The "NEVER been thin/ in-shape" Club

kbefit

OK I'm back!!! Anyway....can't wait to get to know everyone. Friend me if you like!


I too have always been overweight. I think that there have been 4 periods in my life where I have lost weight and been thin, but it was for such a short time and of course I gained it back. The first time I was only 11 years old...my doctor put me on diet pills and I remember losing 26 pounds which is a lot for an 11 year old. Sadly at that young age, I didn't understand lifestyle and of course children aren't controlling their own meals. Now, believe it or not, I eat pretty healthfully. The problem is, after all of these years I've really screwed up my metabolism and it just doesn't come off easily. The pic of me is one of my "thin times"....I put it up to remind myself how I want to look. Years ago, I was able to quit smoking with an online support group...I'm hoping I can do the same for weight loss.

Anyway....

My start weight was 231
I am now 222
For now I am aiming for 180
Possibly one day 165

littlepoopa

I have struggled with my weight all my life. Food was always given to me for comfort, so that is what I learned, and did all my life.
I have never been "skinny". I was always the tallest and biggest kid in class. I stood out like a sore thumb, and I think that my self esteem suffered for that. I was in women's clothes in the 6th grade, and have never been able to shop at a "regular" size store. This feeling of self loathing and worthlessness is why I think I turned to food when I was happy, sad, mad, etc. It developed into a real addiction to the point where I would order a large pizza, and eat the entire thing. Or eat dinner at home and then ride around and hit every fast food place on the street, feeling ashamed, and disgusting. I would think about food from the time I woke up to the time I went to bed..."what will I eat next" was always on my mind. My skin would literally crawl, and I would obsess and get anxious about the food. One of my friends told me that "she never sees me eat" and that is because I always did it in secret, and threw away any evidence.

I have tried ever so called diet out there. Nothing would work for me, because I wouldn't let it. I would get frustrated when I wouldn't lose, or if I would gain one week. Or I would say, I can cheat this day, and it would snowball from there because my food addiction would get a hold of me.

I recently came across a picture of myself from many years ago when I thought I was "fat". It is probably the best picture of me ever. I keep it posted on my fridge. At that time I was a size 18/20 and weighed probably a little over 200lbs. I am tall, and my weight distributes well, and that weight for me was perfect, but didn't see it that way at the time.

Now getting in and out of the car is a struggle. Walking up stairs is down right painful and embarassing. Getting on and off chairs and sofas makes me want to hide in a corner, and I try to plan it around when no one is looking. I'm tired of being tired and in pain constantly. So.....

I feel like I have finally come to grips with my eating habits, and this site has helped me by holding me accountable by logging my calories each day. I do it no matter what I eat. If I fall off the wagon, and hit up Wendy's, I log it. It helps me to put things into perspective each day, and helps me plan out my meals better. I have small short term goals, and medium term goals to help me not feel overwhelmed by looking at the big picture of how much weight I have to lose.

So, my goals are:

SW 365 - CW 355 - GW 200

Good luck everyone, and I will come back often to check in and for the support. To be supportive and for support for myself. Lord knows I need it.

Steph_135

I've never been thin and/or healthy at all. Ever. I was picked on in elementary school, snickered at in high school and now I'm in college and I'm sick of it. Time to get healthy!!!

ibelieveicandoit... College is a great place and time to get healthy! See if you have free access to the gym on campus! I was at college last year, and didn't AT ALL take advantage of the free gym membership. (PS - You can post your progress bar in your signature, but going to "Signature" at the top of this page, and pasting the URL for it in the signature box. )

Goodluck littlepoopa... Your story speaks to me. You can do this! :flowerforyou:

willowma

I totally belong here!! I have been heavy my whole life and would love to know what thin feels like. At 190 I felt great and feeling good allowed me to slip up and gain some back.
Right now I'm so embarassed and ashamed of myself that I let this happen. I don't want to go places where I will see people who haven't seen me in a while, afraid they will say "Wow,she has really gained weight". Really going out in public at all is not something I want to do. I try not to look in mirrors from the neck down, and end up wearing the same couple of outfits that actually fit on my body, knowing they look horrible. I am so uncomfortable in my own skin right now. I have friends who say, "you carry your weight well," but I definitely don't think I do! I have 33lbs to lose to get back to where I was and then to no mans land!
Thanks for posting this, glad to know there are so many others out there!
HW; 300+
LW: 190
CW:223.5
GW: 170 (and will see how I feel there and move on from there)

willowma

I have struggled with my weight all my life. Food was always given to me for comfort, so that is what I learned, and did all my life.
I have never been "skinny". I was always the tallest and biggest kid in class. I stood out like a sore thumb, and I think that my self esteem suffered for that. I was in women's clothes in the 6th grade, and have never been able to shop at a "regular" size store. This feeling of self loathing and worthlessness is why I think I turned to food when I was happy, sad, mad, etc. It developed into a real addiction to the point where I would order a large pizza, and eat the entire thing. Or eat dinner at home and then ride around and hit every fast food place on the street, feeling ashamed, and disgusting. I would think about food from the time I woke up to the time I went to bed..."what will I eat next" was always on my mind. My skin would literally crawl, and I would obsess and get anxious about the food. One of my friends told me that "she never sees me eat" and that is because I always did it in secret, and threw away any evidence.

I have tried ever so called diet out there. Nothing would work for me, because I wouldn't let it. I would get frustrated when I wouldn't lose, or if I would gain one week. Or I would say, I can cheat this day, and it would snowball from there because my food addiction would get a hold of me.

I recently came across a picture of myself from many years ago when I thought I was "fat". It is probably the best picture of me ever. I keep it posted on my fridge. At that time I was a size 18/20 and weighed probably a little over 200lbs. I am tall, and my weight distributes well, and that weight for me was perfect, but didn't see it that way at the time.

Now getting in and out of the car is a struggle. Walking up stairs is down right painful and embarassing. Getting on and off chairs and sofas makes me want to hide in a corner, and I try to plan it around when no one is looking. I'm tired of being tired and in pain constantly. So.....

I feel like I have finally come to grips with my eating habits, and this site has helped me by holding me accountable by logging my calories each day. I do it no matter what I eat. If I fall off the wagon, and hit up Wendy's, I log it. It helps me to put things into perspective each day, and helps me plan out my meals better. I have small short term goals, and medium term goals to help me not feel overwhelmed by looking at the big picture of how much weight I have to lose.

So, my goals are:

SW 365 - CW 355 - GW 200

Good luck everyone, and I will come back often to check in and for the support. To be supportive and for support for myself. Lord knows I need it.

Wow littlepoopa, I feel like i was reading my own story in yours. I wish you the best of luck! Great job so far! You can do it!

90poundsoflard

@sweetie89207
Just letting you know I changed my name from KMayeske to 90poundsoflard. I lost 2lbs (finally) so I guess its 88 lbs of lard left. :laugh:

magglett

sweetie89207

Although I did have a short visit to 188 lbs on this past Monday (should never have stepped on the scale to check) it was quite short lived. I understand weigh in day for this thread is on Saturdays so I've gained 0.5 lbs since last Saturday. I have to say that I'm quite relieved that it isn't more after this week ... sick ... pms .... and now TOM. Hopefully this week will be better

LW = 199.0 lbs
CW = 199.5 lbs

Steph_135

Just thought I would post my new weight on this lovely winter morning (it's -7 C outside... better than the -22 C it was last week I guess.)

SW: 189 (I have no idea what day that was... Jan something)
1/21 - 186
1/28 - 184.5

5% Goal = 9.5 pounds = 179.5

Have a great day everyone!!

sweetie89207

thanks everyone for remembering the saturday weigh-in date-- you guys are awesome!!!!

and all you newbies- i'll get to ya'll a little later after i get back from work...have to give you the traditional welcome LOL...

thanks all for being amazing!

sweetie89207

@sweetie89207
Just letting you know I changed my name from KMayeske to 90poundsoflard. I lost 2lbs (finally) so I guess its 88 lbs of lard left. :laugh:

oh ok i'll change u on over

redruthie

Just wanted to check in:

CW: 260
SW: 270

kizzy_muss

sw: 177
CW: 177

Exercise goals this week:

MONDAY, JANUARY 31ST
-WALK @ LEAST 5000 STEPS
-DO LAUNDRY
-GEORGE FOREMAN WALK N BOX
-DRINK @ LEAST 64 OZ H20
-STAY WITHIN 1200 - 1500 CALORIES

TUESDAY, FEBRUARY 1ST
-WALK @ LEAST 5000 STEPS
-DRINK @ LEAST 64 OZ H20
-STAY WITHIN 1200 - 1500 CALORIES
-JILLIAN MICHAELS 30 DAY SHRED LEVEL 1

WEDNESDAY, FEBRUARY 2ND
-WALK @ LEAST 5000 STEPS
-DRINK @ LEAST 64 OZ H20
-STAY WITHIN 1200 - 1500 CALORIES
-JILLIAN MICHAELS 30 DAY SHRED LEVEL 1

THURSDAY, FEBRUARY 3RD
-WALK @ LEAST 5000 STEPS
-DRINK @ LEAST 64 OZ H20
-STAY WITHIN 1200 - 1500 CALORIES
-JILLIAN MICHAELS NO MORE TROUBLE ZONES

FRIDAY, FEBRUARY 4TH
-WALK @ LEAST 5000 STEPS
-DRINK @ LEAST 64 OZ H20
-STAY WITHIN 1200 - 1500 CALORIES
-JILLIAN MICHAELS 30 DAY SHRED LEVEL 1

SATURDAY, FEBRUARY 5TH
-WALK @ LEAST 5000 STEPS
-DRINK @ LEAST 64 OZ H20
-STAY WITHIN 1200 - 1500 CALORIES
-JILLIAN MICHAELS BANISH FAT, BOOST METABOLISM

SUNDAY, FEBRUARY 6TH
-WALK @ LEAST 5000 STEPS
-DRINK @ LEAST 64 OZ H20
-STAY WITHIN 1200 - 1500 CALORIES
-JILLIAN MICHAELS TROUBLE ZONES

-Log all food every day.

-Drink at least 8 glasses of water everyday.

-Stay between 1200 - 1500 calories everyday

Kirstie_C26

hi my start weight was 12st 5lb and im assuming im meant to be 10st or 140lbs :S im only sayn that cos i vaugley remeber my dr tellin me that was the ideal weight for my height and build so thats why im puttin 140lbs as my goal, and when i reach there i guess i can re-assess

Kirstie x

blueymo

Wow! Wish I had found this site AGES ago! I've been on my own weight loss journey since October 1st (and I went ahead and put that weight in as my "starting weight" even though I actually lost 25 pounds before joining MFP--it helps me track my "real" progress)! My story sounds very similar. I'm from a very large family (12 kids) and I was always the largest. I didn't eat more than any one else, I didn't eat more often than anyone else. I just didn't stay the same size as everyone else. Looking back I don't think I was a fat kid, but I went to a small, private school and the only other girls my age were stick-thin. So, I felt fat, overweight, and ugly! As I size up pictures I was mostly a very large-boned child that just had extra weight--not unhealthy, just heavy! In fact, people use to joke that I was made of lead because even as young as 3 or 4 my parents wouldn't hold me anymore because of how heavy I felt--although I looked normal! LOL!
I loved sports growing up and loved running, but was diagnosed with asthma and never took the time to work through it gradually. I just gave up running. Still did some sports, but never anything great. Weighed about 130 by 13 and 160 by 16. I know those aren't grossly huge, but again, being around stick-thin chics made me seem humongous! I left high school and put on weight of course (out of gymn class). I went overseas (spent two years in Australia) working hard outside and eating healthier food (because other countries are MUCH more healthy than the USA)! I was down to my lightest adult weight when I got home and that was still 180(ish) pounds and size 16! I do carry my weight well (I know I do) but I also know I shouldn't have to carry around any of this extra weight! I came back from overseas and promptly (within 6 months) put on 40 pounds! Now, I'm through with getting my Bachelor's degree and I LONG to be healthy again so I can fully enjoy riding horses and training like I want!
My heaviest was 256--Oct. 2010
My starting weight on MFP in December 2010--232
My current weight is 217
My "goal" is to be 180 again! My BMI says I "should" be 160 at the highest, but I just don't see that looking good. But, I joke with people and say, let me get to 180 and I'll see what I say then.
My mini goal is 70 pounds lost between Oc. 2010 and May 2011! (I work at a summer camp and would love to shock people when they seem me again at the next year!)
I really hope I'm able to encourage some of you as much as reading your stories and testimonies has encouraged me already! Thanks for being such awesome people!

QueenofCups

I want to join too! I have never been thin. My Mom was always thin growing up, as was other members of my family. I was always the one that was told I had such "pretty hair" and the compliments ended there. No one was ever mean to me about being overweight, but I just never felt beautiful.
I hit 220 after the birth of my second child and I was seriously in need of a change, a real one.
Now @ 153ish, all I see is the fat me in the mirror. I know logically I have lost all this weight, and I see the tags on my clothes saying 8/medium, but when I look at my reflection all I see are rolls and bumps, and that awful AWFUL flabby skin from my whole life of being overweight and then having 2 kids 15 mos apart.
I have had people ask me what my goal weight is or what size I want to be, and all I knew was what the BMI charts say, but it seems to daunting to think I have 20 more pounds to lose, especially since the only place I seem to be losing it now is my boobs. All these years having big boobs was an embarrassment, now I wish I had a little bit of those still. LOL

Anyway, its nice to know there are others out there who have never been "thin" before. I watch infomercials a lot for workout DVDs I already own (its like an obsession for me late at night, don't ask) and I see these women say they get "washboard abs" in 6 weeks or whatever. I eat 1400 calories a day and workout 6 days a week and still don't have washboard abs - 2 years after beginning this journey. Grrr. Whatever.

My name is Trina.

tigerlily2010

Count me in too! I hit puberty and seemed to double in size over the course of the following year. I was always the overweight one in whatever group I hung out with.

Heaviest weight: 265
MFP starting weight: 242
Current weight: 219
Goal weight: 185 (size 8-12)

Reason for losing weight: I am doing it for me and for my mom. I know she would want me to be healthier so I don't end up like she did. That and I want to be able to shop at the mall. Not that I want to pay mall prices, I just want to be able too.

magglett

Hi everyone: It's a new day. Everyone got some great plans for this week? I've had a good weekend. Had a date night with my hubby on Saturday, had a nice little visit with my sister and her family yesterday, and finally went to the doctor about my sinus problems. Nothing like a couple of embarrassing nose bleeds to make you take action. I'm on a strong antibiotic now which I take once a day for 15 days. Hoping that will work so I can get back to the gym. My week of eating and such really wasn't as controlled as it should have been but I did make a point of doing at least 20 minutes of some kind of exercise every day (which really was strenuous with the sinus thing going on) and it seems to have helped. Stepped on the scale this morning and I'm down a bit.

Well I'm off to get things tidied up here, I've got a guy coming over to install some contraption so I will now have high speed wireless internet ... unlimited ... woo hoo!! I'll pop back on later.

thelima

@Sweetie - sorry I missed Saturday weigh in!! Bad BAD weather in DC area since last Weds night and I lost power that night, didn't get it back until Friday night so I'm way way behind on pretty much everything.

I'm 2 lbs down (yay!).

I haven't caught up to everyone's posts, but plan to do so today.

Wishing you all a great week ahead!

Evermyre

I'm checking in for the week.

I love 2 lbs, down to 256.

I'll be honest though. I'm not sure how I lost the two pounds. Life's gotten really stressful the last couple of weeks and I haven't been tracking or eating well. Maybe it's just the stress? I don't know, but I know at some point this is going to come to a stanstill. Hopefully I can drop a few more pounds first though.

MegJo

Checking in I weigh in on Mondays. I gained about pound this week which puts be at 213. I'm not super shocked, I lost 3lbs then 2lbs in back to back weeks. My body has NEVER allowed that to happen before :laugh: so I think it's in shock. Another reason is I'll be getting my TOM later this week and into the weigh in next week. My TOMs seem to take up 2 weigh ins a month. But I'm not depressed, just chugging along. I've lost 18 glorious pounds so far. There is no stopping me. This journey is going to be a long one, whats one more week

Steph_135

Happy February everyone! :drinker: Let's do something good for ourselves today!

Lyles1385

This is the most encouraging post I've seen on this site. I have been so discouraged with losing weight because l have always been bigger. I'm trying to lose weight now and it feels like such a slow process. I needed to read something like this as a reminder that I'm not alone in this. Thank you for that! I'm going to definitely join in this journey. My stats as of right now are:

Beginning weight: 230
Current weight: 217
Goal weight: 170

90poundsoflard

Down one pound this week. I wish it would go faster, but I guess I'm happy it's at least going down.

thelima

Saturday weigh in - keeping steady as I've upped my cardio to 45-60 min a day. Definitely retaining water!

Not unhappy, b/c it's not about the pounds so much as how I feel and I feel great!

sweetie89207

Hello hello all…sorry for the lateness…its hard to keep up on here with all this crazy school work I’ve been having – but im taking a few minutes between studying to get these welcomes done!!!

@ Andonsmom- ask and you shall receive! Welcome to the club. That’s great to see that you have made the decision to change your life!!! More power to ya= hope we all can help!...Welcome!

@ Kyliedurnan- chub chub…a word we can only dream of never being associated with! Wow only 14 huh? Well im glad u have made the decision to start early and change ur life while u are very young…it will definitely be worth it! That’s great- im sure cheering is great exercise…glad to have u…Welcome!

@ Christa_dee- that’s ok…I understand u don’t have to do anything u don’t want to…you can still share with us your losses each week if you would like I can keep up with them that way!...glad to have you…Welcome!

@ bethlust- I know just what u mean by feeling out of place…and I agree the extra confidence would be amazing!...ok I will count it in kg’s…where r u from btw?...Welcome!

@ sar3539- yeah it is a shame how mean kids can be! I know that sum diets really just don’t work for anything…but I think you will like it here- it seems to have worked for many many people…yes- one day u will be the skinny girl!!!...Welcome!

@kbefit- that’s a great Idea putting those pics up to remind you…because that’s where u want to be again…it’s a good thing to look toward. Great that you could quit smoking that’s great! And I know that everyone on here will be able to help u lose the weight just like then…Welcome!

@Magglett- thanks for the really kind comments…I just thought that many ppl felt just like I did and that they all needed a place to go. So very glad to have u n my group- and thanks for adding my as a friend- been great working with you!!!...Welcome!

@katiekangaroo- yup…elementary school was just a place full of evil children…doesn’t get much better the farther we go…well that’s fine- I don’t want you to do anything u don’t want to…if you would still post your losses and I’ll keep up with it that way- show us your success!...Welcome!

@ibelieveicandoit- yeah I know what u mean…being in college myself its just time for a change!...and im sure you will make things happen!...Welcome!

@littlepoopa- just hate how food is so comforting! Lol…yea- makes me want to cry sometimes thinking about how I never got to shop in the teen section…it was childrens to adults in the blink of an eye…yea secret eating…poor thing. So glad that u have been able to come to grips with ur issues and grab them hard and make ur mind up to change your life!!! I hope that all of us can help u do that very thing!!!...Welcome!

@ Willowma- aww that’s so sad hun…im sorry to hear that it has you not wanting to leave because of embarrassment…I know what u mean about the mirrors tho…sometimes I just don’t want to look at all…glad to have you here!...Welcome!

@Kristie_C26- hello…although im not exactly sure what weight those are (what does 12st 5lb mean?) lol maybe you could clarify that for me! Thanks…Welcome!

@blueymo- wow 12 kids huh…that must have been pretty cool (only child here)…yup I know what that’s like to have something like asthma to stop you from doing things that could have helped keep u thin…cool going to Australia!...glad to have you- and I hope we all can encourage you and help u reach your lifetime goals!!!...Welcome!

@Queenofcups- ouch- the hair comment…I’d rather ppl just not compliment me at all! I know what u mean to…I don’t know if I have ever felt beautiful or even pretty…just fat and awkward…its still something I have issues with today as an adult…that’s great of how much u have lost already!!! Excellent job and your almost done! Hopefully we can b there for u! hahaha no more boobs! Im afraid of that cuz I have a lot to lose and not much boobs to take from!! Ahhh…Welcome!

@tigerlily2010- yeah…sometimes I just want to be the thin one in the group darn it!!...thats so great…I know you will make it and be able to buy whatever you want from the mall!...Welcome!

@lyles1385- wow- that’s an amazing compliment…im so glad my club could give u some needed encouragement! Stay strong!!! It does feel slow sometimes but just think how great it will feel once its done!!!...glad to have you on with us…Welcome!

Thanks to everyone I hope next time I get back on here it wont be soooo long from the last time…I apologize friends!!! Also all u newbies please add me as a friend so I can keep up with u and give some personal attention and encouragement…also remember all we do weigh ins on Saturdays! So come back weekly and let me know what has happened and I should have the list to Kizzy by Sunday at the latest Monday! (I hope! Lol)

Alrighty now off to input everyones progress then off to studying!!!

Thanks all – you all are soooooooooooo AMAZING!!!!!!

sweetie89207

Saturday weigh in - keeping steady as I've upped my cardio to 45-60 min a day. Definitely retaining water!

Not unhappy, b/c it's not about the pounds so much as how I feel and I feel great!

thats just fine...u keep up with it and i know you will see some progress soon!!!

sweetie89207

Checking in I weigh in on Mondays. I gained about pound this week which puts be at 213. I'm not super shocked, I lost 3lbs then 2lbs in back to back weeks. My body has NEVER allowed that to happen before :laugh: so I think it's in shock. Another reason is I'll be getting my TOM later this week and into the weigh in next week. My TOMs seem to take up 2 weigh ins a month. But I'm not depressed, just chugging along. I've lost 18 glorious pounds so far. There is no stopping me. This journey is going to be a long one, whats one more week

thats ok...i gained 2 lbs this week lol...salt hates me!...thats a GREAT 18 pounds...and you are gonna kick butt all the way to the end!

sweetie89207

I'm checking in for the week.

I love 2 lbs, down to 256.

I'll be honest though. I'm not sure how I lost the two pounds. Life's gotten really stressful the last couple of weeks and I haven't been tracking or eating well. Maybe it's just the stress? I don't know, but I know at some point this is going to come to a stanstill. Hopefully I can drop a few more pounds first though.

i say take the losses when u can-- regardless of why! haha...well done!

sweetie89207

Just wanted to check in:

CW: 260
SW: 270

thats amazing!!! well done girl!!

sweetie89207

Hi everyone: It's a new day. Everyone got some great plans for this week? I've had a good weekend. Had a date night with my hubby on Saturday, had a nice little visit with my sister and her family yesterday, and finally went to the doctor about my sinus problems. Nothing like a couple of embarrassing nose bleeds to make you take action. I'm on a strong antibiotic now which I take once a day for 15 days. Hoping that will work so I can get back to the gym. My week of eating and such really wasn't as controlled as it should have been but I did make a point of doing at least 20 minutes of some kind of exercise every day (which really was strenuous with the sinus thing going on) and it seems to have helped. Stepped on the scale this morning and I'm down a bit.

Well I'm off to get things tidied up here, I've got a guy coming over to install some contraption so I will now have high speed wireless internet ... unlimited ... woo hoo!! I'll pop back on later.

hope u are feeling better now!!!