JUST FOR TODAY -- One Day at a Time .... Daily commitment thread for 2019

MLHC1 wrote: »

June 13, 2019

All of you ladies are amazing!! Thank you for all the words of encouragement and support!!

Obviously these issues have been in my life longer than just yesterday, I've just kept most of the issues to myself on here (with the occasional update). Yesterday my mind was in battle with thoughts and since my conversation with my counselor; I've been surviving on: "All things are possible with Christ who gives you strength. " Kinda obvious I'm sure but a life line nonetheless. I'm unwilling to throw in the towel on my marriage and yesterday I was considering all things learned, experienced and felt. I shared my JFT yesterday bc I needed to share some of what I was thinking. I knew something had to change or adjust in order to move forward. Well whomever may not believe, yesterday prayers were answered!! Out of no prompting from me, my husband came home early from work. He sat with me and ate dinner then asked if I would join him in having some wine. He helped get the boys to bed then poured two glasses of wine and toasted to "Our Love." 😢 What?!?! ➡️Prayers were answered!! He began talking and opening up about everything!!!! We talked for almost 3 hours. Everything that was discussed was meaningful but most important; he said he only wants me and wants to be in this family and be here with us. He is trying to understand himself better and wants to go to counseling but he wants to understand himself a little better before going. After he was done sharing everything, I explained to him where I was and how meaningful and necessary the conversation was. We both agreed, God showed up for us!!!!

Are things perfect, of course not there is a lot of work to do. The important thing is he came to me and shared how willing he IS to work on our marriage!!

I'm still in shock over the last 72 hours of events but I know one thing for sure, God IS for our marriage!!!!

I know that is a long post to share but I wanted to update you all. The power of prayer is real!!

Hugs to all you amazing ladies!!!! The support in this group is overwhelmingly positive!!!! Thank you again for all the support and caring words; it does make a difference!!!!

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1. Log every single bite - GOOD, BAD & UGLY
2. HYDRATE
3. MOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
4. Eat only while sitting. Be mindful of choices. Put down fork in between bites.
5. Get 3 main tasks done at work today before leaving. (1) Rounding schedule for rest of June. (2) New Provider Support schedule assigned out, and (3) Follow-up on outstanding emails and service tickets as time allows.
6. Take a real lunch break
7. Get outside for 15 minutes today
8. Podcasts: Joyce | Half Size Me
9. 30 minutes tonight working on Course 1 in HSM program "Getting Started for the Last Time"
10. Prep for tomorrow, tonight
11. Evening routine: brush/floss, shower, pack lunch, coffeemaker, set out outfit and pack laptop bag
12. Unplug one hour before bed, Gratitude journal 5 things today, Read SA and JM dailies and listen to Calm app.
13. DO NOT HIT SNOOZE IN MORNING!

nlmackey98 wrote: »

Bex953172 wrote: »

@nlmackey98 Was just thinking of your post yesterday about your cycling! You say you cant do it like you did before but 22.5 miles is damn good!
Soooo, maybe instead of thinking what youre not achieving (and comparing to what you could do in the past) turn it into a goal! Work towards that stamina and distance again!

Theres a work out video i do, its 40 mins long. I have never completed it.
Its has cardio then strength training, then cardio again, then strength, cardio, strength.

First time i did it, i lasted about 10 mins, so first lot of cardio and strength. By thd next week i did cardio strength cardio, the week after that i did the first two sets but lots of rest in the second strength. The next time i didnt get any further but didnt rest as much.
I got better each time, then i got pregnant and when i tried again. I was right back to square one! Pretty annoying but im working hard to try get to that point again, i know i can do it because ive done it before. Im just gonna have to keep at it!

You were only 8 miles off your previous distance, and you only stopped to get back for dinner! So you can get back to how you were before! Keep at it!!


Also, how was your appt? Xxx

I'm working on my attitude, but I used to cycle 200 miles a week at an avg pace of 20mph and then race or do long rides on the weekends. The 30 mile goal was my idea of taking it down a notch. I can still do 50 - 60 but I start to get slower around 40miles or so. My longest ride ever was 210 miles in 2 days. On the flats we cruised at 25 -27mph, a little slower in the wind and through the hills.

For me that level of cycling may be unattainable now. It was only 5 years ago, but I was in a manic frenzied state with few inhibitions or fears, putting all of my energy into riding and making poor choices that I never thought I'd make. It was not a particularly healthy time in my life, but I do miss the power an exhilaration of it. Of course, I nearly lost my family over some of the choices I made. Now I think I will be happy just to have my confidence back on the bike and be able to ride the routes I once rode even if it is slower.

Appointment was kind of horrible. Background info is always tough. I stayed somewhat removed from it while I was answering the questions, but kind broken down at the end. I was busy at home, then things settled down and my mind went back to the office. Today I feel numb, but with an elephant on my chest and zero concentration. Unfortunately, I have tons to do that require concentration today. Oh well, what gets done gets done.

Thank you so much for taking the time to comment and inquire about the appt.