before going to eat a few bites, then came back for another good long snuggle before going to eat the rest.

I'm loving all the good updates this weekend, and I'm also glad that so many of us here can understand each other's struggles. It's not a club any of us necessarily wanted to be part of, probably, but I for one am glad to be in it with y'all. This is such a great, supportive group and I'm so glad to have found it.

Keri
68 years old, Height: 5'6"

SW: 266 lbs (Dec 2019)
2/1/2020: 263.6
August SW: 255.2 (I was at 254.2 yesterday which I haven’t seen since February)
Current weight: 252.4

Month weight goal: 250
Goal for the end of the year: Get under 230

Goals for this month:
• Get a good night sleep. Mostly
• Keep drinking 8+ glasses of water. Needs work lately
• Log my food/ daily. No
• Evaluate progress and post on this thread weekly. Yes
• Find a healthier after dinner dessert. (last year I improved my breakfasts and this is my last issue to an otherwise very healthy diet)
• Plan meals at home. Yes
• Make progress with weight loss. yes

Not only did I make progress losing today but I was able to update my MFP Check in weight as well. I lost relative to my last lowest weight on here. Now I want to get to my low of last year on my old scale that weighed me lower than my current scale. That will put me in the low 240s and a lower obese class.

My surgery was postponed by a week. I had more tests and need the results. The tests were pretty painful and I am still recovering from that.

I struck out a goal because there is just too much on my plate now. We are having our deck repaired, reinforced and a portion replaced and expanded. My mother has been in the hospital and is now in a skilled care center to transition back home to her retirement community. I am still working full-time. What is helping is that I planned meals, ordered groceries anticipating my surgery. Now I have to redo since my surgery has been postponed. I need to work on drinking more water which I was doing earlier but not this past week. I also need to log my food. I want to get back to my walks which I couldn’t do with recovering.

Since my surgery is at the end of the month I will probably only do 1 more post next weekend. I will go now and read all of your posts this week.