What's on your mind?
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Thinking... This holiday is going to be a *kitten*.. More so every January 2.2
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I’d be on the fire and that fire would be on me? That’s like raising 0 to the power of 0?
Problem alert: what if I was in the fire and then subsequently stepped on the fire before said call?2 -
I’ll top your best offer with an Olive Garden gift card.3 -
Motorsheen wrote: »
I’ll top your best offer with an Olive Garden gift card.
My gosh you guys are fancy, i was not expecting to be in the gift card realm2 -
Diatonic12 wrote: »There is a passive aggressive slimer, slimin' the people and they don't deserve it. No one does but it gives me a big pinch when they slime the sweet lil people everywhere. @slimgirljo15
@Faetta I completely agree but several have tried in the past. Look at mine @Faetta
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DrDeathDeath wrote: »I’d be on the fire and that fire would be on me? That’s like raising 0 to the power of 0?
Problem alert: what if I was in the fire and then subsequently stepped on the fire before said call?
Step out of the fire.
Stop, Drop & Roll.
Call 911.
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Motorsheen wrote: »
I’ll top your best offer with an Olive Garden gift card.
My gosh you guys are fancy, i was not expecting to be in the gift card realm
And this gift card, it’s only a little expired.3 -
Motorsheen wrote: »Motorsheen wrote: »
I’ll top your best offer with an Olive Garden gift card.
My gosh you guys are fancy, i was not expecting to be in the gift card realm
And this gift card, it’s only a little expired.
And it may or may not be a regift 😏😂...4 -
You give a coven an hour and some crows and I swear they can build anything3
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I don't think I'm getting better (sadly).
Everything is a struggle now.
Mentally, I'm sinking.
Physically, all I want to do is sleep.
I thought I did quite well given the year's circumstances and my own personal ones, but I guess I was wrong on that.
It was just waiting around the corner, like some demented parasite, come to infect me at the last possible moment.
I tried to cheer myself up and make cinnamon rolls (and did, finally) yesterday, but it has done nothing to help improve my mood. I can't work up the care to do anything creative or really take care of myself as I should. I only do things out of obligation to others.. I don't really live for myself anymore.
I am tormented by very, very dark thoughts. And sadly, due to my insurance, there is no one available to talk to (professionally) until well into the new year because of backlog/Covid/holidays.
I'm just trying to doggie-paddle through life at this point, hoping the waves don't crash over me again. Trying to keep my spouse informed just so he's aware, but I hate being a burden or making him worry.
So someone is nearby, watching out for me at least. But I'm tired of being tired and tired of the exhaustive strain this is.16 -
@KosmosKitten this is serious and I'm happy you can share here. Know, please, that you're not a burden to anyone. It sounds like more help and support is needed now.
A lot of places on North America are offering additional free telephone crisis counseling support, at the regional level, due to the pandemic's effects.
Can you see what's available in your region and reach out to them tonight?7 -
@KosmosKitten this is serious and I'm happy you can share here. Know, please, that you're not a burden to anyone. It sounds like more help and support is needed now.
A lot of places on North America are offering additional free telephone crisis counseling support, at the regional level, due to the pandemic's effects.
Can you see what's available in your region and reach out to them tonight?
I'll second this--I know it can be tough to reach for help when you can barely summon the energy to do the most basic functions of life, but please do if there's a resource available to you
Keep hanging in there, please2 -
KosmosKitten wrote: »I don't think I'm getting better (sadly).
Everything is a struggle now.
Mentally, I'm sinking.
Physically, all I want to do is sleep.
I thought I did quite well given the year's circumstances and my own personal ones, but I guess I was wrong on that.
It was just waiting around the corner, like some demented parasite, come to infect me at the last possible moment.
I tried to cheer myself up and make cinnamon rolls (and did, finally) yesterday, but it has done nothing to help improve my mood. I can't work up the care to do anything creative or really take care of myself as I should. I only do things out of obligation to others.. I don't really live for myself anymore.
I am tormented by very, very dark thoughts. And sadly, due to my insurance, there is no one available to talk to (professionally) until well into the new year because of backlog/Covid/holidays.
I'm just trying to doggie-paddle through life at this point, hoping the waves don't crash over me again. Trying to keep my spouse informed just so he's aware, but I hate being a burden or making him worry.
So someone is nearby, watching out for me at least. But I'm tired of being tired and tired of the exhaustive strain this is.
This makes me so sad knowing you feel this way. I don't know you personally and I don't want you to feel like I feel sorry for you but no human being with a good heart should ever feel this way. I hope there's a turning point for you soon to start healing. The best thing you can do right now is just keep talking about how you feel even if its to us internet people. Many hugs ❤7 -
@KosmosKitten this is serious and I'm happy you can share here. Know, please, that you're not a burden to anyone. It sounds like more help and support is needed now.
A lot of places on North America are offering additional free telephone crisis counseling support, at the regional level, due to the pandemic's effects.
Can you see what's available in your region and reach out to them tonight?
I can see what's available. I wasn't aware they were offering tele-services outside of regular hours._sw33tp3a_11 wrote: »KosmosKitten wrote: »I don't think I'm getting better (sadly).
Everything is a struggle now.
Mentally, I'm sinking.
Physically, all I want to do is sleep.
I thought I did quite well given the year's circumstances and my own personal ones, but I guess I was wrong on that.
It was just waiting around the corner, like some demented parasite, come to infect me at the last possible moment.
I tried to cheer myself up and make cinnamon rolls (and did, finally) yesterday, but it has done nothing to help improve my mood. I can't work up the care to do anything creative or really take care of myself as I should. I only do things out of obligation to others.. I don't really live for myself anymore.
I am tormented by very, very dark thoughts. And sadly, due to my insurance, there is no one available to talk to (professionally) until well into the new year because of backlog/Covid/holidays.
I'm just trying to doggie-paddle through life at this point, hoping the waves don't crash over me again. Trying to keep my spouse informed just so he's aware, but I hate being a burden or making him worry.
So someone is nearby, watching out for me at least. But I'm tired of being tired and tired of the exhaustive strain this is.
This makes me so sad knowing you feel this way. I don't know you personally and I don't want you to feel like I feel sorry for you but no human being with a good heart should ever feel this way. I hope there's a turning point for you soon to start healing. The best thing you can do right now is just keep talking about how you feel even if its to us internet people. Many hugs ❤
I've avoided talking about it in large because I'm unsure how MFP views such topics as they can be erm.. triggering for people in the way that talking about EDNOS can be. It also just largely sounds like I'm whining when really, I'm struggling to figure out just why I feel the way I do.
I couldn't really explain it well to others; it's almost like I'm experiencing the emotions of another individual, that I am detached from myself and freely experiencing an overwhelming despair. Almost as though my mind is no longer its own.
I do appreciate everyone's support. I'm trying to remain afloat and do little things like a chore here, or remembering to actually eat, but that's about all I can muster at the moment.
It's just really, really rough to know that my mind does this for what I perceive as no discernible reason. Just brain chemistry, I suppose.12 -
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KosmosKitten wrote: »@KosmosKitten this is serious and I'm happy you can share here. Know, please, that you're not a burden to anyone. It sounds like more help and support is needed now.
A lot of places on North America are offering additional free telephone crisis counseling support, at the regional level, due to the pandemic's effects.
Can you see what's available in your region and reach out to them tonight?
I can see what's available. I wasn't aware they were offering tele-services outside of regular hours._sw33tp3a_11 wrote: »KosmosKitten wrote: »I don't think I'm getting better (sadly).
Everything is a struggle now.
Mentally, I'm sinking.
Physically, all I want to do is sleep.
I thought I did quite well given the year's circumstances and my own personal ones, but I guess I was wrong on that.
It was just waiting around the corner, like some demented parasite, come to infect me at the last possible moment.
I tried to cheer myself up and make cinnamon rolls (and did, finally) yesterday, but it has done nothing to help improve my mood. I can't work up the care to do anything creative or really take care of myself as I should. I only do things out of obligation to others.. I don't really live for myself anymore.
I am tormented by very, very dark thoughts. And sadly, due to my insurance, there is no one available to talk to (professionally) until well into the new year because of backlog/Covid/holidays.
I'm just trying to doggie-paddle through life at this point, hoping the waves don't crash over me again. Trying to keep my spouse informed just so he's aware, but I hate being a burden or making him worry.
So someone is nearby, watching out for me at least. But I'm tired of being tired and tired of the exhaustive strain this is.
This makes me so sad knowing you feel this way. I don't know you personally and I don't want you to feel like I feel sorry for you but no human being with a good heart should ever feel this way. I hope there's a turning point for you soon to start healing. The best thing you can do right now is just keep talking about how you feel even if its to us internet people. Many hugs ❤
I've avoided talking about it in large because I'm unsure how MFP views such topics as they can be erm.. triggering for people in the way that talking about EDNOS can be. It also just largely sounds like I'm whining when really, I'm struggling to figure out just why I feel the way I do.
I couldn't really explain it well to others; it's almost like I'm experiencing the emotions of another individual, that I am detached from myself and freely experiencing an overwhelming despair. Almost as though my mind is no longer its own.
I do appreciate everyone's support. I'm trying to remain afloat and do little things like a chore here, or remembering to actually eat, but that's about all I can muster at the moment.
It's just really, really rough to know that my mind does this for what I perceive as no discernible reason. Just brain chemistry, I suppose.
"Just" brain chemistry can make us do dangerous things to ourselves. PLEASE seek out someone professionally who can give you resources to support you. You are NOT alone, no matter how much you might feel that way. But people don't know you're struggling until you tell them. And some people can put on a good front so others don't have a clue. I'm glad your dh knows and hope he can help you.
Keep trying to get help; I know the effort it takes(god knows simply breathing can exhaust a person when depression/anxiety hits) but it'll be worth it. You've got a wonderful spirit and soul, great sense of humor, much love to give; I(along with everyone else here I bet) hate to see you struggle when it could be better.
Take care.2 -
KosmosKitten wrote: »@KosmosKitten this is serious and I'm happy you can share here. Know, please, that you're not a burden to anyone. It sounds like more help and support is needed now.
A lot of places on North America are offering additional free telephone crisis counseling support, at the regional level, due to the pandemic's effects.
Can you see what's available in your region and reach out to them tonight?
I can see what's available. I wasn't aware they were offering tele-services outside of regular hours._sw33tp3a_11 wrote: »KosmosKitten wrote: »I don't think I'm getting better (sadly).
Everything is a struggle now.
Mentally, I'm sinking.
Physically, all I want to do is sleep.
I thought I did quite well given the year's circumstances and my own personal ones, but I guess I was wrong on that.
It was just waiting around the corner, like some demented parasite, come to infect me at the last possible moment.
I tried to cheer myself up and make cinnamon rolls (and did, finally) yesterday, but it has done nothing to help improve my mood. I can't work up the care to do anything creative or really take care of myself as I should. I only do things out of obligation to others.. I don't really live for myself anymore.
I am tormented by very, very dark thoughts. And sadly, due to my insurance, there is no one available to talk to (professionally) until well into the new year because of backlog/Covid/holidays.
I'm just trying to doggie-paddle through life at this point, hoping the waves don't crash over me again. Trying to keep my spouse informed just so he's aware, but I hate being a burden or making him worry.
So someone is nearby, watching out for me at least. But I'm tired of being tired and tired of the exhaustive strain this is.
This makes me so sad knowing you feel this way. I don't know you personally and I don't want you to feel like I feel sorry for you but no human being with a good heart should ever feel this way. I hope there's a turning point for you soon to start healing. The best thing you can do right now is just keep talking about how you feel even if its to us internet people. Many hugs ❤
I've avoided talking about it in large because I'm unsure how MFP views such topics as they can be erm.. triggering for people in the way that talking about EDNOS can be. It also just largely sounds like I'm whining when really, I'm struggling to figure out just why I feel the way I do.
I couldn't really explain it well to others; it's almost like I'm experiencing the emotions of another individual, that I am detached from myself and freely experiencing an overwhelming despair. Almost as though my mind is no longer its own.
I do appreciate everyone's support. I'm trying to remain afloat and do little things like a chore here, or remembering to actually eat, but that's about all I can muster at the moment.
It's just really, really rough to know that my mind does this for what I perceive as no discernible reason. Just brain chemistry, I suppose.
At this point you don't have anything to lose by calling a crisis hotline. With COVID staffing is up. Please give it a go. People who don't even know you personally care. Don't wait, this is a stressful time of year. Hugs, and may the new year bring good things.6 -
eatpolerepeat wrote: »
Never can be too much cheese2 -
snowflake954 wrote: »KosmosKitten wrote: »@KosmosKitten this is serious and I'm happy you can share here. Know, please, that you're not a burden to anyone. It sounds like more help and support is needed now.
A lot of places on North America are offering additional free telephone crisis counseling support, at the regional level, due to the pandemic's effects.
Can you see what's available in your region and reach out to them tonight?
I can see what's available. I wasn't aware they were offering tele-services outside of regular hours._sw33tp3a_11 wrote: »KosmosKitten wrote: »I don't think I'm getting better (sadly).
Everything is a struggle now.
Mentally, I'm sinking.
Physically, all I want to do is sleep.
I thought I did quite well given the year's circumstances and my own personal ones, but I guess I was wrong on that.
It was just waiting around the corner, like some demented parasite, come to infect me at the last possible moment.
I tried to cheer myself up and make cinnamon rolls (and did, finally) yesterday, but it has done nothing to help improve my mood. I can't work up the care to do anything creative or really take care of myself as I should. I only do things out of obligation to others.. I don't really live for myself anymore.
I am tormented by very, very dark thoughts. And sadly, due to my insurance, there is no one available to talk to (professionally) until well into the new year because of backlog/Covid/holidays.
I'm just trying to doggie-paddle through life at this point, hoping the waves don't crash over me again. Trying to keep my spouse informed just so he's aware, but I hate being a burden or making him worry.
So someone is nearby, watching out for me at least. But I'm tired of being tired and tired of the exhaustive strain this is.
This makes me so sad knowing you feel this way. I don't know you personally and I don't want you to feel like I feel sorry for you but no human being with a good heart should ever feel this way. I hope there's a turning point for you soon to start healing. The best thing you can do right now is just keep talking about how you feel even if its to us internet people. Many hugs ❤
I've avoided talking about it in large because I'm unsure how MFP views such topics as they can be erm.. triggering for people in the way that talking about EDNOS can be. It also just largely sounds like I'm whining when really, I'm struggling to figure out just why I feel the way I do.
I couldn't really explain it well to others; it's almost like I'm experiencing the emotions of another individual, that I am detached from myself and freely experiencing an overwhelming despair. Almost as though my mind is no longer its own.
I do appreciate everyone's support. I'm trying to remain afloat and do little things like a chore here, or remembering to actually eat, but that's about all I can muster at the moment.
It's just really, really rough to know that my mind does this for what I perceive as no discernible reason. Just brain chemistry, I suppose.
At this point you don't have anything to lose by calling a crisis hotline. With COVID staffing is up. Please give it a go. People who don't even know you personally care. Don't wait, this is a stressful time of year. Hugs, and may the new year bring good things.
And have you tried medications before. Sorry if you already addressed this. Sometimes when its just hormones or chemicals off it really helps get things under control. Its trial and error but with a shot.4 -
Kitty is going in to get fixed today and I'm nervous just because sometimes they don't wake up from anesthesia but I'm sure everything will be fine.
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What is on my mind at the moment??? I need more sleep .. I slept like crap last night!!!! Too much On my freaking mind and too much stress7
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PlentyofProtein00 wrote: »snowflake954 wrote: »KosmosKitten wrote: »@KosmosKitten this is serious and I'm happy you can share here. Know, please, that you're not a burden to anyone. It sounds like more help and support is needed now.
A lot of places on North America are offering additional free telephone crisis counseling support, at the regional level, due to the pandemic's effects.
Can you see what's available in your region and reach out to them tonight?
I can see what's available. I wasn't aware they were offering tele-services outside of regular hours._sw33tp3a_11 wrote: »KosmosKitten wrote: »I don't think I'm getting better (sadly).
Everything is a struggle now.
Mentally, I'm sinking.
Physically, all I want to do is sleep.
I thought I did quite well given the year's circumstances and my own personal ones, but I guess I was wrong on that.
It was just waiting around the corner, like some demented parasite, come to infect me at the last possible moment.
I tried to cheer myself up and make cinnamon rolls (and did, finally) yesterday, but it has done nothing to help improve my mood. I can't work up the care to do anything creative or really take care of myself as I should. I only do things out of obligation to others.. I don't really live for myself anymore.
I am tormented by very, very dark thoughts. And sadly, due to my insurance, there is no one available to talk to (professionally) until well into the new year because of backlog/Covid/holidays.
I'm just trying to doggie-paddle through life at this point, hoping the waves don't crash over me again. Trying to keep my spouse informed just so he's aware, but I hate being a burden or making him worry.
So someone is nearby, watching out for me at least. But I'm tired of being tired and tired of the exhaustive strain this is.
This makes me so sad knowing you feel this way. I don't know you personally and I don't want you to feel like I feel sorry for you but no human being with a good heart should ever feel this way. I hope there's a turning point for you soon to start healing. The best thing you can do right now is just keep talking about how you feel even if its to us internet people. Many hugs ❤
I've avoided talking about it in large because I'm unsure how MFP views such topics as they can be erm.. triggering for people in the way that talking about EDNOS can be. It also just largely sounds like I'm whining when really, I'm struggling to figure out just why I feel the way I do.
I couldn't really explain it well to others; it's almost like I'm experiencing the emotions of another individual, that I am detached from myself and freely experiencing an overwhelming despair. Almost as though my mind is no longer its own.
I do appreciate everyone's support. I'm trying to remain afloat and do little things like a chore here, or remembering to actually eat, but that's about all I can muster at the moment.
It's just really, really rough to know that my mind does this for what I perceive as no discernible reason. Just brain chemistry, I suppose.
At this point you don't have anything to lose by calling a crisis hotline. With COVID staffing is up. Please give it a go. People who don't even know you personally care. Don't wait, this is a stressful time of year. Hugs, and may the new year bring good things.
And have you tried medications before. Sorry if you already addressed this. Sometimes when its just hormones or chemicals off it really helps get things under control. Its trial and error but with a shot.
Multiple times, actually. Most end up being ineffective after about a year or so, even with an increase in dosage. Not sure why that is. Or they make me feel like a robot, which I don't consider to be an improvement.
For anxiety: It's not that they become less effective, it's that the side effects are awful (for me personally). One I couldn't feel anything below the waist (literally could not feel anything in my lady parts or the soles of my feet for like.. six months.. it was weird). The others I couldn't breathe right (which they warned me might happen). It was like having a permanent cold and I could only breathe through my mouth, which drove me nuts).
I am willing to give it another go, but man.. they're a rollercoaster ride in and of themselves.4 -
Yoshiboobs wrote: »Kitty is going in to get fixed today and I'm nervous just because sometimes they don't wake up from anesthesia but I'm sure everything will be fine.
I think kitty will be okay! It's been a hot minute since Binx was fixed at 2 months (shelter's choice, not mine), but he came through okay and was bouncing around like nothing happened in less than 24 hours! And clearly, he is doing just fine (look at this spoiled cat!).
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KosmosKitten wrote: »Yoshiboobs wrote: »Kitty is going in to get fixed today and I'm nervous just because sometimes they don't wake up from anesthesia but I'm sure everything will be fine.
I think kitty will be okay! It's been a hot minute since Binx was fixed at 2 months (shelter's choice, not mine), but he came through okay and was bouncing around like nothing happened in less than 24 hours! And clearly, he is doing just fine (look at this spoiled cat!).
Ya I felt like the males probably heal super fast. He was just so upset being in the pet carrier and I feel like a monster but it's for the best. Plus when he comes home we got him a bunch of premium can food so he might forgive us.
Binx is such a cutie 😻3 -
So one of my friends on here has the flu....thankfully not Covid. But it got me thinking, the flu season this year has been birtually non existent. While Covid spikes, flu disappears.....correlation? Maybe covid kills influenza? Maybe when we all have covid antibodies Covid will be the influenza vaccine?
Please dont take me serious.......5 -
Yoshiboobs wrote: »KosmosKitten wrote: »Yoshiboobs wrote: »Kitty is going in to get fixed today and I'm nervous just because sometimes they don't wake up from anesthesia but I'm sure everything will be fine.
I think kitty will be okay! It's been a hot minute since Binx was fixed at 2 months (shelter's choice, not mine), but he came through okay and was bouncing around like nothing happened in less than 24 hours! And clearly, he is doing just fine (look at this spoiled cat!).
Ya I felt like the males probably heal super fast. He was just so upset being in the pet carrier and I feel like a monster but it's for the best. Plus when he comes home we got him a bunch of premium can food so he might forgive us.
Binx is such a cutie 😻
I always feel terrible when I have to put them in their carriers. The mews of complaint! So sad..
Primo wet food + cat treats and/or a new toy and I bet you'll be forgiven.1 -
So one of my friends on here has the flu....thankfully not Covid. But it got me thinking, the flu season this year has been birtually non existent. While Covid spikes, flu disappears.....correlation? Maybe covid kills influenza? Maybe when we all have covid antibodies Covid will be the influenza vaccine?
Please dont take me serious.......
Looks like 2 people took you serious.
That was one of my observations this season so far. People might actually be staying home more when sick, like they should be.2 -
Yoshiboobs wrote: »Kitty is going in to get fixed today and I'm nervous just because sometimes they don't wake up from anesthesia but I'm sure everything will be fine.
It's normal to worry about our pets; I do the same with my dogs. I can't help it.
I bet she'll be fine and you'll have her back home before you know it. Hardest part is usually keeping any animal quiet after. She(he?)'ll be ready for extra cuddling.1 -
KosmosKitten wrote: »I don't think I'm getting better (sadly).
Everything is a struggle now.
Mentally, I'm sinking.
Physically, all I want to do is sleep.
I thought I did quite well given the year's circumstances and my own personal ones, but I guess I was wrong on that.
It was just waiting around the corner, like some demented parasite, come to infect me at the last possible moment.
I tried to cheer myself up and make cinnamon rolls (and did, finally) yesterday, but it has done nothing to help improve my mood. I can't work up the care to do anything creative or really take care of myself as I should. I only do things out of obligation to others.. I don't really live for myself anymore.
I am tormented by very, very dark thoughts. And sadly, due to my insurance, there is no one available to talk to (professionally) until well into the new year because of backlog/Covid/holidays.
I'm just trying to doggie-paddle through life at this point, hoping the waves don't crash over me again. Trying to keep my spouse informed just so he's aware, but I hate being a burden or making him worry.
So someone is nearby, watching out for me at least. But I'm tired of being tired and tired of the exhaustive strain this is.
Always been a big fan of yours ❤️...
Sorry you have to go through this right now...
But just as you made it through bright days, you've made it through dark nights as well... Better days are ahead ❤️...
But I know you're well aware of this... Just sharing my support to you ❤️... And bless you for sharing, you never know just who else your story may help and inspire ❤️
Happy holidays 💕8 -
So one of my friends on here has the flu....thankfully not Covid. But it got me thinking, the flu season this year has been birtually non existent. While Covid spikes, flu disappears.....correlation? Maybe covid kills influenza? Maybe when we all have covid antibodies Covid will be the influenza vaccine?
Please dont take me serious.......
Looks like 2 people took you serious.
That was one of my observations this season so far. People might actually be staying home more when sick, like they should be.
And honestly... If people were as diligent with the flu as they have been with covid, the prevalence would be down significantly.
"Stay home if you're sick" was a pipe dream when it was "just the flu" . The expectation was almost understood that unless you were dead, you'd be at work.
Now with masks, hand washing and social distancing... A lot of communicable diseases will naturally reduce in volumes.3
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