How are you feeling....just vent right now!!!

A little frustrated.

It seems like every single time I get to a new lowest weight, there is a day following where it is hard to stick to my healthy eating. When I am with family, I am not going to make a big deal of eating superhealthy, because it causes too much bla.

I was at a great lowest weight this morning and visited the in laws and as always they baked cakes (I only had 2 slices instead of the usual 3-4) and for diner there was salad (really just lettuce with some dressing) and sandwiches and salmon. Not at all super unhealthy, though it was white bread and I think I had around 8-10 slices. I drank only water and as soon as I got home I drank 500ml water and a cup of green tea. Hope this won't affect my weight tomorrow!

No means no!!! No, I don't want dessert, no I don't want alcohol, yes I'm sure, no I'm not miserable. Yes I did used to drink and eat a lot more but I also used to weigh a lot more.

I'm really happy with the changes I've made and I can still have fun. I think my attitude is much more healthy towards food now that I emotionally eat less and actually think about what I am eating....

Argh, lots of mixed feelings today. I could pull my jeans up without wriggling and twisting into them like before, and I could put a finger between my tummy and the waistline without it being too tight. I wore a peplum shirt I bought last year for the first time today, since this was the first day since buying it I didn't feel like I looked pregnant. So, the morning was pretty good. Then I went to have lunch at my grandparents' house, and came home and logged everything. I tried to be good and thought I made smarter choices but still went over by a LOT. Then, I tried to do a workout video at home, but I've had a sore throat for the whole week that has stopped me from doing anything harded than walking. I wanted to try that video to see how I'd feel working out, since the throat has felt better, but nope - still started burning after a couple of minutes. So, no working out to burn any of those easter lunch calories either. And, tomorrow is a weigh-in day. Frustrating!

This week I lost .5 pounds and I am pretty happy. I've been dieting since I was 19 (I'm 32) now, and I have to say that as much as I push myself down, I haven't gained any of it back due to food or giving up. It's a new outlook in my life I am trying to achieve.
Anyway, don't be scared into gaining. Set yourself goals each week (NOT EACH MONTH) each week. That's about how long it takes to see change. Treat yourself if you must, or reward yourself, but stick to your diet. Use the fear to keep you on the wagon.
I also want to punch a guy in the face right now, but that's a whole other issue.

Having one of those days where I just feel fat and gross. I try not to let those thoughts get to me, but it is hard. I have really low self-esteem and I'm not very kind to myself. Part of me wants to just say "*kitten* it" and go drown my feelings by eating a chocolate bunny. I know that will only make it worse though. I need to keep reminding myself that slow and steady wins the race.

I'm feeling very anxious and jittery for two days now. Might have something to do with the 8-10 cans of diet mtn dew I consume every day. It doesn't usually affect me though.

My body feels really worked and tired because I did trampoline/kettlebells/HIIT for 80 minutes.

I am a little frustrated that I'm taking a grad-level class that is still implementing multiple-choice tests and 75 minutes of lecture. Totally ineffective styles of both teaching and assessment.

I am madly in love with my awesome boyfriend and thankful we get to spend the weekends together.

So my DH and I got up at 6:30 am on Easter Sunday to prepare for going over to his mother's house for an Easter breakfast. We didn't want her to go through too much trouble so we suggested everyone bring something. Everyone is his sister, mom and us.

Sister didn't want to make anything because she 'works' (apparently no one else does, so...whatever). Brought my ebelskiver pan and already mixed batter, sliced pears, cheese tray, and a breakfast 'casserole' with seasoned potatoes, bacon & eggs.

While the casserole was baking in the oven, I got to making the ebelskivers, blueberry & homemade lemon curd filled yummerlicious spherical joy on a plate. After making the first batch, the kids (24 and 17yrs respectively) decided to help out & they made the remaining ebelskivers. Even gave grandma a lesson & taught her how to turn them with skewers to get perfectly round 'skivers.

Enter pissy SIL who shows up 2 hours late with a quiche. Surprise. She lives in the same garden apartment complex, while we live 1.5 hours away. We all say our hello's but she seems irritated (mind you, we got there at 9:30 am, she rolled in at 11am). She sat down at the bkfst table & actually snorted at my 'skivers, and made a comment about being up late watching info-mercials and a few more choice off hand things. :huh:

Sour. Just sour.

I brushed it off but felt like crap....as if all the effort we put into making our bkfst together special was stupid. :grumble: Even brought fresh squeezed orange juice, for that we got the most screwball looks. :ohwell: Somehow, I thought we would just all enjoy the yummy food & each other's company, since the kids are growing up (her daughter is also 17) and well, it was just crappy. DH shrugged it off too, but I could tell he was put off.

Makes it hard to go there for holidays because if I don't try to do something special, we all just sit around watching tv, then sit down to a boring meal from a box. :noway: Both my MIL and SIL feel as though cooking from scratch is a waste of time & they have better things to do.:ohwell: For me, it's how I show my family I care. I'm a dunce I guess.

Rant over.

O wait, not over....I'm pissed off that I blew my whole calorie budget for the day on that lousy visit. Ok, NOW rant over :huh: