What nobody could have told you a month ago: that having to plan your meals and find ways to work out during quarantine conditions will be a welcome distraction from the stress of living through a pandemic.
I find that my anxiety is relieved by being in control of things. I have partners whose anxiety is relieved by me being in control of things. However, many of the things I was in control of are things that I cannot exercise control over either due to the pandemic or due to other factors in our lives. Well, thank the gods I can still control what goes into my mouth!
I never would have guessed that a crisis like this just makes me stick to the diet stronger and harder, and look for ways to exercise.
I'm exactly the same though my food options have changed a bit but I feel like I have control over my food and exercise right now. I was even gifted macadamian chocolates from Hawaii and haven't gotten into it and I suck at moderation, I'm really surprised!
Couple other random things- being able to bend over with no rolls smothering me is so strange! Hitting goal was a combo of happiness, disbelief, and shock and I burst into tears. This one is kind of stupid but I was in the shower and felt a lump above my belly button. I started freaking out thinking I had a hernia but it's actually stiff around the belly button where my "innie" is, didn't realize it wasn't just an indent! Could also be because I had three surgeries through my belly button but it really surprised me. I was on a car trip and put pretzels on my lap. I was reading at the same time and was surprised I ate them all without noticing. Turned out when I got up they'd fallen between my thighs, I actually have a thigh gap!
I tempted fate and made a cake for my husband. As a result I had three NSVs:
1. Only ate one very small piece and was completely satisfied.
2. Froze the remainder of cake in small single size servings
3. Got frosting on my fingers in the process of freezing cake, Was not even interested in licking the frosting off my fingers.
Life is good! Keep up the NSV reporting, you all inspire me!!
Very stressful and emotional 24 hours. Didn’t meet goal, but should be only 3 calories over maintenance, which is still OK.
Have been both wildly craving calorie laden food today, or else been totally off food for a few hours here and there. Weird and inconsistent, and first time I’ve actually experienced strong cravings, but at least I’m not shoveling handfuls of chocolate into my mouth. I still have two pre-logged snacks and a latte left for this evening to comfort myself with.
Oh and I had my first food dream last night. My mom, notorious for diet sabotage, handed me an entire tray of cupcakes. It was rather a fascinating dream because I ate them slowly and savored the taste, which I could taste in the dream, and was still wringing my hands over eating a third when I woke up. I can restrain myself even in my dreams. Surely that’s an NSV?
Very stressful and emotional 24 hours. Didn’t meet goal, but should be only 3 calories over maintenance, which is still OK.
Have been both wildly craving calorie laden food today, or else been totally off food for a few hours here and there. Weird and inconsistent, and first time I’ve actually experienced strong cravings, but at least I’m not shoveling handfuls of chocolate into my mouth. I still have two pre-logged snacks and a latte left for this evening to comfort myself with.
Oh and I had my first food dream last night. My mom, notorious for diet sabotage, handed me an entire tray of cupcakes. It was rather a fascinating dream because I ate them slowly and savored the taste, which I could taste in the dream, and was still wringing my hands over eating a third when I woke up. I can restrain myself even in my dreams. Surely that’s an NSV?
I sometimes dream about food, but I think there must be some "hidden meaning" or something, because I never wake up hungry. Who knows what that could be about?
And sure, your craving restraint is definitely an NSV!
I hurt my knee yesterday, and I am bouncing back far quicker than I expected to, considering the amount of pain I was in yesterday. I didn't realize until just now that my weight loss is probably a big factor in that. On the flip side, I think I had this idea in my head that my body was impervious to these freak accidents because my weight was lower, but that isn't the case at all. I legit just sat down funny while putting something on my wall (sitting down sideways). I have to remember my coordination isn't better, and that weird injuries can still happen. My dad recommended working on my flexibility, which is probably not a bad idea in general.
I hurt my knee yesterday, and I am bouncing back far quicker than I expected to, considering the amount of pain I was in yesterday. I didn't realize until just now that my weight loss is probably a big factor in that. On the flip side, I think I had this idea in my head that my body was impervious to these freak accidents because my weight was lower, but that isn't the case at all. I legit just sat down funny while putting something on my wall (sitting down sideways). I have to remember my coordination isn't better, and that weird injuries can still happen. My dad recommended working on my flexibility, which is probably not a bad idea in general.
Update: I keep freaking out because I think my knee's swollen from how big the kneecap looks. Then I look at my other knee. Nope, knees are just bumpy in general now. Why are knees like this at a normal weight? Why must they be so...protruding? I'm used to my knee looking almost flat when it is straightened out.
A sincerely wierd one here. I had a convincing nightmare my hair was crumbling to the touch, and people were pointing at me and saying “you lost weight too fast”. Boy, was I relieved to wake up and realize I still had my hair.
Maybe I need to back off reading the boards for a while, lol.
With everyone around me losing control over food indulgences during the lockdown, I'm finding it reassuring to be managing what I'm eating. It has been really hard working at home and getting out for daily exercise. I'd be interested to know how others are managing right now.
I’m eating better on lockdown. I have complete control over all food in my environment, my family is captive, and no picky eaters drop in to be parented, fed and play with my offspring. Everyone is on board with loaded salads for lunch or sweet potato, broccoli and salmon for dinner.
Time formerly wasted in commute or spent soothing autism meltdowns triggered by school stressors is now time I walk the dogs, get in a workout and play more with said offspring.
If it weren’t for the death, destruction and despair, I would be loving this.
That when you reach your or even surpass your goal weight, you may find that you have so many bones that you can feel as you go to sleep, that you may find yourself sleeping with tons more pillows all around you for the "padding" you used to have!
How much differently you will look as you get down to size. I didn't have a lot of pics of myself when I was obese, because I hated taking pics of myself, but the ones I have I look like my own daughter--totally and completely different.
How important posture is. Now that I'm slim, I love having my pics taken and noticed from some of them how awful my posture is. So, now I purposely am paying closer attention to my posture, especially when sitting.
I hurt my knee yesterday, and I am bouncing back far quicker than I expected to, considering the amount of pain I was in yesterday. I didn't realize until just now that my weight loss is probably a big factor in that. On the flip side, I think I had this idea in my head that my body was impervious to these freak accidents because my weight was lower, but that isn't the case at all. I legit just sat down funny while putting something on my wall (sitting down sideways). I have to remember my coordination isn't better, and that weird injuries can still happen. My dad recommended working on my flexibility, which is probably not a bad idea in general.
Update: I keep freaking out because I think my knee's swollen from how big the kneecap looks. Then I look at my other knee. Nope, knees are just bumpy in general now. Why are knees like this at a normal weight? Why must they be so...protruding? I'm used to my knee looking almost flat when it is straightened out.
Update update on the knee saga. Unfortunately not great news. Went to the doctor to get the knee checked out, just in case. It was a telehealth appointment but he thinks it is a classic case of a meniscus tear. Because of the amount of pain I had been in when the meniscus slipped out of place (with deep knee bends + twisting), surgery may be on the table. Fortunately, it's a common outpatient procedure - unfortunately, it's so common that shutdown orders don't allow it right now, so I have to be cautious with my knee.
The "what nobody tells you" part of all this - I think I had this idea in my head that losing weight would make me invincible, that my body would somehow be immune from these things because I'm not overweight anymore. That's obviously not the case. I'm sure that this probably would have been much worse if I had the extra 70 pounds on me, but that doesn't stop the fact that sitting cross-legged or crouching down are no-no activities right now, when before I didn't have to even think about my body and the way it moved.
That it will change the way you do even very simple small things. I noticed i don't sit the same way anymore.
I never understood how people could sit cross legged (with one leg over the other) with any comfort and I notice myself sitting that way consistently recently at work. Such a strange thing!
Ugh, i lost my weight in a slow and I think pretty healthy way and my hair definitely still thinned. Its not horrible but I think in some ways its just a bit unavoidable. I'm vain about my hair too but I am trying to remember that the reason I am vain about my hair is that it used to be about the only thing i would ever get compliments on and that how now i look and feel so much better overall. Its worth it even if my hair doesn't look as great
It’s been great reading through all the posts on here!
One for me was nobody told me that once I got close to my goal weight, I would have to argue my case that I still have a 6lbs to lose! So many people keep saying that I don’t need to lose anymore, even though I’m still just outside the healthy weight range for my height. I’m sure they’re being nice and it’s because I’ve come down from a much larger size (5 stone down), but it’s frustrating having to justify myself.
- Enjoying looking at myself in the mirror
- Buying clothing which stops above my knees and liking what I look like when wearing them in unexpected photos
- Being able to hike up mountains and feel great (instead of like I’m dying)
- Not having to wear shorts under skirts anymore because of chub rub
- Not having to wear a crop top over my bra everyday to keep my boobs in place and help back fat rolls
- Sitting on plane/bus/train seats and having room
- Not being sweaty and gross all the time
- Wearing short sleeves because my bingo wings are disappearing
- Being able to wear my husbands sweaters
- Constantly taking too big clothing to the changing room cause I’ve got smaller than I realise
- Having to hold my pants up with a belt
- Leaving too much room when passing by people because I’m smaller than I realise
- Being able to wear multiple layers of clothing without feeling like a mashmellow
- Being able to grab tops at the markets and they fit or are oversized without trying them on
- Underwear no longer digs into my sides
- Having my husband demanding to feel my muscles every other day
That most of the "skinny" clothes I kept as motivation to lose the baby weight, I would never wear again even though I now fit into them. What I enjoyed wearing at 28, with an active social life, is not what I want to wear now I'm at home with two kids. It was nice to try them on, and to feel an achievement, but buying new clothes is more fun than wearing old impractical, uncomfortable ones. I have no idea why I kept scratchy skinny jeans for 4 years, or a strappy bikini that kids pull down in public.
That you will set off alarms in the hospital when they hook you up to a heart monitor because your resting heart rate is so low. Not because you have a heart condition, but because you are in really good shape.
Everything seems to change. Before I avoided mirrors, but since losing 120 lbs, and getting into better shape, I love mirrors...I'm become somewhat of a narcissist (gotta be careful on that score..._). And the real surprise, was that since losing the weight, my heart health has improved, as has my circulation...mentally though, my ....sexual libido and desire....has exploded. TMI I know, but there it is...
All my clothe fit nice, some a little loose, wow this is wonderful when everything I had I could not breathe when I wore my clothes, had to unbutton jeans and stuff all the time, especially in the ride home from somewhere.
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I'm exactly the same though my food options have changed a bit but I feel like I have control over my food and exercise right now. I was even gifted macadamian chocolates from Hawaii and haven't gotten into it and I suck at moderation, I'm really surprised!
Couple other random things- being able to bend over with no rolls smothering me is so strange! Hitting goal was a combo of happiness, disbelief, and shock and I burst into tears. This one is kind of stupid but I was in the shower and felt a lump above my belly button. I started freaking out thinking I had a hernia but it's actually stiff around the belly button where my "innie" is, didn't realize it wasn't just an indent! Could also be because I had three surgeries through my belly button but it really surprised me. I was on a car trip and put pretzels on my lap. I was reading at the same time and was surprised I ate them all without noticing. Turned out when I got up they'd fallen between my thighs, I actually have a thigh gap!
1. Only ate one very small piece and was completely satisfied.
2. Froze the remainder of cake in small single size servings
3. Got frosting on my fingers in the process of freezing cake, Was not even interested in licking the frosting off my fingers.
Life is good! Keep up the NSV reporting, you all inspire me!!
Have been both wildly craving calorie laden food today, or else been totally off food for a few hours here and there. Weird and inconsistent, and first time I’ve actually experienced strong cravings, but at least I’m not shoveling handfuls of chocolate into my mouth. I still have two pre-logged snacks and a latte left for this evening to comfort myself with.
Oh and I had my first food dream last night. My mom, notorious for diet sabotage, handed me an entire tray of cupcakes. It was rather a fascinating dream because I ate them slowly and savored the taste, which I could taste in the dream, and was still wringing my hands over eating a third when I woke up. I can restrain myself even in my dreams. Surely that’s an NSV?
I sometimes dream about food, but I think there must be some "hidden meaning" or something, because I never wake up hungry. Who knows what that could be about?
And sure, your craving restraint is definitely an NSV!
Update: I keep freaking out because I think my knee's swollen from how big the kneecap looks. Then I look at my other knee. Nope, knees are just bumpy in general now. Why are knees like this at a normal weight? Why must they be so...protruding? I'm used to my knee looking almost flat when it is straightened out.
Maybe I need to back off reading the boards for a while, lol.
Time formerly wasted in commute or spent soothing autism meltdowns triggered by school stressors is now time I walk the dogs, get in a workout and play more with said offspring.
If it weren’t for the death, destruction and despair, I would be loving this.
How much differently you will look as you get down to size. I didn't have a lot of pics of myself when I was obese, because I hated taking pics of myself, but the ones I have I look like my own daughter--totally and completely different.
How important posture is. Now that I'm slim, I love having my pics taken and noticed from some of them how awful my posture is. So, now I purposely am paying closer attention to my posture, especially when sitting.
Update update on the knee saga. Unfortunately not great news. Went to the doctor to get the knee checked out, just in case. It was a telehealth appointment but he thinks it is a classic case of a meniscus tear. Because of the amount of pain I had been in when the meniscus slipped out of place (with deep knee bends + twisting), surgery may be on the table. Fortunately, it's a common outpatient procedure - unfortunately, it's so common that shutdown orders don't allow it right now, so I have to be cautious with my knee.
The "what nobody tells you" part of all this - I think I had this idea in my head that losing weight would make me invincible, that my body would somehow be immune from these things because I'm not overweight anymore. That's obviously not the case. I'm sure that this probably would have been much worse if I had the extra 70 pounds on me, but that doesn't stop the fact that sitting cross-legged or crouching down are no-no activities right now, when before I didn't have to even think about my body and the way it moved.
Ugh, i lost my weight in a slow and I think pretty healthy way and my hair definitely still thinned. Its not horrible but I think in some ways its just a bit unavoidable. I'm vain about my hair too but I am trying to remember that the reason I am vain about my hair is that it used to be about the only thing i would ever get compliments on and that how now i look and feel so much better overall. Its worth it even if my hair doesn't look as great
One for me was nobody told me that once I got close to my goal weight, I would have to argue my case that I still have a 6lbs to lose! So many people keep saying that I don’t need to lose anymore, even though I’m still just outside the healthy weight range for my height. I’m sure they’re being nice and it’s because I’ve come down from a much larger size (5 stone down), but it’s frustrating having to justify myself.
I have reasons for hating lettuce, not because it is an unpleasant food, but more that little beasties can creep in between the leaves. Ugh.
- Buying clothing which stops above my knees and liking what I look like when wearing them in unexpected photos
- Being able to hike up mountains and feel great (instead of like I’m dying)
- Not having to wear shorts under skirts anymore because of chub rub
- Not having to wear a crop top over my bra everyday to keep my boobs in place and help back fat rolls
- Sitting on plane/bus/train seats and having room
- Not being sweaty and gross all the time
- Wearing short sleeves because my bingo wings are disappearing
- Being able to wear my husbands sweaters
- Constantly taking too big clothing to the changing room cause I’ve got smaller than I realise
- Having to hold my pants up with a belt
- Leaving too much room when passing by people because I’m smaller than I realise
- Being able to wear multiple layers of clothing without feeling like a mashmellow
- Being able to grab tops at the markets and they fit or are oversized without trying them on
- Underwear no longer digs into my sides
- Having my husband demanding to feel my muscles every other day