JUST FOR TODAY -- One Day at a Time .... Daily commitment thread for 2019

@HEGoddard0928 - so sorry to hear of your Mother in Law’s passing. It’s good that you were able to be there for Matt. Hugs to you.

1/26 Day 19 Too cold to do anything today so didn't even get out of the house. Found things to amuse myself with though so I didn't eat. Started embroidering some designs on my machine for a new quilt. Also did a bit of reading. After supper I have 200 cals left for a night snack but getting kind of late and may not need them. Haven't eaten supper yet. Should save them for tomorrow as we have a church pot luck.

JFT goals for tomorrow (Sunday Jan 27)

• Toastmaster closeout for Level 1 - send notice to club VP Education
• Usual weigh in / morning 7 minute HIIT session / food pre-logging
• Walk to visit friend (1 km away) - probably watch a Netflix movie - bring my own pre-popped popcorn with me.
• Usual mini-trampoline jogging / exergame. Log exercise and step totals in various accountability groups.

@snowflake1968 thank you. Definitely glad I came on here rather than go to the shops for chocolate! Glad Michaela liked her t-shirt/dress! Sounds like you’ve had a great time with the family x

So after my venting last night I managed to hold firm, closed out my diary with some calories to spare and have a nice early night.

The bf got in touch eventually. He assumed I had my kids this weekend due to some crossed wires but, to be honest, if he’d answered my messages from earlier in the day before 9pm then he could have found that out sooner and in enough time for us to see each other! I’m in two minds about whether to bother going down to see him. It’s a long journey and I’m a bit resentful that it’s often me making the effort. But equally if I stay home alone to make a point it probably won’t be fun for me! Have to make my mind up fairly early as if I go it won’t be for long - need to be back home at 5:30 for when the girls get back.

Saturday goals recap
- sleep in a little! Yay I never do this! ✅
- Get kids ready to be collected by their dad at 8:30 ✅ just!
- Warrior class 9:30 eek! ✅ yay! 💪
- Read through obs lesson plan ❎
- Laundry ✅
- Bf if he’s around this weekend ❎
- Stay mindful - re read 2019 goals. Remember how rubbish I felt last weekend. Make this the weekend where I achieve balance ✅✅✅ did it!!

Sunday goals
- morning run
- Obs lesson plan
- Bf place to hang out???
- Check girls have done homework, pack bags etc
- Re-read 2019 goals - stay mindful. Follow yesterday’s win with another good day to close out the weekend with positivity
- Early night

Weekly Weigh-In = When I'm active I eat back calories. My weaknesses: I love food... my sweet tooth, especially chocolate... portion control... FOMO (Fear of Missing Out). Saturday a.m. is my MFP weigh-in logging day, and I peek occasionally other days. My digital scale only shows half pound increments & I'm too cheap to buy a fancier scale. No goal dates set ~ this is not a diet but my lifestyle.

Age 61, 5'4.5"
GW #1: 150 in a livable way = It's. Not. A. Diet.
GW #2: 145 normal BMI
UG maintain: 145 - 150 [Need to be realistic! Revised from 140 - 145]

11/5/15 = 195.0 joined MFP with no real plan except It's. Not. A. Diet.
1/10/17 = 185.5 clearly not a regular on MFP / joined JFT, best group ever!
5/31/17 = 180.5 two end of month celebrations / committed to posting weekly weigh-in 09/02/17 = 170.0 Woohoo! Officially overweight, not obese 12/09/17 = 158.5 surprised to say the least / first time in 10 years my weight is 1-5-anything! 02/17/18 = 153.0 thrilled with annual physical on 2/15/18: BP 110/68, pulse 64 and BMI 26.14 05/26/18 = 153.0 Health Risk Assessment 5/15/18 ~ BMI 25.6 12/29/18 = 159.5 stayed 1-5-anything over holidays & vacation
01/05/19 = 157.5
01/12 = 158.0 Frenzy on the Fox 5K 1/11 with friends ~ not timed / MapMyWalk 54:19
01/19 = 158.0 maintained even with evening snacking & skipped workouts
01/26 = 157.5

“Start by doing what’s necessary, then what’s possible, and suddenly you are doing the impossible.” Francis of Assisi

Very late in the day to post goals, so I'll just recap quickly then post for tomorrow, which will be a busy day.

Recap 1/25 F ~ Brrr! Temp gauge in car on way to work said -6 (F)... blustery winds have us in a Wind Chill Advisory. Looks like we're stuck in cold pattern for at least a week. Ah well, winter in Wisconsin.
1) Rest day / move hourly / stairs breaks at work / 5 somethings = Fitbit 7,785 steps, 250+ steps 13/14 & 37 floors
2) Meals & snacks prelogged / stick w/ plan / net calories zero / 14c water = Net calories -112 , sodium -398, sugar -8, fiber low , protein good & 14c water
3) Evening: make veggie soup / stop trying to get so much done & relax! It's Friday! I fell asleep sitting up on couch watching tv... now that's tired (for me)
4) Unplug 9:30 / floss / retainers / NO alarm for Sat. (yay) but bed & tv off 11:00 latest

Recap 1/26 Sat. ~ No alarm & slept until 9 a.m. even after sleeping on couch prior evening... guess my restless nights this past week caught up with me.
1) Didn't feel like walking on the treadmill, so I x-trained on weights & my home-version circuit training this morning.
2) Meals & snacks prelogged, except the chocolate I ate tonight ~ ack! I was emo-eating, since I wasn't hungry, and felt guilty / crappy after. Net calories RED.
3) Wrapped all presents hubby's birthday is Mon. & if we are both at work, won't see each other, so we will celebrate (very low-key) on Sun.
4) Wrote out bday cards (hubby, 2 friends that have to be mailed early next week). Plus have cards for mom & sister ready for hubby to sign (Th & next Sun.)

Today we had record-tying low temp -23F (-30C), high temp of 4 and negative wind chill ~ next week will be more of the same, with a snowstorm Sunday night and most of Monday, and arctic temps to follow. Wondering if I might get a message from work to stay home Mon ~ my employer is pretty decent about that ~ although I would have to take PTO. At least I would be home for hubby's birthday.

JF Sunday 1/27
1) Bible class / church
2) Errands: gas in car on way home / quick grocery stop for items needed since last trip / go w/ hubby to run his vehicles & get gas for snowblower (if we get predicted 6-12", we will need more gas)
3) Treadmill 3 miles or Sweaty Betty
4) Bake chocolate cake, make frosting & cook spaghetti meat sauce (family recipe) ~ Tradition! I've been making this birthday meal for hubby every single year since we started dating in 1995.
5) DO NOT eat more than 1 portion / log all meals & snacks / 12c water
6) Unplug 9:00 / floss / retainers / set/verify alarm, bed & tv off 10:30

cschmitz110515 wrote: »

Today we had record-tying low temp -23F (-30C), high temp of 4 and negative wind chill ~ next week will be more of the same, with a snowstorm Sunday night and most of Monday, and arctic temps to follow. Wondering if I might get a message from work to stay home Mon ~ my employer is pretty decent about that ~ although I would have to take PTO. At least I would be home for hubby's birthday.

Oh my goodness @cschmitz110515! That is unimaginably cold!! I don’t know how you even leave the house in those kind of conditions!

Was kind of thinking of changing my morning run plans due to drizzle out there but this puts it into some perspective!
Stay warm and safe x

JFT 26 January

I will log on mfp and stay within calories DONE
I will do back exercises NO. I'm sore and started to worry I was making things worse, so decided to rest today
I will take a trip out and go shopping DONE. A few good gifts bought
I will take a photo of myself (I'm very rarely photo'd) in the hopes that one day it will be a "before" picture and a reminder that I don't want to go back there. DONE. UURGH!
I will sort out my clothes and tidy my bedroom NO TIDYING, did put out a few clothes. Find it hard to sort clothes when a lot are a size too small
I will NOT use the weekend as an excuse to derail my good intentions A GOOD DIETING DAY

JFT 27 January

I will log on mfp
Doing a Sunday roast, but will keep my aims in mind, and won't over indulge too much!
I will do some gentle back exercises
Tidy the bedroom

Finding it hard to think of aims today, Sundays can be weird

@littleblackskirt - when I started last Year on here I was pushing it hard. I complained one day about hurting so bad and everyone told me how important rest days are. Smart decision. I made Sunday my Maintenance day a few months ago. It’s the day of the week I make a big breakfast and have a big family dinner. I still post exactly the same goals so I keep it in mind, but don’t beat myself up if I don’t succeed.

@clicketykeys - mmmm homemade bread. I talked to a young man teaching grade 6 yesterday. He was concerned about getting his marking done too. It seems to be a common theme amongst teachers.

I am still not feeling well this morning. Did not sleep well and am going to be happy to get home to have a nap! May not need to eat today after my indulgence last night!

I let my holiday get the better of me, but it’s back to healthy eating now!

Bought yoghurt, veggies and apples for tomorrow. Will drink lots of water.

Sunday 27 January

Another indulgent day enjoying the views from my window on Skye and good food. I'm still OK about being a piggy and gaining. All changes on Wednesday when I go back south and return to work and start the task of getting back to my maintenance weight!

Reading about the challenges some of you are facing is humbling and I applaud your tenacity.

@HEGoddard0928 - being there is all you can do. I learned that you can’t force the grieving process, it lasts as long as it lasts and until someone else has been through it they won’t understand it. I can’t speak to Matt’s mind or thoughts but I know from my experience when my Dad was sick that there was a lot of anger and guilt in the years following his death.

My Dad was wasting away to nothing and was in so much pain. We couldn’t even hold his hand because it caused him so much pain. I prayed for God to take him, I told the nurses to give him more morphine. I did anything I could think of to make his suffering end. I have felt guilty and then angry at myself ever since. My Dad passed in 2012, i still feel guilt when I think about it. Have patience when Matt is angry at times it might be self directed.

Another thing that really bothered me was no one talked about my Dad. It was like I came back to Alberta after the funeral and Dad no longer existed for anyone. When I finally blew up about it to my family (about a year later) I found out they were taking cues from me, they were scared to bring him up and upset me and I hadn’t brought him up because I thought they were tired of hearing it. So talk keep communication open. I don’t know how much she changed physically in the last while, those are hard images to get out of your head. Find favourite photos from years gone by and look at them if that’s what Matt wants down the road. It’s going to be rough but you’ll get through it together.