Secret Motivation...got me here

A few years ago my daughter (now 17 years old) wanted some clothes from Lululemon for Christmas, little did I know, this would be a new motivation for me. We went into the store to pick her out some new clothes, and my 220+ pound self was very discouraged to learn that even if I wanted to, there was no way I could ever fit anything in the store without looking like a stuffed sausage and feeling terribly uncomfortable. This was yet another eye-opening-slap-in-the-face-wake-up-call for me. YOU BETTER DO SOMETHING ABOUT THIS JAMIE! I was tired of embarrassing myself and as an introvert, this is a major deal.

So anyway, as one of my secret motivations (I did have the odd retail person ask), I printed out and taped a Lululemon logo to the back of my debit card to remind myself at the till why I wasn't going to buy that ice cream-cone or that Kit-Kat bar, or WHATEVER! Sometimes it just reminded me I HAD a goal and that I needed to remember it. It also kept me focused on the fact that those Lululemon clothes are pricey and maybe I didn't need the little junk I might want to buy (edible or not), MY reward would come!

Well, about two weeks ago I went back into the same store I was in years ago just to look. I was looking at their tops and bottoms, their sizes range from size 2 through 12, when a woman asks if she can help me. I smile and tell her I'm just looking then I hesitantly ask her if I might be able to try on a pair if pants. At this point I am terrified because of the past and I truly have no idea what size I should try on. So anyway, I tell her I don't know what size size I am and she looks at my body, and suggests a size 4...

I could stop writing right there because that's really the end. That's where I start crying... Not in the store. I'm crying inside. No, in the store I am thinking this woman needs a hug, I will try them on because I'm a sucker for punnishment and this might be my new favorite store if she's right. I go into the dressing room and I try them on and they FIT. It's even verified from the woman working in the back! THE SIZE 4 LULULEMON ASTRO PANT FIT!!!!!!!!! A year a half ago nothing fit, now look at me! NOW I CRY...outwardly.

Still as I write this, I cry.

8D Another great non-scale victory! (Thanks everyone for your help.)