Reboot boogaloo November - Open group

Short post.
Happy November! I have not had the best start to my day but it's looking up. The diet pancakes have been a flop so far. I got stuff for breakfast bars today do that will help. Went to horse therapy and now we are at the bounce house. We are the only ones here. We may have to do this like once a month. I think
I might join them soon. if you want to go play in a bounce house I'll let you take my kids for a couple of hours. Adults get in free! Its a pretty good work out too. Goals for the rest of the day? Make good meals and clean up the house. Not sure a formal work out is going to happen.
Typing on the phone boogaloo!

Good job SJ! Sounds like you've got a good goal set for November!

Yesterday wasn't a horrible day until last night. Seems I can't do anything without making everyone mad at me any more. I give up. I had planned to get up this morning and work out but I did not sleep well at all, and therefore overslept. I feel worn out so today may be another day off, licking my wounds.
I did get some "sweets" made yesterday that did not involve sugar and it tastes really good! Here's the link:
http://www.nourishingmeals.com/2010/01/cinnamon-sunflower-truffles.html
I also got breakfast for this morning made yesterday afternoon. I was suppose to leave it in the freezer for 30 minutes. I remembered at 2:30 this morning that I left it in the freezer. :ohwell: Hopefully it still tastes okay. I don't need to bomb another breakfast.
Goals today: school, some more cleaning, take the kids to the park if it's not too windy (cold front coming through tomorrow), and keeping my inside voice all day. I've been working on not yelling at a certain child. Not sure if I will go to church tonight as tired as I am feeling.
Another day off boogaloo.

Happy Wednesday, pebbles,

Day off today (although I do aim to get some walking in) because I'm not allowed to get sweaty or stretchy for the next week or so) I am in love with my new ornamentation, strangely it sort of seems like its always been there. Until I touch it with lotion and it is all stingy.

So walking, therapy, eating real food, having some of my phd support group over for a midweek decompress, and that's all for today. I think I'll check out that recipe, MM. Most of my successful stuff involves almond flour and eggs, which I'm pretty sure aren't allowed. I will try to look through my book and see if I have any tested things that might work. I remember the elimination diet as a very cranky time for me. Sorry.

Great job on the walking, SJ. I'm hoping for less grey days in November and more dry weather. I want to get out and walk more, too. I need a lot more meandering in my life. I know you like a destination, but fit now I thrive without one.

Meander, boogaloo. :flowerforyou:

Mary, I went down the slide once with the kiddos. Jeans with buttons on the back pockets will slow a person down and give wedgies. So I did not go again. :laugh:
V, I have not taken out almonds or flour. Eggs are a no no though, which makes a huge difference. :frown: At least I am on day four. Yes, I have been cranky and feeling emotional and depressed. I hope that's all diet related. Maybe it will clear out soon. I haven't really seen a change in our daughter either. :frown: It was day four with Alex that I noticed a change last time so I will keep hoping. And I read that sometimes it can take two weeks. I can't do it for two weeks though. If it wasn't for birthdays and holidays then I would.
So I woke up a little cranky. It's been happening a lot. I just don't want to face the day right away. I'm getting tired of being a five year old's punching bag. I wish I could say it's getting better. She has improved in some ways, but not really in the hitting and scratching area. She's not quite as ADHD now as she was even back in April. So yay?
On the bright side, it's not 100* out.
Goals today: limit the truffle intake (I think I had 5 or 6 yesterday. They are small but still.), school, typical cleaning, start working on menu plan for next week, get ideas going for Alex's traffic light cake, and get a work out in. I think that's enough. Oh and remain calm. I did a little better yesterday until last night.
Must. Remain. Calm. Boogaloo.

MM, I always go through withdrawal when I quit flour and sugar. I read a study once that said that both of those can effect our brains the same way as heroin! So, that piled on all your other stress is sure to leave anybody weepy. I think that was a really good idea of Steve's to explain the procedure to Irina. Sounds like a great tactic to keep doing. Keep on griping, you have very right to your reasonable frustrations. I think you're a warrior woman!

Today is some errands up at campus (really don't want to, but I downloaded some new music as a treat). That's probably all, but I might try to walk home from the subway, as it looks beauty outside. My arm has reached the crusty/gross stage, which is actually good, because that means that soon I'll be healed and can play my harp and exercise again. Those things are both stress reduction, and I miss them. The mystery cold seems to be gone today. A frind suggested that it was my immune system saying "hey, what's with this big wound you put on your arm?" so maybe that's it.

Errands in the sunshine, boogaloo. :flowerforyou:

Yay V! So excited for you! That's great news!

I also got some good news this morning! I saw the 140's again! Granted it was only 149.5 but still! I hadn't seen that number (without being on a "Russian" diet) in like three years! Just proves to me that I eat too much junky food. I wonder if I can keep it up even after I add foods back in. I almost don't want to. But today we are adding eggs. I will be glad to have eggs back. Hopefully we don't have a problem with them.
Plan for the day: get house cleaned up for company coming this afternoon. Go to the mall where said company can help Irina make a "build-a-bear". Maybe, just maybe, I can go for a walk by myself or something. And try not to cry today. I've been crying everyday. Yesterday I got slapped in the face by a five year old. At least DH is home. He said he would be willing to put the kids to bed when he's here and that's usually when the problems occur.

Smaller numbers boogaloo.

Well, CP, if you are reading the boards just know I feel your thumb pain. I don't think I broke it but it is no bruised, swollen and hurting. :ohwell:
Crappy ending to a crappy day. I know I posted already, but I need to vent a bit. I had my first ever emotional/nervous breakdown or meltdown today. Steve's sister and family came over to meet Irina. She acted all sweet and shy. They wanted to take her to the mall to get a bear made for her at Build a Bear. Uh, okay, we'll try. BAD idea! She absolutely refused to pick out an animal and she slapped at them and of course at Steve and I. I finally had to walk away. She fell on the floor screaming and scratching. It was horribly embarrassing. She would not stop attacking me even after removing her from the mall. On the way home Steve said something to me that made me even madder. When we got home I locked myself in the master closet and cried for two hours! I'm at the end of myself. I really just can't handle this any more. Anyway, some time between getting through the front door and getting to the closet I broke(?) or jammed my thumb. I honestly was so furious and upset that I don't even know when it happened. So I'm not too happy. I also had to take Irina off the diet which bummed me out. There's not enough food around to keep this girl happy. I can't even tell if the food is effecting her or not because it could be behavior. I however will stick with it if I can. I added eggs today and really felt okay except they do seem to mess up my stomach a bit. I think I do have a sensitivity to them and I have to be careful not to eat a lot of them.
I see you saw my post CP on FB.
Broken thumb? Broken heart boogaloo.

Short post because I'm typing with one hand. I may forget to use the shift key in a minute.

Thumb still swollen, bruised and hurting. If I could remember what I did to hurt it then I could at least say I'm an idiot. :laugh: But I truly don't remember. So far it is quite a nuisance. I will try to find a splint today.
I made up with Irina. I will try it my husband's way and be the food lady. Any time she wants something to eat ill give it to her regardless of when she ate last or is eating again. I do not agree with it but nothing I'm doing is working.
I need to go if I'm going to try to make it to church. I really want to stay home. I don't feel like answering questions about my thumb or how i am doing. I have been isolating myself lately. Tired of faking a smile for everyone.
To go or not to go boogaloo.

Mary, this girl LOVES apples. She basically ate an entire one by herself at lunch. I'm debating on leaving grapes on the table so the kids can snack on them when they want and they aren't horribly filling so they will still eat dinner, and they are healthy. I will leave carrots out too.
I went to church, cried several times (geez), and came home and had a healthy meal. I have noticed an immediate response to sugar in that I am already craving more after having not craved it in about a week. I also noticed that I still feel hungry (I'm sure I'm not but I have that sensation of being hungry) after I have something sugary. So I am going to try my best to limit sugar to baked goods and things that it is "needed" in. I am also going to limit myself to Rita's Italian Ice once in a while (not sure how often. I will have a piece of Alex's birthday cake, maybe a piece of pie at Thanksgiving, and something around Christmas time. That's my plan. I lost another pound and I want it to keep going down. Limited breads and sweets will do this for me I think.
My thumb might be a little better...might be. Still hurts, still swollen and bruised but I seem to have a little more movement. Hence typing a longer post. Still don't remember what happened either. Oh well.
Oh and Mary I have fasted for spiritual reasons, but the longest I have been able to go without food is one day. or maybe a day and a half. I get real cranky without food.
Second post of the day boogaloo.

Mary, one other thing I was going to say about fasts and the reason why I don't do them very often is that once I got off of it I binged and not on healthy food either. But that was a long time ago and I think you probably have more self control than I do.

CP, I didn't know an xray only cost about that much. I was thinking it was more like $100 or more. I may have to check with my doc and see. I'm glad your thumb is doing better. Hope it keeps improving and those painful balls go away! And keep checking in girl! We miss you! :flowerforyou:

V and SJ, how are you doing?

My thumb seems to be better after I sleep, but once I start using it again it swells up more. My wrist hurts really bad now. I remember what I did. .And yes I was an idiot. The can opener wouldn't work so in my anger I hit it. Yeah, some times I'm not so smart. I didn't even know I had a real anger issue until Irina came on board. :ohwell:
Today, we have school, cleaning, both kids get to go to tumbling class(Yay! And praying she does well!), and I will try to work out this afternoon. I'm not sure if exercising will cause more blood to rush through my thumb, causing more leaking from the vessel or not, so I may just walk. I need to do something.
Oh and I had dessert last night. I was nearly done with it before I remembered I said I wasn't going to have any. :grumble: It was apple crisp. I also decided that I really don't want sugar as part of my diet right now. I didn't feel awful from having it but I didn't feel as good as I had been. I am not craving sugar as much as I was so I'd rather not get back into that. There are a few days that I need to test things like food coloring that will probably end up involving sugar, but I'm going to try to limit it to that. I am suppose to introduce soy today I think.
Sticking with it boogaloo!

Happy Monday, pebbs. Today I am trying not to freak out about the date on the calendar. That's pretty much my primary goal. :laugh:

MM, I can't even imagine what you are going through and how much endurance it takes. Is there a way that you and Steve can work it out so that you have more breaks? I think you are a warrior. I also think that irina will come to realize that she is loved and doesn't need to act out like that anymore, but in the meantime, i just can't imagine how hard that is for you. I wish I could give you a big hug and tell you that I think you are awesome for loving a kid who is really hard to love.

Other goals include:

Work sessions.
A walk (the sunshine is holding out, and I still can't do sweaty or vigorous stuff until my tattoo heals up. It's better than yesterday, but still gross today. Itchy!
Trying to be patient and kind with myself. I have so much to do. I was thinking "just wait until November, and then you will have less to do." but. . . A jillion things have popped up to do by December 1st.
Also, spend some time on my yoga bolster today (see above, will help to calm my brains)
Eat an apple. You guys have totally given me a good craving!

Calm my brains boogaloo:flowerforyou:

SJ, so glad you are checking in with us and posting your progress. 29 floors? I wonder if I am in good enough shape to do that. You can do it! :flowerforyou:
Mary, your eating plan sounds really good. After being on this diet for a week, and then adding things back in, I am thinking I want to change how I eat. Period. I'll explain in a bit.
V, I will take that hug from thousands of miles away! I'll take them any way they come! Steve is trying to give me breaks by putting them to bed when he is here, since that's when she acts out the most. I still have to rock her before bed though. Last night he said time for bed and she crawled into my lap. I said that she had to go listen to daddy. She scratched me and slapped me. :noway: Steve then told her since she hit me that I would not be rocking her. She was not happy, but I'm glad that he finally showed some support. He read a book to her instead. I am not sure about giving her something instead. I'm harsh. She deserves nothing. :laugh: But it's more important to show her love right now and work on specific disciplines later. Also it was good that he found some way to get her to bed without me rocking her because I will be gone at bed times once in awhile.
I am trying really really hard to be nicer to Irina, but when she does hit or scratch I still come unglued. I need to work on that. Yesterday she "washed" dishes for an hour and a half. This girl is part fish I'm sure.
As far as eating, I am really thinking about eating how I want to eat right now instead of what the diet rule book says. I really don't want to add some of these foods back in. I was doing okay without them. Since adding foods back in my stomach has been more upset. I suspect it's eggs, so I will have to limit them. I didn't crave sugar until I had sugar. (And this could be in relation to an upcoming time of the month as well.) But if I don't want those things (except maybe when having pancakes or something baked) why add them back in just to eat? So I am thinking I might just ride this train until it stops and see how far I get. Since adding foods back in I gained 2.5 pounds back. So bye bye 140's. I can't eliminate these things completely, but I don't have to eat them if I don't want to. But that also means I have to make like 3 different meals for everyone. :laugh:
I wonder if sugar in the raw, or sucanet, will effect me the same way granulated sugar does. I'm determined to eat healthier while I feel like eating healthier because just maybe I will like it and stay this way. I will also limit my sweets. Steve is wanting to go to Rita's tomorrow night. I may or may not have some. Then there's Alex's birthday, Thanksgiving, a ladies dessert in early December, and Christmas. I will do my very best to limit my sweet intakes to those things only.
Okay, on to goals today: get breakfast made , clean up, and go to horse therapy. Prayer meeting is at my house today. I am thinking I may try to make some of those date/sunflower balls again to share with the ladies. And maybe school or just let the kids have play time.
Don't eat what you don't want boogaloo.

Yay, I love it when all the pebbs check in. 29 floors is amazeballs, SJ. Someday I would love to come over and try that with you, but I fear I might perish. I second the honey suggestion, MM, and I'm so sorry that's the way Irina expresses her displeasure. Ouch. I continue to think you are amazing, and I do believe that love will show her other ways to express herself. Mary, I had a credit card number get messed up once. . .bad times. My banks are pretty good at catching them, but I watch mine pretty closely, too.

Today, I have to go up to campus and sit through two four hour computer seminars. This is what I imagine hell is like. I could have booked them on separate days, but I thought it was best to get them all over with at once. I'm teaching a course in winter that is all online. I hate this idea, but it was what was assigned to me, so it's what I'm doing. I do like the idea that I can do my work from anywhere (so I can travel and do more field research) but it just doesn't seem like "real" teaching to me. The future, I guess. No workouts, but some walking in the gloomy rain around campus.

Rain and seminars, boogaloo.:flowerforyou:

SJ, that is awesome. I would consider logging the stair climbing in your distance for the month, if you're not already.

I had way too much sitting yesterday, and I'm really looking forward to yoga today. I think the tattoo is healed enough for it. It's still a tiny bit tender, but I think if I moisturizer it right before class it will be fine. I have to start moving again.

Also, it seems dry out, so I can do some window shopping before therapy and hopefully soak up some sunshine. Then, come home and practice my presentation (gulp) and Skype with a friend. Busy day. Whew. Also, eat real food (yesterday was not a success in that department) and drink water instead of coffee.

That's enough for anybody, boogaloo. :flowerforyou: