support for Binge Eating Disorder

Happy Halloween! :devil:

I earned another $5 and oh boy did I truly earn that one. Joe and I had a huge fight last night and I wanted to binge so badly to make myself feel better. I didn't though. Now I did go pour myself a small rum and coke and drank it kind of fast but I did not binge! I did not reach for all the puddings I had just bought, and I did not reach for the chocolate granola bars because I knew once I had one it would be all over for the rest of the night and the only way I would have been able to stop would have been to go to bed. Luckily we resolved the issue and things are fine again but I really do need to find another way to deal with those emotions. I did try to focus on my jewelry making though. That was a good thing to keep my mind off temptation. I really enjoy designing jewelry. I did well last night and am proud of myself for taking it one day at a time.

Today will be for chores, and spending time in the kitchen getting my food ready for the week. Tonight Joe and I are going to the Olive Garden for dinner and am looking forward to that. I will be fine there as long as I stay away from the dessert. I chose to go there over Red Lobster because I don't know if you guys have ever had their cheddar biscuits but oh lordy Red Lobster's cheddar biscuits are very dangerous. (Mollie, I know you probably know what I'm talking about since you live so close). I don't really care for Olive Garden's breadsticks so will not feel the urge to eat 5 of them and ask for some to take home like I would at Red Lobster.

I hope you're all having a good day...off to my chores.

So much for muffins... guess I already packed up my muffin pans. Oh well. :ohwell: I can't wait to MOVE!!! :happy:

Ok I ate 6 more mini choc. bars but I didn't binge on it, the old me would have ate them till they where all gone or untill I was so stuffed I couldn't eat any more.

One up for me getting a better grip on things yay!!!!!!!!

That's funny you say that. That's been the BIGGEST issue in my life. And I, too, am seeing someone about it. So I'm all game! We need something like this, and I don't think many realize that food can be an addiction and drug.

I'm glad you're here Mollie! A new day and a new month! November is going to be a great month!

Melissa- sounds like you were very aware of what you were putting in your mouth this weekend and that is a great accomplishment in itself.

Tatiana--mmm...cheesecake! Where's the drooling emoticon? I am so happy to read of your success these past 2 weeks, that is very motivating.

diane...thanks for the congrats. And congrats yourself at choosing moderation at the Olive Garden! Restaurants make their money by tempting you to eat more, so to be able to be moderate when everything around you is saying "eat! eat!" is no small feat.

No bingeing! Although I sure did want to. I made the mistake of having a little something before bed and then all I wanted to do was eat. As I laid there trying to fall asleep I wanted to get up out of bed to go get something more. I was scanning my kitchen cupboards in my head and was trying to figure out if there was anything in particular that I was really craving. Nope, not a craving. Just a bad habit that I am going to continue to learn how to break. I took some deep breaths and tried to focus on other things as I laid there and eventually I dozed off. Unfortunately I had a rotten night's sleep. But that could have been from all the exercise too. That happens sometimes.

I hope you all have a great Tuesday!

Great job Melissa! :flowerforyou:

I'm so happy to have come across this group. I am confident that you and I can beat this terrible disease. Wishing you all the best and looking forward to clean eating and healthy living.

Welcome Hot Child!

Melissa, pay attention to how you feel when you're eating and not so much about what you're eating. I can tell the difference in how my body feels when I am in binge mode. I also will eat faster and go from one thing to the next not really thinking about exactly the quantity or calorie content of the food. I try to pay attention to my different behavior patterns when I'm just eating regular planned things and such throughout the day versus when I'm bingeing and just can't get enough and continuously not feeling satisfied. I try to relearn what hunger feels like...real hunger, not a yearning. Am I hungry or is there something else going on? I am so totally guilty of bingeing on healthy food. I can tell it is a binge though by how I feel.

How have I been trying to relearn hunger? By eating! :laugh: Seriously though, I eat a ton! Or so it feels like. I mean sheesh when you're consuming several thousand calories every day of junk food, it may not seem like that much food. Take those same calories and eat healthy food...and you'll fill an entire table top. It is important to fill yourself with healthy food. And if that's what you're doing during the day and if it is truly because you're hungry and you need the calories then I think you're right on top of things. I know there are some days that I am insatiable simply because I have been working out hard. You may be experiencing the same sort of thing. About once or twice a month I have a day where I'll be so hungry when I wake up that I'll consume 800-1000 calories within a 3-4 hr time span but it was because I was really truly hungry. Sometimes my body wants more fuel the day after working out hard. Listen to your body sweetie. I think it's great that you're eating so many fruits and veggies though, that is wonderful!

I can relate. I suffered with Bulimarexia from early teens through my late 20's. I gained a lot of weight after my starving stopped. I discovered that there is a form of bulimia where you don't purge. That realization has caused me to be mroe alert when I am eating crazy things. Like what am I feeling?

I found myself thinking about starving myself. Then, I remembered how ugly that cycle was and how long it took me to escape it...

Thanks for sharing shelf elf, please feel free to post here anytime. We're all here for each other.

I had a repeat of the previous night. No bingeing but strong urges too. And a horrible night sleep again. I woke up at 4am and tossed and turned until 7am. I have been exercising like a mad woman to meet my 360 min goal this week and oh boy am I feeling it today. But I know this too will pass and it will get easier.

I used to be a MAJOR binge eater and suffered through eating disorders most of my life. At my worst it got to the point where I would drive to 2 or 3 different fast food places and buy entire meals AND deserts at all of them. I would then lock myself in my room and stuff myself in secret. So I know what you guys are going through. It took a lot of patience with myself and some real work mentally and emotionally for me to learn how to have a normal relationship with food. Just know that you guys CAN do this. It is possible to over come eating disorders. You can have a normal relationship with food again. It takes a lot of work to get to the root of the problem but once you find out the REASONS that's half the battle. Figuring out the "why" of it is one of the hardest things I had to do. But once I did, reordering my thought patterns and learning how to eat normally became much easier.

I have been ED free now for nearly 3 years. If I can do it, I know you guys can too! I have faith in you guys! I know you can overcome this!

Thanks so much Stacy!! I truly believe finding the reasons is key also. I mostly know my reasons now but now I have to re-wire myself. I have did the thearpy for years to get to the roots of why, but no one but ourselves can help with the normal relationship with food. They can give you ideas and I have read many suggestions and recommendations. Thanks for encouragine words that this can be done. I needed to hear this today. Very inspiring.

Congrats to you for overcoming BED!! I know that was a lot of hard work!! Congrats on your weight loss also! Keep up the good work!:flowerforyou: :flowerforyou: Thanks again and have a great day!

I am really new to understanding my eating problems. What I am struggling with is the emotional satisfaction with binging. I know it is bad for me, but I really love to eat and it feels so good. How do you find something to take the place of food?

I FEEL TOTALLLY AND COMPLETLY IDENTIFIED WITH YOU, the only things that keeps me trying to stop it is believen inside there is a strong beautiful determined woman who just needs to take control over anxiety.