JUST GIVE ME 10 DAYS - ROUND 61
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@tiabirdie56 OMG Kettle Chips! Salt and Vinegar or Jalapeño!! For me, RED LIGHT! PUT ON THE BRAKES!!
@AJB1014 What a milestone! Congrats! Sometimes I think it would be fun to try on wedding dresses. I never did that before we got married because I was a college student and I sew, so I always planned to make my own. I borrowed a sewing machine and sewed it in my dorm room. 🤷♀️8 -
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Female 5’1” Age 68.75 years
Started Keto WOE 7/17/17 (mid-Rnd 10)
*Travel no scale part of the time
Weight on 1/17/17 174.5 UGW ???SW Rnd 7 167 AW 165.8SW Rnd 61 130.0
SW Rnd 8 168* AW 166.1
SW Rnd 9 164.5* AW 165.5
SW Rnd 10 167 AW 165.3 Start Keto
SW Rnd 11 163 AW 163.5h
SW Rnd 12 162.5 AW 160.2
SW Rnd 13 159.5 AW 159.1
SW Rnd 14 158.5 AW 158.9
SW Rnd 15 158 AW 157.25
SW Rnd 16 156 AW 155.9
SW Rnd 17 155.5 AW 156.5
SW Rnd 18 157.5 AW 156.15
SW Rnd 19 155.5 AW 1
SW Rnd 20 155.5* AW 155
SW Rnd 21 154.5 AW 152.15
SW Rnd 22 152.5 AW 152.2
SW Rnd 23 151 AW 150.2
SW Rnd 24 150 AW 148.8
SW Rnd 25 147.5 AW 147.3
SW Rnd 26 148.5 AW 145.4
SW Rnd 27 146* AW 144.72
SW Rnd 28 145* AW 145.5
SW Rnd 29 146.5 AW 145.8
SW Rnd 30 146 AW 145.65
SW Rnd 31 146.5 AW 144.45
SW Rnd 32 144.5 AW 143.3
SW Rnd 33 141.5 AW 140.6
SW Rnd 34 140.0 AW 140.75
SW Rnd 35 139.5 AW 139.25
SW Rnd 36 138.5 AW 138.85
SW Rnd 37 139.0 AW 138.2
SW Rnd 38 139.5* AW 136.9
SW Rnd 39 137.0* No end/avg weight
SW Rnd 40 ???.?* 5 day avg 137.6
SW Rnd 41 137.5 AW 138.2
SW Rnd 42/36 138.0 AW 136.15
SW Rnd 43 136.5 AW 135.5
SW Rnd 44 133.5 AW 134.55
SW Rnd 45 134.0 AW 134.35
SW Rnd 46* 133.5 AW 133.28 (9 Days)
SW Rnd 47* 133.5 AW 133.0 (9 Days)
SW Rnd 48 133.5 AW 134.05
SW Rnd 49 134.0 AW 133.85
SW Rnd 50* 134.5 AW 134.6 (9 Days)
SW Rnd 51* 133.5 No scale on ship
SW Rnd 52* 134.0 AW 133.42 (6 Days)
SW Rnd 53 131.5 AW 131.9
SW Rnd 54 131.0 AW 131.6
SW Rnd 55* 131.5 AW 129.66
SW Rnd 56* 128.5 AW 130.7
SW Rnd 57 131.5 AW 130.85
SW Rnd 58/52 131.0 AW 130.6
SW Rnd 59 132.0 AW 131.3
SW Rnd 60 131.5 AW 131.85
Recommended viewing on Netflix or YouTube: The Magic Pill
Recommended reading: The Obesity Code by Jason Fung, MD
Recommended for the ladies https://www.facebook.com/JamesSmithPT/videos/1494099927361618/
What we need to succeed is a sustainable way of eating, not a DIET we go on and off.
This is NOT A DIET. It’s a LIFESTYLE.
12/3 130.0 Round 60 end weight
12/4 132.0 Totally expected. CARB LOAD! Satisfied my craving for veggies tempura yesterday! It’s been about 6 months since we last went there.
12/5 133.0 I hardly had any water yesterday and then set my bottle down when we were at Ethel M’s and forgot to pick it up! Carl got up early this morning to take friends to the airport and in an effort to be quiet, dropped something causing me to bolt upright in bed at 3:43AM. I tried to go back to sleep but that didn’t work. It could be the carbs from Monday but I think this higher weight is the result of getting up so early. So I’m having my coffee, and WILL weigh again later. Maybe I’ll try to nap later. I am not a napper. Gym this afternoon with Amy. Treadmill
12/6 131.5 Good day yesterday. Gym @2 today with Amy. Treadmill and weights. Grand-girls have basketball today @ 4:30- one player, one cheerleader. Then I think Jimmy John’s Unwich for dinner and music at Fiesta @6! Busy day!
12/7 132.0 No JJ’s or Fiesta yesterday. My hamstring and neck hurt and it was all I could do to sit on the bleachers and watch the ballgame. Our girls won - big time.
12/8 132.0 Hamstring was better yesterday but neck was not. Finally got to sleep at almost 2AM this morning. Used a 4 year expired “heat wrap” on my neck/shoulder.
12/9 132.0 Met up with Fluffy and her husband last evening. She was talking to another lady and somehow my diet crept into the conversation. She was saying, “Jaine could have . . . Oh no, you can’t eat that, well, (pause, repeat, pause, repeat) I said, “I CAN eat anything, I choose not to.” Then more to the other lady she said, “I’m so glad Joe likes me fluffy!” Personally, I’m glad I don’t take insulin or other diabetes meds or have to have my A1C checked multiple times per year. Went to bed just before midnight and I didn’t sleep well. I may sleep in the recliner tonight.
12/10 132.5 Went to champagne brunch, our OMAD. I ate Keto except a small spring roll HOWEVER, I drank way more champagne than I should have! Spent all day yesterday in a chair with the heating pad wrapped around my neck. Bought Salonpas to see if that would help my neck. It seems to be much better this morning but I’m worried that I will do something to aggravate it.
12/11 134.0 Delayed affect of the champagne? The only food I ate yesterday was a large Greek Salad. I weighed the same thing 3 months ago today, 2 days after our last cruise ended. Until I looked back at my journal and saw that, I was feeling quite distressed. I’m okay now. I know I overindulged on Sunday so as long as I stick to my plan, I’ll ride the wave and be back where I want to be in a couple of days.
I’ve had a realization about how I approached this WOE. Instead of quietly going on a restricted diet and keeping it to myself, I started telling everyone about keto. I think everyone who attends events in our neighborhood knows I’m doing it and now several other people are also doing it. Although only a few have mentioned my weight loss, I think others have noticed and decided to try it. My reward will be wearing that new dress to the community dinner on the 20th. I have chosen this WOE and I eat what I want. If I choose to indulge, that is my business. At our dinner, I will have green salad, protein, and perhaps a taste of dessert. I’m sure there will be potatoes which I will skip. It is amazing to me that I don’t miss so many of the things we used to eat regularly.8 -
R1: Lost 1.7 (SW 196.8 EW 195.1)
R2: Lost 0.7 (SW 195.1 EW 194.4)
R3: Gained 3.7 (SW 194.4 EW 198.1)
R4: Lost 2.8 (SW 198.1 EW 195.3)
R5: Lost 1.1 (SW 195.3 EW 194.2)
R6: Lost 0.8 (SW 194.2 EW 193.4)
R7: Lost 0.2 (SW 188.7 EW 188.5)
R8: Lost 1.7 (SW 188.9 EW 187.2)
R9: Lost 2.0 (SW 187.2 EW 185.2)
R10: Lost 0.5 (SW 185.2 EW 184.7)
R11: Lost 2.3 (SW 184.7 EW 182.4)
R12: Gained 0.5 (SW 182.4 EW 182.9)
R13: Lost 0.1 (SW 182.9 EW 182.8)
R14: Lost 0.9 (SW 182.8 EW 181.7)
CW: 181.7 (Retaining water, reached 179.5)
GW: 176.0
EW: TBD
I want to try to get to the lower 170s before my birthday this month which is on the 18th! Let's end the year well!
Day/Weight/Comment
12/04- 181.7
12/05-182.something
12/06-183.3- not doing so well. It's the week before finals week and I'm struggling mentally and diet-wise.
12/07-183.3
12/08-183.0- I'm feeling better now and am doing well today in every way. Having a really healthy day and I think it's going to end well as well so I feel better. Not going to backtrack anymore. Going to finish December strong.
12/09- 181.9- Had a successful day yesterday. Going to repeat today. My birthday is in 9 days and I want to be in the 170s for it if possible!
12/10- No weigh in. 8:30 AM final!
12/11- 180.7- Good. Now need to remember not to reverse my progress and keep going.
12/12
12/1312 -
Round 61: My 5th Round
F/23/5’3’’/OSW 59kg/RSW 56.9kg
Round 57 : -0.5kg
Round 58 : -0.2kg
Round 59 : No change
Round 60 : -1.1kg
12/04 – 56.9kg
12/05 – 57.2kg (+0.3kg)
12/06 - 57.0kg (-0.2kg)
12/07 - 56.8kg (-0.2kg)
12/08 – DNW
12/09 – DNW
12/10 – 57.0kg (+0.1kg)
12/11 – 56.7kg (-0.3kg)
12/12
12/13
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SW: 98.7KG
UGW: 80KG
Rd60 SW: 98.7KG EW: 95.5KG (-3.2KG)
This is my second round, very excited! My main goal for this round is to just not put weight on. December is a huge month of celebrations in Australia with Summer and Christmas but I'm going to try and stay focused during the many festivities coming up over the next 10 days!
Day/Weight/Comment
12/04 - 95.7kg - was a little relaxed today and it shows unfortunately
12/05 - DNW
12/06 - 97.1kg - to be expected has been a very festive week, hopefully can get back on track over the next few days
12/07 - DNW
12/08 - 95.6kg - very proud of my food and exercise efforts today, really took it to the next level!! Suspect I may be a little dehydrated though
12/09 - 95kg - another good day, did struggle with some cravings though
12/10 - 94.7kg - just waiting for that dreaded platuea, will try introducing some new exercise routines to hold it off - MORE WATER!
12/11 - 94.2kg - surprised with the result, total calories were down but I did eat a lot of bread. Still need more water!!
12/12
12/1311 -
Coming back after an extended break. I'll hop in this round, but I'm mainly just realistically hoping to maintain - a birthday for my middle son, a certain monthly event :P , and a holiday party are all during this round, which makes the downward trek tough. But I'm in a good enough headspace at the moment where simply maintaining won't make me get down on my progress (or lack of).
Female, 39, 5'5"
Starting weight: 167.5 (April 2018)
Current weight: 150.8
Ultimate goal: 135 (ish. May end higher if I get some muscle.)
12/04 - 150.8
12/05 - 150
12/06 - 151
12/07 - 151.4 (was definitely under the past two days, but started my period today, so this jump up is typical for me and generally resolves in a few days.)
12/08 - 151.4
12/09 - 150.6 (surprising considering last night was the holiday party. Maybe I managed to eat well portion-wise after all.)
12/10 - 149.6 (totally shocked as we had middle one's birthday treat - peanut butter pie - last night and I had a rather lazy day in general. But it's also the typical time cycle-wise that my weight goes back to what it would have been, so maybe it's all that. Or maybe the pie will sneak up on me tomorrow instead. lol)
12/11 - 149.8 (I'll totally take it. We ate out last night and also finished up the rest of the birthday pie, so I didn't expect there to be a loss. Happy to see it's just teeny fluctuation.)
12/12
12/1312 -
Starting Weight 175-178
Current Weight 155.0 end of round 60 (ended on a Monday, always my highest day of the week)
Goal Weight 140
Hopefully I can be really good in this round and be in the low 150's consistently. My DH will be gone this whole week on a business trip so it's just the kids and I. I haven't figured out if that is going to be good for me or really bad for me yet. I ended the last round kind of high so hoping to start this one lower right away. Ending on a Monday is probably never going to work in my favor. The weekends are my enemy!
12/04 - 153.4 This is what I was wanting to end the last round with, but that Taco Bell from Saturday night killed me for 2 days. Oh well, ate below calories again yesterday because I knew I was going to lunch today. My sister has been deployed for the last year and is coming home. We are all meeting her at the airport and taking her to lunch. Going to try and eat sensible, but no matter what I do I always gain when I eat out. At least I saw this today and I'm just going to enjoy myself. Hopefully won't hurt me to bad tomorrow. If I can finish this round at 152 or 151 I will be happy.
12/05 - 153.2 Loss of .2, I will take it. Went to lunch yesterday and still had a little loss. Little mile stones are what I need now. Chose healthy foods and didn't have an alcoholic drink. I also had a light dinner once I got home and it all worked out. Have my day planned again today, so maybe I will see 152.xx tomorrow.
12/06 - 152.4 Back down to last Saturdays weight. I have been all over the place this time around. I think my husband being gone this week has been a little more stressful than I thought it would be. Did well on calories yesterday and so far today. Hopefully by tomorrow or Saturday I will see a lower number.
12/07 - 152.3 Down an ounce I guess I can't complain. My husband will be home tomorrow, and am looking forward to having him back. I didn't realize how much he really does help, even if it just keeping the kids tamed so I can do dinner or homework,lol. He hasn't traveled in a long time for work, so him being gone a week has been harder than I thought. He used to do it all of the time and it never bothered me. Even my sleep has been off not having him there. The older kids have helped out though and really stepped up, so that's been good. I think this would have been lower, but I decided to have 3 chocolate mini candy bars last night at 9 pm. So going to do better today and see what my final weigh in tomorrow is for this week. Now to face the weekend! Uuggghh
12/08 - 151.1 Did't post but weighed
12/09 - 152.6 Busy weekend weighed but didn't post
12/10 - 153.9 There is my usual Monday bump from the weekend. Did really well Saturday. Not so great yesterday. Hopefully I fall tomorrow. We will see. Still should end with a loss this time.
12/11 - 152.1 Coming back down after the weekend. Did well yesterday, normal lunch, made tacos and beans for dinner. I can tell my portion sizes are getting smaller and fill me up without even thinking about it anymore. This round should end in the low 150's. I'm sure I will bounce around 151 and 150 for a week or so. It seems my body knows I am going to drop to a new decade and it holds onto it for dear life. So I don't expect to see 140 something until the end of the next round. It's ok, I'm used to eat anymore,lol. Slow progress is still progress
12/12
12/1311 -
Round 61
Please join us! Starting on 12/04 JUST GIVE ME 10 DAYS, we will begin Round 61
Anyone can join us at anytime during the round.
Join us! If we stay mindful we can do this, you can do this.
Welcome back past members, welcome new members, let's keep each other accountable for another 10 days!
Here is what you do: Post your daily weight and add little comments along the way of how your day went. Post everyday to let us know how you're doing! Copy and paste the days in your response--tell us how much you lost and other non scale victories (NSV) you'd like to share.
FOR NEWBIES - I find it easiest to copy the dates to a document or note in my device and edit it each morning. Then copy and paste to the message board. MFP will return you to the spot on the board where you left off on your previous visit which is nice to know if you like to scan all of the posts.
SW: 143.3
GW:140
Day/Weight/Comment
12/04 143.3 ~ (Steps 18,664) ~ Hopefully my weight will continue to drop, consistency is the key, NO to LNS.
12/05 142.2 ~ (Steps 21,741) ~ Yesterday was a really successful day for healthy food choices, it felt great getting a pool session in. Tonight my husband and I are going to Fantasy Lights after going out to dinner. My goal is to stick to healthy food choices for dinner.
12/06 - x - Struggled with my food yesterday, not proud 😈😭😫 of my food choices but onwards to making better food choices today.
12/07 144.4 ~ (Steps 22,846) ~ Yesterday, I was able to get a Body Works Class in finally. It’s been about two months since I’ve been able to make a class. I’m actually really sore, which is a good sore. Hopefully next Thursday I can make another class. My weight gain isn’t as bad as I thought it would be, I’ll take it. Here’s to the next 6 days making them count.....
12/08 144.9 ~ (Steps 17,177)
12/09 146.8 ~ (Steps 12,747) ~ I seriously need to get a handle on my food choices
12/10 146.8 ~ (Steps 18,623) ~ Yesterday I was able to get a couple nice workouts but eating late don’t help,
12/11 145.3 ~ (Steps 23,931) ~ Needless to say I was able to continue Christmas decorating, real successful day in eating healthy plus getting a pool session helped tremendously.
12/12
12/13
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@jenn990205, the weekend is my enemy too, I need to control Saturday especially, 5
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brightresolve wrote: »This challenge helps me make MEANING out of the daily ups and downs that look so random and discouraging. When I keep my eye on the process (eating under my limit and getting some exercise so that isn't painful) and on the big picture (that 10-day average) I see that it's working.
@brightresolve
I do wonder if we should post average weights...3 -
High weight 237.7 (2012)
01/01/2016 228.3 Began 3-year plan to get thin/healthy
SW: 155 BMI: 23.2
RGW: <155
OGW: 169
GW: 155
UGW: 150-153
5’8.5”
Round 60: My 28th round!!
12/3 155.6 Not eating out ✅ or eating sugar ✅ until Fri nite if and only if I weigh under 155 Fri AM.
Trend wt: 155.3
Big caloric deficit 4 of last 5 days! Very pleased. I am successfully curbing my calories in little bits here & there, but they add up! Sleeping more.
I got my motivation back❣
1) I realized I exercise a ton. Three times what is “needed to be healthy.”
2) I can feel I’m adding muscle, so scale will stay steady but then drop. AND my goal is Health. Muscles = Health❣
3) I looked over all my monthly average data & saw I need to trim back calories eaten some. Did it!
12/4 155 BMI: 23.2! 👍🎉🌈🌟❣
Trend wt: 155.1
12/5 154.8
Trend wt: 155
12/6 154.4 A NEW LOW!! Trend wt: 154.8 Too exciting BMI: Now 23.1 🤩 successfully dropped my calorie intake by >300 per day, compared to November. Ate out breakfast & lunch, though...
12/7 154.8 salty restaurant dinner with my friend
12/8 157 😵 ate lunch out today with DH.
Note for future: Eating out ONCE leads to more days of the same — for me.
12/9 157.4 From Bad to Worse ☹️ I’m completely flummoxed. I never gain this much in 1-2 days. I’ve been exercising, eating fewer calories, drinking water, macros are my normal... sodium is low (although I have eaten out so maybe it’s higher??) a Complete Shock. The only explanation I can fathom is when I eat out, I estimate. At home, I weigh all foods. So accuracy is lower when I eat our. But I could not have been off 3,500 calories x 2.6 lbs over 2 days!
Ate my regular breakfast this morning. I’m sure “this, too, shall pass.”
Hope to be 155 again by end of this Round❗ I’m not worried, just really surprised. Maybe this is what I needed to decide in my heart if I’m going to maintain or lose now. #SilverLining
12/10 157 Continuing to do all the right things. Re-took measurements & they are the same. Lower body is more toned, though. Reminded myself that I’ve lost almost 35 lbs in the last year — even with this hiccup. Good practice for maintenance & a good reminder that I do much better if I don’t eat out.
12/11 155.4 Terrific. Didn’t eat out, walked a ton, rested, relaxed, ate with 400 calorie deficit.
Average for November 156.6lbs
Average for December (so far) 155.6
As long as my monthly averages go down, I’m good.
12/12
12/13
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Health!!! Focus on health! 🏃🏻♀️💪🏻🙏🏻💃♥🏆
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Round 34 to Round 59 —> 179.4 to lbs 155
-24.4 lbs in 27 Rounds!
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You. ARE Healthier. Than. You. Ever. Thought. Possible. #Grateful,soGrateful🍀🙏🏻🌈♥🌟🌈🍎
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Track Days at or under 155 for Round
4/8 😄❣❣❣❣
Goals:
Continue healthy routines through Nov 30...now Dec 3 now DEC 13
HIIT: 3 times per Round
10K steps daily, lower on HIIT days. (Figure out new daily avg figure with new HIIT workouts.)✅
PT x 3 daily✅
Eat my routine breakfast.✅
Limit 1) starches at dinner & 2) eating out.
Calories in under Calories Out Daily - at least by 100 calories- hopefully 200-300.✅
Mindfulness Stress Reduction✅
Listen to Simple Habits daily✅
Get More 💤 sleep 😴✅
Mini-goals scale goals:
157 (again) ✅
156 (again)✅
155 (again) BMI: 23.2
154.4 (again)BMI: 23.1
154 BMI: 23.1
153.8 BMI: 23
153.4 BMI: 23
153 - BMI: 22.9
I’d like to get here so I have 2 lbs safety zone. I intend to have 155 lbs. be my “Don’t Go Over Weight” unless it’s due to muscle gains
Monthly Average Weights Since May 2017 (rounded to whole numbers) :
221 May ‘17
216 June
214 July
210 Aug
204 Sept
200 Oct
196 November ‘17
191 December ‘17
187 Jan ‘18
183 Feb
179 Mar
174 Apr
170 May ‘18
168 June
166 July
162 Aug
159.5 September ‘18 broke arm
159.2 October ‘18 surgery for arm
156.6 November ‘18
155.6 December ‘18 (as of Dec 11)14 -
@MadisonMolly2017, this challenge is yours I loveeeee of posting average weights, 2
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GrandmaJackie wrote: »@MadisonMolly2017, this challenge is yours to help you succeed, go for it. I loveeeee the idea posting average weights,
Wow! Thank you @GrandmaJackie ❣️❣️❣️
Much appreciated & thank you for this Challenge, which has helped so many & me
Lots of hugs💞💞💞💞
Maddie
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MadisonMolly2017 wrote: »brightresolve wrote: »This challenge helps me make MEANING out of the daily ups and downs that look so random and discouraging. When I keep my eye on the process (eating under my limit and getting some exercise so that isn't painful) and on the big picture (that 10-day average) I see that it's working.
@brightresolve
I do wonder if we should post average weights...
I do in my spoiler, and got the habit from others. start, max, min, average. It's actually very reassuring!5 -
"Our greatest glory is, not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall." - Oliver GoldsmithStart this FINAL weight loss journey 10/18/2017 = 147.9
Start Just Give Me 10 Days ... 11/9/2017
R22 * Start = 143.4 * Ave = 141.9 * Min = 140.2 * End = 141.2
R23 * Start = 142.0 * Ave = 140.1 * Min = 139.4 * End = 139.6
R24 * Start = 140.0 * Ave = 138.6 * Min = 137.0 * End = 137.0
R25 * Start = 136.6 * Ave = 137.0 * Min = 135.8 * End = 135.8
R26 * Start = 136.6 * Ave = 135.6 * Min = 134.8 * End = 136.0
R27 * Start = 135.4 * Ave = 135.0 * Min = 133.4 * End = 134.0
R28 * Start = 135.2 * Ave = 133.5 * Min = 132.2 * End = 133.0
R29 * Start = 132.6 * Ave = 131.8 * Min = 130.6 * End = 131.8
R30 * Start = 132.4 * Ave = 131.4 * Min = 130.6 * End = 130.6
R31 * Start = 130.6 * Ave = 130.9 * Min = 130.0 * End = 130.8
R32 * Start = 130.0 * Ave = 130.0 * Min = 129.0 * End = 131.0
R33 * Start = 130.0 * Ave = 129.3 * Min = 128.4 * End = 129.2
R34 * Start = 129.0 * Ave = 128.7 * Min = 128.0 * End = 129.8
Maintenance Starts
R35 * Start = 128.6 * Ave = 128.7 * Min = 127.6 * End = 127.6
R36 * Start = 128.2 * Ave = 128.1 * Min = 127.2 * End = 127.4
R37 * Start = 127.2 * Ave = 126.9 * Min = 126.6 * End = n/a
R38 * Start = n/a * Ave = 127.5 * Min = 127.0 * End = 127.4
R39 * Start = 127.8 * Ave = 128.4 * Min = 127.2 * End = 129.8
R40 * Start = 129.0 * Ave = 128.4 * Min = 127.6 * End = 127.6
R41 * Start = 128.2 * Ave = 128.7 * Min = 128.0 * End = 128.4
R42 * Start = 129.2 * Ave = 128.2 * Min = 127.2 * End = 128.6
R43 * Start = 126.4 * Ave = 127.1 * Min = 126.0 * End = 127.8
R44 * Start = 128.6 * Ave = 128.0 * Min = 127.0 * End = 127.4
R45 * Start = 127.0 * Ave = 126.7 * Min = 125.4 * Max = 127.4
R46 * Start = 125.8 * Ave = 126.6 * Min = 125.8 * Max = 127.6
R47 * Start = 126.4 * Ave = 126.1 * Min = 124.6 * Max = 127.4
R48 * Start = 125.0 * Ave = 126.4 * Min = 125.0 * Max = 128.4
R49 * Start = 126.4 * Ave = 127.4 * Min = 125.6 * Max = 129.2
R50 * Start = 127.0 * Ave = 128.0 * Min = 127.0 * Max = 129.8
Break! Gained weight! Back!
R60 * Start = 133.6 * Ave = 131.7 * Min = 130.6 * Max = 133.6
About me: 62, 5'7", hit maintenance in March 2018 and, typical yoyo, currently bouncing back up over original goal weight of 130.
Want to get back to 127-128
Crept back to JGM10D quietly in Round 60, after intentionally sitting out a number of rounds, because I need the daily accountability that worked before.
12/4 - 131.2 - over maintenance calories yesterday. Really tired plus sugary treats in the evening. Dropping goal calories to the .5 loss goal for this round, and we shall see!
12/5 - 130.4 - just at my new calorie limit that should result in .5 a week loss. 7500 steps and I do eat back as much of the fitbit calorie adjustment as I want to, that's worked for me before.
12/6 - 130.0 - just at my new gentle-loss calorie limit. 8500 steps. Poor sleep last night, can make for a weak-willed day, so I am on guard.
12/7 - 130.4 - yep I was over on calories yesterday. 7800 steps. However, did get almost 9 hours of sleep last night, much needed. Today I have a wellness check Dr appointment, something I rarely do!
12/8 -130.8 - over on calories and under on steps yesterday, only 5000. The after work snacking got me. Still, doing better so far today.
12/9 - 130.8- just under my .5 loss plan calories for yesterday, 7000 steps. Took a lovely 2 mile walk with our little rescue dog this morning - we've had her for only about 6 weeks - she is doing so much better with the "snoot loop" type collar, no longer getting my arm pulled off when she sees a squirrel or another dog or a bicyclist or a runner or ...
12/10 - 131.0 - under maintenance but a bit over my modest-loss goal yesterday. 13500 steps though, included a 1.5 mile run with dogger. More than happy with the way my average is shaping up this challenge.
12/11 - 131.2 - WAAY over maintenance yesterday and only 6000 steps.
12/12
12/1311 -
@GrandmaJackie It is Sunday for me. My DH loves football and snacking all day. It's our day to have a couple of beers, eat, and relax. That means I gain at least 2 pounds, lol. It is worth it though!4
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Female, 5' 4 1/2 " age 53
This is my eigth round. I am thinking this is the perfect way to move through December, with mini-goals, support and comraderie. I would love to be at 155 by Christmas but will be happy just being solidly in the 150s! Let's make this a month of mindful celebrations taking time to appreciate our loved ones, our health, and our progress on this journey!
OSW 199 (June 15 2018)
Pre-challenge start weight 177
R54 SW 177 EW 175 (-2.0)
R55 SW 175 EW 171 (-4.0)
R56 SW 171 EW 170.5 (-0.5)
R57 SW 170.5 EW 169.5 (-1.0)
R58 SW 169.5 EW 166.5 (-3.0)
R59 SW 166.5 EW 164 (-2.5)
R60 SW 164 EW 159.5 (-4.5)
R61 SW 159.5 EW ???
CW 159.5
RGW 158
Goals--
Carbs < 40-
Steps/day > 12000
Exercise/walk 6 of 7 days/week
Day/Weight/Comment
12/04 -- 160 -- A bump up...but a small one. I ate well and exercised well and posted a big loss last round, so I am not going to let this bother me. NSV -- Yesterday friends invited me to hike with them. I really enjoy walking in the woods, and the company....but in order to make sure I got my exercise in I snuck out for a fast 4 mile walk through the neighborhood before meeting them at 9. So glad that that was my inclination, rather than just writing it off for the day!
12/05 -- 158 -- Now that was a big drop! Fasted until dinner....but then I ate a big portion of salmon and veggies and made myself a LC cake. My energy levels were great all day too!
12/06 -- 161 -- Wow! That's crazy. I'm all over the place this round. Possibly I hallucinated yesterday's scale reading. I also was lightheaded in the morning, so had several cups of broth and then had Chinese for dinner, so maybe I overdid it on the sodium. I will drink lots of water today. We shall see! NSV--I'm not freaking out in the least over the scale this morning, nor is it ruining my day!
12/07 -- 160.5 -- A little better. Skipped the walk yesterday and did a lot of raking leaves. My son helped when he got home from school for 30 minutes, so that I could dash off and catch 45 minutes of zumba. I don't know if he was being sweet when he asked me when I had to leave, or whether he was just trying to have us be done in the yard more quickly!
12/08 -- 158.5 -- I looked at my weight graph and realized this weirdness shouldn't surprise me, as this is what it always does! Drops down, then pops back up for a couple days before continuing down.
12/09 -- 158.5 -- Happy this number stuck around. Bacon & omeletter for breakfast and then dinner party last night. I indulged in some scallopped potatoes, slice of bread and chocolate cake. Mostly back to being good today.
12/10 -- 158.5 -- Slightly indulgent and carby day yesterday. Glad this number is holding.
12/11 -- 158.5 -- Christmas Brunch & carbs with friends this morning. Time to start drinking lots of water!
12/12
12/1312 -
R60 SW: 219.7 EW: 217.1 AW: 218.3
Goal: Stay focused on my elimination diet
Day/Weight/Comment
12/04--217.1
12/05--217.3
12/06--217.5
12/07--217.3
12/08--216.4 First time posting this round, but I was weighing. I was sick for a couple of days and not doing much. Going to my meeting this morning with the nutritionist since I started the elimination diet. She wants to review my food journal. When I was sick I realized how much I crave carbs for comfort...that was really difficult.
12/09--216.4 Great meeting with the nutritionist. She was impressed with my progress so far and was really encouraging. However, she did slap my hand for my inconsistent excercising, so that is what I am working on now. Based on reviewing my food journal, she thinks it may be the gluten and not the milk/eggs that are my problem. I will be seeing her in 2 weeks and then we should be starting to reintroduce some foods. Went to the gym this morning and plan on doing some cleaning and trying a new beef stew recipe.
12/10--216.7 I really need to work on getting my water in on the weekends. I think if I fill up a water container first thing in the morning, just like I do at work, I will have a visual reminder of needing to drink water. I was planning on trying an exercise class at my gym this evening, but I remembered that my football team is playing in MNF, so instead I will take the dog out for a long walk. I am going to aim for 3 miles.
12/11--217.5 I am very excited that I actually went out for a 3 mile walk in the cold and dark yesterday. Even though I was ready to stop at about 2 miles, my dog was also over it at that point, I pushed myself and finished up the last mile. It felt really good. Of course, when I went home I ate more than I should have, but I was still near my calorie goal for the day. I went to the gym this morning and tonight, with my husband out of the house, I plan to spend a relaxing evening watching some tv and hanging out with the dog.
12/12
12/13
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I am a 50 year old 5'5" woman. I am trying to get healthier to avoid diabetes and all of the problems that come from being overweight.
I have found this challenge to be both rewarding and frustrating! Looking at my weight daily has been a real eye opener to see all of the fluctuations and how a high carb day will affect me and the loss for 2-3 days after.
I need to step up my game if I want to meet any of my goals.
Start Weight Feb 2018 - 202
Next Goal - 170 I will get there, hopefully soon
Goal Weight July 2019 - 140
Round 40 - SW - 193.2- EW - 190.2 - Average weight over 10 days - 191.9
Round 41 - SW - 190.4 - EW - 190 - Average weight over 10 days - 191.2
Round 42 - SW - 187.8 - EW - 188.2 - Average weight over 10 days - 189.0
Round 43 - SW - 188.2 - EW - 188 - Average weight over 10 days - 187.8
Round 44 - SW - 188 - EW - 187.6 - Average weight over 10 days - 187.3
Round 45 - SW - 187.6 - EW - 186.6 - Average weight over 10 days - 187.7
Round 46 - SW - 186.6 - EW - 186.6 - Average weight over 10 days - 186.5
Round 47 - SW - 186.6 - EW - 183.2 - Average weight over 10 days - 184.5
Round 48 - SW - 183.2 - EW - 185.4 - Average weight over 10 days - 184.3
Round 49 - SW - 185.4 - EW - 183.0 - Average weight over 10 days - 184.1
Round 50 - SW - 182.6 - EW - 183.0 - Average weight over 10 days - 183.1
Round 51 - SW - 183.0 - EW - 183.0 - Average weight over 10 days - 182.5
Round 52 - SW - 181.2 - EW - 182.2 - Average weight over 10 days - 182.2
Round 53 – SW – 183.0 – EW – 182.0 – Average weight over 10 days – 183.2
Round 54 - SW - 179.0 - EW - 180.2 - Average weight over 10 days - 180.5
Round 55 - SW - 182.2 - EW - 180.4 - Average weight over 10 days - 181.4
Round 56 - SW - 181.4 - EW - 180.8 - Average weight over 10 days - 181.1
Round 57 - SW - 180.4 - EW - 179.8 - Average weight over 10 days - 178.9
Round 58 - SW - 179.8 - EW - 180.6 - Average weight over 10 days - 179.8
Round 59 - SW - 179.4 - EW - 178.4 - Average weight over 10 days - 180.1
Round 60 - SW - 178.8 - EW - 180.0 - Average weight over 10 Days - 179.3
Day/Weight/Comment
12/04 - 178.8 - Ate reasonably yesterday
12/05 - 178.6 - Hubby wanted burgers for supper last night from A&W, I agreed and usually don't have any myself but I was starving by the time I got there and ordered so I caved. Had fries too.... Way over in the red yesterday.
12/06 - 177.6 - Had an ok day again yesterday.
12/07 - 178.6 - Pretty sure this is sodium related today
12/08 178.6 overate yesterday
12/09 - 178.8 - high sodium bit hot a bad day yesterday really
12/10 - 178.4 - will be back on track today
12/11 - 178.8
12/12
12/1310 -
My name is Jen. I’ve been sitting at the low 200s for a while now trying everything to get my weight to budge. A great MFP friend suggested this group and so far it’s helping! The weight is still moving at a snails pace but at least it’s moving!
Round 56 SW - 207.4 EW - 206.8
Round 57 SW - 206.6 EW - 205.6
Round 58 SW - 205.6 EW - 206.2
Round 59 SW - 206.2 EW - 205.2
Round 60 SW - 205.2 EW - 205.8
12/3 - 205.8
12/4 - 205.4 - followed my eating plan, and no snacking after supper really helped. Need to drink more water today
12/5 - 205.4
12/6 - did not weigh
12/7 - 205.4
12/8 - 205.8. Happy with this after a day of no tracking.
12/9 - 207. We hosted a Christmas party last night. I didn’t overindulge but probably had more bad things than good. Lots of water today and tomorrow!
12/10 - 207.8
12/11 - 207 - I’ve been fighting a bad cold for over a week now so have lost all of my focus. I really need to get back to basics and will try my best to get a plan going.
12/12
12/1312 -
Round 61 - my 2nd
Female 43yo 5’4”
OSW: 225 (4/9/18)
CSW: 188.6
CGW: 186
End weight round 60: 189.4 (-2lb)
12/4 188.6
12/5 187.4 This may not stick. My calories were low yesterday and sometimes that makes the next day hard not to eat everything in sight. Will do my best and log everything! Did one hour of yoga yesterday too.
12/6 187.2 I’ll take it, had pizza for dinner and even though I stayed in my calorie range I didn’t know what to expect on the scale this morning
12/7 189.2 out to dinner last night, hope this is just water retention from sodium. 1 hour of yoga today
12/8 191.4 ?!? I felt pretty good about yesterday but obviously not as well as I thought. This is disappointing because I have been bouncing around 188-192 for a month and felt good about where I was two days ago.
12/9 191.2 not a lot of change but I didn’t expect one at all. I was sort of a bottomless pit last night. Water and walk today to shed the same 3 lbs. I have lost 10 times already in the last month.
12/10 189.2 coming back down. At this point I just hope to be back at my start wit for this challenge by the end
12/11 190.2 😒
12/12
12/13
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Round 47- SW 175 EW 170 (-5)
Round 48- SW 170 EW 166 (-4)
Round 49- SW 167 EW 165 (-2)
Round 50- SW 165 EW 163 (-2)
Round 51- SW 162 EW 160 (-2)
Round 52- SW 160 EW 157.5 (-2.5)
Round 53- SW 157.5 EW 156 (-1.5)
Round 54- SW 156 EW 153.5 (- 2.5)
Round 55- SW 153.5 EW 152 (-1.5)
Round 56- SW 152 EW 151 (-1)
Round 57- SW 151 EW 150 (-1)
Round 58- SW 150 EW 148 (-2)
Round 59- SW 147.5 EW 147.5 (-0)
Round 50- SW 147.5 EW 146 (-1.5)
5'4
RGW 144.5
Goal by Dec 31st 140
UGW 130-135
Round 61: (My 15th)
12/04 146
12/05 146
12/06 146 Holding steady. Can not believe how close we are to the end of the year. Thinking about the holidays makes me nervous. Even though my goal has been to get to 140 by the end of the year, I actually will be ok if I maintain my weight through the holiday and not gain! Sorry everyone, I have slacked off posting. I will make sure I post every day this round.
12/07 146 Surprise lol. It's all good though, better than a gain.
12/08 145.5 I'm happy for a little loss but surprised because the baby kept me up the past 2 nights so I'm running on only a couple hrs of sleep.
12/09 145.5 Slept a little better last night. Ate fast food yesterday evening because someone brought it to us for dinner, but I made sure I drank plenty of water.
12/10 145 So this means my BMI is normal (although I know BMI's can be misleading). 30 lbs loss since July 18th, this year. I'll be honest, I got to a point where I was really obsessive over the scale and what it said every day, and that was all I could focus on. I was weighing myself several times a day and I didn't realize it but I was becoming more self conscious, obsessive and depressed. I thought that if I didn't keep my mind focused on losing weight and weighing myself several times a day, then I wouldn't lose. I was wrong. Thank God I am now out of the obsessive mindset, and have been for several weeks. Anyone who is struggling with the mental end of this, know you are not alone but please please do some soul searching and work on changing it.. no telling where I would be mentally if I didn't.
12/11 145 Way late posting, I meant to this morning and got sidetracked.
12/12
12/1310 -
/04: Ready for a new healthy start, Steps are back up 10,000+.
12/05- went for a good walk today, the sun felt so good. steps 10,700
12/06- Trying to get over 10,000 steps, today it was snow I just had to dress warm and go.
12/07-I fell asleep on the couch last night, grandson never completely recovered from his cough back to the doctors and chest x-ray which was clear. We watched both grand children while their parents worked during the afternoon we did Christmas crafts. Back to walking steps today.
12/08- Planned meals for next week, bought lots of vegetables and fruit.
12/09- watching what I`m eating, I use to say no thank-you. a lot. Lots of vegetables and chicken today.
12/10- Trying to eat healthier, and exercise too.
12/11- Having a great week steps over 10,000 + daily, eating healthy lots of fruits and vegetables.
12/12
12/13
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So as I sit here & look at my posted weight going up & down & up & up, and as I sit here full from once again late night (between 8-10pm) mindless eating, I’m not mad at myself, I am proud of myself that I am continuing to weigh & post every morning, not giving up. I am proud that I realize what changes need to happen for me to be successful on this journey. I have joined this challenge in the past & have quit when I’ve been in this same situation - gaining.
I will continue & I will form a plan to follow for the next round, and the round after that & again after that.
I GOT THIS!!! 💥12 -
charlie9er wrote: »So as I sit here & look at my posted weight going up & down & up & up, and as I sit here full from once again late night (between 8-10pm) mindless eating, I’m not mad at myself, I am proud of myself that I am continuing to weigh & post every morning, not giving up. I am proud that I realize what changes need to happen for me to be successful on this journey. I have joined this challenge in the past & have quit when I’ve been in this same situation - gaining.
I will continue & I will form a plan to follow for the next round, and the round after that & again after that.
I GOT THIS!!! 💥
Thanks for posting this message. Totally inspired me to keep going too, no matter what.8 -
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GOALS
Keto on!
Explore a couple of vegan keto recipes
Complete Stage 1 of Shed & Shred 4+ days/ week
Take my hormone/ bc pills like it's my religion lol
During Round 1, went from 245-240ish. I use an analogue scale, so exact numbers aren't available. I have suffered with eating disorders so pulling my hair out over less than 2 lbs difference isn't healthy for me. As such, as with last round, I'm only posting my weight on days 1, 5, and 10.
Weight Notes of Interest
Highest Weight: 275 (years ago, culinary school, eating constantly)
Highest Weight Past 5 Years: 265
Highest Weight This Year: 255
Lowest Weight Past 10 Years: 235
Current Weight: 240ish
Soft Goal Weight: 175 (out of obese bmi with wiggle room)
Hopeful Goal Weight: 150
Day/Comment
12/04
Weight is 241 today. BUT... I took some pants out of the closet. We're talking pants I've never worn because they've never fit. But I could button them and zip them and didn't have to INHALE AND SUCK IN. They weren't comfy yet, but I anticipate by the end of this round, I'll be wearing them. These are pants I bought last time I was doing lots of cardio because they were just a hair too small then, I loved them, and they were the last pair the store had. I anticipated getting into them, but never did. I will, though!
12/05
I bought a new Jillian Michaels video on amazon today (Banish Fat, something something, it's the top result on Amazon if you punch in her name), because I just could not even touch Shed & Shred this morning. I thought, maybe it's because my legs don't wanna do these EXACT moves again so soon. And I was right to a degree, but I stopped after 20 minutes. I needed some recovery today. But I think I'm getting a little addicted to getting my heart rate up, hah. I just FEEL better when I do some hard cardio and didn't wanna skip getting SOME, at least. So, I watched through the rest of the video and totally worth the very cheap $7. I can do all of those moves from my room... unlike Shed & Shred, the second half of which would require me to do moves that I just don't have the space to do.
After that, pretty much cooked all evening. I made cauliflower pizza and quiche and ribs, for the next several days. Cauliflower crust was too many carbs and not a good enough texture for so much EFFORT, dang. It didn't even hold up as a pizza crust, just sorta mushy, and I drained the crap out of it. Maybe I'll just buy cauliflower crust from Trader Joes. Those actually work fine. But note to self: Don't basically go and process a vegetable to remove all its water and then expect the carb counts to be good/ for it to be filling. Just because you did it at home doesn't mean it isn't processed. I would have been much more satisfied with butter fried cauliflower, a soft boiled egg, all with a cream sauce and the same toppings as the pizza. And wouldn't have effectively turned a whole head of cauliflower into one cup of unfilling substance.
I also had to go and make myself a cream tea and eat a couple of fat bombs after pizza. Was NOT enough fat on there even drowned in cheese. Fat bombs filled me up, though. At 1400 calories as of writing this. I've had a 1700 calorie goal this whole time and haven't hit it the past couple days. Don't know if this is good or worrying to be having 200-300 calories less than goal.
Have a good evening everyone!
12/06
I weighed myself this morning after a lot of night time bathroom trips again. More water weight coming off. I'm not posting a new weight until day 5, though. Been a bit of an emotional day. I probably won't go on a prolonged blah blah about my food, because it's 4PM and I haven't even eaten yet. I did get 25 minutes of the Banish Fat workout, though. A few minutes more than last time. That seems to be what happens every time I go into a new workout. I do a little more every time until my body is used to the full set. This one might take more than a few rounds, though. This video is divided into circuits and I did three circuits today. Tomorrow I'll either see if I can do four, or see if my body will agree to Shed & Shred again. Banish Fat isn't as hard on my lower body, in terms of muscle strain, but DAMN, that cardio is intense.
What I do wanna write about is how weird it is to see a muscle in my neck. I don't know how to deal with this. There's something and I know people can go through it with weight changes, and it's really weird to me. Even though I'd rather be thinner and feel as good as I'm starting to feel, it still seems a little like, when I look in the mirror, there is an alien in it, doing a REALLY good impression of me. But isn't getting it quite right. The alien is a little too lean. Things have changed. I have identity issues from childhood trauma, so this is pretty big for me. But I'm not going to let it stop me this time. I do think it affected me last time, and the reason it was detrimental, wasn't that it happened, but because I never spoke of it.
Guys, I'm really happy I'm losing weight, and I feel good, but the mirror is really strange right now. Does anyone else feel like this? Can we be friends?
12/07
AaaaaaaaAAAAA.
I was doing great today, and then I was in a hurry. I grabbed, at a gas station, what I thought was a diet soda. But my hand went slightly to one side and got the wrong one. I ended up having about 8 oz of regular soda, while doing keto. Dammit.
But I did Shed & Shred today. AND I made this amazing keto porridge that has 1 net carb. So breakfast was practically nothing. 2 carb breakfast total! And if I feel hungry later, I can have some more of it and not sweat things. I have had 32 net today, with the soda. Everything else was totally in line. I might end up with 40 net carbs by the end of tonight, because I'm playing a game with friends, and will be up late. I'm disappointed, but not gonna let this little bump depress or stop me. Just want to remind myself not to be too upset if tomorrow's weight isn't good, and if the next couple of days require a few more calories, to keep food cravings manageable. But I'm hoping ketosis survives the small bump. I have hardly had 1000 calories today yet, so my body'll probably use the sugars right away. I was also annoyed to find that my keto strips was just an empty box. Where did I put the actual strips!? Hah! I wasn't using them. My smell after workouts made it pretty obvious that I was in ketosis. I'm just disappointed because I didn't do this on purpose. This wasn't me making a decision and deciding an indulgence was worth it. This was just an "in a hurry" mistake with a drink I am relatively unfamiliar with. I guess we'll see how tomorrow feels.
Grump.
12/08 (Post Weight)
12/09
12/10 241
What the deuce? I wrote this whole big long post yesterday, and it isn't here. I'm a little upset. Also upset about teetering back at 241ish, but this is why I don't go on the stupid dramatic roller coaster of weighing every single day. It's just not healthy for my emotional state. I can't imagine constantly looking at the scale and wondering why it goes up, down, up, down, or worse, stays the same over the course of a small handful of days.
So, reminder to myself. I'm going to keep eating a low sugar diet. The calories are gonna fluctuate. Sometimes they'll be high. Sometimes they'll be low. I had an 1100 calorie day the other day for no particular reason and yesterday, had like 2500 calories. Just like my average weight over time, one day, even one WEEK, has no bearing on my overall progress, even if it seems to.
We are doing very well and moving forward! Don't let the little ups and downs cause you to backslide into hopelessness.
Did Shed & Shred today. Early parts were really hard for some reason, but I had no trouble after warming up sufficiently. That just didn't happen in the time I was doing the "warmup" portion, lol. Maybe I should start my workouts with 15 minutes of very low impact, like some older videos, before they figured out intermediate heart rate stuff wasn't actually that great in terms of exercise advice. Get a warmup for my warmup. Burn a few more calories. Heh.
12/11
My dad coded at the hospital today.
Before you guys get all, "I'm so sorry", this was an abusive man who was responsible for much of the psychological damage that drove me to twenty years of depression and a few other mental disorders (dissociative) which it has taken me into my 30's to get enough education about, to even begin getting help.
I am a little upset, though. I have intentionally avoided talking to him for ten years, at least. Not a word exchanged. But my sister's upset and sent me a message to say he loved me "no matter what happened". And I had to really fight myself not to chew her out a little. She seems to be under the impression that the rift between us had anything to do with the student loan he agreed to pay before I stopped talking to him; and then he tried to abuse and manipulate me to pay later, because I finally found the self-respect and self-love and therapy to cut him out of my life. But my mom divorced him when I was a teen, and my sister is six years younger than me.
I'm pretty sure my sister doesn't really get to remember having to live with him, day after day, as a monster. She doesn't remember him occasionally just not showing up home with no explanation, or the illegitimate kid he had with some other woman that he proceeded to shame my mother with by dragging him, as an infant, to the family Christmas of my father's side of the family, as a "godson", or the way he blamed everything that went wrong on my mother, how he never made any effort to connect to her at all, or all of the littler things that he said and did. By the time they were divorced, he was hardly around anymore, and my sister would have been, at the most, ten.
So she got a lot more of the father that pretended to be nice, because he was around other people. He always acted nice around his extended family, friends, and so on, any time out in public. But in private, me and my mom in particular were f---ing punching bags. He was a coward who only cowed and abused people who couldn't or wouldn't lash back at him. She thinks he is that exterior, but he is actually a horrible person. He won't get therapy or help, and never would, and that violence is always lurking under the facade. Anyone can act nice for a few hours. That doesn't make them good. She doesn't realize that. My father, since around the time of the divorce, moved in with one of his mistresses. They've stayed together, but at some point over the years, that mistress confided in my mother that she'd gotten the brunt end of this garbage, too, and she extended my mother an apology. That she understood now. I can't fathom why she kept him around, if she understood, but I guess battered wife syndrome is a thing.
But I think that my sister's comment was about her, and not me. I don't know why she thinks it's important that I think he loved me. I mean, I know he didn't, because love is as much an act as a feeling, and on top of that, he has never really known me, much less NOW, when we haven't talked in ten years. Perhaps she just wants someone to commiserate with and feels like she needs someone to mourn with her. I desperately wish that it could be me, but it just can't be.
I wish that my sister and whoever else has misguided affections for him didn't have to suffer. But they say one of the biggest things that people who have been abused have to learn, is that abuse and love do not co-exist. They cannot. You can't love someone and intentionally or through egregious neglect, hurt them. That is not what love is. Like I said, love isn't feelings alone, but also actions. I have learned that lesson, and I'm not going to backpedal because he's dying. Self-love comes first, and the version of me who loves herself, can not possibly love him.
Ultimately, he is a black-souled demon, and if he is on his way back to hell, then the world will be a much brighter place.
If you read all this, thank you for letting me vent. I didn't wanna let it out on my sister, who probably can't handle it right now. But it had to come out, bad.
12/12
12/13 (Post Weight)16 -
I'm in!
Heaviest: 192.2
RGW: 145.0
UGW: 135.0
12/02: 149.0 at 7:15 a.m.
12/03: 147.8 at 6:00 a.m.
Day/Weight/Comment
12/04 - 147.0 at 6:00 a.m. ...going in the right direction!!
12/05 - 147.4 at 6:30 a.m. ...celebrated last night. Doc said I could start walking again!! YEAH!!
12/06 - 148.0 at 6:30 a.m. ...celebration catching up with me. Yikes!
12/07 - 148.0 at 5:30 a.m. ... going walking in a bit!!! Soooooo happy!
12/08 - DNW - arthritis was really bad. Everything fell out of my morning brain.
12/09 - 149.8 at 6:00 a.m. ...Oh how I detest this up...up...up...stuff.
12/10 - 149.8 at 6:00 a.m.
12/11 - 149.8 at 4:00 a.m.
12/12
12/13
Chris9 -
@jlemoore chocolate hummus?? I don't think I have ever heard of that kind before, i am going to have to look that up2
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