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Confession: my actual MFP account has my real name as my username (first and last - oops) and I can't get MFP to change it, so I made a new account specifically to respond to this thread. Hi! I have been lurking since the beginning. I feel like a peeping Tom or something, but the reason I haven't started posting here is because I barely have enough time to keep up, let alone get involved (I've been SOOOO tempted. Love you guys! You are all SUPER GREAT!).
Anyway, the reason I'm finally posting is because I find myself relating to @MoHousdon 's step daughter and thought I'd offer an alternate perspective. I have no idea if this is the case, but might she be an introvert and/or shy and/or socially anxious? I am all of these things, especially around people I don't know well and can't even come close to imagining trying to integrate into a new family. I would be so overwhelmed at the very thought. I might want to, but I wouldn't be able to make myself do it. That said, maybe baby steps would be a better approach? I could probably bring myself to meet for coffee for an hour (especially if I could bring a trusted friend), but to come into your home or live there? No way! It makes me incredibly anxious just thinking about it. I would have to get to know you first and feel comfortable. Anyway, I just thought I'd throw that out there. I cringe every time I see someone throw out the word "selfish", because there could be a whole lot more going on here.
Had to get that out! Back to lurking, I go...
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Susieq_1994 wrote: »I haven't posted in here for a while. I've been feeling pretty down lately. I've been reading it all, though--Sadly there have been too many posts that needed attention that I didn't catch up on, so consider all of you in my thoughts.
I feel like such a loser. Ever since Ramadan started I've been fasting all day, then spending the night pigging out and eating TONS of food instead of worshipping or spending extra time in prayer. I have NEVER done this before, and I don't know what's wrong with me. I've probably gained even more over my recent 20-ish pound weight gain.
I feel worthless and out of control and like a fat pig. I don't really know what to do. Still trying, though.
Please keep coming back here. We have times when we are down on ourselves. I know that fasting has to be difficult. I would probably have the same reaction. Any chance you can plan what you will have to break the fast and stick to that? You are not worthless, you are worth more than you know.
Usually I do--I plan out the day as Suhoor (pre-dawn meal), Iftar (fast break meal), and then dinner. But lately I just haven't CARED, and after iftar I just mow down all kinds of food. Cookies, bread, hummus, peanut butter chips, just anything.
I just can't seem to bring myself to care enough to stick to my plan, it has nothing to do with hunger or anything like that, or even a reaction to fasting all day (keep in mind that I've been fasting for over 10 years, I'm very used to it--I don't usually react this way at all! I'm sure it isn't the fasting). I end up eating way over and then just deleting everything from my log for the day. :-/
No way I'm leaving this thread, I've been here since day one and I'm not going anywhere.
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Glinda1971 wrote: »AngryViking1970 wrote: »Goodness, what a weekend! This time next week, I could possibly be lying on a beautiful beach in Florida sipping a mimosa. I will be thinking of you all.
Friday night the husband and I went to Outback for dinner. I was not thrilled about this because I didn't think I had enough calories for Outback because I always get the Alice Springs Chicken with fries. I decided to order the chicken, but subbed fries with steamed broccoli, which, if you've being paying attention at all, you'll know how incredibly difficult that decision was. I regretted not getting the fries until I tasted the broccoli, it was delicious. I ended up only eating half my dinner, and I even got to share a piece of cheesecake with my love and STILL managed a deficit. Yay, me!
Saturday, my daughter and I were going to go shopping for Father's Day, my eye appointment, and get some last minute things for our trip, but we were also going to go to the candy shop for snacks so my husband wanted to come too. We ended up going to the candy shop first which was a big success except they were out of my favorite trail mix (luckily, I still had some left over from the last visit) so I got buttered toffee pecans (holy sweet, salty, and crunchy, they are amazing), and some dried apples. He got mostly candy.
From there, we went to the mall since that's where my appointment was to kill some time, but also so I wouldn't be late. We ended up in JCP looking at dresses. Husband picked out some he wanted me to try on (his questionable taste presented itself again) but nothing worked. We met up outside in the sitting area of the mall and he asked me if I wanted to kill some more time at Helzberg, and I said sure. Long story short, we ended up looking at diamond rings and bridal sets. I didn't think we were really going to purchase anything since he said we'd do shopping in Florida. Apparently, he'd been really thinking about that and decided if we were going to get one, he wanted to get it before we went so it could be sized and everything beforehand. I tried on several rings before falling head over heals for a 1/2 ct. princess cut in white gold. It was absolutely mesmerizing. I could not quit staring at it. That's pretty much how I felt the first time I laid eyes on him. Love at first sight. Anywho, I tried on a few different guards and finally found a perfect fit. The lady sized my finger (size 5 btw, I was pretty shocked by that) and I was off to my appointment.
My appointment took maybe 20 minutes so I went to Auntie Anne's for pretzels and a DP ( I know, I was doing to so good) and then headed back to Helzberg. Well, come to find out, he bought the ring while I was at my appointment and was finishing up paperwork and stuff when I got back. I was shocked, I didn't expect to get anything finished so soon. Turns out, the ring I picked out is a VVS2 (3rd from highest quality you can get) and almost completely colorless. It is also a limited edition diamond which I didn't know either. I just knew I loved the ring. When they were telling us all the stuff about the diamond, they said I have really good taste. I said, putting my arm around Husband, "Obviously!" He blushed. It was adorable. I hope to have my ring by Thursday, but I might have to wait until after we get back from Florida.
Now for stepdaughter news.
She was a no call, no show Saturday and Sunday. She DID tag him on facebook saying Happy Father's Day and I love you, but I guess she was just too busy to come by and give him the only thing he really wanted which was some of her time. He fell asleep last night while watching TV and then woke up and asked me what time it was. I said 8 or 9, and he said, really, no way. He then pulled out his phone to check for messages. Nothing. The look on his face was so painfully sad I started crying. I told him I was sorry she didn't come by, and he said, "I can't believe she didn't come over on Father's Day." To make matters worse, Rachael told me she thought it'd be fun having a sister, but it's not. I hate that she's treating them so badly.
I'm sad because she'll never know how incredible her dad is and that she seems to have zero interest in being a part of our amazing family. If it were up to me, I'd take the car back and tell her off, but I don't want to do anything that could hurt the chances of a future relationship. What I don't understand, is she found him, he didn't seek her out, she came to him. Why would she do that if she didn't want to have anything to do with him, just his money?!
I'm heartbroken for my loves. Why did this crap have to happen a week before we leave?!
TL; DR: I AM getting a new ring, I married an incredible man, and his daughter is a selfish little twit.
Oh man. What a mix of awesomeness and crappiness in this post. I think your new ring sounds pretty amazing, but the fact that your step-daughter is being such a selfish brat is making me so sad for your husband.
+1
A mix of yays and hugs for you.
Thanks!kellienw335 wrote: »Goodness, what a weekend! This time next week, I could possibly be lying on a beautiful beach in Florida sipping a mimosa. I will be thinking of you all.
TL; DR: I AM getting a new ring, I married an incredible man, and his daughter is a selfish little twit.
That's awesome news about your ring! Sounds like you had a good weekend except the stepdaughter part. Just curious...why wasn't he involved in her life when she was younger? Counseling may be good for all of you to work through this difficult place. It may reveal some things about her past that provide insight as to why she's acting this way. I hate that Rachael is so disappointed.
(Hugs)
He wanted to be, we both did.
When her mom and my husband broke up, they shared custody (they were never married). For some reason, I'm not 100% clear on this as he doesn't like to talk about it, she quit allowing him visitation. I guess, in the state of Kansas, a mother can say anything she wants against a father, even one paying child support, and it's basically her word against his. She petitioned to increase his child support (this happened several times during our relationship) and was awarded more each time.
In the almost 15 years we've been married, until recently, I had only seen her twice. Once for her 5th birthday (her mother didn't know about this) and once for Christmas (same year, mother didn't know). When Rach was about 2 maybe a little younger, we found out where she worked and Husband asked if he could see her and she told him she didn't think she (daughter) was ready for that. Because, at the time, we didn't have the money to take her to court, he didn't fight his ex anymore and just did was what right by paying his child support and not fighting it every time she wanted more.
He would never admit it, but he's a pushover and hates confrontation. Hence the situation we're currently in. Her mom was pretty pissed when she found out she had sought him out. I'm sure she has a lot to do with the way she's been acting recently since she's staying at her house.
Sorry to be such a downer on a Monday.
There's the key, right there. Nineteen / adult or not, that sole-parental influence is HUGE. My husband and I both had joint custody of our kids, but the influence of the other parent was always present. I'll shut up on this subject after this, but once she becomes independent, breaks away from her mom, goes through a few serious relationships of her own, she will see your husband's side so much clearer.
Example scenario: say she gets seriously involved with a guy who has a child. Mother of the child does the exact thing to her (hypothetical) boyfriend that her mom did. He wants to see his child and be involved, but he is denied. He's hurt and she doesn't like it. Light bulb moment. She won't necessarily see her mom as the bad guy, but she'll apply all those same feelings to her current situation and eventually she will see things differently. IMHO.
I hope you're right. For his sake, her sake and Rachael's sake. Thank you.
It's a bit weird to me that she would get like this AFTER trying to find him. My mom had a restraining order against my biological father when I was little, and he signed away his legal right to me, but she would have let me get to know him if I'd wanted. Even now, if I decided I wanted to find him and have a relationship, she'd support me.
For what it's worth, I don't want to know him. I know enough about why there was a restraining order in the first place, and know he would occasionally run into my mom's younger sister (who is a terrible human being - not judgement, just fact) who would give him updates about me (without asking me, of course). I look at it like he never made the effort to follow up, even once I was an adult and my mom couldn't stop him.
I do sometimes wonder if I have half siblings somewhere, but I'm not sure I want to start that kind of relationship at this point even if I did. Too much pressure, you know?
I can imagine her being totally conflicted at only 19, when I'm still unsure at 31. Especially with a strong negative influence behind her. She may just need time (and space - possibly from both sides) to figure out what she wants.
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I see Wonder Woman, also, @quiksylver296. Also, I'm a bit dyslexic (which another reason I have a hard time remembering full screen names) and I always call you "Quickysilver" in my head. That "y" seems to trip me up every time!
Confession: I have to go buy my husband a Father's Day card and gift after work and we're not even on speaking terms right now. This should be fun.
I hope you guys are doing better now. What is going on? I know a lot of people who are having relationship issues right now.
For us, the problem is what I've told him for years: we have three people in our relationship - me, him, and his EGO. Tired of dealing with the ego stuff. Didn't expect someone 10 1/2 years older than me to still have ego and maturity issues. But, it's not all him, of course. I've changed in the past 15 years. I don't complain about or talk about my marriage to anyone IRL, so in the spirit of the thread I just decided to take advantage of it and do a little personal whining.
Thank you for asking. How are YOU? I've been thinking about you and your situation as well.
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Susieq_1994 wrote: »Susieq_1994 wrote: »I haven't posted in here for a while. I've been feeling pretty down lately. I've been reading it all, though--Sadly there have been too many posts that needed attention that I didn't catch up on, so consider all of you in my thoughts.
I feel like such a loser. Ever since Ramadan started I've been fasting all day, then spending the night pigging out and eating TONS of food instead of worshipping or spending extra time in prayer. I have NEVER done this before, and I don't know what's wrong with me. I've probably gained even more over my recent 20-ish pound weight gain.
I feel worthless and out of control and like a fat pig. I don't really know what to do. Still trying, though.
Please keep coming back here. We have times when we are down on ourselves. I know that fasting has to be difficult. I would probably have the same reaction. Any chance you can plan what you will have to break the fast and stick to that? You are not worthless, you are worth more than you know.
Usually I do--I plan out the day as Suhoor (pre-dawn meal), Iftar (fast break meal), and then dinner. But lately I just haven't CARED, and after iftar I just mow down all kinds of food. Cookies, bread, hummus, peanut butter chips, just anything.
I just can't seem to bring myself to care enough to stick to my plan, it has nothing to do with hunger or anything like that, or even a reaction to fasting all day (keep in mind that I've been fasting for over 10 years, I'm very used to it--I don't usually react this way at all! I'm sure it isn't the fasting). I end up eating way over and then just deleting everything from my log for the day. :-/
No way I'm leaving this thread, I've been here since day one and I'm not going anywhere.
I'm glad you're back!! I was going to message you today if you hadn't posted in here to make sure you were ok.
For the eating thing, just keep on trying.
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orangesmartie wrote: »
I don't if this works!
ETA: it did! This was Charlie and I at the end of our day at the zoo
this is before we set off:
Lunchtime:
this was charlie at the end of the day:
and i might be a little bit biased, but i do think he really is a beautiful kid
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We live just outside the area that cable internet reaches to, so our only viable option is satellite internet. For the price, I just decided to get a smart phone instead. My husband doesn't care at all about internet and would be happy if I didn't insist on having Direct TV! My in-laws live about 3 miles from us and have wi-fi, but they were having modem issues this weekend!0 -
Goodness, what a weekend! This time next week, I could possibly be lying on a beautiful beach in Florida sipping a mimosa. I will be thinking of you all.
Friday night the husband and I went to Outback for dinner. I was not thrilled about this because I didn't think I had enough calories for Outback because I always get the Alice Springs Chicken with fries. I decided to order the chicken, but subbed fries with steamed broccoli, which, if you've being paying attention at all, you'll know how incredibly difficult that decision was. I regretted not getting the fries until I tasted the broccoli, it was delicious. I ended up only eating half my dinner, and I even got to share a piece of cheesecake with my love and STILL managed a deficit. Yay, me!
Saturday, my daughter and I were going to go shopping for Father's Day, my eye appointment, and get some last minute things for our trip, but we were also going to go to the candy shop for snacks so my husband wanted to come too. We ended up going to the candy shop first which was a big success except they were out of my favorite trail mix (luckily, I still had some left over from the last visit) so I got buttered toffee pecans (holy sweet, salty, and crunchy, they are amazing), and some dried apples. He got mostly candy.
From there, we went to the mall since that's where my appointment was to kill some time, but also so I wouldn't be late. We ended up in JCP looking at dresses. Husband picked out some he wanted me to try on (his questionable taste presented itself again) but nothing worked. We met up outside in the sitting area of the mall and he asked me if I wanted to kill some more time at Helzberg, and I said sure. Long story short, we ended up looking at diamond rings and bridal sets. I didn't think we were really going to purchase anything since he said we'd do shopping in Florida. Apparently, he'd been really thinking about that and decided if we were going to get one, he wanted to get it before we went so it could be sized and everything beforehand. I tried on several rings before falling head over heals for a 1/2 ct. princess cut in white gold. It was absolutely mesmerizing. I could not quit staring at it. That's pretty much how I felt the first time I laid eyes on him. Love at first sight. Anywho, I tried on a few different guards and finally found a perfect fit. The lady sized my finger (size 5 btw, I was pretty shocked by that) and I was off to my appointment.
My appointment took maybe 20 minutes so I went to Auntie Anne's for pretzels and a DP ( I know, I was doing to so good) and then headed back to Helzberg. Well, come to find out, he bought the ring while I was at my appointment and was finishing up paperwork and stuff when I got back. I was shocked, I didn't expect to get anything finished so soon. Turns out, the ring I picked out is a VVS2 (3rd from highest quality you can get) and almost completely colorless. It is also a limited edition diamond which I didn't know either. I just knew I loved the ring. When they were telling us all the stuff about the diamond, they said I have really good taste. I said, putting my arm around Husband, "Obviously!" He blushed. It was adorable. I hope to have my ring by Thursday, but I might have to wait until after we get back from Florida.
Now for stepdaughter news.
She was a no call, no show Saturday and Sunday. She DID tag him on facebook saying Happy Father's Day and I love you, but I guess she was just too busy to come by and give him the only thing he really wanted which was some of her time. He fell asleep last night while watching TV and then woke up and asked me what time it was. I said 8 or 9, and he said, really, no way. He then pulled out his phone to check for messages. Nothing. The look on his face was so painfully sad I started crying. I told him I was sorry she didn't come by, and he said, "I can't believe she didn't come over on Father's Day." To make matters worse, Rachael told me she thought it'd be fun having a sister, but it's not. I hate that she's treating them so badly.
I'm sad because she'll never know how incredible her dad is and that she seems to have zero interest in being a part of our amazing family. If it were up to me, I'd take the car back and tell her off, but I don't want to do anything that could hurt the chances of a future relationship. What I don't understand, is she found him, he didn't seek her out, she came to him. Why would she do that if she didn't want to have anything to do with him, just his money?!
I'm heartbroken for my loves. Why did this crap have to happen a week before we leave?!
TL; DR: I AM getting a new ring, I married an incredible man, and his daughter is a selfish little twit.
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Susieq_1994 wrote: »Susieq_1994 wrote: »I haven't posted in here for a while. I've been feeling pretty down lately. I've been reading it all, though--Sadly there have been too many posts that needed attention that I didn't catch up on, so consider all of you in my thoughts.
I feel like such a loser. Ever since Ramadan started I've been fasting all day, then spending the night pigging out and eating TONS of food instead of worshipping or spending extra time in prayer. I have NEVER done this before, and I don't know what's wrong with me. I've probably gained even more over my recent 20-ish pound weight gain.
I feel worthless and out of control and like a fat pig. I don't really know what to do. Still trying, though.
Please keep coming back here. We have times when we are down on ourselves. I know that fasting has to be difficult. I would probably have the same reaction. Any chance you can plan what you will have to break the fast and stick to that? You are not worthless, you are worth more than you know.
Usually I do--I plan out the day as Suhoor (pre-dawn meal), Iftar (fast break meal), and then dinner. But lately I just haven't CARED, and after iftar I just mow down all kinds of food. Cookies, bread, hummus, peanut butter chips, just anything.
I just can't seem to bring myself to care enough to stick to my plan, it has nothing to do with hunger or anything like that, or even a reaction to fasting all day (keep in mind that I've been fasting for over 10 years, I'm very used to it--I don't usually react this way at all! I'm sure it isn't the fasting). I end up eating way over and then just deleting everything from my log for the day. :-/
No way I'm leaving this thread, I've been here since day one and I'm not going anywhere.
Good thing. We would all miss you if you weren't here. I loved your book by the way. Maybe it is time for a break and reevaluate a bit.
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Susieq_1994 wrote: »I haven't posted in here for a while. I've been feeling pretty down lately. I've been reading it all, though--Sadly there have been too many posts that needed attention that I didn't catch up on, so consider all of you in my thoughts.
I feel like such a loser. Ever since Ramadan started I've been fasting all day, then spending the night pigging out and eating TONS of food instead of worshipping or spending extra time in prayer. I have NEVER done this before, and I don't know what's wrong with me. I've probably gained even more over my recent 20-ish pound weight gain.
I feel worthless and out of control and like a fat pig. I don't really know what to do. Still trying, though.
This makes me so sad. You are not worthless. You are an important part of this thread, that's for sure!! Keep reading and posting...hang in there!!0 -
You are very wrong. Mr Shark says you're super great! Maybe take a break and concentrate on what's important to you this month. Weight loss can wait.Susieq_1994 wrote: »I haven't posted in here for a while. I've been feeling pretty down lately. I've been reading it all, though--Sadly there have been too many posts that needed attention that I didn't catch up on, so consider all of you in my thoughts.
I feel like such a loser. Ever since Ramadan started I've been fasting all day, then spending the night pigging out and eating TONS of food instead of worshipping or spending extra time in prayer. I have NEVER done this before, and I don't know what's wrong with me. I've probably gained even more over my recent 20-ish pound weight gain.
I feel worthless and out of control and like a fat pig. I don't really know what to do. Still trying, though.
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xLoveLikeWinterx wrote: »All you guys are NOT helping my urge for a puppy lol. DH wanted to wait til next summer, then he said Christmas, now he's saying my birthday (in October).
I know, I want one so badly too. I was so happy our friends all brought their dogs camping this weekend (there were six in total) so there was always one to play Frisbee with or cuddle by the campfire, but it made me so sad we don't have one yet (our condo board has a no pets bylaw, so we have to wait until we buy a house, hopefully within a year.)
Do you want a specific breed, or are you going to rescue?
I would love to rescue but I don't think it's going to be possible for us as there are only a few breeds that don't bother my husband's allergies (poodles and a few poodle crosses, and I'm not a big fan of purebred poodles.) So I think we'll be getting a labradoodle when the time comes, as we know he can live with one of those.
Well labradoodles are mutts, so it's a total crapshoot and you have a 50% chance to get one that sheds... it's not a recognized breed and there's no real standard unfortunately. Personally, I'd love one (that doesn't shed, obviously), but I'm not paying that much for a mutt.
Confession - I'm not sure I ever want to deal with a puppy again, no matter how much I love them... they are just too much work!0 -
Caught up!
We went camping this weekend and I ate EVERYTHING (did you know you can roast Pillsbury cinnamon rolls over the fire in foil? Or that you can do pizza dough from scratch as long as it's warm enough to let it rise in the sun?)
We also had my friend's dogs with us and I was in tears laughing at them when we put their puppy life jackets on to swim in the river. They have little handles on the back so you can pick them up like a suitcase...
They look hilarious. And even better is that when you hold them over the water they just start paddling in the air. If you hold them up high, they paddle slowly, but the closer you put them to the water, the faster their little legs go. So freaking cute.
I have one of those jackets for my Mastiff. She loves to swim, sinks like a brick without it. On the plus side, i have my own trolling motor in the river when I am on the float. Attach the leash and let her swim!
Oh, so cute! Large dog, though, right? How big is your Mastiff? My youngest son has a Mastiff / Boxer mix and he's like 120 lbs. I think. He's a tank. I call him "Roadblock" because he will stop abruptly right in front of you and turn around to see if you're still there. Then I either fall over him or come to a complete stand still until he decides to move again. His other dog is an Australian Blue Heeler and she's a smarty-pants. Very mischievous and smart.
Yes, she is a large dog. She is actually small size for her breed and is about the size of your Mastiff/Boxer mix. I used to have an Australian Sheperd/ Heeler mix and loved that dog. Unfortunately he ended up with my ex who didn't take good care of him.
I'm requesting pictures of all these dogs please I LOVE dogs so much!!
I hope this works. This is my JohnJohn. One of my Mastiffs. I will have to get some other pics later.
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Hi all! After the roller coaster of the past few weeks, I took a few days away and visited my hometown. I got to see my family and good friends, I am physically exhausted but mentally and emotionally rested and ready for the next chapter. I resolved to stay in my current position despite how everything blew up last week (although I am actively looking now), I've also resolved to make myself priority number one enough of letting things build up until I get so stressed and depressed.
In other news, I ran a 5k on Sunday and shaved off 25 seconds from my previous PR. 5k in 28:30, hopefully I will get that down to sub 28 in the next few months.
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So I'm in a 16-week wellness program that I decided to try since my workplace insurance offered to cover the cost (side note - I actually prefer MFP so far!).
Each week, they include a couple of cool "mini-lessons", activities, and challenges that you can elect to do. I liked this one so am sharing it in case it's helpful for anyone. The task is to create an "Emotional Eating Emergency Kit":
Get a container like a shoe box or empty tin.
Fill it with things that remind you of why you want to be healthy and why health is important to you. Suggestions:
photos of anyone with whom you want to live a long and healthy life
photos of athletes whom you admire or anyone whose dedication inspires you
a letter to yourself about why you deserve to be healthy, why you'll never give up, the good qualities you possess that will help you reach your goal, and how your life will be different when you get there
a motivational quote or poem
a stress relief ball
a song list or CD that your find either relaxing or energizing
a list of other stress relieving activities that you enjoy, like calling a friend or walking the dog
Place the box in your cabinet or pantry right next to where you keep your snacks, so when you get hungry and are at risk of emotional eating, you'll be able to reflect before you dig in.
Thanks for sharing this! It may be worth a try.
Oh wow I totally missed this, thanks for posting @caitwn!0 -
Ok, if it's doggy pic time again, here's my Flossie. She's a cocker spaniel/bichon cross, so she's good for allergies. Sweetest dog in the world.
Edit: Ooh, giant picture - sorry! Also, why does it look like an oil painting?? Kids been at my phone again???
Hahaha! It SO looks like an oil painting! Flossie is super adorable, though!0 -
xLoveLikeWinterx wrote: »All you guys are NOT helping my urge for a puppy lol. DH wanted to wait til next summer, then he said Christmas, now he's saying my birthday (in October).
Yayyyy for puppies!! 0 -
I'M FINALLY CAUGHT UP!!!! *falls over* 0
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Susieq_1994 wrote: »Susieq_1994 wrote: »I haven't posted in here for a while. I've been feeling pretty down lately. I've been reading it all, though--Sadly there have been too many posts that needed attention that I didn't catch up on, so consider all of you in my thoughts.
I feel like such a loser. Ever since Ramadan started I've been fasting all day, then spending the night pigging out and eating TONS of food instead of worshipping or spending extra time in prayer. I have NEVER done this before, and I don't know what's wrong with me. I've probably gained even more over my recent 20-ish pound weight gain.
I feel worthless and out of control and like a fat pig. I don't really know what to do. Still trying, though.
Please keep coming back here. We have times when we are down on ourselves. I know that fasting has to be difficult. I would probably have the same reaction. Any chance you can plan what you will have to break the fast and stick to that? You are not worthless, you are worth more than you know.
Usually I do--I plan out the day as Suhoor (pre-dawn meal), Iftar (fast break meal), and then dinner. But lately I just haven't CARED, and after iftar I just mow down all kinds of food. Cookies, bread, hummus, peanut butter chips, just anything.
I just can't seem to bring myself to care enough to stick to my plan, it has nothing to do with hunger or anything like that, or even a reaction to fasting all day (keep in mind that I've been fasting for over 10 years, I'm very used to it--I don't usually react this way at all! I'm sure it isn't the fasting). I end up eating way over and then just deleting everything from my log for the day. :-/
No way I'm leaving this thread, I've been here since day one and I'm not going anywhere.
Phew thank god! Keep your head up Susie you'll get through this, you have touched all of our lives in such a wonderful way just remember that!0
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