Reboot boogaloo October - Open group

Mornin' all.

I'm not ready for this day. I had to sleep on the couch again last night. Mucinex is not phasing it. So to the minute clinic I go this morning, either before or after horse therapy. Not sure what will work out. Just praying for good kids and an easy day. Irina is already up this morning. Ugh. I need to smile at her and be happy but I just don't feel like it. Don't feel like talking either. :sick:
Goals today: stay calm, keep kids busy, get better, and try to get some rest. With some infections I don't feel as tired, which is weird because I'm not sleeping well and I'm sure my body is tired.

Going to the doctor boogaloo.

Good morning.
Your new goal sounds like a good one Mary. I have definitely had less time for the computer lately.

V, I need to have some sort of plan that includes fun too. My best friend left so she's not here to hang out with. I don't know when I will get to see her again. Another friend was in a car accident and hurt her back so she can't really get out much either. :frown: So I need to find some more ways to have fun.

I am still pretty sick. I did manage to get some deep, yet broken up sleep, due to storms, but it was at least more decent sleep than I had been getting. This morning came too early. Irina was up by seven. DH didn't tell her to go back to bed, and I was sleeping on the couch. So one of my goals is to train her that it's not time to get up until 7:30. Maybe that's mean but that half hour is usually my quiet time/Bible time. I trained Alex. I can train her. It's for my sanity.
My goals for today: eat better and less, log my food (this will take some discipline!), rearrange furniture in the living room so I can use the treadmill again, and get a walk in. It's going to be pretty wet outside with all the rain we got over night and will get this morning, so I'm not sure if we will be getting out. I don't really feel like it anyway, but I haven't gotten good at this "keeping two children busy on a rainy day yet."
Irina seems to be adjusting a bit. Taking her out is awful and I dread it. However, she's doing better at home. She gets destructive when she's bored or thinks she isn't getting enough attention from me. I sat down to play Candy Land with them yesterday and the cards were missing. I went through all the games looking for them and then went to her hoarding drawers in her room and found them and other games pieces. Oi. Needless to say after dragging out all the games they were no longer interested in Candy Land. I am moving all the games that have small pieces to a closet. :laugh:
Whenever I am making a meal or getting a snack, she stands in the kitchen like a stray dog begging for scraps. She "pets" my arms and back saying "Mama" over and over, buttering me up for food. What did they do to her in the orphanage that she would feel the need to beg for food? She constantly asks who the food is for, even after I tell her. She HAS to know some of it is for her. Honestly it drives me nuts but I feel bad that she feels that way about food. Right now, food is how I can get her attention, whether for good or for bad. I hate that. I don't want food to be a source of comfort for her. But right now it's what she desires.
Speaking of food I'd better get their breakfast and figure out what I want. I have a horse pill to take too. It's about the thicknes of my pinky finger. :ohwell:
Starting to get settled (all of us) boogaloo.

Thanks Mary, I may have to try that with Irina. Now that I think about it, I think I did that with Alex when he was younger. I'd play with him for a bit and then he was content to play on his own for awhile.

I must be feeling better. I was able to sleep in bed and I didn't cough all night! I thought I would be because I was coughing a lot before I laid down. So I got some fairly decent sleep last night! Doesn't mean I wanted to get out of bed this morning. I know I have a sleep deficit. I kept telling myself I needed to get up and work out but I just couldn't get up right away. Instead I had my quiet time and hopefully over nap time I will get my work out done. I'm sure as I start feeling better I will be able to get up at 6:15 and work out.
I did not log my food yesterday. Just didn't have time. I think I'm really going to have to focus on what I am putting in my mouth more than what I am logging on the computer. I didn't eat as much yesterday, though I'm sure I ate too much still. I will be more aware of what I put it my mouth today.
Goals: I need new goals. I don't stick with the old ones. New goal: think about the food I am putting in my mouth. I was going to make peach muffins for breakfast. Are they good for me? They have fruit in them, but they also contain flour and sugar. Hmmm. I need to start thinking about those things. I also need to work on a grocery list today. It's hard to budget a fourth person into it. She does eat a lot. I really think it comes down to not knowing how to shop and save money. So lots of things to think about and adjust.

New goals boogaloo.

CP, sorry you aren't getting sleep. :frown: That's so frustrating and takes away so much of our day. I hope you are able to find rest sleep soon!

I am doing a little better. I did get some sleep last night. It's been so nice not coughing all night. Still have a ways to go but definitely feeling better. After feeling really gross all day from the antibiotic, I decided to cut it in half. It's still nearly the dose I took last time, so I don't feel too bad about it.
I did about 20 minutes of plyometrics yesterday. I'm a little sore today. I have big goals for exercise today but I don't know if I will get them done. I need to go out and pull weeds in the flower beds and then I want to do the next P90x disc. Doesn't sound like big goals but it will be the most exercise I've gotten in...I don't know. A couple of months? I was talking to Steve about mowing the lawn and weed eating. He said he guesses he will have to do it because that could be what made me sick. It isn't great for him either. He said he'd wear a dust mask. :ohwell: We're gonna have to hire someone next year. And we will do school today. Second week almost down! :happy:
I also have yet to let Becky know the front door won't always unlock. With our history I'm not exactly excited to email her.

I have a question for you ladies. I know you don't have little kids running around you all the time but I need to hear if I am being unreasonable. Steve was irritated with me this morning because I didn't want the kids in the kitchen while I was getting breakfast. I don't want them in there for safety reasons but also because I don't like kids under my feet. I've been working with Alex for five years not to be in the kitchen while I'm working. Steve's just now getting irritated because I'm telling Irina to leave the kitchen. I guess he thinks it's cute that she's pawing me and constantly asking who's food is who's. I'm sorry but it's annoying to me. I even tell Steve to get out of the kitchen. :laugh: I just don't want other people in there. I want to get the cooking and cleaning done as fast as I can because I don't like doing it. So am I mean to want them out while I am trying to cook and clean? I mean, I don't even want to be in the kitchen. I was thinking about making cookies tomorrow because we have company coming Sunday and I was going to let the kids help. That's big for me. Last time I did that I forgot to put the flour in. :embarassed:

Give me some space boogaloo.

V, hope your kitty is okay now and the bill you get isn't as bad as you think it could be!

Mary, isn't the weather great?! Too bad there's no rain for you but at least the cooler temps help a little.

SJ, I binged a lot over the past week. It was all for comfort. I like what V said though. What feeling were you looking for? I need to ask myself that. I wanted chocolate last night, made some homemade concoction that I used to like, I ate most of it and realized, "You know, this just isn't what I am craving." I threw the rest out. I wish I had stopped earlier but at least I stopped. We all give in some times. We all have to start over. It's a process of changing our thinking, not beating ourselves up every time we mess up for a day...or a week...or a month. Wake up the next morning with a new start. Or better yet, start new right after your mess up. :flowerforyou:

I have been busy all morning. I made everyone breakfast, and felt like a heel because Alex asked for cinnamon toast and I forgot and made him oatmeal. He was mad but he ate it anyway. Went to the store. I really hate shopping on Saturdays but it was kind of nice to get out by myself. Came home and found out Irina had tried to color in Alex's school books, write in my Bible devotionals, and just generally make a mess. Oi. Made lunch, did dishes, swept, mopped. I still have a good couple of hours of work to do on the house before we have company tomorrow. I didn't do a whole lot when I was sick. It's really hard to catch up now. The kids keep me a lot busier.
I'm still really sore from plyometrics the day before yesterday, and from pulling weeds for about three hours yesterday. Oh and I cleaned/scrubbed the front porch too.(It was bugging me that it has been dirty since we moved in.) Most of it's a burn in my thighs. But it's a good pain because I worked out finally. I was going to do P90X again today but all the cleaning I have to do should be enough. Right now, I am resting and doing something fun and relaxing.
Finding time to chill boogaloo.