Confession Time! ((ABSOLUTELY NO JUDGEMENT))

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  • AgentOrangeJuice
    AgentOrangeJuice Posts: 1,069 Member
    xMrBunglex wrote: »
    In my IRL, I have absolutely no one that shares my interests.

    I haven't played Dungeons and Dragons in 10 years.

    In 1992 (pre-Interwebs!! Horrors!), when my wife & I first started dating, we were 22.

    Every Sunday was D&D night for me; she had only heard about what freaking goobers D&D players were & had no idea what a game was like, just what the rumors were. But she tagged along, because I said "Well, this is what I do every Sunday, so..." she tagged along & watched.

    After the 2nd Sunday, on the way back to my apt she said "I wanna roll up a character."

    She played every game from then on out & she LOVED it...too bad we all just grew up/moved away/lost touch over the years! I still have all my books & every now and then we'll bust out the character sheets & reminisce.



    All of my knowledge of D&D comes from Big Bang Theory tv show.

    I'm a failure as an engineer, I don't like anything nerdy. I did raise 2 serious gamers, though, so there's that.

    I can't watch The Big Bang Theory, I've tried, merely to look at the collectibles in their comic book store. One episode I watched, they had the entire run of the Green Lantern Blackest Night figures on the wall. I need them. Especially Blue Lantern Flash with the Metallic paint.

    My problem with the show, while they're "into" the stuff I'm into, it just feels forced and fake, which it is, it's a script. When I talk about stuff I'm into, I inflect the passion I feel for the stuff I'm talking about. So I just sit there, "poser, poser, poser, poser."
  • WillLift4Tats
    WillLift4Tats Posts: 1,699 Member
    I confess that I relate more to the 'single dog ladies' on this thread. My husband and I have 2 dogs and a cat, and no immediate plans to change that.

    We play D&D every Friday night, or try to, and we are each others' best friend.
  • TigerNY128
    TigerNY128 Posts: 763 Member
    lemurcat12 wrote: »
    I'm trying to make myself jump rope every morning (I used to be a really good jump roper as a girl). I've improved a lot since starting, but am not very consistent with it.
    Lefty1290 wrote: »
    Plus a lot of my friends from high school are married/engaged/having babies and I'm just over here like, "hey, isn't my dog super cute?"

    Basically me.

    Also me!
  • ladybuggnorris
    ladybuggnorris Posts: 276 Member
    threnjen wrote: »

    I am so happy you got help! Through being overweight my whole life and bullied, I was still ALWAYS very mentally stable. (Arrogance runs in my family!) After I had my second child, I became a completely different person. I was angry ALL THE TIME. I treated my three year old son sooo bad. One day, when the baby was about 6 months old, I raged out on my 3yo to the point that I physically hurt him. I immediately lock myself in the bathroom and called my husband to come home from work. That very day, we went to our GP, who diagnosed me with severe post-partum depression, even though I was not sad, but angry. I took antidepressants and joined a post-partum support group and the change back to my old self was almost immediate. To this day, I still harbor so much guilt over hurting my son and I will NEVER forget the look in his eyes when it happened. It was a complete look of betrayal. I don't think he remembers it and I have never told anyone this story before. I am so glad this is a no judgement zone, because now that I have brought the memories back up, I feel about the worst human being ever.

    When our third was born, I also had PPD, but we knew to watch for the signs and made sure to get on anti-depressants right away...my awesome husband also insisted that I get out at least once a week, for a couple of hours without the baby.

    PPD is serious. I'm glad it has really come into the public eye.
    I had some major issues after kid 1 and didn't seek help for fear someone would "take him away". I sincerely thought I was going insane. I sought some help after trying to deal with it myself for a long time.
    After kid 2 I had PPD again and even had some history on file from kid 1, but I don't feel like my healthcare professionals took it seriously. At 6 weeks postpartum I flat out failed the "mental health" exam at my appt and I knew I would. But all they did was put me on the phone with a crisis line who confirmed that I wasn't going to hurt myself or the baby and they sent me on my merry way.

    I would dread having a third child and would not because those were dark days for my mind :(

    I was so scared when I was expecting the fourth, but was pleasantly surprised to show absolutely no symptoms with her.
  • Tubbs216
    Tubbs216 Posts: 6,597 Member
    threnjen wrote: »

    I am so happy you got help! Through being overweight my whole life and bullied, I was still ALWAYS very mentally stable. (Arrogance runs in my family!) After I had my second child, I became a completely different person. I was angry ALL THE TIME. I treated my three year old son sooo bad. One day, when the baby was about 6 months old, I raged out on my 3yo to the point that I physically hurt him. I immediately lock myself in the bathroom and called my husband to come home from work. That very day, we went to our GP, who diagnosed me with severe post-partum depression, even though I was not sad, but angry. I took antidepressants and joined a post-partum support group and the change back to my old self was almost immediate. To this day, I still harbor so much guilt over hurting my son and I will NEVER forget the look in his eyes when it happened. It was a complete look of betrayal. I don't think he remembers it and I have never told anyone this story before. I am so glad this is a no judgement zone, because now that I have brought the memories back up, I feel about the worst human being ever.

    When our third was born, I also had PPD, but we knew to watch for the signs and made sure to get on anti-depressants right away...my awesome husband also insisted that I get out at least once a week, for a couple of hours without the baby.

    PPD is serious. I'm glad it has really come into the public eye.
    I had some major issues after kid 1 and didn't seek help for fear someone would "take him away". I sincerely thought I was going insane. I sought some help after trying to deal with it myself for a long time.
    After kid 2 I had PPD again and even had some history on file from kid 1, but I don't feel like my healthcare professionals took it seriously. At 6 weeks postpartum I flat out failed the "mental health" exam at my appt and I knew I would. But all they did was put me on the phone with a crisis line who confirmed that I wasn't going to hurt myself or the baby and they sent me on my merry way.

    I would dread having a third child and would not because those were dark days for my mind :(
    Hugs to both of you! That's tough. One of my friends' sisters had post puerperal psychosis. Very scary. Hormones can be brutal.
  • littled1986
    littled1986 Posts: 101 Member
    A lot of you are baring really deep stuff. Seeing the kindness and support here is like a breath of fresh air. I'm inspired to confess something I haven't told anyone. It will feel sooo good to get off my chest.
    My main motivation for getting in shape and losing weight is that I'm still in love with my ex boyfriend. We've been friends for 13 years, dated for two, and I broke up with him about a year ago. He is exactly the kind of man I want to be with, but I broke up with him because I never believed that he was in love with me. There were lots of reasons I felt that way and I tried to work out those issues with him, but every time he would just say "I'm just not good enough for you", and nothing would get resolved.
    So here's how I picture it in my mind. I'm going to get super hot and he's going to tell me he can't live without me and we're going to live happily ever after and have 1 million beautiful red headed babies...
    OR
    I'm going to get super hot, he's still going to be super uninterested, but I'll be super hot so it won't matter and I'll be able to move on.
    Phew I'm so glad I got to tell someone. My friends would all tsk me for having feelings for a guy that they feel wasn't the one for me. And double tsk for all the times he broke my heart.
  • DressedInDreams
    DressedInDreams Posts: 96 Member
    edited March 2015
    Never mind I give up on trying to quote posts from my phone.
    I fail.
  • littled1986
    littled1986 Posts: 101 Member
    Now it's quiet here and I'm kind of embarrassed by my last post.
  • tincanonastring
    tincanonastring Posts: 3,944 Member
    Now it's quiet here and I'm kind of embarrassed by my last post.

    Don't be. You're amongst friends, even if we're not all here at the moment. I think we all have a secret motivation, even if it's just a little thing.
  • shannonbun
    shannonbun Posts: 168 Member
    My boyfriend just sent me some chocolate and candy from England (he's there, I'm in the US) and I already hid it away so I wouldn't binge on it. One day I can touch it, but not for quite a while!

    Kinda sad that I have to hide the food not to eat it...
  • caddir
    caddir Posts: 150 Member
    2tew wrote: »
    Lois_1989 wrote: »
    My confession: I live vicariously through the people in this forum, because I have no physical friends. It's like watching the group of cool kids in the playground back when I was at school. :|

    ^^^This

    Me too :(
  • lunargodess
    lunargodess Posts: 5 Member
    Ok here goes. So, I like to have "chips & cheese" as my mom always called it while I was growing up. Just tortilla chips with cheddar and melted in the microwave. Recently I have been craving them more than usual. So this past week I laid down the chips and grabbed a massive handful of shredded cheddar cheese and spread over the top. Then I added another layer with another handful of cheese on top. And I ate it all. And have done it twice more since. I don't know why I'm craving cheese like this, but it can go away any time now!
  • ShibaEars
    ShibaEars Posts: 3,928 Member
    Ok here goes. So, I like to have "chips & cheese" as my mom always called it while I was growing up. Just tortilla chips with cheddar and melted in the microwave. Recently I have been craving them more than usual. So this past week I laid down the chips and grabbed a massive handful of shredded cheddar cheese and spread over the top. Then I added another layer with another handful of cheese on top. And I ate it all. And have done it twice more since. I don't know why I'm craving cheese like this, but it can go away any time now!

    Mmmm, I love cheesy chips like that. I've been craving cheese in a big way for a few weeks now. It's on everything. But I'm fitting it in my calories, so it's not a big deal.
  • ShibaEars
    ShibaEars Posts: 3,928 Member
    Now it's quiet here and I'm kind of embarrassed by my last post.

    Don't be. You're amongst friends, even if we're not all here at the moment. I think we all have a secret motivation, even if it's just a little thing.

    Yep, we all have our secret motivators. Part of mine is refusing to let my ex (that I mentioned in a previous post) have the satisfaction of saying I gained weight after we broke up. I did gain some weight, but it was due to other reasons.
  • 47Jacqueline
    47Jacqueline Posts: 6,993 Member
    I'm a bit freaked out right now. I volunteered to substitute teach an aquatic class of pregnant women and I have no clue what women go through during pregnancy. The only knowledge I have is through modules on special populations in the three fitness certifications I earned.
  • Francl27
    Francl27 Posts: 26,371 Member
    Ok here goes. So, I like to have "chips & cheese" as my mom always called it while I was growing up. Just tortilla chips with cheddar and melted in the microwave. Recently I have been craving them more than usual. So this past week I laid down the chips and grabbed a massive handful of shredded cheddar cheese and spread over the top. Then I added another layer with another handful of cheese on top. And I ate it all. And have done it twice more since. I don't know why I'm craving cheese like this, but it can go away any time now!

    I've actually tried doing that and it didn't turn out as good as I had hoped... the cheese doesn't melt properly or something :(
  • littled1986
    littled1986 Posts: 101 Member
    ShibaEars wrote: »
    Yep, we all have our secret motivators. Part of mine is refusing to let my ex (that I mentioned in a previous post) have the satisfaction of saying I gained weight after we broke up. I did gain some weight, but it was due to other reasons.

    That would motivate me, too. I haven't gained since we broke up but I've been struggling with my weight for a long time. (thank God I finally figured out how to get rid of it). I often wonder if my weight was why he seemed so disinterested in me :\

  • LBuehrle8
    LBuehrle8 Posts: 4,044 Member
    shannonbun wrote: »
    My boyfriend just sent me some chocolate and candy from England (he's there, I'm in the US) and I already hid it away so I wouldn't binge on it. One day I can touch it, but not for quite a while!

    Kinda sad that I have to hide the food not to eat it...

    @shannonbun‌
    My boyfriend is in England and I'm in the states too! :(
  • curlylocks302
    curlylocks302 Posts: 38 Member
    In my IRL, I have absolutely no one that shares my interests.

    I haven't played Dungeons and Dragons in 10 years.

    No one to argue about who the greatest Green Lantern is.

    No one to geek out about the latest Marvel Legends Figures, I GOT THE NEW IRONFIST
    FIGURE IT'S FREAKING AWESOME.

    I'm the Chubby guy in karate so I'm kinda like a pariah, I do the motions but my side kick and round houses aren't even remotely good or high, so I'm not into Tournaments and you know, if you're not bringing in Trophies for the Dojo.. . . . Oh but Matt, Sensei says "Good Job Matt at least 5-6 times an hour.

    No one to talk to about the New Star Wars, because you know, people are concerned that the crossguard lightsaber the new Villain is wielding in the first teaser would chop his own hands off if he started twirling it around, but my point is, that dude isn't trying to twirl anything, he's just going to over head chop everything like Darth Vader did, he's a Vader Worshipping Acolyte, that's my opinion on that. BTW, I think Luke is the mastermind Dark Lord that doesn't appear until the end of the first movie. In the original script for Star Wars, after Vader dies on the Death Star, Luke picks up his helmet and puts it on and says "I'm Vader now!" but, they changed the script for marketability.



    I play every week!!! My current character is a half orc barbarian. Well. in that game. In our Noir Savage Worlds game I am an alcoholic detective who is also a double agent for the Irish mob who can sense an objects past by touch....

    And I think the sword is ridiculous. Having the light so close to the hilt is dangerous, no matter how you are swinging it. He's going to have Luke as a hand twin soon enough.

    I'd love to see a Dark!Luke. I'm not a fan of the goody heros (him, superman, spiderman) I need my people to have a darkside (The Punisher, dare I say Bruce Banner?)

    Where my other geeks at!?

  • tincanonastring
    tincanonastring Posts: 3,944 Member
    Francl27 wrote: »
    Ok here goes. So, I like to have "chips & cheese" as my mom always called it while I was growing up. Just tortilla chips with cheddar and melted in the microwave. Recently I have been craving them more than usual. So this past week I laid down the chips and grabbed a massive handful of shredded cheddar cheese and spread over the top. Then I added another layer with another handful of cheese on top. And I ate it all. And have done it twice more since. I don't know why I'm craving cheese like this, but it can go away any time now!

    I've actually tried doing that and it didn't turn out as good as I had hoped... the cheese doesn't melt properly or something :(

    You have to put it in the oven. A friend told me.
  • littled1986
    littled1986 Posts: 101 Member
    Mmmm.... Cheesy chips... Drool
  • Lois_1989
    Lois_1989 Posts: 6,410 Member
    edited March 2015
    caddir wrote: »
    2tew wrote: »
    Lois_1989 wrote: »
    My confession: I live vicariously through the people in this forum, because I have no physical friends. It's like watching the group of cool kids in the playground back when I was at school. :|

    ^^^This

    Me too :(

    It seems we are all living through each other. Does that mean we are now the cool kids? Or does that break some sort of space and time law?
  • Lois_1989
    Lois_1989 Posts: 6,410 Member
    In my IRL, I have absolutely no one that shares my interests.

    I haven't played Dungeons and Dragons in 10 years.

    No one to argue about who the greatest Green Lantern is.

    No one to geek out about the latest Marvel Legends Figures, I GOT THE NEW IRONFIST
    FIGURE IT'S FREAKING AWESOME.

    I'm the Chubby guy in karate so I'm kinda like a pariah, I do the motions but my side kick and round houses aren't even remotely good or high, so I'm not into Tournaments and you know, if you're not bringing in Trophies for the Dojo.. . . . Oh but Matt, Sensei says "Good Job Matt at least 5-6 times an hour.

    No one to talk to about the New Star Wars, because you know, people are concerned that the crossguard lightsaber the new Villain is wielding in the first teaser would chop his own hands off if he started twirling it around, but my point is, that dude isn't trying to twirl anything, he's just going to over head chop everything like Darth Vader did, he's a Vader Worshipping Acolyte, that's my opinion on that. BTW, I think Luke is the mastermind Dark Lord that doesn't appear until the end of the first movie. In the original script for Star Wars, after Vader dies on the Death Star, Luke picks up his helmet and puts it on and says "I'm Vader now!" but, they changed the script for marketability.



    I play every week!!! My current character is a half orc barbarian. Well. in that game. In our Noir Savage Worlds game I am an alcoholic detective who is also a double agent for the Irish mob who can sense an objects past by touch....

    And I think the sword is ridiculous. Having the light so close to the hilt is dangerous, no matter how you are swinging it. He's going to have Luke as a hand twin soon enough.

    I'd love to see a Dark!Luke. I'm not a fan of the goody heros (him, superman, spiderman) I need my people to have a darkside (The Punisher, dare I say Bruce Banner?)

    Where my other geeks at!?

    I kind of am in the sense that I enjoy watching, wouldn't say I full on nerd out though I'm afraid. Definitely looking forward to the new Star Wars!
  • 81Katz
    81Katz Posts: 7,074 Member
    This thread makes me think of that song about the cool kids, how they wish they could be like the cool kids, like the cool kids yahhhh.. something like that. :wink:
  • caryb2015
    caryb2015 Posts: 38 Member
    shannonbun wrote: »
    My boyfriend just sent me some chocolate and candy from England (he's there, I'm in the US) and I already hid it away so I wouldn't binge on it. One day I can touch it, but not for quite a while!

    Kinda sad that I have to hide the food not to eat it...

    This never works for me. I have never, ever forgotten where I hide chocolate or candy.
  • Vixenmd1
    Vixenmd1 Posts: 146 Member
    I recently realized my husbands current picture of me on his phone that pops up when I call is a shot of my cleavage.. And my confession is I thought it was cute. He also has a nice picture of me as his background so the cleavage shot is only when I call
    My last two confessions have been deep and feelful. Here's some small ones to lighten the mood!

    Confession: I have Siri set to call me, "Oh, Great Bearded One." When she responds, "What do you need me to do, Oh Great Bearded One?" I lol. Every time.

    Confession: Earlier this week, I worked from home an extra day and blamed it on Thing 1 not feeling good and needing to be around in case he had to be picked up from daycare. Today at noon, daycare called and told me to come pick up Thing 2 because she wasn't feeling well.

    Confession: My wife is, um, top heavy. I have various boob-related nicknames for her, and by various I mean at least more than 10. For a while, her name in my phone was Lady Popems McBoobsalot.

  • littled1986
    littled1986 Posts: 101 Member
    I'm living through everyone here that are eating tasty snacks
  • therealklane
    therealklane Posts: 2,172 Member
    Vixenmd1 wrote: »
    I recently realized my husbands current picture of me on his phone that pops up when I call is a shot of my cleavage.. And my confession is I thought it was cute. He also has a nice picture of me as his background so the cleavage shot is only when I call
    My last two confessions have been deep and feelful. Here's some small ones to lighten the mood!

    Confession: I have Siri set to call me, "Oh, Great Bearded One." When she responds, "What do you need me to do, Oh Great Bearded One?" I lol. Every time.

    Confession: Earlier this week, I worked from home an extra day and blamed it on Thing 1 not feeling good and needing to be around in case he had to be picked up from daycare. Today at noon, daycare called and told me to come pick up Thing 2 because she wasn't feeling well.

    Confession: My wife is, um, top heavy. I have various boob-related nicknames for her, and by various I mean at least more than 10. For a while, her name in my phone was Lady Popems McBoobsalot.


    Now that's a keeper for sure. Haha. Love it.
  • threnjen
    threnjen Posts: 687 Member
    So I was so busy reading this thread that I forgot I was filling up my 90 gallon aquarium and it overflowed. It's not actually funny at all, legit emergency and I have probably irrevocably ruined the wood floor underneath the stand :( Plus I'm worried now about weakening due to water damage.
  • Vixenmd1
    Vixenmd1 Posts: 146 Member
    Oh he is and my other confession is I ended our engagement when J was 20 and NEVER got iver him. We didn't talk for 13 years. When he found me again(FB) we started talking then finally saw each other in person again. The first thing he said is it is really you the girl I feel in love when she was 16 .. I am a tough girl but it melted my heart and there was no turning back now we are married 4.5 years and it was like 17 years after he first asked me
    Vixenmd1 wrote: »
    I recently realized my husbands current picture of me on his phone that pops up when I call is a shot of my cleavage.. And my confession is I thought it was cute. He also has a nice picture of me as his background so the cleavage shot is only when I call
    My last two confessions have been deep and feelful. Here's some small ones to lighten the mood!

    Confession: I have Siri set to call me, "Oh, Great Bearded One." When she responds, "What do you need me to do, Oh Great Bearded One?" I lol. Every time.

    Confession: Earlier this week, I worked from home an extra day and blamed it on Thing 1 not feeling good and needing to be around in case he had to be picked up from daycare. Today at noon, daycare called and told me to come pick up Thing 2 because she wasn't feeling well.

    Confession: My wife is, um, top heavy. I have various boob-related nicknames for her, and by various I mean at least more than 10. For a while, her name in my phone was Lady Popems McBoobsalot.


    Now that's a keeper for sure. Haha. Love it.