7383 calories

happygirl338
happygirl338 Posts: 87
edited November 10 in Motivation and Support
Ate 7383 calories today. Biggest binge in a while. I seriously feel so sick and hopeless. I don't know how I can recover all of the hard work I put in this week. I can barley even move with out feeling like I'm going to be sick. I don't think I could feel any worse than what I am feeling right now :'(

Also, knowing what my doctor will say to me when I go back in a few weeks. I've been fighting this eating disorder for so long and I haven't made it over 5 days without binging. I feel so miserable and upset. I have no idea what to do with this anymore...

Sorry for the rant, I just don't know who else to turn too. Can anyone please give me some advice. I've had binge eating disorder for almost a year now. I recovered from anorexia and with that mind set still I feel horrible because what I do to my body.
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  • happygirl338
    happygirl338 Posts: 87
    Ate 7383 calories today. Biggest binge in a while. I seriously feel so sick and hopeless. I don't know how I can recover all of the hard work I put in this week. I can barley even move with out feeling like I'm going to be sick. I don't think I could feel any worse than what I am feeling right now :'(

    Also, knowing what my doctor will say to me when I go back in a few weeks. I've been fighting this eating disorder for so long and I haven't made it over 5 days without binging. I feel so miserable and upset. I have no idea what to do with this anymore...

    Sorry for the rant, I just don't know who else to turn too. Can anyone please give me some advice. I've had binge eating disorder for almost a year now. I recovered from anorexia and with that mind set still I feel horrible because what I do to my body.

    No replies?
  • leanmachinedream
    leanmachinedream Posts: 223
    All I can say is tomorrow is a new day.
  • TeddyBear47
    TeddyBear47 Posts: 200 Member
    Hi, If you have a close friend that you can confide in and also call when you think your about to binge that would help a great deal. It also helps if you give yourself a break, don't hate yourself for making a choice just try to correct it and move on. A friend or a family member that you trust is a good asset to have when your in trouble. Don't try and starve yourself after this, just eat sensibly and move on. GOOD LUCK

    P.S. I have been there many times
  • Kendrawinn
    Kendrawinn Posts: 160
    Yea, so you had one bad day. Start fresh tomorrow, and dont stress about it. Your not gonna stop your binge habit over night. Your going to struggle with it. But don't let it take over. You will learn to control your eating habits over time. It's ok....:flowerforyou:
  • MissVCI
    MissVCI Posts: 277 Member
    Stay strong, and I offer my encouragement, but I hope you have some support system close to home. Online support can only do so much. Are you in a support group, if not find one.

    The worst thing you can do is wallow in. Strike this as a bad day and move on.

    FOCUS ON THE POSITIVE and BE POSITIVE.

    stay healthy.
  • sweets53
    sweets53 Posts: 1
    When I get down on myself or if I feel like I not doing as much as I would like. I pray and ask God to help me get through what I am going through. Don't be hard on yourself, tell yourself, I know I can and will do what is right for my body. Don't invite the enemy in your mind. You are loved by the most high, and that is the Lord above. Tell your self that you are beauiful and wonderfully made. You can do all things through Christ who gives you the strenght. Trust him
  • Lucinda1013
    Lucinda1013 Posts: 27 Member
    One bad day. wake up tomorrow and start fresh
  • BlaireV
    BlaireV Posts: 137
    I'm sorry that you're going through this. I am recovering from a binge eating disorder that I've had for over 4 years. The best advice I can give you is to figure out what it is that causes you to binge, and take that energy and turn it into control. I know it sounds weird but it's what worked for me. I finally accepted responsibility for my body and every time I wanted to binge, I reminded myself that only I can control myself. I have full responsibility. I also allow myself to eat what I want as long as it fits into my calorie goal. I have "spike"/cheat days once a week where I eat what I want and it actually aids in my weight loss.
    Forgive yourself and know that you can start over tomorrow x
  • lsr122
    lsr122 Posts: 1 Member
    http://www.prevention.com/dietrecoveryplan/
    I found this helpful after I over ate today. Best of luck! Don't criticize yourself, just move on: it's a new day :)
  • cathylord
    cathylord Posts: 115 Member
    Don't beat yourself up. Today is over and was a mistake. Start tomorrow fresh and don't look back on your bad days and feel badly, just try to do better. You can't change the past, so look ahead to a better future.
  • Carita79
    Carita79 Posts: 64 Member
    love :heart:
    it will be ok..water and sleep..
    this feeling will pass
  • 1996gtstang
    1996gtstang Posts: 279 Member
    just stick to your calorie goal tomorrow, forget about the binge today
  • ahinescapron
    ahinescapron Posts: 351 Member
    The first thing is to forgive yourself and start new tomorrow. Do you have a counselor that you have seen for eating disorder issues or could they refer you to one? Or maybe a support group of some sort (either online or in person)? If not, maybe seekng help and accountability from a truster friend or relative is a good step. Perhaps having someone to talk about your feeling with can help you to figure out what is triggering your binges and how to prevent them.
  • myopus
    myopus Posts: 321 Member
    I agree that you should forgive yourself. Feeling that much shame will never help, and we're not meant to be sad. However, after reading and rereading your post a few times, I really hope that you see your doctor sooner - or at the very least are completely upfront with him or her on every bit of this. To not be able to go more than 5 days between binges may mean that you and your doctor might consider restructuring your treatment to something stronger or more immediate. Please consider. Best of luck to you.
  • megansoriano
    megansoriano Posts: 158
    Ate 7383 calories today. Biggest binge in a while. I seriously feel so sick and hopeless. I don't know how I can recover all of the hard work I put in this week. I can barley even move with out feeling like I'm going to be sick. I don't think I could feel any worse than what I am feeling right now :'(

    Also, knowing what my doctor will say to me when I go back in a few weeks. I've been fighting this eating disorder for so long and I haven't made it over 5 days without binging. I feel so miserable and upset. I have no idea what to do with this anymore...

    Sorry for the rant, I just don't know who else to turn too. Can anyone please give me some advice. I've had binge eating disorder for almost a year now. I recovered from anorexia and with that mind set still I feel horrible because what I do to my body.


    I am not sure how bad my binge eating got but when I was stressed or upset with my ex I would eat. Tons of stuff whatever I could find. I got rid of my stress (my ex) and it took some time but my binges ended up getting much better. I think also I would starve myself instead of losing weight the healthy way and that would also lead to binging. I have learned to listen to myself. For me learning myself was extremely hard because I was in denial. You can probably read online over and over about how to stop binge eating and it will tell you the same thing. Find out why you are binging. What brings it on. That will mean nothing to you until you learn for yourself what it mean (if that makes sense at all). When I decided to eat healthy I also decided not to tell myself no. If I wanted to binge and eat 5 cups of rice, I would do it and the rest of the day eat normal and healthy. After a while I slowly started to not want to binge as much. Now I rarely ever binge unless my ambien has hit me a certain way and I get up and make a bunch of food but other than that I never binge anymore. If I want to go out and eat wings or pasta I wont tell myself no because if I do I know I will want it more. However, if I let myself just eat it than I will want it less. Now if you put a salmon topped salad in front of me or a bowl of pasta I am going to make the better decision. The best advice I can give you is to spend time learning yourself.

    I realized I ate to make myself feel better from being sad or upset. Now I do it in other ways. Homework, working out, cleaning or calling a friend. Some times I will have a really hard day and I will eat bad food, smoke and drink. I wont beat myself up over it but I will tell myself its just a one time thing for today and later I will make a better decision and not let myself fall back into that pit.
  • pinkraynedropjacki
    pinkraynedropjacki Posts: 3,027 Member
    Forget today even happened. Wipe it, tomorrow is a new day. Just remember that you have a goal, you are the only one who can get that goal .... this is something only you can work on.... but with the right support.... like those in here..... it is easier to achieve.

    Next time you feel the binge come on..... come in here.... talk to ANYONE that is here.... add heaps of people to your friends list & ask them to possibly keep your mind busy till you forget what you went on there for.

    {{hugs}}
  • laddyboy
    laddyboy Posts: 1,565 Member
    Ate 7383 calories today. Biggest binge in a while. I seriously feel so sick and hopeless. I don't know how I can recover all of the hard work I put in this week. I can barley even move with out feeling like I'm going to be sick. I don't think I could feel any worse than what I am feeling right now :'(

    Also, knowing what my doctor will say to me when I go back in a few weeks. I've been fighting this eating disorder for so long and I haven't made it over 5 days without binging. I feel so miserable and upset. I have no idea what to do with this anymore...

    Sorry for the rant, I just don't know who else to turn too. Can anyone please give me some advice. I've had binge eating disorder for almost a year now. I recovered from anorexia and with that mind set still I feel horrible because what I do to my body.

    I'm proud of you for keeping track of it. I wouldn't.
    Start over tomorrow. That's why God made tomorrows.
  • chrisc16
    chrisc16 Posts: 94
    You have to take whatever life throws at you one day at a time. Tomorrow is a new chance - don't give up.

    There are resources for eating disorders, please see if you can find some in your area.

    Good luck!
  • beckylawrence70
    beckylawrence70 Posts: 752 Member
    wow, like the other's are saying, tomorrow is another day.......stay focused and keep working at it!
  • andrejjorje
    andrejjorje Posts: 497 Member
    Do you have somebody close to you to kick your *kitten* every time you screw up? I found this to be, other than self control the only solution that may work (medication and doctors/"specialists" excepted here).
  • Gary1977
    Gary1977 Posts: 804 Member
    You must forgive yourself first & foremost. I understand binge days because mine used to be epic. But don't let this horrible feeling escape you. Just because you've forgiven yourself, doesn't mean its time to forget. Maybe print of a copy of mfp food log & put it anywhere you get your food from. Write on that paper how horrible it made you feel when you had this binge. This will serve as a reminder & motivation to fight hard even when you don't feel up to it. Keep fighting hard & I'm sure you'll overcome this.:smile:
  • tbresina
    tbresina Posts: 558 Member
    Not really sure what to say, I definately think you need professional help for the binging. I am worried for you, eating disorders are nothing to take lightly, get help, professional help, all of us on here can only help so much, now dust yourself off and start tomorrow on a clean slate!
  • MB_Positif
    MB_Positif Posts: 8,897 Member
    Start telling yourself that today was your last binge. Ever. Try to avoid saying things like, "If I binge again, I will do..." or "When I binge again..."
  • livinginwoods
    livinginwoods Posts: 562 Member
    One day at a time. Keep moving forward no matter what.
  • skatermom503
    skatermom503 Posts: 96
    Hi Sweetie
    Gary is right. First you need to forgive yourself. Are you getting any counseling? You need to. This is more than just wanting to eat. My 18 yo daughter is starting to do the same thing so I know how emotionally painful this is and how nothing you eat is satisfying you in any way. Please try to get help. Check with your doctor about a referral or find your own who specializes in eating disorders. If you don't have insurance, call your county mental health. You are not alone in this and it is not your fault. Please take care and get help. You need more than even MFP can give you but keep going here and keep talking. Prayers for you sweetie.
  • cherbapp
    cherbapp Posts: 322
    Ok...lots of supportive and helpful comments...I agree with those first of all...

    But...unless I missed it...no one has asked what kind of diet you are trying to stick to in between binges. How many calories is your average daily goal?

    I ask because when mine was set too low, and I didn't exercise, I would snap after a few days and eat a bunch of junk. I am wondering if it would help to up your calorie goal enough to afford you a few treats and snacks you love in moderation, so you don't get to tightly wound that you snap and eat it all at once.

    Hang in there...knowing you have a problem and keeping track of it is the first step to fixing it! You can do it! Tomorrow is a new day in the rest of your life...today was not the last day. :)
  • luvred51
    luvred51 Posts: 163 Member
    Never, never, never never ever give up! You can do it. :flowerforyou:
  • happygirl338
    happygirl338 Posts: 87
    Thank you for all the support and advice everyone.

    Yes I am serig a doctor. I recovered from anorexia and went from eating about 300 calories a day to a normal amount. Now my wrong habits are very unnormal. I have eaten up to 9,000 calories several times. In between binges I am eating about 1300. I am by no means over weight. My maintenance intake is 1374 calories. I am not looking to lower my weight by a lot. I am only looking to lose a few pounds and my doctor knows about that.

    I still live with my parents because I am still in school. Rightnow we can't afford to have me see a counselor because I don't have healthy insurance and the economy is so horrible. My doctor has tried to talk my parents in to getting me a counselor several times but my father thinks that u can recover on my own and that this is not as serious as anorexia. I was severely under weight for that and at 91 lbs, I got threatened to be hospitalized several times. My parents understood that I needed help for that but now that I am at a healthy weight they don't understand.

    My doctor is trying to get to the understand but I am at a county hospital due to the no health insurance and he isn't an expert at eating disorders either. I have talked to many people, my doctor has contacted my school and family to get someone to talk to because he said my mental health is very unstable.

    I have had several suicidal thoughts due to this eating disposer which has caused me depression. I am going to try to be easier on myself an remember to take this one day at a time.

    Thank you all again.
  • Edithrenee
    Edithrenee Posts: 546 Member
    well, that is a lot of calories im not gonna lie about that and that is not a good thing. However you are already feeling rotten about it.
    So you need to make sure you remember how you are feeling at this moment and dont forget it. Yes you need to move on tomorrow is a new day.. and get up start fresh and eat healthy the best you can and make sure you exercise, It will help.

    YOu cant change it today now it is over so make tomorrow better you can do this.. if you give up then what you are going to be here this time next year bigger and wishing youd have stuck with it.. You can do this, now like i said remember the crappy way you feel when you get to wanting to binge agian.. but dont dwell on it..

    YOU GOT THIS
  • neaneawy
    neaneawy Posts: 146 Member
    Yes, I agree, tomorrow is a new day and you can't let it affect you all over again. Move on and try again. I've never dealt with anything like you're experiencing, but I can tell you what I do when I really need to munch. Tonight for instance I really don't have any cals left, but I have the nighttime munchies. I brewed a cup of Celestial seasonings cinnamon apple tea with a packet of stevia. It's 0 cals and smells and tastes amazing! I still needed to chew, so I had a quaker white cheddar rice cake, 45 cals. The tea usually helps get me through my nighttime cravings. Maybe you could try figuring out what triggers you have that bring on a binge and try to avoid them or find something lower cal that can help satisfy your craving.

    I also know I want to overeat when I'm bored and tired. They usually go hand in hand. Do you have any hobbies? If not maybe you could take up crochet or knitting. I'm a crocheter and when I get into a new project it keeps my mind occupied and I don't think about anything else. Good luck and God bless. You can do it!
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