100 pounds to lose

I am so sad today...................

I have been doing so well and this weekend my husband and I got into a bad argument and he called me a fat azz. I am so hurt, he has been telling me for years that he loves me now at 200 + pounds and he loved me when I was 120..............Now, I know how he really feels and it is very hurtful. I have been eating and drinking everything in sight that I should not have...............2 days of this bingeful type eating, I feel sick, depressed and just don't want to go on..............

He has been the 1 person that has always been supportive and now I know it has all been fake, a facade.............He told me yesterday that he apologized and took back what he said, the problem is, he can't take it back, the words have already come out of his mouth.

He knows how self- conscious I am about my weight and have always been, no matter how small I was, I have always viewed myself as fat.

im sorry.. dont let it stop you...one day youll turn his head & make him eat those words...hugs

I forgot to weigh in on Friday, so weighed in yesterday, the scale now says 211.0 again. I know its water weight, but I am not even caring, I just want to go the opposite way now and gain up to 300 pounds so I can make him leave me...............

I am so sad today...................

I have been doing so well and this weekend my husband and I got into a bad argument and he called me a fat azz. I am so hurt, he has been telling me for years that he loves me now at 200 + pounds and he loved me when I was 120..............Now, I know how he really feels and it is very hurtful. I have been eating and drinking everything in sight that I should not have...............2 days of this bingeful type eating, I feel sick, depressed and just don't want to go on..............

He has been the 1 person that has always been supportive and now I know it has all been fake, a facade.............He told me yesterday that he apologized and took back what he said, the problem is, he can't take it back, the words have already come out of his mouth.

He knows how self- conscious I am about my weight and have always been, no matter how small I was, I have always viewed myself as fat.

I forgot to weigh in on Friday, so weighed in yesterday, the scale now says 211.0 again. I know its water weight, but I am not even caring, I just want to go the opposite way now and gain up to 300 pounds so I can make him leave me...............

Thanks You guys!!

I feel better and we sat down and had a to talk. In 15 years of being together, he has never, never, never said anything like that and has always supported me.

As someone here suggested, I decided to forgive him and move on from it. His actions speak louder than the words that he spoke when being angry.............I guess that shows that not everything is fair in love and war, LOL..........:laugh:

Kym, thanks for the compliment, I think you are beautiful too.

I made my green smoothie again this morning and I am back on track. Must drink lots of water to flush myself out and get me on an even keel again..............