Reboot boogaloo November - Open group

Mary, one other thing I was going to say about fasts and the reason why I don't do them very often is that once I got off of it I binged and not on healthy food either. But that was a long time ago and I think you probably have more self control than I do.

CP, I didn't know an xray only cost about that much. I was thinking it was more like $100 or more. I may have to check with my doc and see. I'm glad your thumb is doing better. Hope it keeps improving and those painful balls go away! And keep checking in girl! We miss you! :flowerforyou:

V and SJ, how are you doing?

My thumb seems to be better after I sleep, but once I start using it again it swells up more. My wrist hurts really bad now. I remember what I did. .And yes I was an idiot. The can opener wouldn't work so in my anger I hit it. Yeah, some times I'm not so smart. I didn't even know I had a real anger issue until Irina came on board. :ohwell:
Today, we have school, cleaning, both kids get to go to tumbling class(Yay! And praying she does well!), and I will try to work out this afternoon. I'm not sure if exercising will cause more blood to rush through my thumb, causing more leaking from the vessel or not, so I may just walk. I need to do something.
Oh and I had dessert last night. I was nearly done with it before I remembered I said I wasn't going to have any. :grumble: It was apple crisp. I also decided that I really don't want sugar as part of my diet right now. I didn't feel awful from having it but I didn't feel as good as I had been. I am not craving sugar as much as I was so I'd rather not get back into that. There are a few days that I need to test things like food coloring that will probably end up involving sugar, but I'm going to try to limit it to that. I am suppose to introduce soy today I think.
Sticking with it boogaloo!

Happy Monday, pebbs. Today I am trying not to freak out about the date on the calendar. That's pretty much my primary goal. :laugh:

MM, I can't even imagine what you are going through and how much endurance it takes. Is there a way that you and Steve can work it out so that you have more breaks? I think you are a warrior. I also think that irina will come to realize that she is loved and doesn't need to act out like that anymore, but in the meantime, i just can't imagine how hard that is for you. I wish I could give you a big hug and tell you that I think you are awesome for loving a kid who is really hard to love.

Other goals include:

Work sessions.
A walk (the sunshine is holding out, and I still can't do sweaty or vigorous stuff until my tattoo heals up. It's better than yesterday, but still gross today. Itchy!
Trying to be patient and kind with myself. I have so much to do. I was thinking "just wait until November, and then you will have less to do." but. . . A jillion things have popped up to do by December 1st.
Also, spend some time on my yoga bolster today (see above, will help to calm my brains)
Eat an apple. You guys have totally given me a good craving!

Calm my brains boogaloo:flowerforyou:

SJ, so glad you are checking in with us and posting your progress. 29 floors? I wonder if I am in good enough shape to do that. You can do it! :flowerforyou:
Mary, your eating plan sounds really good. After being on this diet for a week, and then adding things back in, I am thinking I want to change how I eat. Period. I'll explain in a bit.
V, I will take that hug from thousands of miles away! I'll take them any way they come! Steve is trying to give me breaks by putting them to bed when he is here, since that's when she acts out the most. I still have to rock her before bed though. Last night he said time for bed and she crawled into my lap. I said that she had to go listen to daddy. She scratched me and slapped me. :noway: Steve then told her since she hit me that I would not be rocking her. She was not happy, but I'm glad that he finally showed some support. He read a book to her instead. I am not sure about giving her something instead. I'm harsh. She deserves nothing. :laugh: But it's more important to show her love right now and work on specific disciplines later. Also it was good that he found some way to get her to bed without me rocking her because I will be gone at bed times once in awhile.
I am trying really really hard to be nicer to Irina, but when she does hit or scratch I still come unglued. I need to work on that. Yesterday she "washed" dishes for an hour and a half. This girl is part fish I'm sure.
As far as eating, I am really thinking about eating how I want to eat right now instead of what the diet rule book says. I really don't want to add some of these foods back in. I was doing okay without them. Since adding foods back in my stomach has been more upset. I suspect it's eggs, so I will have to limit them. I didn't crave sugar until I had sugar. (And this could be in relation to an upcoming time of the month as well.) But if I don't want those things (except maybe when having pancakes or something baked) why add them back in just to eat? So I am thinking I might just ride this train until it stops and see how far I get. Since adding foods back in I gained 2.5 pounds back. So bye bye 140's. I can't eliminate these things completely, but I don't have to eat them if I don't want to. But that also means I have to make like 3 different meals for everyone. :laugh:
I wonder if sugar in the raw, or sucanet, will effect me the same way granulated sugar does. I'm determined to eat healthier while I feel like eating healthier because just maybe I will like it and stay this way. I will also limit my sweets. Steve is wanting to go to Rita's tomorrow night. I may or may not have some. Then there's Alex's birthday, Thanksgiving, a ladies dessert in early December, and Christmas. I will do my very best to limit my sweet intakes to those things only.
Okay, on to goals today: get breakfast made , clean up, and go to horse therapy. Prayer meeting is at my house today. I am thinking I may try to make some of those date/sunflower balls again to share with the ladies. And maybe school or just let the kids have play time.
Don't eat what you don't want boogaloo.

Yay, I love it when all the pebbs check in. 29 floors is amazeballs, SJ. Someday I would love to come over and try that with you, but I fear I might perish. I second the honey suggestion, MM, and I'm so sorry that's the way Irina expresses her displeasure. Ouch. I continue to think you are amazing, and I do believe that love will show her other ways to express herself. Mary, I had a credit card number get messed up once. . .bad times. My banks are pretty good at catching them, but I watch mine pretty closely, too.

Today, I have to go up to campus and sit through two four hour computer seminars. This is what I imagine hell is like. I could have booked them on separate days, but I thought it was best to get them all over with at once. I'm teaching a course in winter that is all online. I hate this idea, but it was what was assigned to me, so it's what I'm doing. I do like the idea that I can do my work from anywhere (so I can travel and do more field research) but it just doesn't seem like "real" teaching to me. The future, I guess. No workouts, but some walking in the gloomy rain around campus.

Rain and seminars, boogaloo.:flowerforyou:

SJ, that is awesome. I would consider logging the stair climbing in your distance for the month, if you're not already.

I had way too much sitting yesterday, and I'm really looking forward to yoga today. I think the tattoo is healed enough for it. It's still a tiny bit tender, but I think if I moisturizer it right before class it will be fine. I have to start moving again.

Also, it seems dry out, so I can do some window shopping before therapy and hopefully soak up some sunshine. Then, come home and practice my presentation (gulp) and Skype with a friend. Busy day. Whew. Also, eat real food (yesterday was not a success in that department) and drink water instead of coffee.

That's enough for anybody, boogaloo. :flowerforyou:

Good morning,
Quick post. I've gotta get things going for the day before my daughter starts tearing things up. She's not starting off on the right foot with me this morning. It doesn't help that I'm a little irritable.
We got some good news yesterday. Irina will be starting horse therapy! She got funding to ride for about two months. So we are praying that more will come in so she can continue...if she likes it. So having both my kids doing the same thing at the same time makes it so much easier right now!
I hope she and I are both making progress with our attitudes. I did lose it once yesterday when she drew blood from my hand. But I have tried very hard to be calm. When I had bandaids on my hand yesterday she would point and say "ow!ow!" Then she would say Alex. So I had several opportunities to explain to her that she did it. I think possibly by the end of the day it was registering with her that she was hurting me when she scratches. I was also able to put her to bed with no fight and that is huge.
Goals today: work out while watching the Biggest Loser during nap time. I was suppose to do it this morning but just didn't feel up to it. Also we have school, general cleaning, and if I'm brave (or stupid) enough we may go get some DVD's at the library. Promising a lollipop/snack for a good girl seems to be helping when we go out. Give her food and she will nearly do anything you want. As long as it's food that SHE wants. And there is church tonight. We need to go but it's been hard. After dealing with my daughter all day, I'm done and I want her to go to bed. :laugh: So we'll see. DH also said he wasn't feeling well at all during the night so he may not be up to going.
I guess my post wasn't that quick.
Time for school boogaloo!

Mary, I didn't even notice the signatures were gone. I think they were there at the beginning of the week at least. Mmmm. Chocolate. After reading your post I was thinking I'd buy a bar of chocolate at the store today. No, I can't. I don't know that I will be able to have "just" two squares. Not yet.
V, I was wondering how your presentation was going then I saw on FB that you managed to get it under 20 minutes. Good job! Thanks for your support of me, and of all your pebbs. I think about you all several times a day too!

I had my first eat out meal last night. Tacos. I had two, and split my side of chips with everyone. Progress! I was pretty full, like even that was too much. I told Steve I felt a little too full. He said, "From two tacos?" Yep. I can usually pack three and quite a few chips as well. I wasn't like sick full. Just like maybe I didn't need that last chip or two.
It dawned on me yesterday that I'd better get Alex's birthday stuff figured out. It's in a week. We finally decided to have a little party. We've invited just a few friends and are hoping to have it at the park if the weather is nice. I'm going to start buying stuff for it tomorrow. I have a very tight budget so I will have to get creative. I also need to go get a couple of smaller gifts for Alex. We bought him a traffic light controller circuit board as his main gift. Just what every 6 year old wants right? He has a traffic light that flashes randomly for a party type scene. It has bugged him that it doesn't flash like a normal light. So we got him one. He will be SO excited! I love my boy and his oddities!
Today is the grocery store(s) (Lord help me!), school and the OT is coming this evening. I may try to get a work out in later today. I haven't felt really motivated lately, but I'll try. Maybe a run on the TM. I need to do something. I seem a bit stuck in the weight area again. I can tell I'm smaller but it seemed to stop already. Oh and I've been craving sugar more the last several days. I am thinking it has to do with the approaching time of month. Wouldn't that be sad if our sugar cravings happen because of a time of month and there's not a way to really control them? I hope I can overcome it and not pig out. I am thinking I may have to make those brownies that are made with dates to help.
Sugar/chocolate desires boogaloo.

Mary, that is tough. I know that I find for myself I have to be careful around that type of energy. I want to be a good listener, and when I am in a really strong place emotionally, I can do that. When I'm not, though,I find I have to avoid those types. What I have said to people, and I'll even preface it with a phrase like "I want you to know that I'm not judging you, and know that you are very discouraged right now" is: that is not a real reason, that is an excuse. Yes, I have made people really angry with this statement. I know I had a relative who was out of work for a very long time, and I told him "you have to only get one yes, so keep trying.". But, I also understand your need to walk it off on the treadmill. Sometimes the best things we can do for our friends is tell them what they don't want to hear So much easier thought than done.

I'm super happy today because it's another sunshiny day!!! So, today's plans are: teach a lesson, read the paper out loud and make changes as I go when I read stuff that sounds a bit whaaaaat? And make time for a walk in the sunshine. And sing/play my harp. Surprising Appalachian instrument pop song discovery of yesterday's practice session: an Amy Winehouse song. I'm also developing a secret dream of street busking by next spring. In my spare time :laugh:

Busker, boogaloo:flowerforyou: