Depression - This is my story and this is why I am here

LibLiu82

I just want to give you a big hug! I thank God for people like you, who are brave enough and open enough to share their story and their feelings. I also had a major life collapse a few years ago, some details different but very similar nonetheless. I also used my anger at my situation to fuel my weight change, and I even got down to my goal weight. But I found that as soon as life started easing up on me I went straight back to my old habits and old weight because the negative emotions that had sustained me weren't as strong any more. Since then I am trying to learn to let go of negative emotions completely and embrace hope as a motivation, most of all the hope I have found in Christ. It's made such an internal change in my heart that I now want to look and feel as wonderful physically as I do on the inside. I wish you success and hope in your journey ahead. And to close I'd like to share a Bible verse that got me through some very tough times ...
“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” (John 16:33)

JoyBellz

I can relate to the Alzheimer's situation. We just lost my grandmother on my mother's side to Alzheimer's on the 5th of December. Thankfully she went peacefully in her sleep. My grandfather on my father's side also has it. He is in the earlier stages but he is declining quickly. It is tough to watch them go through the stages and not be able to speak or remember you. You are exactly right, it is a devastating disease.

I wish you the best of luck in your journey to becoming a healthier you in all aspects of life - physically, emotionally.....

Feel free to add me as well. The weight loss alone is a journey and it is different for each of us but if we all pull together and offer support, we can do it!

Best Wishes!

Joy

Momkat65

Courageous!
You have your life back. Rock it.

mslorri2005

sorry to hear what you are going threw! inspiring story!! I went threw alot of terrible losses in my life. I was 18 and lost my dad to cancer. I am now 33 and I just lost my mother to cancer. We were the best of friends!!! I was with her threw her whole journey and seen her take her last breath!!! I felt helpless I couldnt save her!!! I beat myself up and ate and slept and became very depressed1 I use to work out and was a decent weight and felt good. Untill this oct. when she passed I geined 17 lbs on top of my other 30 I geined prior. I finally woke up and said this is enuff I have to get in shape again and be healthy for my 2 girls I have and mom wouldnt want me to be so depressed and let my life get out of control! I am back on track and WILL continue this time!!! Best of luck to you!!!

Blodnie

Thanks for sharing your story. I've suffered from depression off and on in my life, and I know what it's like to face losing your Mom as I lost mine to cancer when I was 29, after watching her suffer for two long years. It's these heart wrenching events that life hands us that often make it hard for me not to just give up and say, 'WTF.. it's not worth the effort'. But I too have decided to get my life back and never be in this place again. I wish you well in this journey we are all taking.. together. :-)

j4nash

I didn't realize so many people were struggling with the same situation as me.. based upon a lot of the friend requests and comments on here. wish you all a healthy recovery and hope you're enjoying the new lifestyle! i feel 100x better than I did a month ago.

willowfyre

You have gone through a lot in a short time and while my situation isn't close to the same, the motivation you have gained is what I now feel for the first time in years. Lose weight, gain weight...it never mattered to me. I always believed that no matter how I looked, you should love me regardless. That's changed. While I will never wish anything that has happened to you to happen...to anyone, I am glad that it has given you the strength and determination to make yourself healthy again. You're already halfway there, whether you've lost any weight or not. Keep it up. You've got this.

yogibella

I really feel for you my friend and even though our stories are different, I can relate. I had a major life change a while back, coupled with loss, taking care of a dying parent and other events and fell into a depression. If felt like the rock bottom. On top of all that I gained weight and I don't think it's vanity to say that I felt pretty awful about myself--even avoiding social situations because of it. I'm much better now, still have the weight to lose but I'm working everyday to transform myself not just physically but mentally and emotionally too into a better and stronger person! Best of luck to ya and I've sent you an add if you're interested in mutual support:)

staceycamp

wow, Thanks for sharing your story. I have been through divorce, The loss of my mom to Cancer and a year later the loss of my brother to a motor cycle accident. I know the depression you are talking about, but there is light at the end of the tunnel and you can be happy agian. Good luck and you will be in my prayers!

capaxinfiniti

A very amazing story. I am sorry you have gone through quite a lot but I'm glad you're not trying to continue on and fight through it. You're a very strong person. Good luck with your life and I wish you happiness in the future.

Lorianny

I would like to be your MFP friend.
Please feel free to add me.
It sounds like your on the right road to making changes in your life, You dont need to do it alone.

tkb1985

A very moving story - thank you so much for being brave enough to share it with us.

Feel free to add me. x

joann

That had to been awful hard for you to share that with total strangers, but that my friend is the best way to heal. God only hands us things that he knows we can handle, it is what makes us who we are. I am a firm believer of that. Many years ago I to had a horrible experience, luckily i had my daughter to take care of or I might have given up but you would not believe my life now ...I found the love of my life, I have two beautiful grandsons and life is good.. Good luck to you in all your journeys. You may add me as your friend if you would like.

AJ1966

You have made the first step to improving yourself and that means A LOT!!! I too know about depression and its good to know you can have someone to talk to. Feel free to add me!


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alimarieban

Wow... You have been through A LOT! Good for you for wanting to reclaim your life and be healthy and happy again. You can do it! I too suffered from severe depression and anxiety and am on the road to recovery. If you would like to, please add me as a friend. Maybe we could motivate each other? :-)

Kaylee_law_123

Thank you for posting your story - I think it's so brave!
I have shared many similar moments in my life, and am still learning how to cope, I definitely have my moments where everything seems too much, but I'm slowly developing the skills necessary to overcome those feelings.
:-)

StJamesPT

Saw this article today, and thought it might interest you.

'It’s not easy to stop unhealthy thought patterns, but we have a lot more control over our state of mind than we realise

http://psychcentral.com/blog/archives/2012/01/11/happiness-and-choices/

Feel free to add me as a friend if you wish.

Mark Green
Personal Trainer, Exercise Referral Instructor and
Specialist Exercise Instructor (Diabetes & Obesity Management) - REPs Level 4
Based in Bristol, UK

AZDizzy

Thank you for your story. There is such a quiet strength in your post, I KNOW you will get through this and reach your goals. I will be cheering for you!

jofromnz

Thank you so much for sharing your story in such a sincere and honest way. People definitely respond to truth and there was a lot of truth in what you wrote. You touched many of us and also provided a reminder that life is so fragile and that as human beings we are all in this together. I can also sense (as another poster mentioned) a deep and profound strength in you and I know you have what is needed to climb out of this dark place. I also lost a very dear friend this year (similar to the woman you knew, she was not taking care of her body and it lead to her death - at 34 years old). I think about this loss often and it is an integral part of my journey to a healthier body. I wish you all the best in your journey as well, you can do this! x

99Tinkerbell

Wow so understand depression and awesome for you to share. add me as a friend will be there for you!

JennetteMac

Your story moved me so much, and made me appreciate that although I have had a rocky few years there is always strength and help out there, and inside as well. Your sister sounds wonderful.
My husband lied to me for over 3 years about an affair, and continues to do so now. We are moving rapidly towards separation, and I am trying to come to terms with moving house, settling children and seeing a future where only emptiness is visible. I didn't think I was depressed until work colleagues pointed out that 3 stones weight lost and real mood swings were not normal, and now I am learning to get on with a healthier, forward-looking life.
I would love to have you as a friend, please add me if you want. And thanks for sharing.

AliciaNineteen72

Wow, what a story! You have endured much, so I know you can do this!!! God is my rock and my Salvation and how I make it through. If I didn't know that Jesus walked this earth as a human and went through the things we go through, and then gave His life for us....I wouldn't be here. Keep up the good work and determination!!!! Add me if you wish.

Fattack

I'm so sorry that you have had such an awful time - I hope it gets better for you, and I admire your determination and strength of spirit.

sars_68

What an amazing story. You are so brave and strong to share it so openly. Having battled with depression myself I know how hard it can get and how you just feel like giving up sometimes. You've had such a hard time of it!

You have made the first step in making your life more positive and happy - well done!! :happy:

I have sent you a friend request I wish you well as you embark on your next steps and look forward to hearing how you're getting on.

Good luck:drinker:

Sarah x

AJ_MotherRunner

Wow! Thanks for sharing your story. It is very hard to put yourself out there like that. I believe that admitting our problems is the first step in the right direction. I am very sorry for all that you have been through, but glad to see you standing up and reclaiming your life. I will be cheering for you!

"When you come to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on." ~Franklin D. Roosevelt

fitaliciag

Amen! here's to you for using that anger for something positive !i would love to support you while you face this time in your life!

gailashton

What a touching story, it gave me goosebumps. I am happy for you that you have decided to overcome what you can. I too seem to go through these up and downs with my weight. I've lost over 100 pounds 3 times. Every time a trauma comes along I gain it all back and revert back to old habits. What I have learned is there's only so much you can control in yoour life and you have taken the first step. You have made yourself important, which will make you strong for your family when they need you the most and will give you the strength and confidence to continue on your journey. I hope that we are all here to share in your journey, you've already made the first step! I so appreciate your honesty and putting yourself out there! We are all here for you!

mummyv811

I also suffer from depression and I can really relate to your story. I'm on an upswing at the moment and it seems like you are too! Keep up the positivity and motivation

Feel free to add me as a friend for support (for both weightloss and depression fighting tactics!)

jennieh1980

Fair play to you. I completely understand the amount of mental strength it takes to pick yourself up.

I've struggled with weight and depression too, and still do at times. I left my husband last year, he cheated on me when our son was 10 weeks old. My son was also born with club foot so had lots of hospital treatment so it was a very trying time. He was also the sort of man that I wasn't allowed to show any emotion so I surpressed everything but then turned it all internally.
I've been overweight for a long time, have tried many times to do something about it but he would always put a stop to it, for whatever reason he wanted to me to stay fat and unhappy.

Last year after 2 1/2 of plucking up the courage I left him. I struggled to keep it together for about 9 months but now I've decided to put all my energies in making myself feel better about me. I'm not thinking of this as going on a diet and exercise plan but more along the lines of that I'm taking care of myself for me and my boy because I've finally realised that I'm worth it.

Good luck and keep at it!

dino_girl

Wow, sorry to hear about your story and everything you are going through. But being here and opening up to total strangers is a positive step. Don't be afraid to lean on people around you for comfort and support. I wish you all the best on your health journey and thank you for being open and honest with us.