3 minor confessions

1. i play runescape and neopets
2. even though i have lost 33lbs i still see the same fat girl i was 33lbs ago when i look in the mirror
3. i miss bob

1. I avoid social events that require wearing a dress because I'm too embarrassed.

2. Success is the best revenge. I want to see the look on everyone's face who made me feel like I wasn't good enough or worth their time because of my weight. The satisfaction I'll get from being able to prove that I am worth it and to show them that they missed out is enough to motivate me to keep going.

3. I keep my diary private because it's the only way I'll be completely honest with my logging. If I know that people are looking at it and I slip up or eat something "bad", I'm less likely to log it truthfully.

1) I love watching Pop That Zit videos...anything with cysts and pus lol


2) I still feel guilty about stealing a tiny piece of Lego 30 years ago


3) I accidentally jammed my cat in the patio door. ( he's fine)

Oh my goodness #1 is me all the way. I get stuck on youtube looking at the videos.

1. I actually LOVE my job! My co-workers and I are like a family. I work in a shop of only 8 people.
2. I hate stupid people and sometimes I slip up and tell them so.
3. I am obsessed with this website and logging everything. I even secretly enjoy the negative comments. They make me push harder to achieve my goal. I will be hot and healthy again! I know that sounds conceded. (sp) :-) But that's okay.

1. I have a disability that I don't usually talk about online, but on here I feel free to do so.
2. Yesterday was my birthday, and I have given myself a few days of bad eating instead of just that one day.
3. I haven't logged my food in days because I felt bad about how far I let myself slip, after being on a good track when I joined the site.

I know it said 3 but I have 2 more. 1. I use my weight as an excuse not to ask anyone on a date. If I'm fat, I can blame it on that, instead of the fact they may say no because of my disability, something I can't change. Other than that, I fear if I were skinny I may have to face the fact that it's just me they don't want.
2. I'm increasingly shutting myself down as far as sharing how I feel. I don't know if I'm clinically depressed by any means, but I have been in a depressed state for as long as I can remember now, and I successfully put on a happy face well enough that no one has ever asked me if I'm ok.

We need a hug smiley!!

1. I can't forgive the men I've had relationships with, for the lies, hurt and cheating. Hence I've been single for the last 10 yrs (am 43 now). I pretend I'm happy being single - but I'm actually too afraid to chance being close to a man again. I obviously seem to pick the wrong ones... :ohwell:

2. I'm scared of being alone as I get older... But trying to meet someone is more scary..:noway:

3. I think I prefer cats to people.. (I'm seriously worried I'll end up being a mad cat woman!! :blushing: )

1. I busted my mans *kitten* coz i found his porn, I over reacted coz they all look better and younger than me now I feel really bad.
2. I smoke weed and get the munchies and cant remember what I had to add it to my diary.
3. I count bottles of wine as one glass on my food diary.

I absolutely LOVE this lol!!

1. I have a VERY low tolerance for people who act FAKE with or around me and I have a very short fuse at times
2. No matter how much I think im a nice person..my husband tells me and everyone else different!!
3. I sometimes feel like maybe im afraid to be successful!!
4. I use exclamation points ALL the time and laugh at any and everything!!
5. I sing ALL the time and I'm actually good at it but wont sing in front of people!!
6. I'm actually pretty confident and always have been even tho I'm a big gurl!!
7. I dont have very many female friends!!
8. Last one I promise...I also dont care too much for Adele!!

I know that's more than 3 but I find this fun and relieving!!

1. I still crave junk food like a madman, I have to use ALL of my willpower not to eat it ALL.
2. I was secretly extremely happy when my boyfriend moaned about how some boys whistled at me when they drove past- it made me feel pretty
3. It angers me that my dad has SO much salt in his diet yet drinks next to no water and won't believe me when I say half of his belly weight gain is probably water retention.

1. I think Ive bitten off more than I can chew - with life (work, study, training)
2. I feel immensly guilty about all of the things I get my bf to do while I study (or try, sometimes I just procrastinate)
3. I am scared I cant quite afford my trip to Israel/Jordan in 4 months time - well not to the extravagence I'd like....

1. I only really have 2 friends and don't know how to make more.
2. I'm addicted to Coke Zero.
3. I can go weeks without listening to any music other than Avenged Sevenfold.

1. I'm secretly pleased I'm injured and have to skip my long run this week, though I know 18 miles next week and the marathon thereafter will HURT!
2. It's UK mother's day this Sunday and I'm jealous of people who still have their mums. Tell yours you love her, please!
3. Despite constantly telling others to man up, I haven't run in rain more than a little drizzle this year, I've wimped out every time and hit the treadmill.