Need to Lose 100 LBS -Robins Thread !

Happy St. Patrick’s Day!

@Amanda~Its funny, I’m a thumb texter and when I access the thread on my iPhone it won’t let me turn it sideways to post—annoying. I’m sorry you’re crabby this week, with everything you and your family have been through over the last couple of weeks its understandable. Maybe take some time for you? Or if your sister is close by, spend a day together (maybe get a mani/pedi)—leave all the kiddos with your hubs.

@steelwill7us~Baby steps, just get in short sessions of walking when you can. Slow and steady wins this race. I hope you get your blood sugar regulated soon.

@Ferfilia~Congrats, how exciting! One of our other thread member’s @JNettie73 had an adorable baby girl in January.

@Morgori (Tom)~Come out come out, wherever you are!

@Robinsegg~Great new profile pic!

@Tracy~Water seems to elude me lately too. I do really well at work (usually around 48oz) but when I get home at night I tend to not drink anything—it’s weird since I’m usually really good about getting my water in. The cupcakes are super cute!

Tuesday Goals~My goals this week are to get back into a workout routine—I’m allowed to take the boot off to use the recumbent elliptical, bike and pool at the gym so I need to do that. Plus I can do most weights, just no leg press—so need to get back into that routine as well. I’m not sure if I will go back to having a trainer or not (right now I kind of like having the $$ again)—I had a trainer long enough to know what to do. So posting my exercise goals for the week—trying to make it such that weekends are free.

Exercise Goals:

Monday~None
Tuesday~Weights/Cardio
Wednesday~Cardio
Thursday~Weights/Cardio
Friday~Swim
Saturday~Rest Day
Sunday~Rest Day

I know I sound like a broken record, but once again I’m in a funk. I can’t say that I don’t care because deep down I know I do care and tired of being fat. I just keep making excuses and just don’t want to tackle this issue of my weight. I know what I need to do, but why can’t I just find that deep down inner drive to just do it and stick with it??!! Is it because I like food too much? Probably. Is it because deep down I hate to exercise? Probably. Is it because I’m finally ready to date and blaming being fat on not finding that special someone? Probably. Is it the financial stress of knowing the debts I need to pay? Probably. Is it the emotional stress of being a single parent and trying to make sure my son becomes a productive adult in society and not a serial killer (LOL)? Probably. I’m literally right back where I started with MFP so many years ago. My foot is bothering me again and I can barely walk because of the weight I’ve gained back, which really ticks me off. I know how much better I felt about myself and how healthier I felt when I was down 50 lbs. Why couldn’t I keep that off and keep going? I try to be the positive person and stay happy all the time, which I’ll continue to do. I just need to really dig deep internally with myself and figure this out. I just needed to share because this is really the only place where I know many of you can relate and understand.

@Tanya – I’m so happy you’ve found something that works. You’ve stayed focused and by keep reminding yourself you’re doing it. So proud of you and NO FAST FOOD!

@Kah68/Kelley – I’m supposed to have an annual exam soon with a new doctor. I had to find one with the move back to GA. I know the “change” is around the corner, but still I don’t want the next few years to be miserable until that happens. I’m definitely going to chat with her about it. Between the headaches, cramps, boobies aching, and a few others things, I’ve been miserable during that week. It was never like that before. Sigh. Also, I saw your post about the MRI. When I mentioned above about my foot pain, it’s my Achilles as well. Before when I got past a certain weight, I was battling plantar fasciitis. This is different and in ankle, which didn’t hurt before. I haven’t been exercising so it’s not that. I don’t know what I did, but the pain has been excruciating lately. Also, I’m so glad your interview went well. Keeping my fingers crossed. If this is the right door for you, that it will open wide!!! Plus, it’s good to get out of that comfort zone. After 12 years with Arby’s, I took a HUGE leap of faith and moved 2,000 miles away. Talk about getting out of my comfort zone. WOW! Well, I just saw your post about retirement and you’ve totally depressed me. Thanks a lot. Actually, I already know where I should be and I know how completely behind I am as well. Sigh.

@MountMary – Well, as you can see by my post above, I’m doing the same thing and need to get serious AND honest with myself and all of you too. I agree about Tanya’s honesty too with her fast food. This is why this group is so important. We can all learn something from each other that’s for sure!

@Robin/Ellen – I’m so glad to see your post again. They were always right on target and so thoughtful. Again, thank you for starting this so long ago. I saw your post on the 8th and I’m right there with you at our starting weight. Grrrrr! I’m bummed too and so mad at myself. It’s time to regroup, refresh and reenergize! Your post to Laurie and Karen nailed it for me too. I comment to both of them below, but yours was much more detailed. LOL!!

@Ereilly – June 23rd? Yikes!! Between the teachers and students, you guys will be climbing the walls to get out. I like the new mantra “Don’t pace yourself, push yourself.” Lord knows I need to start pushing!!!

@Skinnny/Karen – I’m a week or so behind, but glad you’re feeling better. I’ve heard a lot of folks have come down with a nasty stomach bug so glad it was short lived. Also, you’re right on target about being Mom vs. friend to Cyrus. I’ve told him that from the beginning. I’m not your friend. I’m your Mom. We’re doing OK. I had a great conference this morning with his teachers and we’re starting a SST. His Reading Teacher is going to be working with him about 3 days a week so we can determine what’s going on. Is it a learning disability? Maybe. He answers questions in class, does well on HW and tanks the tests. We’re seeing this across almost all of his subjects. We may even put a 504 on the back burner just in case they determine it is a disability. He’s not an average student, but not above average either and somewhere in the middle. I know there are parents out there that think I’m probably overreacting and would be happy if their child was pulling B’s and C’s, but he’s close to high school and testing will only get harder. If he’s not comprehending or understanding what they’re really asking for, he’ll continue to suffer.

@Tlh0407 – Totally agree about the MOJO. I can’t change the past, but need to figure out how to step forward and change my future. Loved your comment last week about your son’s “desire” – so funny! These kids are so funny at this age. Cyrus is so hung up on not having a girlfriend. I told him he has all his life. Enjoy being single!!  We’re on the same page with our boys that’s for sure. As I noted above in Karen’s post, he’s doing better though according to his teachers today. I definitely need to give him some really good props this week for pulling up his grades. Language Arts was a high D and he finished the semester with a low B. Really proud of him!

@Cblue/Lori – I’m behind again, but loved reading your post on the 6th. I know how hard it is to rebuild a marriage, but so proud of you and your husband for trying to make the effort. Either way you have to try just like you did for your health. I just saw the post about your son. Again? Oh no. Hugs to you.

@NK1112 – I love when we find things misplaced. I hate car in general, but I know there a necessity for most of us. I’m so glad the receipt was found. Woo Hoo!

@Jtconst – I was so glad to read your son was getting settled in his job. I know that was on your mind. I cannot wait to get back under 300 again. I’m not happy with what’s crept back on and determined to get it off for good!

@Hansea/Amanda – Loved your post to Robin about ‘bring in da noise, bring in da funk’! I’m going home tonight and banging some pans around!!  Also, good for you and using your little red wagon! Here I would have felt sorry for you and thought you didn’t have a car, but instead you’re just exercising. I guess I shouldn’t be so quick to judge. LOL!!!
With that said, I just read your post from the 9th about your sister. I’m so sorry your family is going through this and hopefully things can turn to the positive somehow some way. Now I saw the reason for the devastating news. So sorry to read this and just in shock for your sister and your family. Rough week is an understatement. I have a co-worker who’s a grandmother. She took in her 4 granddaughters 5 years ago. There were triplets that were 12 at the time. Here to find out their step father molested all 3 of them and their mother her daughter knew about it. Talk about devastating. They just had their trial and luckily he was charged like 20 years – thank goodness! She was so proud of the girls, but talk about like changing overnight. Her and her husband were about to retire and just kept working. She’s an amazing woman, but I can’t even fathom what it’s like to have a disturbed son or daughter.

@Melifornia/Melissa – I’m so glad you had a great time at the lake with your BFF. It’s always so good to find time to truly relax and disconnect. Good for you! Loved your mantra on the 9th – I will go the gym. I will go to the gym. I will go to the gym. Or atleast for me – I will exercise. I will exercise. I will exercise.  Of course, I saw your post later and you went. You rock!!

@2ledbetter – Congrats on the 2 lbs and walking the mile! We’ll take it!!!

@Jennbo83 – Great post on the 9th! It sounds like a wonderful weekend. 11-mile hike? Holy cow!! You go girl!!!

@Laurie and @Skinny too– I know you’re frustrated, but its posts like yours that’s a walk up call for me. You’ve always been such an inspiration to me and I know you can and will get where you want to be. You’ve got that drive and determination. This was just a little curve in the road. Do you remember that show Charles in Charge? Well, it’s now officially called LAURIE IN CHARGE and KAREN IN CHARGE!!!

@MNwalkingqueen/Holly – I saw your earlier post about the potential and then saw the post it happened. Words cannot express. Thank you for the update. After 14 years, those co-workers are family too. It’s so tough to have it one day and gone the next. Hugs my friend.

@L2T – Sucks!!! There are so many baby boomers that are facing exactly what your DH is going through. You save for retirement and to get it pulled out from under you. At your age, you’ll never be able to recover that big of a loss, but like you said at least the 401K is safe. It’s totally NOT fair, but you guys did the right thing and got out of debt. Just imagine if you still had all that crazy debt??! I know you are still focused on helping out your DD and her fiancé, but they’ll be OK and have a long time to save. You guys have to take care of you too!!! Also, I’m so happy your back on the wagon. Super proud of you.

@Laurie, @Karen, @Kelley – You don’t have to twist my arm to go to Chicago. I love that town!! And yes, I would be honored to walk with you Kelley.

@FeraFilia – CONGRATS on the little nugget!! My birthday is on the 20th so it’s an awesome time!!! So happy for you guys!

No fast food today. Gosh, it was so close... the internal dialogue that I had with myself would have led anybody to believe that I'm crazy! Though I made it through that, I did eat a bunch of chocolate, and I bought a bag of chips.. not fast food but I have a craving and these other things are not even satisfying it. I'm not even hungry, it's the pain that's making me emotional and I'm eating because of it. I went to physio today, saw the chiropractor, had a great workout and felt really good. On the way home the pain crept in again. Took a pill, but no relief.

@hansea... sorry you are crabby this week, but it's totally understandable. Sometimes I need work to help me forget other things troubling me, but when work is causing even more turmoil it's overwhelming. Hopefully your system gets worked out soon.

@Susan... I've felt and thought like that a thousand times. This time, so far... I've kept off the 50 lbs and am at least being aware of any slight gains and forcing myself to take control and not let it spiral back upwards. I have really lost my mojo at active sessions at physio right now, and am making the neck pain excuse to go in with a half-*kitten* attitude. Right now the one thing that excites me is the prospect of running outside once the weather warms up. I have made a goal to build up to 5k distance this year. Maybe you need to find something, one thing, that you really like, or excites you and make that your focus to get and stay motivated. Spring and summer are coming, which I think are the best times of the year to really be active, especially if you like being outside.

@kah... glad that you are able to get back into an exercise routine. Speaking of you not having a trainer any more reminded me of something I did today at physio. My trainer showed me how to do goblet squats and I really liked them, so I made a mental note to start making a list of exercises I liked and could do with my free weights at home. It's OK if I forget how to do them, as I can always google it.

@Tracey... My doc is in a small town but my chiropractor and physiotherapist are in a big city. I really think my doc just has a certain way of thinking... and the walk-in doc I saw yesterday is not really a physician, she's a Nurse Practitioner, and I don't really know her scope of practice compared to that of a physician, I know she can prescribe some meds, but not narcotics. If my pain does not improve in a week or so, I will go back to my doc and ask for an xray or scan, and go from there.

Oh yeah, I got my new fitbit today, a ChargeHR. I'me very excited to start using it, and am ecstatic to discover that it has a run function so I don't have to use the running app on my phone.

Hello all. I've skimmed through a couple of days and ready the opening post on this thread and yall look like my type of folks. Have always struggled with weight. Thought I was fat when I got married almost 18 years ago. I was just over 200 lbs. Oh I wish I were that "fat" now! Haven't really gotten serious about things and stuck with anything since I had a really great support group thread on AOL way back when. I lost about 70 lbs back then and if I recall correctly was in in the 230s. But alas that was several years ago now and I'm again at an all time high. Well I was. Restarted 3/8/2015 and have already lost 10 lbs. Yay Me. First week is a Gilead lot of water weight. Things will slow.

For now I'm not getting crazy. Starting slow and easy.

Goal this week (besides staying within calories) is remembering multi-vitamin daily and increasing water intake.

I haven't had a soda since I started. For me that's the easiest thing to cut. I'd rather spend those calories on a home baked good. My weakness is baking. I love to bake and eat it!

And the personal info. 45 next month. Married 18 years in May. Four awesome kids, DS16, DD15, DD13, DS10.

LOL should have read before I posted. Gilead? Really? How'd that get there. Gotta love a smart phone.

Welcome new comers and returnees ... @momjeeps; @AngelikaLumiere: new today, on my birthday!. Also welcome to those who came on since the last time I said hello to new posters ... @jdingus728; @canary40; @naiomi2015. Come back again and let us get to know one another.

Today is Tuesday Goals ... so far, the goals I had for today are pretty much right on ... since it's my birthday I had decided to just stay in and lounge about, eat what I wanted, goof off as I felt like doing, and not feel guilty about any of it. Had a lot of great messages, phone calls, greeting cards and my old beau sent me a green teddy bear in the mail. I had a cod fillet, an egg, and spring greens for breakfast, popcorn for lunch, beef and brocolli with brown rice for dinner, and a snack of baked yam and beets, also an apple found it's way in during the day. I also watched old-time TV and fooled around on Ancestry.com updaing the geneology line I'm working on for my granddaughter. I was supposed to go out with my niece today ... bless her, she was just fine with me suggesting we get together later in the week instead of today.

However, now that my treat day is coming to an end, I must set my goals for the rest of this week ... which are to wake up earlier and be productive housework-wise over the next day and a half. On Thursday, I want to have a free afternoon after the trash-man comes ... and spend it with the said-niece.

Calories have been good the past 3 days, staying within the new limit I set on Sunday morning. March Challenge was a repeat of February's and thus far the results are the same as then ... not good ... "I don't want to talk about it" bad.

Someone called for @Morgori ... and I second that! Come on Tom, we miss your daily updates and quotes. I hope you have just been busy and not something bad to have kept you and @MrsMorgori from posting.

@Mountmary84 ... thanks for the birthday card ... total surprise! IF i make it to the midwest in late August, maybe I can make it be by way of Michigan and we can have coffee together.

@FeraFilla ... congratulations on the 'bun in the oven' ... such good news!

@RobinsEgg ... nice new profile picture. Love your smile.

OOPS ... see it's time to get off. I'll do more personals next time.
Follow-through
Niki

Welcome back to all the familiar faces that have been missing lately. It is great to see you again. Welcome to all the new people.

I am just popping in tonight since I had a busy night and now it is getting late.

Nikki- Happy Birthday. Best wishes for the year ahead.

@nikki--Happy birthday!!

@momjeeps--welcome!

@melissa--I'm always amazed at how much energy it takes to just watch my one 3 year old niece.

@tanya--great job talking yourself down from the fast food! You'll have to let me know how you like the Fitbit Charge. I'm still on the fence about whether to buy a new HRM or a Fitbit when I get my summer pay in June. I've read some good and bad about the Fitbit. I'm really concerned with the allergic reactions many people have from the band--I have pretty sensitive skin.

@robin--I'm sure your step-mother appreciates the love and care you are giving her.

@barb--sometimes posting (confessing?) when I'm being lazy or making bad food choices helps me get back on track. Don't think you can't share the bad along with the good.

@susan--yes, better to figure out now what it is that's causing the the low test scores for Cyrus. Whether it's an LD or just some "missed" skills that need remediation, he's better off getting started now than waiting until he's in HS. As far as trying to get back on track--don't let yourself get too caught up in feeling bad about gaining back the weight, but try to encourage yourself with the knowledge that this time it will be easier b/c you know you can lose the weight (you've done it before) and you have a lot more knowledge about how to do it. Even though you're back at your starting weight, you aren't starting from scratch. Like tanya, I weigh myself often (every day that I remember) in order to see the little gains and nip it in the bud. I know a lot of people are against the frustrations of daily weighing, but my experience has taught me that I need that number to stave off any serious weight gain.

@kelley--great workout goals to get back into it!

@tammy--seasonal allergies are also getting to me already as well--and the snow just melted a few days ago!

@tracy--cute cupcakes!

Welcome to the other newlings!!

Tuesday Goals:
Just to get those essays finished by Thursday! Two classes down, one to go! I'm going to need to try to stay focused during my opens tomorrow--I have 26 left and a meeting after school. Yikes!

March Challenge:
At or under calories 5/7 days every week and at or under as a weekly average.
Week 1: At/under calories 4/7 (but one day I was only over by 7 calories) UNDER FOR WK
Week 2: At/under calories 5/7 OVER FOR WK

All-in strength challenge=core work 3 x/week; PT 1-2 x/week; run 3 x/week:
Week 1: 1/3 core; PT DONE; 1/3 runs (sick most of week though)
Week 2: 1/3 core; PT DONE; 1/3 runs
Week 3: x/3 core; PT; x/3 runs
Week 4: x/3 core; PT; x/3 runs
8k at end of month (not sure what day) in 55 minutes (Thanksgiving 8k = 56:49, NYE 8k = 57:47, 1/25 = 55:41; 2/28=55:15)

Grading Goals:
1. 38/64 AP essays
2. 16/16 AP analysis activities DONE
3. 60/60 Gatsby motif charts DONE
4. x/60 Gatsby tests

Exercise Goals: (week 3)
Sun--walk gunner DONE
Mon--meeting
Tues--PT DONE + walk gunner NOT DONE
Wed--meeting
Thurs--PT + walk gunner
Fri--rest day
Sat--walk gunner + gym

2015 Mantra = Just 15 minutes

@Skinny Thanks Karen. I feel like such a failure when I am not doing well so it seems I "hide out". I have gained a few pounds back, feel "stuffed" and simply don't like it. I DO need to keep up here and keep active with the group to succeed. I am going to do better and come and post as well as read in the future. It worked last fall; why not now? I will never lose as fast as some of you because of some of my health and age issues....but of course some of that will improve too when I am a bit lighter.

I have been following along and feel for all of you with some of the problems you have been having; have felt joy at your triumphs.

...so, back at it. This is day 150 of logging into this thread. Now I need to do more than log in and get my act together; it is going to actually be spring and I still have some jeans I want to get into by the nice weather.

Thanks everyone of you for being there. I obviously need you all.

Barb (mountmary)

@tlh0407 - Cute cupcakes! Emma will get to be 'big cousin' for the new little girl and eventually 9 years won't be such a big age difference. So fun for her!

@kah68 - My sister lives about 4 hours away from us, but we already had made plans for them to visit this weekend. So, she's still coming. We're going to meet up with our other sister and take all the kids to a museum that's featuring the LEGO Art of the Brick exhibit. Many LEGO lovers in our group, so should be exciting for all. And my parents will be coming down. Whenever they're in town, it's a big deal and fun. Hoping to distract them from all their worries for a while.

@Susan - It did cross my mind that passing cars might assume that I was down on my luck that day with my little red wagon! LOL There were such an explosion of people out running and biking and dog-walking more with the warm weather, though. Hopefully some of them understood it was spring-fever wagon walking!
That's awful about your friend the grandmother of those triplets. I'm glad they have her to take care of them now! I told my sister it was at least good news for my niece that she has a stepmom that is so supportive and immediately believed her and did something about it as soon as she found out what had been going on. I know not everyone is that fortunate. I think about Robin and another friend of mine who never really got the support they needed as children and now have to deal with so much as adults. Unfortunately, my BIL's family doesn't believe her and especially the one aunt was really awful and begging her to tell the police she made it all up and telling her that they would do awful things to her dad in prison. Ugh.

@momjeeps - Welcome! And Ha! I thought Gilead was some new trendy lingo I wasn't familiar with!

AFM- My Wed wish is that the new system at work continues to improve today. Yesterday was the best day so far....wait times are still longer than usual, but were much better than Monday, so there's hope. And there ARE good things about the new system...like I now have access to reschedule an appointment if I get a misdirected call from a patient. I don't have to forward them yet again to the front desk. So that's good customer service.

And continued wishes for you all...whether it's getting started, getting back on the wagon, or pushing forward to your goal!

Wednesday Wish: That these two cakes this week don’t kill me. With all the activity, I haven’t started any of the pieces yet. Normally, I can start some of the decoration pieces on a Monday/Tuesday, but that hasn’t happened yet. Tonight, those have to get started so they are set by the time I need to place them on the cakes Thursday and Friday.

@Tammy…I’m sure between the poorly timed argument with the hubby (even though we all have them, you have extenuating timing issues) and the absence of your son at the same time, it is hard to keep your mood in check. Heck, my husband will tell you I do and I don’t have either of those.  Glad you’re coming around and yay on the Championship. Fun fun!
@Susan…ah the fears that hold people back from so many things in life. We all struggle with those (or similar ones). My hope is that as I lose weight, I will gain confidence and that will spiral into more weight losses and more confidence. You’ll get there I know it – you’ve got this girl!! I’m glad Cyrus’s grades are looking better. Jacob’s are still fluctuating greatly…he’ll get 3 good grades posted in a row and then an F. UGH! Someone recommended Sylvan to me just on Sunday as they apparently have a class dedicated to organization/study habits/ etc. I think that’s what he needs because it’s not that he doesn’t know the stuff. I’ll have to do some looking into that. My biggest fear is high school is only a few months away for us.
@Robin…you do what you need with your step-mom. It sounds like you need to be there the most. Maybe just pick up Karen’s message – just 15 minutes in the pool. Take care of yourself as much as her.
@Tanya…I think x-rays or scans are the way to go. It seems like it is getting worse instead of just staying the same or better and that doesn’t seem right. I have no medical experience with this, but it just doesn’t seem like it should be getting worse. Enjoy your new fitbit…I still haven’t found mine from the move (so far I know for sure I don’t have some lids to my pots and haven’t found the fitbit or a check that I had received from my grandmother-in-law). Michael is slowly getting through his last boxes, so hopefully.
@Nikki…happy belated birthday! Sounds like you had a great day and then you get to celebrate later too with your niece.
@Barb…I have been guilty of hiding out too. I don’t want to do that because even when I fail, it helps to see this thread and the people on it. Also it helps to see what a disaster some of my days have been. Then when I don’t lose weight, I can look back and say “well, it’s because you were over goal by XXX calories last week.” That’s what this group is about – support in good times and bad.

AFM…I’ve had lots of music the past few days. Jacob had his Jazz Group perform last night along with the 7th grade band. I’m always so impressed with them -- at first I thought it was because I’m from a tiny town and only ever heard the “big school” (aka towns of 1200 people – to put in perspective, we were from a town of 84 when I was growing up) bands at half time during ball games. Now I’ve had opportunities to hear other big town middle school bands and know that we have a special group. Our band director shows so much excitement for music and it definitely rubs off on the kids. I’d put our Jazz Band up against any of those high school bands and I think we’d win.

Okay Tracy, you slipped up yesterday…go fill that water bottle, stay in calories and get those cakes pieces put together!! You have to be done by the time choir comes along at 7:30 so bust a move!!!

This week:
Cardio – 0 / 3
Lifting – 0 / 2
Water Goal – 0/5
Calories – 2 / 6

My wish is that life was always easy and that I always made the perfect choices. It's hard being a perfectionist in an imperfect world.

Doing OK so far today. Was doing fantastic yesterday and had a weak moment in town with the kids last night and went for ice cream. And I didn't even choose to keep it at one scoop. But i did end the day under my calorie goal by 8 calories so I guess it's alright.

Still trying to catch up with the conversations. I'll jump in when I feel comfortable. Meanwhile I'm watching you.

I just had a Big Mac meal. I don't feel one bit guilty, maybe that will show up later. I've been craving it for a few days now and have been eating mindlessly to fill the craving. I decided to eat it and carry on. I think this proves that banning certain foods altogether does not work for me. I just have to choose it much less often.