Depression - This is my story and this is why I am here

I am so sorry for the multitude of tragic events in your life lately. The good news??? You have control over some of it :-) I am so proud of you that you have choosen to start this journey. You will never regret this decision to choose you, your health and your fitness! Feel free to add me as a friend and we can do this together!

Thank you for sharing your story. That in itself takes strenght & courage. I am looking forward to you blog & wish you great success in your journey.

Thank you for sharing your story, it brought tears to my eyes. I will pray for your happiness and good life choices. I also am one that was divorced but not by my choice. Mine happened about 19 years ago and now I am a very happily divorced lady, but at the beginning it was very devastating. I also lost my mom 6 1/2 years ago to dementia which is a form of alzheimers. Luckily I had the Lord with me throughout all of this or who knows where I would be today. I have used food as a friend and companion for many years. I started this weight loss journey a year ago at 230 lbs. I am now at 177 and want to be at 140 to 150. I have been on a non losing streak for the past couple of months but that will change. I wish you luck in your journey.

Thank you so much for having the courage to share your story. I understand depression: it's what got me off my couch and on to a treadmill. And I understand Alzheimer's. It took my grandmother from me. Slowly. She was the kindest woman in the world and when she finally passed she was just an empty shell. I don't envy the road you are traveling with your mother. I miss my grandmother still. She's only been gone two years. But I'm sorry that she never got to know her great granddaughters. She loved children. You are very brave and very strong to start on this "adventure." (I say adventure because it's way more involved than journey.) Stay strong. Just think about the fact that your mom will be so proud- that she only wants the best for you and your happiness. You can do this.

Your story feels so similar to me in many ways thank you for sharing.

Sometimes its so hard to figure out why life is throwing all these horrible things at you at the same time.. The point is, you can't sit and let it get to you.. You need to get up and remember the good things and the reason you're there.

There is always a reason.. Your mother may be changing with the Alzeimers, but you can keep your memory of the wonderful person she was in your heart. The disease is changing her, so really the person their now is only part of your mother - the disease is the rest.. Comfort and help her as you can, but don't think that her love for you has changed or is different.. She's not really there.. It is such a cruel disease and more cruel for the family than the person..

Just remember, when your mother gave birth to you - what were her dreams for you, her beautiful new son?? Thats what she wants for you - the best of the best.. And you need to remember that everyday.. Strive to be the best that you can. Oh, you will fall and go the wrong way - but that just makes the journey that bit hard - never impossible..

Keep strong and remember - you are loved.. You seem to have a great famly. As much as you need them, they need you..

Best of luck for the future.. Keep your memories in your heart and think about the good things everyday!!

Sounds like you and I are kindred souls ... I've lived with clinical depression most of my life. I'm not on meds but probably should be, I would suggest you speak with a physician and maybe they can prescribe something for you. With my mother it was kidney disease. Watching her disintegrate before my eyes and the dialysis treatments were too much for me. My father had died some years earlier a chain-smoking alcoholic. The only main difference is that when my wife asked me for a divorce, I threw the biggest good-riddance party ever seen! What helps me a lot is a line from one of the old "Rocky" movies that when you get knocked down you have to get up, dust yourself off, and keep moving forward. Always keep moving forward should be your mantra. It helps me anyhow.

Wow. Firstly. I am sorry you're having to go through watching your mother deteriorate through Alzheimers. This is a very close subject to me as my other half's grandmother passed away from it in November 2009 and his grandfather also suffers with it and is in a specialized nursing home for it. It is very life altering and sad thing to watch anybody go through let alone somebody so close.
Secondly, I am very proud of you for realizing where you were going wrong and correcting the mistakes (Which are completely acceptable as I think everybody would agree!) that you have made!!

We're all here for all sorts of reasons, medical, cosmetic, depression, health, etc The most important part is that we all encourage each other and help each other through the tough times!!!

Confession; I comfort eat! I also suffer from depression, anxiety and panic disorder (reoccurring panic attacks) So hey! We'll help one another out huh!

You've got this far, you can keep going!
xxx

Very sorry to hear about your losses. The fact that you can talk about it, and have realized your own faults through it all, is a testament to your own strengths though. I think you will find that MFP will be one of the best social tools you can find to help you get your physical life back on track. There are lots of people on here that have come from similiar mental states, and physical states, and have fought the struggles that face you now. Each day, just keep getting up, and taking that first step and soon you will see that each new day is slightly easier than yesterday. Stay focused on doing this for you, stay strong, but remember to forgive your weaknesses when you need to. Good luck man, and keep us posted on your progress.

Good on you for taking charge of your life and making some changes. I understand a lot of what you've been through, my Nana suffered from Alzheimers for many years. She developed it after my grandad died, when I was five, and slowly deteriorated until she had to move into a home because she couldn't look after herself. But the time I was ten, she didn't know who me or my brother were anymore, and by a year later had forgotten who my Mum was and couldn't even hold a conversation with us anymore.

She eventually passed away when I was sixteen from a stroke, which came as a slight relief as she had seemed so distressed for so many years while suffering from the Alzheimers and had become dangerously thin from struggling to eat.

It's been ten years now since Nana passed away but I still have fond memories from when I was very young and she was still well.

I also understand what you've been through with depression. I suffered from depression six years ago, after my first relationship fell apart, and my best friend moved away to go to University. I didn't know how to deal with it at the time, and was in denial about what was happening as I thought people would think me a drama queen. After many months of not sleeping well and being severely unhappy, I managed to work through it with the help of good friends, and have learned to love life all the more for having had to go through depression for almost a year.

So yeah, don't lose hope and remember there are a lot of people on this site here to support you when things get tough.

Brother, I am sorry for everything. I cant even imagine what you have been through. You are a very strong person and will get through it. I believe in you. I can tell you this. Give this site a chance. There are so many amazing people on here that really care and will be there for you.

I myself have been through a great deal and was blessed with some amazing support from complete strangers who reached out to help because they have hearts of gold. Il keep you and your family in my prayers.

Also, I added you, im in Texas as well if you ever need a new friend. Take care and God bless you. If you ever need anything, just let me know.

Wow, life has thrown you some curve balls......so glad to see you finding your way again! Depression is a hard topic and a harder fight....thank you for sharing your story!

You know, the fact that you can be honest with yourself and others about your journey to "recovery" (which is what I call mine) just says how serious you are now. Once you can admit to yourself that you need to change, and then are determined to do so...THAT, my friend, is where the change happens. We're on similar paths, and I hope we can support and encourage each other along the way. You're doing GREAT so far! :-)

Wow - life really has been hitting your hard lately. But I love that you are hitting back! I admire your honesty and opening up here. We all have demons, so please know you are not alone. Gonna add you