Need to Lose 100 LBS -Robins Thread !

Thursday Truth: With everything that has been going on with my family, from my sister to my niece things have just been so crazy and stressful. I haven't logged food in over a week I think. And it seems I have been eating and going for sweets even when I'm not hungry and don't want them...they are just there so I eat them. This has to stop. I am working on it.

I am thankful for all the thoughts and prayers in regards to my niece. I think this is going to be a long process of trying to help her and get her better. My sister went to visit her last night and she was still saying she doesn't want to live. I just don't understand. But she is going in the right direction and getting the help she needs. I am SO thankful that her older sister went to the counselor and expressed her concern and worry. Who knows what would've happened if she hadn't. But I appreciate the thoughts and prayers. Thank you all.

Tina

Hi! I just joined MFP yesterday and was going through the community board. I saw this post and started to read some of the posts here. I was wondering if it would be ok to join your group? I really could use the support and friendships! ..Thank you

Thank you! I will do my best to post daily. Monday- Friday will be the easiest, weekends...not so much. I look forward to getting to know you all, seems like a very supportive group! Thanks again!! See you tomorrow

Thank you! I will do my best to post daily. Monday- Friday will be the easiest, weekends...not so much. I look forward to getting to know you all, seems like a very supportive group! Thanks again!! See you tomorrow

Welcome Christie!! If you go to the first page, Robin has listed the basics of the board. Each day we have something to write about or we write whatever. You've found an amazing group of people who are so supportive. Gentle nudges if you need them, but no negativity and just positive people. Because we're human and life still happens we have our ups and downs, but people are free to share and listen. Best of luck and YOU CAN DO THIS!!!

@LMackbethi -- Congrats on the job! Yes, that little lad will keep you active.
@Karen -- what mine did was show, say, 112 in the running sections on average, rising quickly to 140 when I stopped to look at it! So I knew there was something up. I could compare heart rate to pace -- if the heart rate went down when I was running faster, it had to be skipping beats. Also, on the house -- that's one room sorted... but we have eight... Ah, Christmas with the in-laws. Good luck having the strength not to lose patience with your MIL.
@Susan -- so sad to hear your story about your friend. And congrats on 125 -- I think you've been logging for just a day longer than me.
@Tina -- oh, I am glad your niece is getting the help that she needs. That does sound very scary. Do try to log your food, and maybe squeeze in the odd walk; they're so great for clearing your head and thinking through stuff.
@Vicki -- hope you're feeling better soon.
@Lauren -- if you're keeping your calories in balance, logging every day, and doing exercise nearly every day, that's enough. You just need to keep going; it's like putting one foot in front of another. You might also benefit from having more unprocessed foods and fruit and veg; keep the things out of packets and restaurants as sometimes foods. And don't guess calories unless there's no alternative.
@Katrena -- well done on keeping on track!
@Kelley -- Congratulations on being a success story! That's so awesome.
@Christe -- welcome! It's not the kind of group that has rules (apart from 'be excellent to each other...') so don't fret if you can't post every day.

Thursday truth -- no awful sins to confess this week (apart from a dairy *full* of junk food, see I don't take my own advice at all...), but I am going to have to knuckle down seriously to computer science tomorrow and finish the second midterm of the MIT course. Which I have not really started studying for.

Today's walk -- well, I ran down to the river (this is the Lea), and then took one of the marsh paths along to Clapton. As I was going along, someone walking his dog called me over and got me to take out my headphones. Why? Because he was concerned that I was breathing too heavily (it was an uphill bit but I do pant a lot, I confess!) and couldn't run if I was breathing that hard. I said 'oh, well, I've been running for 2 1/2 miles at this point so I think I'm ok, but thanks...' . What is it with these people? Anyway, I carried on, with a couple of quick walk breaks, and then crossed the river and ran back past my husband's old flat, and the pub that used to be our local (the Anchor & Hope in Clapton), and ended up at a cafe in Markfield Park. Over 5 miles, 80% running! And then I walked back to the tube station and went home by tube. I love the density of public transport in London; it means you can run wherever you like and not worry about getting back to your start point. Cold though, about 2 degrees above freezing and I had to watch out for icy patches on the marsh paths particularly. And then I got home, and zonked out on the sofa and watched Phineas & Ferb with the kids, and sent my husband off for takeout. Oops. But that's the long run done for this week. However, on Saturday morning we're doing a Parkrun -- regular 5k free races in parks near you every Saturday all over the world. How cool is that?

Hope you're having a fantastic day, everyone!

-- Alison

Hi again. I know I just wont go away I got a slow start to the day with a headache but once i kicked it I got busy. Had to run to the store and pick up some groceries and went ahead and got the stuff for the stockings. I have been teasing my daughter that this is the last year for stockings and she keeps telling me that as far as christmas goes she is never growing up. So now I am sitting on the computer stalling on putting away the groceries and cleaning the kitchen. I guess that can be my Thursday truth: I have a real problem with procratination. I know the kitchen is just going to get dirty again so it seems like a hopeless endeavor, lol:laugh: I am Going to try my hand at canning for the first time tomorrow. I am hoping to can pickled green beans and homemade salsa for my brothers for christmas. Cross your fingers for me. Oh well better go put the groceries away as the dogs are trying to help with the lunchmeat:laugh: Dont forget drink your water:drinker: :drinker: :drinker:

Hi Everyone,

@Kaye I am happy that you walk the loop. I am.also sorry to hear about your husband. You both sound like a very loving couple who are facing a hard situation very bravely. I also hope those moments are few and far between.


My week is going ok still struggling with a sweet tooth. Trying to finish each meal with fruit. Like grapes but even than I struggle with wanting chocolate or turtles the other day I was looking at cookbooks for recipes for divinity. I never make or want divinity.

I hope this will pass. Today I have been feeling like I am coming down with a bug. My throat is so sore that hard to swallow. Freezing aching, feverish, sore. Going to bed early tonight hopefully will help. I just cant afford yo take off my job has no coverage available.also so much to get done.

Wishing everyone a wonderful evening.

Tina- Your niece has a long road ahead of her. It is great that she recognizes she needs help at her age and is willing to get it. There is plenty of help in the community and the school to help students like her. Praise your older niece for realizing her cry for help and being brave enough to tell to a counselor. I have middle schoolers who also deal with thoughts of suicide and a few that have been in the hospital for Emotional distress. Support and love both your nieces and let them know that you are always there for them.

Karen your truth could be mine as well. I need to stop eating junk food.

Yesterday was frustrating and good at the same time. Went to dinner with co-workers nice evening out and had a slice and a half of pizza. Then had to copy stuff at Office Depot for my mom- well that job was overwhelming, tedious and took 1.5 hours. Yes, it was a lot of stuff- mostly my aunt stuff so we can send it all to MI. I was so frustrated after that copying job that I almost skipped the gym but I realized that I had to work off my frustration. I did go to the gym and ran into an old friend. We spent the next 30 minutes working out and catching up. The best part it was 8:15 pm at night and the gym closes at 9 pm. So in the end the day ended on a good note.

Wish- I need the will power to stop the carb cravings and to eat healthy once again.

Tonight I went shopping and was looking at pants. Well, it was a very frustrating experience. My favorite brand name Alfred Dunner has changed the way they are cutting the clothes so now my go to size does not fit correctly. I tried on multiple pairs of pants in 2 different sizes and it worse with the 14's, the 16's were better but not perfect. I have some 16's same brand that are now to big so that size is my go to size but not anymore. Needless to say, I was totally frustrated tonight with shopping and that did not help my resolve to lose more weight. I refused to purchase an 18 in pants since they will be to big. I did find a couple of cute sweaters so it was not totally in vane.

Enough of my rant about clothing. It will get better.

Yay, Me! I just walked the "short loop" (1.5 miles) in 35 min. That used to be one of my favorite walks and I haven't been able walk it for few years. My goal is to be able to walk the long loop. Its about 2.5 miles. I'm sure I will be able to do that before spring.
Thursday truth: For obvious reasons, there aren't very many people I can share this with. When my husband had his knee replacement surgery, his reaction to hospitalization and the stress made it pretty apparent to the dr. that he was in the early stages of Alzheimers. He hasn't progressed very rapidly and still does quite well. The 2 strokes that he had within 7 months took their toll as they affected his speech. He has a hard time coming up with the right words, and often says things in a strange way. Anyway, today he was trying to fix a leak under the kitchen sink. Mind you he is a real handyman. He built one house for us and has remodeled this one several times. I had to gently guide him through the process of finding the leak, making suggestions along the way. It was really hard at times because I don't have the plumber's vocabulary to describe things, and he doesn't have the ability any more to explain things to me. I'm really glad the these kinds of situations don't come up very often. It breaks my heart. Oh, he also left the car running for well over an hour. He went to get parts and didn't turn it off when he got home. I found it when I went out to run an errand.
I guess we all have our challenges. It helps to have a place to vent. Wed. wish is gone but I would wish for all of us the courage to face the challenges with dignity and do what we can to help others.

Your walking goal seems very obtainable and good luck with that goal.

@laurie--I can totally relate to your frustration with sizes. I haven't gone shopping for pants at a store, but I'm having the same problem in my own closet. Have a few size 16 dress slacks that are loose and sloppy looking. Then, there are 2 pair of 14's that actually fit perfectly, but a bunch of 14's that fit but would be much more flattering is they were just a smidge looser. With my jeans the Levi 14's are starting to get loose, but Mossimo 14's are way too tight--like I can't even zip them. Worried with the slowed weight loss, I will wear out what fits before I can get into the smaller stuff. :ohwell:

@lmack--glad you are off the graveyard shift and adjusting to the new schedule. I hope you enjoy your new job--it sounds very challenging.

@liz--get some rest! :flowerforyou:

@robin & jt--I feel the same way about making the bed. I just don't see the point if no one will see my bedroom. I'm just gonna sleep in it again tonight, right? :laugh:

@kaye--glad you enjoyed your walk. I'm also sorry to hear about your husband. My good friend's mother suffers from very advanced Alzheimer's and it breaks my heart to hear about her visits to the assisted living center. I'm glad your husband's case isn't progressing too rapidly.

@alison--Be careful about talking to strangers on your runs! It was a little odd that he stopped you, but at least it wasn't for a more sinister reason. As far as the panting, my husband used to ask "Are you okay?!?" in a very alarmed tone when I would return from my runs. Not sure if my breathing has improved or he's just realized how annoyed his question made me, but he doesn't ask anymore.

@christel--welcome! :flowerforyou:

@kaye--great job!! I'm also trying to get back on track--we can do it!! :drinker:

@kelley--thanks for your response--I know he's pretty typical, but his mother has some warped image of his life. You're right about his need to talk to her, but he's not great at maintaining patience with her. Congrats on the awesome recognition from the trainers at your gym--what a colossal compliment!!

@holly--I hope you know we won't judge you or think of you as a B. I know what you mean though--I sometimes feel like I complain so much about grading that you all must think "what a big whiner! why did she even become a teacher?"

@robin--thanks for helping me try to see things from my MIL's perspective. Sadly, her other son didn't "slip under the radar." We've all known for years that he's needed help; however, her co-dependent relationship with his is one of the reasons he didn't need to deal with his issues sooner. As far as deflecting her concern, I've tried that in the past (she's tried to label him an alcoholic for years) and in her mind that just means I'm "in denial." After 20+ years of mediating between them, I'm just running out of patience. I think it's my husband's turn to deal with her--she is HIS mother, after all.

@taratruex--it's nice to see you back in the thread!! :flowerforyou:


Exercise goals:
Mon--core work (I have a late meeting so there's no way I will be home to walk gunner before dark)--DONE!!!
Tues--run outside w/ gunner--DONE!!!
Wed--walk gunner DONE + core work (skipped this even after logging it, so I will do it tonight)
Thurs--walk gunner + gym OR run outside ALL I DID WAS WALK GUNNER
Fri--rest day
Sat--walk gunner + gym OR run outside
Sun--walk gunner + gym OR run outside

Adding grading goals:
1. 49/49 AP tests DONE
2. 10/22 Create an ad assignments
3. x/11 AP analysis activities
4. 6/48 AP journal reflections
5. 22/22 vocab quizzes DONE
6. 30/30 Scarlet Letter essay plans DONE

Forgot to do Friday Fitness (what does that tell you about my motivation level?):
I haven't been super-motivated, but have been walking or running outside and did core work once this week. Was going to do it tonight, but I'm too tired and have an early meeting.

On a good note, my students have been really good all week. Juniors just finished Scarlet Letter and did an awesome job with class discussion of archetypes and diction/syntax analysis. Now they are working on some essays--a bit more challenging for them, but they are working hard. My seniors just started Oscar Wilde's The Importance of Being Earnest--one of my all-time favorites. It's just so hilarious and a joy to read with my AP students b/c they actually "get" most of the jokes. It's nice when everything is running so smoothly--especially so close to Winter Break.

@Kaye -- I'm so sorry to hear about your husband. There are new treatments for this I think; is he getting the support he needs? You will definitely be able to walk the long loop before spring if you keep walking I think.
@Liz -- ah, the struggles with the sweet tooth... I mostly have a savoury tooth, but it's just as bad! When I want to have something sweet, I try to keep in tiny pieces of very good chocolate and just have one or two. It doesn't always work!
@LMackbethi -- I'm sure you'll be a great influence on this little boy, and no more nightshift! Isn't that great?
@Laurie -- clothes shopping is such a pain, isn't it? I swear a lot of the sizes don't make any sense at all.
@Lauren -- when I start making poor choices I remember that the basic calculations have that 500 calorie deficit built in, so the first 500 calories of over-eating doesn't really make things any worse. Mostly I manage to stop before 500, or I do a bit more exercise to get it down under 500... But not always. So if you go 700 or 800 over in a day, you'll still make that back in one more day. Over a month it's really nothing. I do think it helps not to think about 'good' or 'bad' foods, because if you do you'll always want the bad ones and start depriving yourself. And I quite often resort to takeout -- indeed I did yesterday. Looking at your diary, it doesn't look like what you had for dinner was really the problem, it was more the snacks. I think you might try to cut your carbs a bit. The problem I find with carbs (particularly sugar and white flour/rice/pasta) is that they seem to trigger cravings for me. So after a carb-heavy day, even if I'm in balance, I just want to Eat More Junk. I think MFP's default macros are a bit high on carbs -- I cut the carb target and increased the protein and I've been feeling a lot better.
@Karen -- oh, I never even thought about the talking to strangers thing! oops... I just sort of assume that dog walkers are good people I guess... the great thing about the riverside paths is that they're always pretty busy. Not as isolated as some of the marsh paths.

Oh yes, and my kitchen is a mess too. It just never seems to be sorted.

Friday Fitness -- so here was this week's plan:

Saturday -- a difficult, busy day; will have some walking. Walking DONE
Sunday -- badminton with kids DONE
Monday -- Run - 4m run if I don't do it today. Otherwise fartleks. And Morris practice. No, not at all -- Badminton DONE and walking DONE
Tuesday -- Zumba -- Nope, Speedwork Run DONE and it was hard too! And some walking DONE
Wednesday -- Badminton, run maybe? Badminton DONE.
Thursday -- Badminton? dance mat? -- 5m Run DONE
Friday -- long run -- this *might* be the 5m run. Which feels a bit scary to be honest. Will need walk breaks. -- No, I'd already done the 5m run on Thursday so today is a total rest day!
And strength -- at least three times! -- did it twice. So have more to do there next week, but I don't want to do strength today because I'm doing a 5k tomorrow.

Next week:

Saturday -- 5k Run, plus 2 hours badminton; might be overdoing it a bit here.
Sunday -- badminton
Monday -- Speedwork
Tuesday -- Zumba?
Wednesday -- Badminton
Thursday -- Long run -- 5 1/2 miles total with 4 1/2 miles of running
Friday -- badminton

Have a great Friday everyone!

Hi! I just joined MFP yesterday and was going through the community board. I saw this post and started to read some of the posts here. I was wondering if it would be ok to join your group? I really could use the support and friendships! ..Thank you

Welcome to the group it is very supportive. I suggest like Robin it is learning curve that is one day at a time. I am learning to set small goals that will help me get my big goal. That is easier said than done sometimes.

@laurie--I can totally relate to your frustration with sizes. I haven't gone shopping for pants at a store, but I'm having the same problem in my own closet. Have a few size 16 dress slacks that are loose and sloppy looking. Then, there are 2 pair of 14's that actually fit perfectly, but a bunch of 14's that fit but would be much more flattering is they were just a smidge looser. With my jeans the Levi 14's are starting to get loose, but Mossimo 14's are way too tight--like I can't even zip them. Worried with the slowed weight loss, I will wear out what fits before I can get into the smaller stuff. :ohwell:

@lmack--glad you are off the graveyard shift and adjusting to the new schedule. I hope you enjoy your new job--it sounds very challenging.

@liz--get some rest! :flowerforyou:

@robin & jt--I feel the same way about making the bed. I just don't see the point if no one will see my bedroom. I'm just gonna sleep in it again tonight, right? :laugh:

@kaye--glad you enjoyed your walk. I'm also sorry to hear about your husband. My good friend's mother suffers from very advanced Alzheimer's and it breaks my heart to hear about her visits to the assisted living center. I'm glad your husband's case isn't progressing too rapidly.

@alison--Be careful about talking to strangers on your runs! It was a little odd that he stopped you, but at least it wasn't for a more sinister reason. As far as the panting, my husband used to ask "Are you okay?!?" in a very alarmed tone when I would return from my runs. Not sure if my breathing has improved or he's just realized how annoyed his question made me, but he doesn't ask anymore.

@christel--welcome! :flowerforyou:

@kaye--great job!! I'm also trying to get back on track--we can do it!! :drinker:

@kelley--thanks for your response--I know he's pretty typical, but his mother has some warped image of his life. You're right about his need to talk to her, but he's not great at maintaining patience with her. Congrats on the awesome recognition from the trainers at your gym--what a colossal compliment!!

@holly--I hope you know we won't judge you or think of you as a B. I know what you mean though--I sometimes feel like I complain so much about grading that you all must think "what a big whiner! why did she even become a teacher?"

@robin--thanks for helping me try to see things from my MIL's perspective. Sadly, her other son didn't "slip under the radar." We've all known for years that he's needed help; however, her co-dependent relationship with his is one of the reasons he didn't need to deal with his issues sooner. As far as deflecting her concern, I've tried that in the past (she's tried to label him an alcoholic for years) and in her mind that just means I'm "in denial." After 20+ years of mediating between them, I'm just running out of patience. I think it's my husband's turn to deal with her--she is HIS mother, after all.

@taratruex--it's nice to see you back in the thread!! :flowerforyou:


Exercise goals:
Mon--core work (I have a late meeting so there's no way I will be home to walk gunner before dark)--DONE!!!
Tues--run outside w/ gunner--DONE!!!
Wed--walk gunner DONE + core work (skipped this even after logging it, so I will do it tonight)
Thurs--walk gunner + gym OR run outside ALL I DID WAS WALK GUNNER
Fri--rest day
Sat--walk gunner + gym OR run outside
Sun--walk gunner + gym OR run outside

Adding grading goals:
1. 49/49 AP tests DONE
2. 10/22 Create an ad assignments
3. x/11 AP analysis activities
4. 6/48 AP journal reflections
5. 22/22 vocab quizzes DONE
6. 30/30 Scarlet Letter essay plans DONE

Thanks for the encouraging words. I actually admire teachers for many reasons. When I think of all the home work I have and kids at my house have I can only assume how much work a teacher has.