Just Give Me 10 Days - Round 226

Round 2 for me - thanks for running this. Doing short stints is a great idea.

Starting weight today: 208.6 pounds - down from 210.4 at the beginning of the last round.
Goal weight: 165ish

SW Round 226
6/11 - 208.6 - Same as yesterday.

6/12 - 208.8 - Little oops
6/13 - 208.9 - Wrong way again!
6/14 - 208.7 - Right way today!
6/15 - 209.1 - One of those weeks
6/16 - 208 - Yay, finally!
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Christine from Burlington, Ontario, Canada 😊
My 15th Round
Age: 53
Height: 5’3.75”
HW: 345 lbs (Aug 2005)
LW: 138.6 (Apr 2023)
CW: 144.6 lbs
GW: 135 lbs
Long-term Goal: <145.6 lbs until June 5, 2024 (Normal BMI)

This round's daily goals:

1. <1300 + 50% exercise cals 10/10 days – ☹☹😊😊😊
2. >7 miles of steps 10/10 days – 😊☹😊😊☹
3. 6 cups fluids 10/10 days – 😊😊😊😊😊
4. 10 mins meditation 10/10 days – ☹☹☹☹☹
5. 20 mins strength training 5/10 days –
6. 20 mins bike ride 5/10 days –
7. Attend work 7/7 days – 😊😊😊😊
8. Stay under 145.6 lbs 10/10 days - 😊😊😊😊😊😊

6/11 – DNW – Forgot to weigh myself; and I’m sure my weight would probably be up, but that would make me feel worse than I already do. I haven’t felt well these past few days or weeks.
6/12 – 144.6 lbs – I guess I’ll use this as my starting weight for this round. Down -- lbs this round and 9.6 lbs to goal. I started my period today. I really struggled with my mental health all weekend (IE, I had to call a suicide help line on Saturday morning and yesterday I told my husband that I was sick of him and I wish he would move out). I really think I need to talk to my doctor about this. Or a psychiatrist. I am crazy enough without hormonal issues. ☹ I am wondering if I could go on birth control to help deal with this? Does anyone on here have any experience with mental health issues + peri-menopause?
6/13 – 144.2 lbs - Down 0.2 lbs this round and 9.4 lbs to goal.
6/14 – 141.8 lbs - Down 2.8 lbs this round and 6.8 lbs to goal; 105.07/210 miles for June.
6/15 – 140.4 lbs - Down 4.2 lbs this round and 5.4 lbs to goal; 115.35/210 miles for June. I started Vyvanse and Cipralex today.
6/16 – 139.8 lbs - Down 4.8 lbs this round and 4.8 lbs to goal; 115.44/210 miles for June. Well, my period came and went. For the last few days I have NOT been starving, I have NOT been irritable and I’ve been able to access the logical part of my brain. I have been able to make some kind of repair to my relationship with my partner, and I have been able to attend work every day (although I have not been able to focus for some of that time). I went ahead and called the psychiatrist and was able to have a call with him on Weds aft. He suggested Vyvanse for the binge eating, which I started yesterday. (It did not help me to focus yesterday, but it was only day one, so…) I also started Cipralex, as he said that it is sometimes used to help with mood swings in menopause. He also said that Cipralex in adjunct with Welbutrin (which I already take) is used to assist with major depressive episodes, which I may or may not be experiencing. So, I will give these a try. He also prescribed a few tabs of Clonazapam, to be used only in case of emergency, as it is habit forming, and I have struggled with substance use in the past. I wasn’t supposed to start both drugs on the same day, but I am not very compliant. Lol. Whoopsie. I am very happy to be under 140 again. I got under 140 in April, but did not maintain that for very long. I know I have my goal set at 135 at the moment, but I am currently thinking that if I could stay under 140, and maintain that, it might actually be a weight that I’d be happy with. (IE, 139.8 or lower.) That idea of being satisfied with a particular weight is very strange to me. I have never experienced it, in my entire life. Ever. I have always looked at the scale and wished the number was lower. Every single time. As I’ve been losing weight, more recently, and struggled to set a goal weight, I have been fearful that there will never be a weight that I will be happy with. Like, what if my head is so messed up that I can’t ever be happy with the number on the scale, the clothing size, or how I look in the mirror? The last time I went shopping, my pants were size 2-4 and my shirts were size small. And all those clothes still fit; and some are even loose. And yet, when I look in the mirror, I still see a fat person. I try to connect the fact that if I am wearing those sizes (even if those are “vanity” sizes, although they were purchased across a variety of stores) I cannot still be “fat”. But I still look fat. I saw some pics of me a few weeks ago and I just… still look fat, to myself. (Mind you my weight was up to 149.4, at that point.) I looked at myself in the mirror this morning, and I actually was somewhat satisfied with what I saw. I mean, I have to grab a handful of saggy skin and pull it to the side while I look in the mirror, LOL, but it is what it is. Not much I can do about that until I save up about $20-30k. Anyway, the thing I am getting at is that maybe there is a weight that I can be happy with. Maybe that is a possibility. And I know a lot of it is dependent on my mood for that day (IE, when I am depressed I can look in the mirror and I see a 350 lbs person), so I know it will shift from day to day, or even hour to hour. But I do know that when I tried on the size 2 jeans, I was very pleased with the size and also satisfied with how I looked in the mirror. And today I felt satisfied with my “side view”. (Looking in the mirror too much is an eating disorder behaviour, btw.) Anyway, this is all very complicated but I am slowly teasing it out, I think. I feel hopeful, today, thus far. But it is very early. LOL. I am also happy with the fact that I have been able to drink 6 cups of fluids every day for the past few days (I count all fluids that go into my face). That is quite good, for me. I have to be very intentional to get even that amount in, which I know is a lot less than lots of folks on here drink! And I am glad that I set myself a goal of trying to achieve 210 miles in the month of June. I should say that that is a total of all of my steps, so, that includes all my “walking around the house” steps. It is about 15,000 steps a day, which equals about 7 miles a day, according to my Fitbit. But I set a goal of trying to hit 7 miles a day of steps, and so far, I am on track to hit that goal. I think I should start taking note of my sleep, as well – Weds night I only got 4.75 hours of sleep, and yesterday I was not able to focus for even one minute of work. Last night I slept very well, and got 7 straight hours, which is amazing, for me. Like, incredible, and unheard of. And I feel great, mentally, at the moment. I think that sleep impacts my mental health significantly, and I should probably track it, in some way. (It also impacts my ability to stay on track with calorie goals, which in turn also impacts my mental health.) I made an appt with GP for Tuesday after work. I’m going to ask about the idea of birth control as way of getting a handle on my periods. So that might help, too. Anyway, I better get ready to take the dog out, he is going to start whining at any moment. 😊 Have a great day, everyone!
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F42, 5'4
Heaviest: 180.8 (5th July '21)
RGW: 141.0lbs
UGW: 140lbs (trend)
UUGW: 122.4lbs

Past Rounds R220 SW:150.2 GW:149.2 EW:148.4 (-1.8)
R221 SW:149.0 GW:148.0 EW:146.8 (-2.2)
R222 SW:147.2 GW:146.2 EW:145.6 (-1.6)
R223 SW:146.2 GW:144.6 EW:145.0 (-1.2)
R224 SW:146.8 GW:145.0 EW:146.2 (-0.6)
R225 SW:145.6 GW:144.6 EW:141.4 (-4.2)
R226 SW:142.6 GW:141.0 EW:

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6/9 142.6 (trend 144.7)
6/10 141.4 (trend 144.3)
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6/11 142.6 (trend 144.0) I'm going on holiday at the start of the next round and I really want to give it everything I've got for the next 10 days so I can feel most confident in my summer clothes and beachwear, and also to give me a bit of a buffer against expected holiday gain. However, yesterday wasn't my greatest effort, as I didn't track carefully with our barbecue that we had, and I had several alcoholic drinks. Feeling a bit stiff and tired this morning, I need to fight the urge to be lazy today.
Yesterday was 4.6 mile morning walk, 1hr lower body at the gym, calories estimated, alcohol.
STEPS 15,417

6/12 143.2 (trend 143.9) Yikes, this was not the plan! OH made amazing baba ganoush and chicken kebabs with flatbreads and I ate far too much after barely eating all day. It wasn't until I checked his recipe for the dip that I realised how much fat was in it so I probably shouldn't have eaten half a bowl full, oops. I'm feeling very bloated this morning so I think this gain is partly food in transit, but also I think the hot, humid weather we are having is causing me to retain water as my joints are very stiff.
Yesterday was 4.6 mile morning walk, rest day from the gym, calories estimated and over, alcohol 1 drink.
STEPS 13,664

6/13 141.4 (trend 143.6) Phew, back down. I got out for my walk at 7am because the day was due to be a scorcher and it was glorious! It had rained the night before so everything was lush and fresh, very energising. We had thunder storms and heavy rain again in the late afternoon which caused some temporary flooding at my mum's house and she called me in a panic, asking me to come and lift paving slabs in the rain to let the water drain, but the water was gone by the time we finished the conversation, still feeling guilty that I didn't rush to her rescue though. It's her 79th birthday next week and I worry so much about her living on her own as she's becoming quite thin and frail but still insists on trying to do too much herself and she's been fainting recently and hurting herself. I'm going to be out of the country for 9 days starting next week and I just found out that my brother will also be away in India so mum will be on her own and we have more rain due. I hope she doesn't do anything silly and get into difficulties.
Yesterday was 4.85 mile morning walk, 1hr upper body at the gym, calories good, alcohol free.
STEPS 14,759

6/14 141.4 (trend 143.3) No morning walk yesterday as I had a dentist appointment then went shopping. Back home I started to feel really unwell, headache and body aches, so I laid down for the rest of the day and went to bed around 8pm. Feeling slightly better today but not sure if I should take another day off and rest.
Yesterday was no walk or gym, calories good, alcohol free.
STEPS 4,173

6/15 142.0 (trend 143.1) I fell off the wagon a bit yesterday and had a few drinks at the pub followed by snacking at home. Totm is due and it's making me lethargic and moody, as well as bloated and weak, such fun. I'm skipping my walk today but will go to the gym as I've been slacking a bit in that area. I'm sooo hungry today, it's going to take some grit to not eat everything in sight.
Yesterday was 4.45 mile morning walk, no gym, calories not tracked, alcohol.
STEPS 13,902

6/16 143.2 (trend 143.1) I had a slow morning, dragged myself to the gym, then cleaned all the floors in the house. I was pretty exhausted, so didn't manage much else. I had a big appetite but managed to stay within calories by eating lots of salad and protein. I'm trying not to stress over the gain, it might be a delayed result of drinking the day before yesterday, causing water retention, or due to totm being a bit late.
Yesterday was no morning walk, 1hr lower body at the gym, calories good, alcohol free.
STEPS 4,763

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STEP total: 66,678/100,000 round goal

6/11 134
6/12 132.4
6/13 132
6/14 129.8
6/15 129.8
6/16 129.2
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Previous Rounds
218 SW 232.4 EW 231lbs (-1.4)
Round 219 EW 229lbs (-2)

Round 220 220.2lbs (-8.8) (Extended fast)
Round 221 220.6 (+0.6) (normal after an extended fast)
Round 222 216.3 (-4.3)
Round 223 215.4 (-0.9)
Round 224 218.4 (+3) (very busy at work)
Round 225 217.6 (-0.8)


6/11 217 My weight has still not recovered from the Chinese buffet on Friday. Hopefully tomorrow. I am very proud of myself today. I found out some life altering news (who I thought was my bio father is not! My life is right out of a soap opera!). My son wanted to get me food as comfort, I said no. Life tip: do not do DNA tests if you don’t want to find out crazy things.
6/12 216 Almost recovered from the Chinese buffet on Friday. I am hoping for a whoosh today. I am still dealing with big info I learned yesterday. I did not buy wine & I did not eat my feelings. I chatted with my new biological half siblings. Fortunately for my mental health, the person who I thought was my father had no part of my identity. We were not close & he died 10 years ago. The new bio half siblings live quite far away so no pressure. It is still weird, emotionally draining & crazy. I feel for my mother since she married the other guy because she was pregnant. That was a life changing decision that made her life difficult. I know she is mad at her 20 year old self.
6/13 217.2. I ate Kraft dinner yesterday. Felt the need for carbs instead of protein & veggies. I will do better today as I know it helps anxiety. I do not want to get depressed & I do not want to feel sad. I am not even sure what I should feel. I need to remember that the right food can heal. I do feel a ton of guilt since my mom is over the top sad about my paternity. I feel responsible. Oh well, life can’t always be simple.
6/14 215.2. If we are keeping track it took 4 days to get back to my pre Chinese buffet weight. I am actually surprised because I ate pizza yesterday. Yesterday was the last day of allowed wallowing. So I wallowed, I didn’t eat veggies or keto. Back to the program today even though I don’t feel better. Lots to navigate as we tell my birth father & the rest of my family. From what I have read it is the secrets that cause depression & anxiety so I will get that over with as quickly as possible.
6/15 213.8 Look at that. I am going through the biggest trauma/identity crisis of my life and I am not eating or drinking to feel better. I think I really will be successful reaching my goal. Still prepping mentally for an extended summer solstice fast hopefully for the entire next round

6/16 213 I am still losing & not sure why. I have been pretty sedentary, and ate some banana bread baked by a customer. I have been sleeping more so maybe that is the key. Today I will take the dog for a walk, go to yoga & clean up my diet & do the meal prep that I normally would have done Sunday. I still feel like I am walking through mud but every one that needs to be told about my DNA has been told. Now the healing can begin.

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Female, 5ft. 6 in.
Age 59
Akron, Ohio

OSW: 186 (March 2018)
Maintenance: 140-145 (December 2018)
My 187th Round!




SW: 153.8

Date/weight/comment

6/11 - DNW
6/12 - DNW
6/13 - DNW
6/14 - DNW
6/15 - 154.3 - This is what happens when I don't weigh myself every day. I need to get back on track.
6/16 - 154.7 - I'm going to have to track really close this weekend.
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I WANT TO PLAY!

ME= 71 YEARS YOUNG CAN'T SEEM TO FOCUS ON WEIGHT LOSS!
5' 6.75"
GW = 150


❤🌞🌼🤩🌻🌷☮🙏😁


SW Round 226
6/11 164.2 10833 STEPS
6/12 163.6 10648 STEPS
6/13 162.8 I'M ON A ROLL 😁 STEPS 10481- OVER ATE 🐷🐷🐷
6/14 163.2 STEPS 11830
6/15 162.2 🤩 STEPS 12483
6/16 162.8 😕 GAIN ONLY ATE 1040 CALS. YESTERDAY , I WANT A COCKTAIL!!!!
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Round 226
June 11 – June 20, 2023

61 year old female, 5’5”. I am married, semi-nomadic (we live in three states, Mass, Maine, Florida).

SW WW Sept 29, 2001 - 168.8 (initially lost 29.8, became staff, then weight up and down 18 years with low of 126.8)
SW MFP Sept 14, 2020 – 153 (lost 40, then stress took off another 2.2 lb with low of 120.8, then stress became gain)
SW current MFP Jan 1, 2023 – 146.6
CW 125.8
GW Maintaining between 124 - 126

Continuing to figure out maintaining, and to work on best nutrition and exercise.

History:
Exercise & Supplements
SW: 124.2

Day/Weight/Comment

6/11 (Maine) – 124.8 Certainly not figuring out cause and effect, but maybe that is the point of maintaining in a “range”. When I hit 123.2 last week, I had no idea why, then in reverse, I have no idea why this morning had an “up” after yesterday’s logical “up”. Just keep watching…….

6/12 (Maine) – 125.0 Odd numbers continue. No reason for an “up”. Just tells us that while we can watch day to day numbers, it is the number over time that matters.

Yesterday, tried a new way of sharing one car while in Maine. Hubby took it early in the morning to head out fishing. When I wanted to us it, I walked the 4 miles to the marina for it. Worked well, other than walking with wallet and such as I was running errands directly from there.

6/13 (Maine) – 124.6 Logical? Did not pre-track my entertaining. Ate more than I should. Tried to estimate afterwards which put me in at over 2000 cal. No exercise. Number goes down.

Today is cleanup, pack. Then we are going to a movie in a theater!! Fun! Then, load car and drive home, and unpack again. Back to Mass.

6/14 (Mass) – 124.6 While I do seem to have more bad choices creeping in, I will say that I am still tracking as accurately as possible. That alone is a solid improvement. Sometimes that “bad” is not as bad as one imagined. Knowing that can be enough to stop the pattern. For example, 6/13, we were entertaining and I did not pre-track. The whipped ricotta and homemade crostini’s were too too good. I ate some with the guests, and then more after they left. Had not tracked and decided to skip the tracking for once. Later than evening, I decided to reconstruct and track, and am pretty sure that I came close to accurate. Yes, it was over 2000 cal FOR THE DAY. Then subtract an estimate of my no exercise daily burn. Ultimately, I was over, but by several hundred calories. Even if it was 500 calories, I would have to repeat this same bad behavior 7 more times to gain one real pound. So the key is to not get into a tailspin and turn that into my daily behavior again. While I value my body weight scale, IMO tracking tells me more than anything else.

Yes, I am now home and pre-tracked my day.

6/15 (Mass) – 125.2 Oops, almost forgot to post. It’s now 8:15 PM Tracking was good yesterday. It was day 3 with no exercise. Yuck! Today almost became day 4, but I got out for a fast evening walk.

6/16 (Mass) – 124.0 (Renpho 123.6) First time the two scales have differed by more than .2, and both were stubborn about staying. Today is a home day. My custom closet got installed yesterday. A big splurge for us and now I have no excuse for not keeping my stuff organized. :P Today, going to start putting things in. Going to go slow and nothing goes back in unless tried on, and will get worn.

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