True Confessions - Don't Judge
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minority18392 wrote: »My true confessions hey... Well you asked for it
I'm a 24 year old aussie man who has nearly broken down to tears multiple times this week, and again half an hour ago
See, I think I'm depressed as *kitten*, I miss my bunny rabbit who died a few years ago and I blame myself for her death
But really it's alot deeper than that,
I truly don't believe my girlfriend of 3.5 years loves me any more - it's just left her, this kills me because I'm a hard lover - truly believe this girl is the one I'm supposed to marry and heck I would of proposed already if I believed she still loved me
I think she's just too comfortable with life and doesn't want to change anything
But me, I love her so much that I'm considering breaking up with her for her benefit - then shed have a chance at finding the right person for her - I'd never want to hold her back just because of how I feel but just can't push myself to do it
It kills me inside and with the pressure of the world and not having her love and support its pushing me too deep into the ground, I've thought about killing myself - but I won't, I NEVER will because I believe it's weak and wrong and I'd never want to hurt her or my mum like that - it's just selfish (sorry if that offends)
Ultimately this thought process keeps me going, day in and day out
It motivates me to push through each and every day - this shouldn't be seen as a sob story that needs sympathy however - see it as a triumphant battle that I win every single day
Stay happy people
Side confession, I buried my rabbit and haven't visited once - feel *kitten* terrible about that, buried my dad when I was 17 and also havent been able to bring myself to visit - feel like a terrible person but atleast my brother and sister visit him.
@minority18392,
This really touched me. This whole thing could of been me writing this a few years back when I was with my recent ex; except for the rabbit dying part. My Puggle of 11 years passed away this past summer and I was a sobbing mess. I would cry for no reason. It was the weirdest thing I ever experienced. Words can't describe how this type of thing feels. I honestly don't know if women experience this as much as men do.
I'm glad you are pushing through and you see the light at the end of the tunnel. If you need anything, hit me up.
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minority18392 wrote: »My true confessions hey... Well you asked for it
I'm a 24 year old aussie man who has nearly broken down to tears multiple times this week, and again half an hour ago
See, I think I'm depressed as *kitten*, I miss my bunny rabbit who died a few years ago and I blame myself for her death
But really it's alot deeper than that,
I truly don't believe my girlfriend of 3.5 years loves me any more - it's just left her, this kills me because I'm a hard lover - truly believe this girl is the one I'm supposed to marry and heck I would of proposed already if I believed she still loved me
I think she's just too comfortable with life and doesn't want to change anything
But me, I love her so much that I'm considering breaking up with her for her benefit - then shed have a chance at finding the right person for her - I'd never want to hold her back just because of how I feel but just can't push myself to do it
It kills me inside and with the pressure of the world and not having her love and support its pushing me too deep into the ground, I've thought about killing myself - but I won't, I NEVER will because I believe it's weak and wrong and I'd never want to hurt her or my mum like that - it's just selfish (sorry if that offends)
Ultimately this thought process keeps me going, day in and day out
It motivates me to push through each and every day - this shouldn't be seen as a sob story that needs sympathy however - see it as a triumphant battle that I win every single day
Stay happy people
Side confession, I buried my rabbit and haven't visited once - feel *kitten* terrible about that, buried my dad when I was 17 and also havent been able to bring myself to visit - feel like a terrible person but atleast my brother and sister visit him.
(((Hugs))) counselling may help, maybe 1 or 2 sessions will help you put thing into perspective? Your rabbit would know he was cared for and that life goes on, your dad will also know this so be kind to yourself x0 -
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SeagalDeeDee wrote: »I confess I like Marilyn Mansons songs even though he is a nutcase....
He is a business man living off edgy dumbasses
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I found out today that a guy I went to middle school with passed away from a blood clot. I can't say I talked to him ever, but we were friends on Facebook. I have spent most of the afternoon thinking about impending death. He was around my age and I can't stop thinking about it.
That exact thing happened to me a few years ago, a guy from school died of a blood clot. he was friends with my bf's best friend and we had JUST seen him at Walmart then must have been 3 weeks later he was dead and I found myself at this guy's funeral who I've never spoken to. (I was there in support of our mutual friend) It was bizarre and had me thinking about life and death too. deja vu reading your post.0 -
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It is more evident after today that when things do not accordance to my exercise plan and training, I have a tendency to have a mental collapse and instead of doing what I can, I have been choosing recently to do nothing over something. I am being told that I put too much pressure on my self and perhaps my dual goals are not achievable. The waffling has got to go, and perhaps maybe I need to give something up.1
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It is more evident after today that when things do not accordance to my exercise plan and training, I have a tendency to have a mental collapse and instead of doing what I can, I have been choosing recently to do nothing over something. I am being told that I put too much pressure on my self and perhaps my dual goals are not achievable. The waffling has got to go, and perhaps maybe I need to give something up.
Be kind to yourself. Giving something up may be the better way to go so you don't stress about it.
What she said. There's no point in getting upset with yourself.0 -
It is more evident after today that when things do not accordance to my exercise plan and training, I have a tendency to have a mental collapse and instead of doing what I can, I have been choosing recently to do nothing over something. I am being told that I put too much pressure on my self and perhaps my dual goals are not achievable. The waffling has got to go, and perhaps maybe I need to give something up.
Be kind to yourself. Giving something up may be the better way to go so you don't stress about it.
Thanks and you might be right..
Letting go is so hard and it out of my character to be thinking like this at all.. There are a couple of things or challenges that present themselves that I need to learn to work around..
Typing my confession usually helps, as there really is no one to discuss this with besides hubs and he wants me to have one primary goal.. If I do that this makes be way behind in my other goal.. Am I getting that old?
I refuse to let that be a factor..
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