JUST FOR TODAY -- One Day at a Time .... Daily commitment thread for 2019
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@nlmackey98
I know how horrible it feels to go through your personal "mud"...it takes a lot of courage and strength.
I've learned by now that everyone has something they feel ashamed about. Whether it's something we've done or it has been done to us or just our moments of everyday weaknesses, there is always something that's hard to say aloud in front of someone. I am generally perceived by people as very down to earth, smart and careful toward life choices, and yet, there are things I've done I'm so ashamed about and probably will struggle with it till the rest of my life.
I am probably not being particularly helpful...I guess what I am trying to say is that it's easy to feel alienated in those moments when opening up while everyone else seams put together...but no one is really spared of those dark sides of life. I guess it just means we are humans.
Thank you so much. There is a lot of truth to what you say. Shame and guilt are tough, and we all have things we aren't proud of.
For me its like I am/was 2 different people. I was always kind and accepting of people, but then it splits between the high energy person with few inhibitions (tons of shame & guilt) and the quiet scientist that attends a conservative Baptist Church. Ideally, I'd like to be somewhere in the middle of those two people, but I'm not. Other than my husband my kids and 2 friends, nobody in the real world knows I'm bipolar, not even my mother. Depression is pretty mainstream and considered very common. BP still has a lot of stigma to it.
For me that means I am always on guard and always trying to act like I think I should. It's exhausting and I can't always hold it together, but I do a good enough job that most people see the me I want them to see. The real me speaks softly and fast. I walk quickly with my head down. The other me has measured speech, slow, deliberate and clear. My stride changes to a longer more assertive step with my head up, making eye contact with passersby. I appear more confident and as if I have my $h!t together. It's kind of like I live in the "mud" and pretend I'm clean. I don't do it because I think I'm perfect or better than others, it's just how I've learned to adapt. I actually choose which flaws I let others see so they don't think I'm pretending to be perfect. It's a carefully orchestrated existence most of the time.
Even when I cry myself to sleep at night, cut my arms or sit in the driveway bawling before I go inside, I can usually put on my calm controlled persona for my kids or for outsiders. All of that being said, I do work very hard to actually be the me I put forward. I just wish I could share a little bit of "me" with people. I wish I could make friends, but I don't really let anyone in. I don't trust people with my secrets, and I'm afraid if I get too close I'll tell someone something "real" and they will be frightened off or disgusted.8 -
@nimackey98 you show such insight and are inspirational. Sending hugs to you.1
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ZizzyBumble wrote: »Friday 14 June
Log accurately best guess
Stay in the green probably just
5 fruit and veg
Fitbit excercise goals although it's refusing to sync my excercise!
Jan challenge
Feb challenge
Mar challenge hung the washing out but did not find time to enjoy the outdoors
Apr challenge two clean and frost free freezers to show for today's efforts!
May challenge
Jun challenge tried my best
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PackerFanInGB wrote: »cschmitz110515 wrote: »@daneejela I love how you put into words things I cannot, and how inspiring you are! Even something simple, like every moment is a chance... like better posture. Funny because I was reading that hunched over my computer at work, and I immediately sat up straight! LOL
@cschmitz110515 LOL! I sat up straight too! I hadn't even noticed how much I was slouching.
@Snowflake1968 It seems that I missed your anniversary! HAPPY, HAPPY ANNIVERSARY! :flowerforyou:
@bookmeister86 I can see from others' posts that I missed something with your "ex" CEO. I will have to go back and see what's up at work with you! Sounds like it may have been a good thing though...good for you!
@Bex953172 and @maryrobinson40 YOU'RE BACK! Sure do miss you both when you are gone! (((HUGS)))
brother really took me down to my knees. I was being strong for everyone else and didn't know that I
was dissolving inside. That was my prayer partner, my counselor, my get by, my leaning post. Whew!
Then my body responded by getting sick, sooo... I kinda had to shut out most of my life, including
ministry, TV, loved ones. You all were the biggest help. There's no place like home...that's what this
thread means to me.🙌
I LOVE YOU ALL😍 💝☺
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@snowflake - love your barn door (really would like one or more in my home, they are so cool)
@mlhc1 so glad your dh opened up with you
My stepfa in law was hospitalzed and needed surgical repair while out camping and needs more surgery. Heading out with my mom to a funeral back east tomorrow. There's so much need to get done tonight. It's all crazy making.
where are you @maryrobinson ? how's it going?
@cory17 I'm here sweetie. It's been kinda rough on the old girl... Lol…. I'm working on my come back.
I LOVE YOU!! Missed you too.💝🙆
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I'm here, 116 posts behind.
JFT: Try to mentally work out all the issues! I'm living in a house that isn't complete, my kids are out of control and my marriage counselor told me I have two options: continue to live in misery with intermittent moments of happiness bc my husband is unwilling to work on things or concede to separation. Needless to say, I'm broken emotionally and cannot physically pull myself up. I'm going to need some time to just aquire strength again.
❤ Miss you gals, stay strong!!
I know how you feel because I don't. We each individually have our tolerance levels, we all process
differently, and we all need that unconditional support system that we can draw from. We Are Here For
You. No judging, just loving arms for you to lean on. Do what you need to do for the children, and yourself.
I will keep you in my prayers. I love you.
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JFT
EXERCISES
MORE LAUNDRY...takes longer without the dryer😁
Cooked and fed children
Did dishes
Polished Nails
Took out trash and recycling
Not enough water today...must improve on this
TV... Hallmark Movie1 -
Big fail for me last night with an attack of the f-it Fridays! Annoyed with myself as i had started the day so well with an epic run. But I keep forgetting to fuel properly during the day so the evenings aren’t a problem. When will I learn?! Anyway, have already moved on. Got up, put some laundry on and had a light breakfast. Just done my Warrior class and going to get cracking with the cleaning in a bit.
Friday goals recap:
- morning run ✅ 8 miles/13k! Happy
- pack snacks and schoolbags ✅
- laminate booklets on arrival ✅
- print homework sheets ✅
- reply to parent email and book in kids cooking session ❎
- home lunchtime for car and shake ✅
- chase solicitor re TofE❎
- call new gym guy❎
- Do GaG certificate and water plants before leaving✅
- eyebrows after work✅
- girls pack for weekend at their dad’s and write father’s day cards✅
- log it all - GBU ❎😕
- bed by 10❎
Saturday goals:
- Warrior class 9:30 ✅
- Laundry
- Cleaning
- Phone new gym and sort issue
- Pack and head to bf’s
- Rest and enjoy
Have a lovely weekend everyone! X2 -
There is so much I'd like to say to many of you, but today I just have one goal - to survive this day as calmly as possible:)
I don't think I would be able to handle this level of stress a few years back, but now I feel surprisingly calm like I'm in the center of a hurricane, where I still feel safe, but there are chaos and mess everywhere around me.
Today we are launching a service we've been working on the last few months. It's so not ready for the production, it hasn't been properly tested and I can only expect more mess as the day advances.
In addition, this morning hubby wanted to go to the orchard we're trying to set up that's pretty far away from us, and since he's been so supportive and wonderful lately I just couldn't say 'no', knowing how much it means to him to reset in nature.
So, I woke up at 4:30 am, after just an hour and a half of sleep. Additionally, I got the biggest period ever...TMI warning! there was (and still is) blood everywhere around me. Then my tooth started to ache. Then nervous calls from colleagues started coming. Now I am back home, on position, trying to be ready for the moment when sh** hits the fan
Oh, and I promised a neighbor to fix a bunch of math problems for him by tomorrow. Grrr..
Anyway, I hope you all have a great day today! I'll take time to respond to everyone when all this settles down. Hugs!4 -
Checking in from Friday
1. COFFEE. Pack lunch and log it. Leave for park by 8:50.
2. Ask Kristen (?) about digital pay stub. Work on PPT during breaks at park. NO EXTRA SNACKS. NO. Note - Check on 1st week of July. How much do they need me? I need to let J know at the garden.
3. Record audio for lit review. SUBMIT PROJECT.
4. Drink more water. No, more. Keep the pitcher in the fridge full. You're not actually hungry. Make some tea. Drink more water!
5. Therapy exercises at 9:30: lunges, push-ups, ankle lifts, box jumps, plank. MEDS. Floss, rinse, brush teeth. In bed by 9:45; devices off by 10:00. Alarm set for 6:00. Meeting 9:15 Friday. Next Monday is lunch with A; need to set time. Check on audition for MM. Tuesday 4-6 is coloring club. Next Saturday is library day with parents.
JFT Saturday
1. COFFEE. Pack lunch and log it. Leave for park by 8:50.
2. Find images for PPT. Work on PPT script during breaks at park. NO EXTRA SNACKS. NO.
3. Wash hair. Bed.
4. Sunday AM: Record audio for lit review. SUBMIT PROJECT. Monday is lunch with A; need to set time. Check on audition for MM. Tuesday 4-6 is coloring club. Next Saturday is library day with parents.
Scale goalsEnd of 2017: 174.6
End of 2018: 189.2
January 2019: 186.0
February 2019: 187.0
Today: 191.6
Ongoing plans/ideas behind the cut1. Purchases: Go to Mac store and see if they can retrieve the files off the iMac. Look for an "ugly Christmas sweater" and a long-haired doll at thrift stores. Practice French braiding. Go to used bookstore and look for Design for How People Learn (Julie Dirksen), On Writing (Stephen King), Dying for a Paycheck (Robin Hardman), The Prince (tr. Tim Parks, Russell Price, or Robert Adams), The Secret Adversary (Christie).
2. E2: What should the controlling ideas be in a study of world literature? Review world lit options. Create vocabulary lists for each unit that come from the texts used: Animal Farm, Julius Caesar, Wes Moore, I Am Malala. Find a way to incorporate changing words from one part of speech to another. Students need to know how to review multiple sources and synthesize information in order to draw a conclusion. Need practice with the difference between transitions and overlapping (at end of paragraph - "another issue is Y" vs "there are other issues besides X"). Quit using "in conclusion" and "I believe" and other writing-about-my-writing phrases. Confusion between direct/indirect objects and prepositional phrases. Use the UDHR and the Declaration of Independence to study paraphrasing; use that to front-load Machiavelli and how to deal with challenging texts. Confusion between everyday / every day and similar constructions.
3. E1: Need practice with quoting & paraphrasing sources, identifying claims that would need support, use of last names for reference, and capitalization practice (common/proper nouns, titles). Difficulty using possessive nouns in their own writing. Honors: practice subject/object pronouns (my friend and I / my friend and me). Poetry: Revise "Songs are Poetry" handouts.
4. Curriculum Development: Writing mini-unit. Review scholarly research on 5PE. (I think I can have this as an intro to the research unit so that they also get exposure to how quotes are integrated and cited.) Parallel structure; use of emotional language, specific detail. Use "Write About a Pebble" lesson from Atwell. How long should each unit take? Do research on characteristics: curiosity, persistence, resilience, creativity, responsibility, optimism, courage, integrity, authenticity, leadership, self-awareness, humility, compassion - others? Include grammarly check on essays! Review assessments. What is the purpose for each unit? What should the controlling ideas be in a study of world literature? Review world lit options. Schedule assessments for Fall 2019; plan out return times. Align assessments with OW units.
5. Professional Development: Write blog post weekly. Comment on 3 posts each week -Tu Th Sun? Check with PSC. Talk with Z about articles and/or conference proposals. NOTE: ATTEND POST FLEX DAY RATHER THAN PRE FLEX DAY. Upload summer project checklist July 1.
6. Medical: Dentist. Onco. PCP. Call to set up checkups with Dass (October). GET MAGAZINES FOR COLLAGES FROM DOCTORS.
7. Theater: Audition for Mamma Mia???
8. House: Mineral oil on tile spots. Check with D about ceiling and taking items to the dump.
9. Fun: Open beading on Thursdays. Coloring at library on Tuesday. Put jewelry away.
10. Volunteering ideas: Theater. Library. Animal shelter.
WFTY: Climbing. 13 hour shift today. Project not done and due tomorrow. Putting on the extra-snug compression socks. Will I hit 30k steps? Let's find out!
You know what? I'm removing the "how much do they need me?" question from the to-do list. If I get a day off from the park, I'm not going to go in at the garden, I am going to TAKE A FREAKING BREAK. Fourth of July week is going to be a challenge anyway. :P2 -
JFT Recap 6/14
40 minutes exercise
Drink water
Relax and have fun
Let my family just be today
Had such a great day with my family yesterday. We just hung out, relaxed, and enjoyed ourselves all afternoon. I definitely over indulged but it was worth it and planned. Today the family gets to relax but I am working. I don't mind though, it'll be a fun day with clients that I like. Had a great run yesterday, today I think I'll swim just to shake things up.
Tomorrow I get to relax! I wish I could sleep in though. No matter what time I go to bed I wake up at 6 am every single day. Kids are done with school so I don't have to get up but I still do! UGH! d
JFT 6/15
30 minutes swimming
Stay within calories
drink water
no alcohol
Keeping it simple today bc my body is a bit tired from staying up late and indulging!2 -
1. Water NOW!
2. Work til Atleast 1 - but leave if offered!
3. Skim pond, add Chen's
4. Scrub back deck/stairs
5. Take down swing chair
6. Move glider chair
7. Eat packed lunch
8. Cook dinner at home!3 -
I’m going to pretend I actually managed to post these yesterday. The computer crashed just as I was getting ready to type my little update after I posted and then I started having people arrive.
JFT - Friday June 14 -Determined
2.5L of water - 🙂
Calories in green, Log Accurately - 👿/👿
Walk 1 Mile - probably
Squats - 15
5 Fruits and Veggies - 0/5
Only 1 evening Snack - 👿
5 something at bathroom break - 👿
Something on commercials - no tv all day
Write in Journal - too tired
Do not disappoint myself, be conscious of my choices - 😂 I was conscious of them and did it anyway so not sure what to put.
JFT - Saturday June 15 Determined
2.5L of water
Calories in green, Log Accurately
Walk 1 Mile
Squats
5 Fruits and Veggies
Only 1 evening Snack
5 something at bathroom break
Something on commercials
Write in Journal
Do not disappoint myself, be conscious of my choices
Yesterday we managed to get a lot accomplished towards wedding stuff. Oh so much to go! Kaitlyn left around 130 again this morning. Sunday night I am staying at her house, and we will be crafting there most of Monday. She is also colouring my hair Sunday night.
Today Lauryn is coming out and we are going to work on stuff for the shower. It’s a busy time for sure.
I received a text from one of my references asking if I had heard from the nursing home. She had received a call and she thought they sounded pretty positive. My other two references that I speak to regularly missed their call and have left a message for them.
I am fearful and hopeful all at once that I get this position. Hopeful because it would be perfect, fearful because of timing.
It will be what it will be and He has a plan I’m sure.
I have a lot to catch up on for posts, I’ll try to do that before Lauryn and the kids arrive.
Oh!!!! I forgot to tell you how my swimming went. I swam one full lap doing front crawl only. Took a two minute break swam two laps with no breaks. He then said I want you to take a good 3-4 minute rest because you’re not going to like me when I tell you what’s next. I rested up and he said “ok 5 laps no breaks”. I DID IT!!!!!!! It was a lot of back crawl but I did it! After I was done he told me how proud he was and that he though for sure I would take breaks at the end of the pool each time and I didn’t!
Next week is my last lesson and he asked me what I wanted to work on, we are going to work on breathing more, and I’m hoping to dive off the diving box.6 -
I don’t have time right now to respond to everyone but I wanted to say this to @nlmackey98:
I have a friend that has been a part of my life since I was 13 years old that was diagnosed as bipolar in 2016 after going through a very manic state for a few months. I was the one that had to call the police and get her the help she needed, her children (fortunately all grown) were scared.
I was petrified for her and didn’t know how else to help her but to get her to professionals. I saw her at Kaitlyn’s shower in May for the first time since this manic phase and she looks so sad. She is a shell of the beautiful, brilliant woman she was, but she is still loving and caring and she is still my friend.
She tells me often that she is treated differently since her diagnosis, I don’t see why, she is still the same person on a deep level, she now has finally been diagnosed and treated for the disease she has had since I’ve known her. This time in 2016 was the 4th manic cycle I have seen her go through, this by far being the worse. In all of those years of it she raised 3 beautiful children, on her own for a lot of those years. Went back to school twice, and graduated with a 3.8 gpa from her last course in 2012.
Before the diagnosis everyone said “oh that’s just (her name) now those same people avoid her and have cut her out of their life. It’s so sad. She is coming to the wedding with her youngest daughter and I can’t wait to see her. Funnily enough she was brilliant in the sciences too.
I am so proud of you for telling us what it’s like for you and I just want to say I’m very happy and proud to be your friend and I wish we lived closer so we could visit.
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I’ll try to catch everyone else later, I’m off to start another busy day0
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Snowflake1968 wrote: »I don’t have time right now to respond to everyone but I wanted to say this to @nlmackey98:
I have a friend that has been a part of my life since I was 13 years old that was diagnosed as bipolar in 2016 after going through a very manic state for a few months. I was the one that had to call the police and get her the help she needed, her children (fortunately all grown) were scared.
I was petrified for her and didn’t know how else to help her but to get her to professionals. I saw her at Kaitlyn’s shower in May for the first time since this manic phase and she looks so sad. She is a shell of the beautiful, brilliant woman she was, but she is still loving and caring and she is still my friend.
She tells me often that she is treated differently since her diagnosis, I don’t see why, she is still the same person on a deep level, she now has finally been diagnosed and treated for the disease she has had since I’ve known her. This time in 2016 was the 4th manic cycle I have seen her go through, this by far being the worse. In all of those years of it she raised 3 beautiful children, on her own for a lot of those years. Went back to school twice, and graduated with a 3.8 gpa from her last course in 2012.
Before the diagnosis everyone said “oh that’s just (her name) now those same people avoid her and have cut her out of their life. It’s so sad. She is coming to the wedding with her youngest daughter and I can’t wait to see her. Funnily enough she was brilliant in the sciences too.
I am so proud of you for telling us what it’s like for you and I just want to say I’m very happy and proud to be your friend and I wish we lived closer so we could visit.
Tracey
I second this! I had no idea that bipolar was what you had to deal with! It certainly doesnt make me think any different towards you!
Sharing what you did has made me realise something myself. My partner has borderline personality disorder and when hes out and about hes pretty much "normal" but then at home and with me he can really be a pain at times. But youve made me see that for everyone else its just an act so no one sees the real him, in the way you said. But with me he can be himself! Which is nice to know j can give him that security and safe place. So thank you for sharing!
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Hi all! I'm on late today.. We went to Lowe's and bought some tile with a store credit we had that we plan on using in our bathroom when we move. We've been eyeballing this tile for months (before we even knew we were getting a house this soon) so it was nice to finally actually get some! It's porcelain but made to look like grey marble 😍
@nlmackey98 thank you for opening up to us and trusting us all with your struggles. We are all hear to listen whenever you need! 💖💖
@maryrobinson40 I'm so sorry you've been having such a tough time. You are strong and I believe in you! 💞💕
@Snowflake1968 you are doing fantastic with your swimming, you should be SO proud!!!!
Yesterday I went a little over but still under maintenance. Today I've inhaled some trail mix but managed to stop myself after about 3 servings instead of eating the whole bag (left over from my husband's lunch bag yesterday). Hoping to plan a light and affordable dinner tonight and get a walk in to offset some of it.
We got a quote on a new roof for the house, which it doesn't quite need yet but will soon, and we all agreed the best course of action for everyone involved would be for the seller to take an additional 5k off the price of the house. When the time comes, we have ways we can get it done for less than the roofers' quote.
Have a great day everyone!
Yesterday 6/14:
1. Give Rukia her a.m. pills 😁
2. Stay within calorie goal😞
3. Look into traffic course for my ticket, deadline is approaching! Leaving this here until I do so I don't forget!😞
4. Go for a walk at lunch😁
5. Cook dinner😑 if hot pockets count then yes lol 😂😂
JFT 6/15:
1. Give Rukia her a.m. pills 😁
2. Stay within calorie goal
3. Look into traffic course for my ticket, deadline is approaching! Leaving this here until I do so I don't forget!
4. Get a minimum of 6,000 steps
5. Find a cheap healthy choice for dinner
6. Put away some laundry
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Saturday 15 June
Seems like I failed to post this morning however:
Log accurately
Stay in the green
5 fruit and veg
Fitbit excercise goals
Jan challenge
Feb challenge
Mar challenge
April challenge
May challenge almost
June challenge
Where does time go? The job list just gets longer and longer ........2 -
JFT 6/15 recap
30 minutes swimming
Stay within calories
drink water
no alcohol
So tired from my fun day yesterday! Didn’t make it to the gym so tomorrow will do an hour.
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NSnowflake1968 wrote: »But youve made me see that for everyone else its just an act so no one sees the real him, in the way you said. But with me he can be himself! Which is nice to know j can give him that security and safe place. So thank you for sharing!
Love and hugs! Xxx
Thank you both, really I thank you alll. I feel safe and cared for here. Like I can be honest. Know however that being me isn’t always pretty. If I lash out or seem “not like myself” feel free to call me out. Sometimes I say or do things that hurt folks I love. I have no excuses for that behavior, but please know if I’m being like that, it isn’t the me I want to be.
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Yesterday I was a mess, so I haven't thanked you for such nice compliments you gave me! Thank you for being so wonderful!
@cschmitz110515 @PackerFanInGB
You made my day when I pictured you sitting up straight after reading my post, that was extra cute
I am trying to work on my posture, I was surprised to learn that good posture affects so many things in the body, including even teeth and bite. Also, I think there is no outfit that can make such an impact on appearance as can good posture.
In the end, yesterday went better then I expected. There were no major problems reported.
As a beautiful end of the day, my friend delivered a baby! So we celebrated all evening with her family. Although I was running on just one hour of sleep from the night before, I wasn't feeling tired at all. I am not sure if those celebrations with family, while mum and baby are still in the hospital, are a local or global custom, but I really like all the positivity, relief and excitement that goes with it. There is just something very cathartic in welcoming a new human being into the world.
On the less positive side, it made me question if I want to wait for getting pregnant before I remove my gallstones (which should be, according to what the surgeon has said, this autumn - they do only emergency ones over summer). I am getting impatient, but the rational side of my brain is telling me that it's too risky to go into pregnancy and that few months will pass quickly.
I am going to use those months to make the best out of it - by setting up healthy and maintainable habits.
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JFT 6/16
Stay within calories
60 minutes exercise
Drink water
Limit wine
Be mindful when eating
Hoping for a low key day. Indulging the last two days wiped out my progress from last week weight loss wise so going to get back to it today.
Happy Sunday!1 -
nlmackey98 wrote: »Thank you so much. There is a lot of truth to what you say. Shame and guilt are tough, and we all have things we aren't proud of.
For me its like I am/was 2 different people. I was always kind and accepting of people, but then it splits between the high energy person with few inhibitions (tons of shame & guilt) and the quiet scientist that attends a conservative Baptist Church. Ideally, I'd like to be somewhere in the middle of those two people, but I'm not. Other than my husband my kids and 2 friends, nobody in the real world knows I'm bipolar, not even my mother. Depression is pretty mainstream and considered very common. BP still has a lot of stigma to it.
For me that means I am always on guard and always trying to act like I think I should. It's exhausting and I can't always hold it together, but I do a good enough job that most people see the me I want them to see. The real me speaks softly and fast. I walk quickly with my head down. The other me has measured speech, slow, deliberate and clear. My stride changes to a longer more assertive step with my head up, making eye contact with passersby. I appear more confident and as if I have my $h!t together. It's kind of like I live in the "mud" and pretend I'm clean. I don't do it because I think I'm perfect or better than others, it's just how I've learned to adapt. I actually choose which flaws I let others see so they don't think I'm pretending to be perfect. It's a carefully orchestrated existence most of the time.
Even when I cry myself to sleep at night, cut my arms or sit in the driveway bawling before I go inside, I can usually put on my calm controlled persona for my kids or for outsiders. All of that being said, I do work very hard to actually be the me I put forward. I just wish I could share a little bit of "me" with people. I wish I could make friends, but I don't really let anyone in. I don't trust people with my secrets, and I'm afraid if I get too close I'll tell someone something "real" and they will be frightened off or disgusted.
Thank you for giving us the opportunity to know you better! I do agree, there is still a lot of stigma about BP. Posts like this are very helpful to understand what you are dealing with. And actually, everything you wrote feels very relatable, like being 2 different people. Maybe it's more pronounced with BP, but I think it's our way of finding balance, bouncing between our extremes trying to find that sweet middle spot where everything feels right. My strongest extremes are on the marriage field. I feel that I need to satisfy both this archetypal, traditional woman who fulfills herself through the husband and kids and the completely opposite ambitious, competitive, self-sufficient woman who hates to be restricted in any way. When I make one happy, the other is miserable
I completely understand your carefulness regarding with whom you'll share about BP. I would act the same. While I don't think it's anything to be ashamed of, I think that people should earn your trust before you share with them something you feel vulnerable about, whatever it is, a BP or something else. Also, in a way, I think we all pretend at least a bit that we are a bit better than we actually are and then we try to do our best to actually be that better person. Like some form of "fake it until you make it". And if we are lucky, we have a friend or two in our corner cheering for us and watching our back during the process. I think you are a wonderful woman and learning about BP has made me appreciate you even more, now when I know what challenges you need to overcome daily.
If there is something we can do (or not do) to help you deal with the BP?3 -
Checking in from Saturday
1. COFFEE. Pack lunch and log it. Leave for park by 8:50.
2. Find images for PPT. Work on PPT script during breaks at park. NO EXTRA SNACKS. NO.
3. Wash hair. Bed.
4. Sunday AM: Record audio for lit review. SUBMIT PROJECT. Monday is lunch with A; need to set time. Check on audition for MM. Tuesday 4-6 is coloring club. Next Saturday is library day with parents.
JFT Sunday
1. Feed cats. Meds. Tea! Post JFT.
2. Find images for PPT. Separate script. Record audio. SUBMIT PROJECT.
3. Email A about lunch. Call dad - Father's Day!
4. Head to garden by 1:50. Draft discussion post during break.
5. Therapy exercises at 9:30: lunges, push-ups, ankle lifts, box jumps, plank. MEDS. Floss, rinse, brush teeth. In bed by 9:45; devices off by 10:00. Alarm set for 6:00. Monday is lunch with A. Check on audition for MM. Tuesday 4-6 is coloring club. Meeting 9:15 Friday. Saturday is library day with parents.
Scale goalsEnd of 2017: 174.6
End of 2018: 189.2
January 2019: 186.0
February 2019: 187.0
Today: 191.6
Ongoing plans/ideas behind the cut1. Purchases: Go to Mac store and see if they can retrieve the files off the iMac. Look for an "ugly Christmas sweater" and a long-haired doll at thrift stores. Practice French braiding. Go to used bookstore and look for Design for How People Learn (Julie Dirksen), On Writing (Stephen King), Dying for a Paycheck (Robin Hardman), The Prince (tr. Tim Parks, Russell Price, or Robert Adams), The Secret Adversary (Christie).
2. E2: What should the controlling ideas be in a study of world literature? Review world lit options. Create vocabulary lists for each unit that come from the texts used: Animal Farm, Julius Caesar, Wes Moore, I Am Malala. Find a way to incorporate changing words from one part of speech to another. Students need to know how to review multiple sources and synthesize information in order to draw a conclusion. Need practice with the difference between transitions and overlapping (at end of paragraph - "another issue is Y" vs "there are other issues besides X"). Quit using "in conclusion" and "I believe" and other writing-about-my-writing phrases. Confusion between direct/indirect objects and prepositional phrases. Use the UDHR and the Declaration of Independence to study paraphrasing; use that to front-load Machiavelli and how to deal with challenging texts. Confusion between everyday / every day and similar constructions.
3. E1: Need practice with quoting & paraphrasing sources, identifying claims that would need support, use of last names for reference, and capitalization practice (common/proper nouns, titles). Difficulty using possessive nouns in their own writing. Honors: practice subject/object pronouns (my friend and I / my friend and me). Poetry: Revise "Songs are Poetry" handouts.
4. Curriculum Development: Writing mini-unit. Review scholarly research on 5PE. (I think I can have this as an intro to the research unit so that they also get exposure to how quotes are integrated and cited.) Parallel structure; use of emotional language, specific detail. Use "Write About a Pebble" lesson from Atwell. How long should each unit take? Do research on characteristics: curiosity, persistence, resilience, creativity, responsibility, optimism, courage, integrity, authenticity, leadership, self-awareness, humility, compassion - others? Include grammarly check on essays! Review assessments. What is the purpose for each unit? What should the controlling ideas be in a study of world literature? Review world lit options. Schedule assessments for Fall 2019; plan out return times. Align assessments with OW units.
5. Professional Development: Write blog post weekly. Comment on 3 posts each week -Tu Th Sun? Check with PSC. Talk with Z about articles and/or conference proposals. NOTE: ATTEND POST FLEX DAY RATHER THAN PRE FLEX DAY. Upload summer project checklist July 1.
6. Medical: Dentist. Onco. PCP. Call to set up checkups with Dass (October). GET MAGAZINES FOR COLLAGES FROM DOCTORS.
7. Theater: Audition for Mamma Mia???
8. House: Mineral oil on tile spots. Check with D about ceiling and taking items to the dump.
9. Fun: Open beading on Thursdays. Coloring at library on Tuesday. Put jewelry away.
10. Volunteering ideas: Theater. Library. Animal shelter.
WFTY: Climbing. Lord, yesterday was hard. 31k+ steps. Someone asked if I wanted a slice of pizza and I said YES. And I ate up every last bit of the food I brought. And then I got home and my wonderful husband had baked a loaf of bread with cranberries and Stilton in it. Fortunately he's doing stuff with his parents today and they took the half of the loaf that was left ;D2 -
JFT - Saturday June 15 Determined
2.5L of water - 👿
Calories in green, Log Accurately - 🙂
Walk 1 Mile - probably
Squats - 25
5 Fruits and Veggies - 2/5
Only 1 evening Snack - 🙂
5 something at bathroom break - 🙂
Something on commercials - only recorded tv
Write in Journal - 🙂
Do not disappoint myself, be conscious of my choices - 🙂
JFT - Sunday June 16 Determined
2.5L of water
Calories in green, Log Accurately
Walk 1 Mile
Squats
5 Fruits and Veggies
Only 1 evening Snack
5 something at bathroom break
Something on commercials
Write in Journal
Do not disappoint myself, be conscious of my choices
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Good morning! Currently sitting in the Verizon store because my phone battery is messed up. Will keep this quick before phone dies.
Yesterday 6/15:
1. Give Rukia her a.m. pills 😁
2. Stay within calorie goal😞
3. Look into traffic course for my ticket, deadline is approaching! Leaving this here until I do so I don't forget!😞
4. Get a minimum of 6,000 steps😁
5. Find a cheap healthy dinner 😁
6. Put away laundry 😞
JFT 6/16:
1. Give Rukia her a.m. pills 😁
2. Stay under 1500 calories
3. Look into traffic course for my ticket, deadline is approaching! Leaving this here until I do so I don't forget!
4. Do workout
5. Put away laundry
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So much sage advice going on in this thread. Just popping in quickly to say how much of an impact you all have made in my life! Approaching this wedding weekend feeling healthy, and happy, and committed to making the most of each day means so much to me. Its been a JOURNEY. And I am overjoyed you all have been and continue to be a part of it. Thank you!
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Today. Has been horrible. Just horrible. Darn kids ruined Fathers day. 👍5
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1. Water NOW!
2. Work til Atleast 1 - but leave if offered! worked all day, thats okay.
3. Skim pond, add Chen's
4. Scrub back deck/stairs
5. Take down swing chair
6. Move glider chair
7. Eat packed lunch
8. Cook dinner at home!
JFT Sunday
1. RELAX
2. Waters, Now!
3. Dinner at mom's
4. Bed by 10
5. Planters prepped
6. More water2
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