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  • annbillingsley
    annbillingsley Posts: 60 Member
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    I am feeling overwhelmed and discouraged and jealous. I have muscle atrophy and anemia due to weight loss surgery and even though I am 254 lbs, my body FEELS like it did at 451 lbs!!! It is frustrating to see so many people much bigger than I am be able to do more and get more enjoyment. All of my energy goes to maintaining exercise and I have none left over for my family, myself and to do FUN things.

    As the weight comes off again, the calorie restrictions get tighter and I am finding it harder to stay within MFP's calorie limits and still eat foods in moderation. I feel overwhelmed because I make all the meals, so weighing, counting calories, counting how many portions per meal, etc falls solely on me and some days I just don't give a flying fart what I put into my mouth, but my bf is still on MFP so he needs the count.

    I have so much extra skin from being so super morbidly obese for so long, I do not look like I lost as much weight as I did. My arms are still huge, my tummy fold is 8 inches larger than my hips right below the fold....I have to buy clothes that will fit over the hang, so my shirt tops are baggy and the only part that fits right on a pair of pants is the stomach...everything else is baggy....the only thing holding my pants up is my stomach hang and I REFUSE to wear my pants UNDER it. I am tired of having the skin of a 451 lbs woman on a 254 lb and shrinking body!

    my bf lost 26.5 lbs since xmas and because it was his highest weight and he hasn't been obese for very long the difference is dramatic. I have lost 22 lbs since the end of january and barely anyone notices.....IT PISSES ME RIGHT THE HECK OFF!!!!! I lost almost as much as he did and had to work a helluva lot harder because I am female and 10 yrs older than he is and he looks like a new friggin person and look like I MIGHT have gotten my hair done differently!! GRRRRRRR!
  • cici1028
    cici1028 Posts: 799 Member
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    Totally relieved that my girl scout cookies are gone (Tagalongs... my weakness... I can resist all others) so now I won't be having those around to tempt me.
  • Ladyslippers
    Ladyslippers Posts: 186 Member
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    I'll vent.

    Broke my big toe almost a month ago and while the doc confirmed this morning that it will NOT need surgery after all, he did confine me to "the boot" (post-op flat-soled boot with velcro closures) for another 3 weeks. I used my elliptical machine twice this week but he said not to do that until he clears me. He doesn't want the bones moving at all.

    He said swimming is okay. But that means I have to buy a new suit because last year's suit is too big. And I don't really have the time to get to a pool--I'm a single mom and the local pool is open for adult lap swims from 8:15-9:15pm two nights a week. Not terribly convenient for child care.

    I thought I could do some weight lifting in the interim, but have been having shoulder issues for about 7 months now, so am very limited in what I can do weight-wise. Saw an orthopedic specialist about that FINALLY last week, he ordered a CT scan because my symptoms are so atypical. I see him again tomorrow for those results. Hoping the scan is clear and he sends me for physical therapy or something.

    Lost all this weight in the last year and can't seem to stop falling apart, lol. I actually WANT to get out and run, and I've never been a runner. It feels like I'm losing all this exercise momentum. ARGHHHH!

    Thank you. I feel better now. :)
  • cdj383
    cdj383 Posts: 4
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    Really irritated, someone put samoa girl scout cookies out on the "free table" at work. I consider that a once a year treat - but I already treated myself to a small scone and can't afford anymore calories. Darn those girl scout cookies! Why can't they make low cal versions?

    Been on the 1200 calorie diet for almost two weeks, and I'm starting to feel deprived. Which is bad - because i've got cramming to do for finals in Calculus and Biology - yet work is keeping me so busy I can't find time. So now I'm tired, grouchy and feeling deprived. I might have to give myself a cheat day this weekend and go a little over. Some wine and cheese sounds awfully good right now......
  • dorasworld
    dorasworld Posts: 34 Member
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    I freakin' hate my coworkers at times!! they sabotage me for counting my calories and worst part they make it seem like its a bad thing!! 2nd worst theyre all MEN and Muslim! Arent they suppose to be respectful? i mean I dont have anything against ANY religion but when they told me "please limit your food for lunch" (it was porkchops just ONE DAY WHEN I WAS NEW) I did and never brought them anymore so why now cant they be respectfull towards me now ?!?!?!?!

    OK DONE
  • Bigblondelady
    Bigblondelady Posts: 56 Member
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    I'm trying to avoid another bad day like yesterday. tough time I have a head ache , i have been to the doctor but it's not doing good today, my job sucked yesterday and i emotion eat , Now my little dog is driving me crazy whinning all day cause my husband is not here. I haven't heard anything on the one set of tests the dr, did, and got the results on them myself hormones all low. ok tell me what to do and at least return my call to say you got them and what they mean and by the way what did the other test show, would be nice not to be in limbo. and had a ultra sound done so now i have a appointmet to have a bioptsy on my uterius ( sorry for the spelling) just a all around rrrrrrrrrrr .
  • squindles
    squindles Posts: 350 Member
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    fed up and pi***d that I've let myself get into this disgustingly obese person who's now struggling to lose weight and coz I'm so fat haven't got any energy to move this lump of lard around :sad: :sad:
  • hrubyk1804
    hrubyk1804 Posts: 51
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    I'm feeling increasingly frustrated because I've realized how long it will take to lose this weight and I feel like I've wasted my teenage years being unconfident and hiding away in baggy clothes.

    Realizing how long it will take is often the tipping point to long term success. The realization of just how long it was going to take me completely changed my life, and is a huge reason for why I am where I am today. When you start to see the bigger picture, you start seeing all of this from a different perspective...not a diet (verb) but your diet (noun)...your new life. This is when you really start to find your awesomeness...be one with your awesomeness....

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    Then I must be AWESOME! :)
    Because I'm feeling the same way..looking in the mirror yesterday thinking..."good LORD, this is gonna take a while"... :sad:
  • emelia_
    emelia_ Posts: 91
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    I'm happy :) I just got back from the gym with my mom and we're going out to eat later and I'm finding it much easier to maintain my weight loss than a month ago.
  • diannethegeek
    diannethegeek Posts: 14,776 Member
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    My grandmother passed away last week and I'm still exhausted from the drive across country this weekend for the funeral (plus the funeral itself, meeting any number of people I'm supposed to know already, getting drunk with my cousins before driving back across the country, and - you know - general mourning stuff). My body is tired, my back hurts, and I just want to pass out for 24 hours in an ice cream and chocolate éclair coma.
  • luckyjuls
    luckyjuls Posts: 505 Member
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    I am feeling overwhelmed and discouraged and jealous. I have muscle atrophy and anemia due to weight loss surgery and even though I am 254 lbs, my body FEELS like it did at 451 lbs!!! It is frustrating to see so many people much bigger than I am be able to do more and get more enjoyment. All of my energy goes to maintaining exercise and I have none left over for my family, myself and to do FUN things.

    As the weight comes off again, the calorie restrictions get tighter and I am finding it harder to stay within MFP's calorie limits and still eat foods in moderation. I feel overwhelmed because I make all the meals, so weighing, counting calories, counting how many portions per meal, etc falls solely on me and some days I just don't give a flying fart what I put into my mouth, but my bf is still on MFP so he needs the count.

    I have so much extra skin from being so super morbidly obese for so long, I do not look like I lost as much weight as I did. My arms are still huge, my tummy fold is 8 inches larger than my hips right below the fold....I have to buy clothes that will fit over the hang, so my shirt tops are baggy and the only part that fits right on a pair of pants is the stomach...everything else is baggy....the only thing holding my pants up is my stomach hang and I REFUSE to wear my pants UNDER it. I am tired of having the skin of a 451 lbs woman on a 254 lb and shrinking body!

    my bf lost 26.5 lbs since xmas and because it was his highest weight and he hasn't been obese for very long the difference is dramatic. I have lost 22 lbs since the end of january and barely anyone notices.....IT PISSES ME RIGHT THE HECK OFF!!!!! I lost almost as much as he did and had to work a helluva lot harder because I am female and 10 yrs older than he is and he looks like a new friggin person and look like I MIGHT have gotten my hair done differently!! GRRRRRRR!

    You have made AMAZING progress. Seriously. Keep going. You are doing so fantastic. Are you active? Maybe the activity will spur your body to shrink the fat stores and it will start melting off and back into place.
  • phoenixrizez
    phoenixrizez Posts: 50 Member
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    I feel a little overwhelmed...but hopeful. I am working SO HARD to get this diet and exercise thing figured out. I know that I am doing okay even when I disappoint myself with a setback. I am also a graduate student, seeking employment, a mom, a wife, a sister, a friend, and an imperfect person period. I just want all of the things that I am working towards to pan out and I want to stop STRESSING about them. I just want to GET there. You know? That's all. I am just tired of waiting and ready to finally GET to where I am going...and I absolutely cannot do more than I am doing now to make that happen...which leads to the frustration that I feel right now. THANKS for letting me share that!
  • phoenixrizez
    phoenixrizez Posts: 50 Member
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    I'm happy :) I just got back from the gym with my mom and we're going out to eat later and I'm finding it much easier to maintain my weight loss than a month ago.




    I find it easier to eat differently too! Good job!
  • Better4Summer
    Better4Summer Posts: 120
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    Right now.... I feel like it is such a long journey I face and wondering how I let me get to this weight tbh
  • Jeannepetra
    Jeannepetra Posts: 4 Member
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    Remember the biggest obsticle to you being sucessful is your attitude - My coach has drilled into my head that you have to talk to yourself like your biggest fan would - Always look on the positive side of any situation - for instantance - if you eat a cookie that puts you over your goal for sugar and carbs for the day congratulate yourself for having eaten healthy all day and that you only had one cookie and tomorrow I will try and not have the cookie - One mistake does not write off the entire day nor does one bad day ruin your week - its only if you let it go on and you have many bad days ina row. YOU WILL SUCEED!!!!!!
  • sPaRkLiNgLYFE
    sPaRkLiNgLYFE Posts: 609
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    i feel, happy, energetic and empowered :tongue:
  • hungrypotato
    hungrypotato Posts: 1,642 Member
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    First week of p90x . My whole body is sore ...:(
  • Jeannepetra
    Jeannepetra Posts: 4 Member
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    Anytime you want to chat - drop me a line - I am a little older than you but I don't mind - I am a night owl and alone 9 days out of fourteen - I have a problem eating at nights as I am bored - so having someone to write too would help me as well . Talk to me rather than the cookie jar - I am having trouble motivating myself to walk on my treadmill the way I should - perhaps we can encourage each other. - I challenge you to fo a 20 min workout today and I will walk on my treadmill for 20 min as well
  • lubug07
    lubug07 Posts: 9 Member
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    Annoyed! I've never worked out so regularly and counted my calories so consistently. I will admit that I do have a few slip up days. It's especially hard for me when I am out with my friends and they are eating and drinking whatever they want. But the bulk of the week, I'm exercising hard and eating right. The past two weigh-ins I've had though, I've put on weight. I feel so good about myself and the work I've done until I get on that damn scale!

    That's my vent for the week. Just some motivation to keep working I suppose! You're all beautiful. Don't forget it. Love yourself :)
  • Bigblondelady
    Bigblondelady Posts: 56 Member
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    Remember the biggest obsticle to you being sucessful is your attitude - My coach has drilled into my head that you have to talk to yourself like your biggest fan would - Always look on the positive side of any situation - for instantance - if you eat a cookie that puts you over your goal for sugar and carbs for the day congratulate yourself for having eaten healthy all day and that you only had one cookie and tomorrow I will try and not have the cookie - One mistake does not write off the entire day nor does one bad day ruin your week - its only if you let it go on and you have many bad days ina row. YOU WILL SUCEED!!!!!!
    Thank you so much that is what I needede to hear, I still have my issues, that is life , But I need to work on my happy. That is what gets me through , that and faith and a strong belief. I was doing a winter challenge through a church , I miss the encouragement. so thanks this is what we all need

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