Confession Time! ((ABSOLUTELY NO JUDGEMENT))
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Now I'm talking to myself
But as one last post...I for sure thought I was going to have gained at least 5 pounds this week but somehow I stayed the same weight! I'm so happy.
I'm going to ruin it today though since I had Starbucks (since it's my Friday) and I'm going to eat fast food for lunch while getting my oil changed. :-P
I will post more if anyone else is around but otherwise, hope everyone has a good weekend since I probably won't be around much after 11 (mountain time).0 -
I love me some bubble tea! A lot of people hate the tapioca, but I actually love the texture quite a bit.FluffySandwich wrote: »
Yesss. I was thinking just that. I'm dreading tomorrow because tomorrow I will be dreading Friday, which is when my appointment is
It is a distractor unit we use to help kids be more comfortable while we do our ultrasound exam or whatever they need. Working at a chilren's place is great. They are huge on keeping the kids calm and comfortable so they don't freak out on us. Of course sometimes, it just can't be helped.
What a great idea! Maybe @FluffySandwich and @saraherren can borrow it for their procedures?
I could probably watch that thing all day. Back in the day when I used to go to a laundromat, I was perfectly entertained watching clothes go round in the dryers.
I might go to the movie theater by myself at around 12 just to relax. And drink a lot of bubble tea or something.
Do! I think it'll help you relax (plus I remember we were about the only ones who liked bubble tea here so have some for me since I haven't had any in FOREVER!)
And my appointment is coming up tomorrow and I am getting so freaking nervous. Last night I panicked and tried to look up all these tricks on stopping anxiety from phobias, etc. Just reading about "needle phobia" made me get dizzy and I thought I had a decent chance of passing out in my chair. If anyone has any tips on BLOCKING OUT fears... easily (yeah right, this stuff can take year of therapy to get used to), I'm all ears.
I also read that this phobia is different than others in that it can actually make you pass out, when normally most fears elevate your blood pressure and heart rate, making it actually impossible to pass out even if you feel dizzy. This one makes your blood pressure rise and then drop, which can make you lose consciousness. I did pass out just by reading Dracula in class once, so I am quite sure I have the potential to pass out from anxiety on my WAY to the appointment just by thinking about what's in store for me
I just hope it ends quickly and she doesn't keep asking me if I'm ok every ten seconds.
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FluffySandwich wrote: »
I love me some bubble tea! A lot of people hate the tapioca, but I actually love the texture quite a bit.FluffySandwich wrote: »
Yesss. I was thinking just that. I'm dreading tomorrow because tomorrow I will be dreading Friday, which is when my appointment is
It is a distractor unit we use to help kids be more comfortable while we do our ultrasound exam or whatever they need. Working at a chilren's place is great. They are huge on keeping the kids calm and comfortable so they don't freak out on us. Of course sometimes, it just can't be helped.
What a great idea! Maybe @FluffySandwich and @saraherren can borrow it for their procedures?
I could probably watch that thing all day. Back in the day when I used to go to a laundromat, I was perfectly entertained watching clothes go round in the dryers. I might go to the movie theater by myself at around 12 just to relax. And drink a lot of bubble tea or something.
Do! I think it'll help you relax (plus I remember we were about the only ones who liked bubble tea here so have some for me since I haven't had any in FOREVER!)
And my appointment is coming up tomorrow and I am getting so freaking nervous. Last night I panicked and tried to look up all these tricks on stopping anxiety from phobias, etc. Just reading about "needle phobia" made me get dizzy and I thought I had a decent chance of passing out in my chair. If anyone has any tips on BLOCKING OUT fears... easily (yeah right, this stuff can take year of therapy to get used to), I'm all ears.
I also read that this phobia is different than others in that it can actually make you pass out, when normally most fears elevate your blood pressure and heart rate, making it actually impossible to pass out even if you feel dizzy. This one makes your blood pressure rise and then drop, which can make you lose consciousness. I did pass out just by reading Dracula in class once, so I am quite sure I have the potential to pass out from anxiety on my WAY to the appointment just by thinking about what's in store for me I just hope it ends quickly and she doesn't keep asking me if I'm ok every ten seconds.
Eeek, good luck!0 -
FluffySandwich wrote: »
I love me some bubble tea! A lot of people hate the tapioca, but I actually love the texture quite a bit.FluffySandwich wrote: »
Yesss. I was thinking just that. I'm dreading tomorrow because tomorrow I will be dreading Friday, which is when my appointment is
It is a distractor unit we use to help kids be more comfortable while we do our ultrasound exam or whatever they need. Working at a chilren's place is great. They are huge on keeping the kids calm and comfortable so they don't freak out on us. Of course sometimes, it just can't be helped.
What a great idea! Maybe @FluffySandwich and @saraherren can borrow it for their procedures?
I could probably watch that thing all day. Back in the day when I used to go to a laundromat, I was perfectly entertained watching clothes go round in the dryers. I might go to the movie theater by myself at around 12 just to relax. And drink a lot of bubble tea or something.
Do! I think it'll help you relax (plus I remember we were about the only ones who liked bubble tea here so have some for me since I haven't had any in FOREVER!)
And my appointment is coming up tomorrow and I am getting so freaking nervous. Last night I panicked and tried to look up all these tricks on stopping anxiety from phobias, etc. Just reading about "needle phobia" made me get dizzy and I thought I had a decent chance of passing out in my chair. If anyone has any tips on BLOCKING OUT fears... easily (yeah right, this stuff can take year of therapy to get used to), I'm all ears.
I also read that this phobia is different than others in that it can actually make you pass out, when normally most fears elevate your blood pressure and heart rate, making it actually impossible to pass out even if you feel dizzy. This one makes your blood pressure rise and then drop, which can make you lose consciousness. I did pass out just by reading Dracula in class once, so I am quite sure I have the potential to pass out from anxiety on my WAY to the appointment just by thinking about what's in store for me I just hope it ends quickly and she doesn't keep asking me if I'm ok every ten seconds.
All I can really recommend is distracting yourself as much as you can. Music, a book, call someone and talk about something else, anything. Good luck. I know dealing with phobias is tough because one part of your brain knows how crazy it is but you can't explain that to the other part that's panicking.
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Can you ask to lay down while they do it? That way if you do happen to get woozy you can be sure you won't fall or anything.FluffySandwich wrote: »
I love me some bubble tea! A lot of people hate the tapioca, but I actually love the texture quite a bit.FluffySandwich wrote: »
Yesss. I was thinking just that. I'm dreading tomorrow because tomorrow I will be dreading Friday, which is when my appointment is
It is a distractor unit we use to help kids be more comfortable while we do our ultrasound exam or whatever they need. Working at a chilren's place is great. They are huge on keeping the kids calm and comfortable so they don't freak out on us. Of course sometimes, it just can't be helped.
What a great idea! Maybe @FluffySandwich and @saraherren can borrow it for their procedures?
I could probably watch that thing all day. Back in the day when I used to go to a laundromat, I was perfectly entertained watching clothes go round in the dryers. I might go to the movie theater by myself at around 12 just to relax. And drink a lot of bubble tea or something.
Do! I think it'll help you relax (plus I remember we were about the only ones who liked bubble tea here so have some for me since I haven't had any in FOREVER!)
And my appointment is coming up tomorrow and I am getting so freaking nervous. Last night I panicked and tried to look up all these tricks on stopping anxiety from phobias, etc. Just reading about "needle phobia" made me get dizzy and I thought I had a decent chance of passing out in my chair. If anyone has any tips on BLOCKING OUT fears... easily (yeah right, this stuff can take year of therapy to get used to), I'm all ears.
I also read that this phobia is different than others in that it can actually make you pass out, when normally most fears elevate your blood pressure and heart rate, making it actually impossible to pass out even if you feel dizzy. This one makes your blood pressure rise and then drop, which can make you lose consciousness. I did pass out just by reading Dracula in class once, so I am quite sure I have the potential to pass out from anxiety on my WAY to the appointment just by thinking about what's in store for me I just hope it ends quickly and she doesn't keep asking me if I'm ok every ten seconds.
I really hope it goes ok for you. Hugs!!
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Not to make everyone sad, but I read this secret ages ago on Postsecret, and it really stayed with me. Although it would be hard to stay with a pet until the end, after reading this, I could never leave.
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Will anyone have any sympathy for me if I say that for the first time in my life I'm having trouble keeping weight on?
Since I've bumped up my exercise with the stairs etc and weights, I've been losing weight again, (slowly but still), although I feel like I'm eating so much more. I'm tracking and even going over what should be maintenance but it's still continuing to drop bit by bit. Eating is a chore at this point, which I never thought in a million years would even be possible.
I'm worried that it's rendering the exercise pointless if I'm not building muscle. I don't want to be putting in all this working-out, stair-climbing and strength-training effort for nothing so I'm kind of frustrated. And quite frankly, I don't really want to be any thinner at this point. My clothes are getting too big, there's an inch of empty space in my bra cups, and my rings are super loose.
I have never in my life felt bad for people who claim they can't gain weight (because how hard is it to just eat some more?!) but it turns out that the answer seems to be that it's a lot harder than I thought.0 -
MelissaPhippsFeagins wrote: »raelynnsmama52512 wrote: »raelynnsmama52512 wrote: »raelynnsmama52512 wrote: »Thank god I'm going to the doctor in a few minutes! I'm in so much pain right now it's literally making me sick! Everything from my lower back to my feet is just sharp, shooting pain, and I can barely walk. Damned (sorry Susie!)pinched nerves!
That sounds nightmarish! Hope the doctor can fix it quickly!
Won't be today. Someone screwed up my appointment and had me down for 9am as opposed to the 3:30 I had been told last month when I had to reschedule, so now I have to wait until tomorrow at 3 to see the doctor, I'm in so much pain I can't stand it, and I'm extremely pissed off right now. As bad as it sounds, my dad gave me something to hopefully help me get through tonight (he has the same problems I do) and until I can get to the doctor tomorrow. (Don't judge please, I know you aren't supposed to do that, but I don't know what else to do. Tylenol doesn't even touch it.)
Judge?? Never! I have a friend who has occasionally shared her Ativan with me.
Hope you found some relief from the pain!
Thanks. I think I might be able to get a little bit of sleep tonight, but I'm not sure. All I know is I'm in a lot of pain and hoping that after tomorrow I won't be, or either in less pain.
No judgment, but I do so hope that they can get you fixed up so that you don't have to do it often. I think I have the best doc on the planet. She'd have seen me and hissed at her staff for the mistake.
Thanks. I'm definitely going to say something about what happened when I go today. I have days where I can manage and then others like yesterday and today when it's just unbearable. I'm guessing I'm gonna have to breakdown and start getting injections since I refuse to allow anyone to operate on my back. I have narrowed canals in the vertebrae in my lower back as well as a bulging disk and nearly disintegrated disk, which is causing those nerves, especially my sciatic nerve to be pinched. I watched my Mema have multiple back surgeries for the same issues and they were of no help to her, so I refuse to have operations on my back. I'm just hoping I can get some relief today.0 -
orangesmartie wrote: »Susieq_1994 wrote: »pofoster21 wrote: »Susieq_1994 wrote: »spacequiztime wrote: »I saw the allergist yesterday. He thought my nasal cavities, throat, and ear canals were fine, but expressed concerns about the sounds my jaws were making. He told me my allergies were likely exaggerated by some issues with my jaw, maybe TMJ, and refereed me to a specialist.
MY SO probably has a similar issue. He's been having a lot of trouble with episodes of muffled hearing in one ear and takes an antihistamine daily, but the ear nose & throat specialist thinks it is a jaw problem rather than ear or sinus. He's supposed to see his dentist about getting a mouth guard thingy to wear at night.
I already wear a mouth guard thingy because I grind my teeth at night, so I'm a little too thrilled that he will have to wear one too. Really I'm hoping that it helps with his awful snoring.
Please let me know if this does work because Mr. Mo snores like a freight train carrying a pod of humpback whales using chainsaws.
Bahahaha! I'm lucky in the fact that both my husband and I are silent sleepers, I guess.
I sleep like the dead. No noise. No movement. And not much bothers me. I can sleep through alarms and loud noises and terrible storms.
This is my sister. I, on the other hand, am a VERY restless sleeper. I toss and turn like crazy, and the lightest sound can usually wake me up. It stinks, since I'd love to have uninterrupted sleep.
I know the feeling
Tomorrow is the day right? You'll be landing on our shores?
I fly out Friday night from Columbus and I'll grace the UK with my presence Saturday morning!! YAYYY!!0 -
orangesmartie wrote: »kelly_c_77 wrote: »Susieq_1994 wrote: »kelly_c_77 wrote: »orangesmartie wrote: »lilaclovebird wrote: »orangesmartie wrote: »
SSP told me yesterday that if he wants to(I don't know why anyone would WANT to) he can eat an entire giant Double Dave's Pizza... yuck!
I used to be able to eat a half a Papa Murphy's Family Size stuffed pizza by myself. Now, I can MAX 2 slices. *flexes muscles*
I'm not proud of this, but I used to (regularly) order and eat potato wedges, chicken strips, a large pizza and a tub of ice cream, from Pizza Hut. I always planned to eat the wedges and strips one night, and the pizza the next. never happened. and when pizzas were on bogoff, i used to order 2, planning to eat one, save one. nup, that never happened either. I am such a pig!
I'm not proud of myself...but I have days where I can eat the world. Like, disgustingly huge amounts of food. Not sure how it all fits in there...but yeah. Kinda gross.
Same here. Then, once the eat-the-world feeling wears off, I feel so disgustingly sick/full and my stomach feels like it wants to pop, and I wonder how I could have gotten to this point of fullness without feeling the discomfort beforehand. I have no idea how it happens! It's like my stomach goes numb for a while, then suddenly feels everything at once.
Yep, I know this feeling as well. Every time it happens I always think, this is awful and I will never do this again. And yet, it always happens again...
Yes! It reminds me of being young and stupid drinking too much, getting hung over and swearing to never drink again. But then what do you know, the next weekend...there you are again drinking.
I've been sober 8 months now...but I can't quit food
Well done! That is a brilliant achievement, you should be proud. I'm proud of you!
Thanks! I actually am very proud of myself! I don't think before this I ever made it more than 4 months!0 -
No @peleroja I do not feel bad for you, I will gladly give you some of mine
Kidding, I hope you get things figured out with your weight so you always stay healthy!
That's the issue right now - the last time I was at this weight my periods stopped. It's healthy per BMI (19.4) but I know that when I was this low before I wasn't feeling very healthy or happy. But short of eating cookie butter out of the jar or drinking a bottle of wine every night I'm eating as much as I want and to the point of uncomfortable fullness sometimes.0 -
orangesmartie wrote: »Susieq_1994 wrote: »pofoster21 wrote: »Susieq_1994 wrote: »spacequiztime wrote: »I saw the allergist yesterday. He thought my nasal cavities, throat, and ear canals were fine, but expressed concerns about the sounds my jaws were making. He told me my allergies were likely exaggerated by some issues with my jaw, maybe TMJ, and refereed me to a specialist.
MY SO probably has a similar issue. He's been having a lot of trouble with episodes of muffled hearing in one ear and takes an antihistamine daily, but the ear nose & throat specialist thinks it is a jaw problem rather than ear or sinus. He's supposed to see his dentist about getting a mouth guard thingy to wear at night.
I already wear a mouth guard thingy because I grind my teeth at night, so I'm a little too thrilled that he will have to wear one too. Really I'm hoping that it helps with his awful snoring.
Please let me know if this does work because Mr. Mo snores like a freight train carrying a pod of humpback whales using chainsaws.
Bahahaha! I'm lucky in the fact that both my husband and I are silent sleepers, I guess.
I sleep like the dead. No noise. No movement. And not much bothers me. I can sleep through alarms and loud noises and terrible storms.
This is my sister. I, on the other hand, am a VERY restless sleeper. I toss and turn like crazy, and the lightest sound can usually wake me up. It stinks, since I'd love to have uninterrupted sleep.
I know the feeling
Tomorrow is the day right? You'll be landing on our shores?
I fly out Friday night from Columbus and I'll grace the UK with my presence Saturday morning!! YAYYY!!
Yay!! I hope you have a great trip!!!!!!!0 -
Not to make everyone sad, but I read this secret ages ago on Postsecret, and it really stayed with me. Although it would be hard to stay with a pet until the end, after reading this, I could never leave.
I've always stayed. I'm Mama, and I am with them to the end, cuddling them until the vet officially pronounces them "gone".
I also have this weird notion that I have to pretend to be upbeat and cheerful because the dogs have always picked up on my emotions and I don't want them to feel my sadness. Although I guess I've never fooled them.Will anyone have any sympathy for me if I say that for the first time in my life I'm having trouble keeping weight on?
Since I've bumped up my exercise with the stairs etc and weights, I've been losing weight again, (slowly but still), although I feel like I'm eating so much more. I'm tracking and even going over what should be maintenance but it's still continuing to drop bit by bit. Eating is a chore at this point, which I never thought in a million years would even be possible.
I'm worried that it's rendering the exercise pointless if I'm not building muscle. I don't want to be putting in all this working-out, stair-climbing and strength-training effort for nothing so I'm kind of frustrated. And quite frankly, I don't really want to be any thinner at this point. My clothes are getting too big, there's an inch of empty space in my bra cups, and my rings are super loose.
I have never in my life felt bad for people who claim they can't gain weight (because how hard is it to just eat some more?!) but it turns out that the answer seems to be that it's a lot harder than I thought.
Loads of sympathy here, I'm having much the same issues.
Whereas I liked the idea of losing some BF and getting definition, I didn't want to lose flesh off my chest and face, which is where the loss is the most noticeable.
Last summer I dropped 5 lbs (that I didn't need to lose) because of taking hardcore antibiotics... I digested nothing for two weeks. Right after that I was on vacation and my physical activity increased significantly, plus my eating got a bit erratic just because of weird scheduling, and I only managed to gain 2 lbs back. Dedicated myself to lifting and eating higher protein in January, but it has still taken me a year to return to my normal weight.
I was hoping that building muscle would ADD some weight, not just shrink my boobs.0 -
Will anyone have any sympathy for me if I say that for the first time in my life I'm having trouble keeping weight on?
Since I've bumped up my exercise with the stairs etc and weights, I've been losing weight again, (slowly but still), although I feel like I'm eating so much more. I'm tracking and even going over what should be maintenance but it's still continuing to drop bit by bit. Eating is a chore at this point, which I never thought in a million years would even be possible.
I'm worried that it's rendering the exercise pointless if I'm not building muscle. I don't want to be putting in all this working-out, stair-climbing and strength-training effort for nothing so I'm kind of frustrated. And quite frankly, I don't really want to be any thinner at this point. My clothes are getting too big, there's an inch of empty space in my bra cups, and my rings are super loose.
I have never in my life felt bad for people who claim they can't gain weight (because how hard is it to just eat some more?!) but it turns out that the answer seems to be that it's a lot harder than I thought.
How do you feel about avocado? That's pretty calorie-dense. Also going full-fat on all dairy (if you're not) is a really easy way to add calories without too much bulk. Adding protein shakes also works, since that will help you build some muscle, as well as just add general calories, but it won't feel like SO MUCH eating.
ETA: Spelling is hard.0 -
Not to make everyone sad, but I read this secret ages ago on Postsecret, and it really stayed with me. Although it would be hard to stay with a pet until the end, after reading this, I could never leave.
I didn't stay with the first pet we ever put down..our cat, Bowie. I thought it would be too hard. I felt guilty every day after that...just imagining him there without his family. It still makes me so sad, even now as I type it.
When it was time last summer to put our dog Pacey down, I stayed the entire time until the very last few seconds. I didn't want my last view/memory (whatever you want to call it) of him to be after he passed/stopped breathing. But I held his paw and snuggled him the entire time up until the second before his last breath...and he stared right into my eyes the entire time. (I'm bawling right now typing this)...
Then just a few months later when our cat Steve had to be put down, I did the same thing.
It's still so hard to think about...but I feel much better knowing that I was there with them. Just still feel so bad about Bowie. If I could go back, I would. 0 -
FluffySandwich wrote: »
I love me some bubble tea! A lot of people hate the tapioca, but I actually love the texture quite a bit.FluffySandwich wrote: »
Yesss. I was thinking just that. I'm dreading tomorrow because tomorrow I will be dreading Friday, which is when my appointment is
It is a distractor unit we use to help kids be more comfortable while we do our ultrasound exam or whatever they need. Working at a chilren's place is great. They are huge on keeping the kids calm and comfortable so they don't freak out on us. Of course sometimes, it just can't be helped.
What a great idea! Maybe @FluffySandwich and @saraherren can borrow it for their procedures?
I could probably watch that thing all day. Back in the day when I used to go to a laundromat, I was perfectly entertained watching clothes go round in the dryers. I might go to the movie theater by myself at around 12 just to relax. And drink a lot of bubble tea or something.
Do! I think it'll help you relax (plus I remember we were about the only ones who liked bubble tea here so have some for me since I haven't had any in FOREVER!)
And my appointment is coming up tomorrow and I am getting so freaking nervous. Last night I panicked and tried to look up all these tricks on stopping anxiety from phobias, etc. Just reading about "needle phobia" made me get dizzy and I thought I had a decent chance of passing out in my chair. If anyone has any tips on BLOCKING OUT fears... easily (yeah right, this stuff can take year of therapy to get used to), I'm all ears.
I also read that this phobia is different than others in that it can actually make you pass out, when normally most fears elevate your blood pressure and heart rate, making it actually impossible to pass out even if you feel dizzy. This one makes your blood pressure rise and then drop, which can make you lose consciousness. I did pass out just by reading Dracula in class once, so I am quite sure I have the potential to pass out from anxiety on my WAY to the appointment just by thinking about what's in store for me I just hope it ends quickly and she doesn't keep asking me if I'm ok every ten seconds.
I can't really help with the anxiety about the needles (I have 7 tattoos - needles are clearly not my issue), but I can make a suggestion as someone from the bloodwork world!
Make sure you're hydrated (unless the doc has told you otherwise, of course!). The more hydrated you are, the easier it is to find your veins and the faster the whole process will go. That's one of the biggest things that we hear from our phlebotomists when they have a hard stick.
Most people doing the draw will also work with whatever YOU need them to do (within reason) as far as talking to you, not talking to you, etc. You passing out is probably going to make more paperwork for them, so they don't want that!
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Thank you guys for all of your support. I really appreciate it and I'm sorry if I come across as being whiny or pathetic. I will most definitely be asking them to lay me down, as I'm sure they don't want a cracked skull on their hands
It's weird- tattoos don't particularly scare me and I think I might be able to deal with getting one (don't want one at the moment, though)... it might be that I know they don't drill into your veins when they give you a tattoo. It's something about the veins that really contribute to my fear.CountessKitteh wrote: »FluffySandwich wrote: »
I love me some bubble tea! A lot of people hate the tapioca, but I actually love the texture quite a bit.FluffySandwich wrote: »
Yesss. I was thinking just that. I'm dreading tomorrow because tomorrow I will be dreading Friday, which is when my appointment is
It is a distractor unit we use to help kids be more comfortable while we do our ultrasound exam or whatever they need. Working at a chilren's place is great. They are huge on keeping the kids calm and comfortable so they don't freak out on us. Of course sometimes, it just can't be helped.
What a great idea! Maybe @FluffySandwich and @saraherren can borrow it for their procedures?
I could probably watch that thing all day. Back in the day when I used to go to a laundromat, I was perfectly entertained watching clothes go round in the dryers. I might go to the movie theater by myself at around 12 just to relax. And drink a lot of bubble tea or something.
Do! I think it'll help you relax (plus I remember we were about the only ones who liked bubble tea here so have some for me since I haven't had any in FOREVER!)
And my appointment is coming up tomorrow and I am getting so freaking nervous. Last night I panicked and tried to look up all these tricks on stopping anxiety from phobias, etc. Just reading about "needle phobia" made me get dizzy and I thought I had a decent chance of passing out in my chair. If anyone has any tips on BLOCKING OUT fears... easily (yeah right, this stuff can take year of therapy to get used to), I'm all ears.
I also read that this phobia is different than others in that it can actually make you pass out, when normally most fears elevate your blood pressure and heart rate, making it actually impossible to pass out even if you feel dizzy. This one makes your blood pressure rise and then drop, which can make you lose consciousness. I did pass out just by reading Dracula in class once, so I am quite sure I have the potential to pass out from anxiety on my WAY to the appointment just by thinking about what's in store for me I just hope it ends quickly and she doesn't keep asking me if I'm ok every ten seconds.
I can't really help with the anxiety about the needles (I have 7 tattoos - needles are clearly not my issue), but I can make a suggestion as someone from the bloodwork world!
Make sure you're hydrated (unless the doc has told you otherwise, of course!). The more hydrated you are, the easier it is to find your veins and the faster the whole process will go. That's one of the biggest things that we hear from our phlebotomists when they have a hard stick.
Most people doing the draw will also work with whatever YOU need them to do (within reason) as far as talking to you, not talking to you, etc. You passing out is probably going to make more paperwork for them, so they don't want that! Thanks for your advice, I probably wouldn't have bothered to keep myself hydrated if you hadn't told me! I have a problem with remembering to drink/eat sometimes when I'm very nervous.
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CountessKitteh wrote: »Will anyone have any sympathy for me if I say that for the first time in my life I'm having trouble keeping weight on?
Since I've bumped up my exercise with the stairs etc and weights, I've been losing weight again, (slowly but still), although I feel like I'm eating so much more. I'm tracking and even going over what should be maintenance but it's still continuing to drop bit by bit. Eating is a chore at this point, which I never thought in a million years would even be possible.
I'm worried that it's rendering the exercise pointless if I'm not building muscle. I don't want to be putting in all this working-out, stair-climbing and strength-training effort for nothing so I'm kind of frustrated. And quite frankly, I don't really want to be any thinner at this point. My clothes are getting too big, there's an inch of empty space in my bra cups, and my rings are super loose.
I have never in my life felt bad for people who claim they can't gain weight (because how hard is it to just eat some more?!) but it turns out that the answer seems to be that it's a lot harder than I thought.
How do you feel about avocado? That's pretty calorie-dense. Also going full-fat on all dairy (if you're not) is a really easy way to add calories without too much bulk. Adding protein shakes also works, since that will help you build some muscle, as well as just add general calories, but it won't feel like SO MUCH eating.
ETA: Spelling is hard.
I don't eat much dairy at all and shakes gross me out (because I hate milk and so the thick texture reminds me of it, I think...ick. I hate milkshakes and stuff too), which is why I've always stuck to protein bars instead, but it makes it tough because I know it would be easier to drink some calories. Avocado I like in guacamole etc but not so much alone, but could be worth trying to add.Will anyone have any sympathy for me if I say that for the first time in my life I'm having trouble keeping weight on?
Since I've bumped up my exercise with the stairs etc and weights, I've been losing weight again, (slowly but still), although I feel like I'm eating so much more. I'm tracking and even going over what should be maintenance but it's still continuing to drop bit by bit. Eating is a chore at this point, which I never thought in a million years would even be possible.
I'm worried that it's rendering the exercise pointless if I'm not building muscle. I don't want to be putting in all this working-out, stair-climbing and strength-training effort for nothing so I'm kind of frustrated. And quite frankly, I don't really want to be any thinner at this point. My clothes are getting too big, there's an inch of empty space in my bra cups, and my rings are super loose.
I have never in my life felt bad for people who claim they can't gain weight (because how hard is it to just eat some more?!) but it turns out that the answer seems to be that it's a lot harder than I thought.
Loads of sympathy here, I'm having much the same issues.
Whereas I liked the idea of losing some BF and getting definition, I didn't want to lose flesh off my chest and face, which is where the loss is the most noticeable.
Last summer I dropped 5 lbs (that I didn't need to lose) because of taking hardcore antibiotics... I digested nothing for two weeks. Right after that I was on vacation and my physical activity increased significantly, plus my eating got a bit erratic just because of weird scheduling, and I only managed to gain 2 lbs back. Dedicated myself to lifting and eating higher protein in January, but it has still taken me a year to return to my normal weight.
I was hoping that building muscle would ADD some weight, not just shrink my boobs.
Thanks for this - have you ever seen that quote by Catherine Deneuve where she said something like "There comes a time in every women's life where she has to choose between her behind and her face?", talking about the haggard-face thing when you get to a certain low weight? I'm still too young for it really to apply to my (very round) face but it certainly does to other parts of my body. I don't like when I can see my ribcage/sternum on my chest and I'm getting to that point. It looks delicate and feminine on some women, but on me it makes people ask if I'm okay and my friends pull me aside and threaten to force-feed me.
I just really want to get stronger and I know a calorie deficit isn't helping with that at this point.
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TigerNY128 wrote: »orangesmartie wrote: »Susieq_1994 wrote: »pofoster21 wrote: »Susieq_1994 wrote: »spacequiztime wrote: »I saw the allergist yesterday. He thought my nasal cavities, throat, and ear canals were fine, but expressed concerns about the sounds my jaws were making. He told me my allergies were likely exaggerated by some issues with my jaw, maybe TMJ, and refereed me to a specialist.
MY SO probably has a similar issue. He's been having a lot of trouble with episodes of muffled hearing in one ear and takes an antihistamine daily, but the ear nose & throat specialist thinks it is a jaw problem rather than ear or sinus. He's supposed to see his dentist about getting a mouth guard thingy to wear at night.
I already wear a mouth guard thingy because I grind my teeth at night, so I'm a little too thrilled that he will have to wear one too. Really I'm hoping that it helps with his awful snoring.
Please let me know if this does work because Mr. Mo snores like a freight train carrying a pod of humpback whales using chainsaws.
Bahahaha! I'm lucky in the fact that both my husband and I are silent sleepers, I guess.
I sleep like the dead. No noise. No movement. And not much bothers me. I can sleep through alarms and loud noises and terrible storms.
This is my sister. I, on the other hand, am a VERY restless sleeper. I toss and turn like crazy, and the lightest sound can usually wake me up. It stinks, since I'd love to have uninterrupted sleep.
I know the feeling
Tomorrow is the day right? You'll be landing on our shores?
I fly out Friday night from Columbus and I'll grace the UK with my presence Saturday morning!! YAYYY!!
Yay!! I hope you have a great trip!!!!!!!
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orangesmartie wrote: »Susieq_1994 wrote: »pofoster21 wrote: »Susieq_1994 wrote: »spacequiztime wrote: »I saw the allergist yesterday. He thought my nasal cavities, throat, and ear canals were fine, but expressed concerns about the sounds my jaws were making. He told me my allergies were likely exaggerated by some issues with my jaw, maybe TMJ, and refereed me to a specialist.
MY SO probably has a similar issue. He's been having a lot of trouble with episodes of muffled hearing in one ear and takes an antihistamine daily, but the ear nose & throat specialist thinks it is a jaw problem rather than ear or sinus. He's supposed to see his dentist about getting a mouth guard thingy to wear at night.
I already wear a mouth guard thingy because I grind my teeth at night, so I'm a little too thrilled that he will have to wear one too. Really I'm hoping that it helps with his awful snoring.
Please let me know if this does work because Mr. Mo snores like a freight train carrying a pod of humpback whales using chainsaws.
Bahahaha! I'm lucky in the fact that both my husband and I are silent sleepers, I guess.
I sleep like the dead. No noise. No movement. And not much bothers me. I can sleep through alarms and loud noises and terrible storms.
This is my sister. I, on the other hand, am a VERY restless sleeper. I toss and turn like crazy, and the lightest sound can usually wake me up. It stinks, since I'd love to have uninterrupted sleep.
I know the feeling
Tomorrow is the day right? You'll be landing on our shores?
I fly out Friday night from Columbus and I'll grace the UK with my presence Saturday morning!! YAYYY!!
I am so excited for you. You are going to have the best time!!!!0 -
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I like to think of this whenever my childhood cat that passed a few years ago pops into my head (linked because I think there was a swear in it)0 -
Now I'm talking to myself
But as one last post...I for sure thought I was going to have gained at least 5 pounds this week but somehow I stayed the same weight! I'm so happy.
I'm going to ruin it today though since I had Starbucks (since it's my Friday) and I'm going to eat fast food for lunch while getting my oil changed. :-P
I will post more if anyone else is around but otherwise, hope everyone has a good weekend since I probably won't be around much after 11 (mountain time).
Get skinny Starbucks, sugar free syrup, so not calorie intense, but same great taste
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No @peleroja I do not feel bad for you, I will gladly give you some of mine
Kidding, I hope you get things figured out with your weight so you always stay healthy!
That's the issue right now - the last time I was at this weight my periods stopped. It's healthy per BMI (19.4) but I know that when I was this low before I wasn't feeling very healthy or happy. But short of eating cookie butter out of the jar or drinking a bottle of wine every night I'm eating as much as I want and to the point of uncomfortable fullness sometimes.
Eat more calorie dense foods such as nuts cheese avocado
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Will anyone have any sympathy for me if I say that for the first time in my life I'm having trouble keeping weight on?
Since I've bumped up my exercise with the stairs etc and weights, I've been losing weight again, (slowly but still), although I feel like I'm eating so much more. I'm tracking and even going over what should be maintenance but it's still continuing to drop bit by bit. Eating is a chore at this point, which I never thought in a million years would even be possible.
I'm worried that it's rendering the exercise pointless if I'm not building muscle. I don't want to be putting in all this working-out, stair-climbing and strength-training effort for nothing so I'm kind of frustrated. And quite frankly, I don't really want to be any thinner at this point. My clothes are getting too big, there's an inch of empty space in my bra cups, and my rings are super loose.
I have never in my life felt bad for people who claim they can't gain weight (because how hard is it to just eat some more?!) but it turns out that the answer seems to be that it's a lot harder than I thought.
I did this for a while when I first started lifting. Now I fluctuate around in the same 5lb range. I can see the muscle definition developing so I don't much worry about the scale until it's health evaluation time at work. If my BMI isn't acceptable then, my insurance rates go up. I'll have to lose 5-7lbs in April for my May screening. but then I will eat ALL of the good and put it back. 0 -
raelynnsmama52512 wrote: »MelissaPhippsFeagins wrote: »raelynnsmama52512 wrote: »raelynnsmama52512 wrote: »raelynnsmama52512 wrote: »Thank god I'm going to the doctor in a few minutes! I'm in so much pain right now it's literally making me sick! Everything from my lower back to my feet is just sharp, shooting pain, and I can barely walk. Damned (sorry Susie!)pinched nerves!
That sounds nightmarish! Hope the doctor can fix it quickly!
Won't be today. Someone screwed up my appointment and had me down for 9am as opposed to the 3:30 I had been told last month when I had to reschedule, so now I have to wait until tomorrow at 3 to see the doctor, I'm in so much pain I can't stand it, and I'm extremely pissed off right now. As bad as it sounds, my dad gave me something to hopefully help me get through tonight (he has the same problems I do) and until I can get to the doctor tomorrow. (Don't judge please, I know you aren't supposed to do that, but I don't know what else to do. Tylenol doesn't even touch it.)
Judge?? Never! I have a friend who has occasionally shared her Ativan with me.
Hope you found some relief from the pain!
Thanks. I think I might be able to get a little bit of sleep tonight, but I'm not sure. All I know is I'm in a lot of pain and hoping that after tomorrow I won't be, or either in less pain.
No judgment, but I do so hope that they can get you fixed up so that you don't have to do it often. I think I have the best doc on the planet. She'd have seen me and hissed at her staff for the mistake.
Thanks. I'm definitely going to say something about what happened when I go today. I have days where I can manage and then others like yesterday and today when it's just unbearable. I'm guessing I'm gonna have to breakdown and start getting injections since I refuse to allow anyone to operate on my back. I have narrowed canals in the vertebrae in my lower back as well as a bulging disk and nearly disintegrated disk, which is causing those nerves, especially my sciatic nerve to be pinched. I watched my Mema have multiple back surgeries for the same issues and they were of no help to her, so I refuse to have operations on my back. I'm just hoping I can get some relief today.
I hope the injections work, but if they don't please reconsider surgery. We are much better at it than we used to be.
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@raelynnsmama52512 - please be gentle with back issues. @MelissaPhippsFeagins is right. Back surgeries these days are much better and some are much less invasive than they used to be. That being said, do plenty of research on the folks doing the surgeries and interview a few before deciding. I hope you are feeling better soon.0
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orangesmartie wrote: »kelly_c_77 wrote: »orangesmartie wrote: »Susieq_1994 wrote: »orangesmartie wrote: »Susieq_1994 wrote: »kelly_c_77 wrote: »orangesmartie wrote: »lilaclovebird wrote: »orangesmartie wrote: »
SSP told me yesterday that if he wants to(I don't know why anyone would WANT to) he can eat an entire giant Double Dave's Pizza... yuck!
I used to be able to eat a half a Papa Murphy's Family Size stuffed pizza by myself. Now, I can MAX 2 slices. *flexes muscles*
I'm not proud of this, but I used to (regularly) order and eat potato wedges, chicken strips, a large pizza and a tub of ice cream, from Pizza Hut. I always planned to eat the wedges and strips one night, and the pizza the next. never happened. and when pizzas were on bogoff, i used to order 2, planning to eat one, save one. nup, that never happened either. I am such a pig!
I'm not proud of myself...but I have days where I can eat the world. Like, disgustingly huge amounts of food. Not sure how it all fits in there...but yeah. Kinda gross.
Same here. Then, once the eat-the-world feeling wears off, I feel so disgustingly sick/full and my stomach feels like it wants to pop, and I wonder how I could have gotten to this point of fullness without feeling the discomfort beforehand. I have no idea how it happens! It's like my stomach goes numb for a while, then suddenly feels everything at once.
Yep that is definitely me!
I'm surprised that so many people can relate! I always feel so much guilt and self-disgust afterwards and all alone.
You're definitely not alone @Susieq_1994 although i know what you mean. I often feel that no one else could ever binge eat the way i do, the sheer quantities, probably because i feel such self disgust and i think everyone has better self control than me.
If it wasn't so embarrassing, I'd tell you guys the stuff that I have eaten in a sitting or over the course of a day...but seriously..it's BAD!!!!
But just know, that you guys are not alone!
More embarrassing that potato wedges, chicken strips, a large pizza and 500ml of icecream? and that was just dinner! I can't even recall what i might've eaten in the day
Or the days i used to eat a 1L tub of icecream, poured over with single cream. (just as a snack!)
@orangesmartie
I know when I was around 300 pounds I could eat a big Jethro bowl of ice cream piled high with either two or three brownies, two pieces of cake, or 10-12 homemade cookies.
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CountessKitteh wrote: »Will anyone have any sympathy for me if I say that for the first time in my life I'm having trouble keeping weight on?
Since I've bumped up my exercise with the stairs etc and weights, I've been losing weight again, (slowly but still), although I feel like I'm eating so much more. I'm tracking and even going over what should be maintenance but it's still continuing to drop bit by bit. Eating is a chore at this point, which I never thought in a million years would even be possible.
I'm worried that it's rendering the exercise pointless if I'm not building muscle. I don't want to be putting in all this working-out, stair-climbing and strength-training effort for nothing so I'm kind of frustrated. And quite frankly, I don't really want to be any thinner at this point. My clothes are getting too big, there's an inch of empty space in my bra cups, and my rings are super loose.
I have never in my life felt bad for people who claim they can't gain weight (because how hard is it to just eat some more?!) but it turns out that the answer seems to be that it's a lot harder than I thought.
How do you feel about avocado? That's pretty calorie-dense. Also going full-fat on all dairy (if you're not) is a really easy way to add calories without too much bulk. Adding protein shakes also works, since that will help you build some muscle, as well as just add general calories, but it won't feel like SO MUCH eating.
ETA: Spelling is hard.
I don't eat much dairy at all and shakes gross me out (because I hate milk and so the thick texture reminds me of it, I think...ick. I hate milkshakes and stuff too), which is why I've always stuck to protein bars instead, but it makes it tough because I know it would be easier to drink some calories. Avocado I like in guacamole etc but not so much alone, but could be worth trying to add.Will anyone have any sympathy for me if I say that for the first time in my life I'm having trouble keeping weight on?
Since I've bumped up my exercise with the stairs etc and weights, I've been losing weight again, (slowly but still), although I feel like I'm eating so much more. I'm tracking and even going over what should be maintenance but it's still continuing to drop bit by bit. Eating is a chore at this point, which I never thought in a million years would even be possible.
I'm worried that it's rendering the exercise pointless if I'm not building muscle. I don't want to be putting in all this working-out, stair-climbing and strength-training effort for nothing so I'm kind of frustrated. And quite frankly, I don't really want to be any thinner at this point. My clothes are getting too big, there's an inch of empty space in my bra cups, and my rings are super loose.
I have never in my life felt bad for people who claim they can't gain weight (because how hard is it to just eat some more?!) but it turns out that the answer seems to be that it's a lot harder than I thought.
Loads of sympathy here, I'm having much the same issues.
Whereas I liked the idea of losing some BF and getting definition, I didn't want to lose flesh off my chest and face, which is where the loss is the most noticeable.
Last summer I dropped 5 lbs (that I didn't need to lose) because of taking hardcore antibiotics... I digested nothing for two weeks. Right after that I was on vacation and my physical activity increased significantly, plus my eating got a bit erratic just because of weird scheduling, and I only managed to gain 2 lbs back. Dedicated myself to lifting and eating higher protein in January, but it has still taken me a year to return to my normal weight.
I was hoping that building muscle would ADD some weight, not just shrink my boobs.
Thanks for this - have you ever seen that quote by Catherine Deneuve where she said something like "There comes a time in every women's life where she has to choose between her behind and her face?", talking about the haggard-face thing when you get to a certain low weight? I'm still too young for it really to apply to my (very round) face but it certainly does to other parts of my body. I don't like when I can see my ribcage/sternum on my chest and I'm getting to that point. It looks delicate and feminine on some women, but on me it makes people ask if I'm okay and my friends pull me aside and threaten to force-feed me.
I just really want to get stronger and I know a calorie deficit isn't helping with that at this point.
Oh, yes, I've heard that one!
Unfortunately I inherited the family trait of facial thinning anyway and now I look pretty gaunt. I could post my plump-cheeked uni grad pic at age 24 beside my current face pic and you'd think I'd lost 50 lbs over the years, not gained 15.
I have that chest/sternum thing too. I call it my third ribcage, lol.
I think my biggest downfall is crappy logging. When I prepare my own food I have a handle on it, but when SO does the cooking or we eat out I'm guessing at my calorie intake. And I think I might be overestimating.0 -
I did this too! I would just grab some right off their plates when they went to the restroom.kellyjellybellyjelly wrote: »orangesmartie wrote: »kelly_c_77 wrote: »orangesmartie wrote: »Susieq_1994 wrote: »orangesmartie wrote: »Susieq_1994 wrote: »kelly_c_77 wrote: »orangesmartie wrote: »lilaclovebird wrote: »orangesmartie wrote: »
SSP told me yesterday that if he wants to(I don't know why anyone would WANT to) he can eat an entire giant Double Dave's Pizza... yuck!
I used to be able to eat a half a Papa Murphy's Family Size stuffed pizza by myself. Now, I can MAX 2 slices. *flexes muscles*
I'm not proud of this, but I used to (regularly) order and eat potato wedges, chicken strips, a large pizza and a tub of ice cream, from Pizza Hut. I always planned to eat the wedges and strips one night, and the pizza the next. never happened. and when pizzas were on bogoff, i used to order 2, planning to eat one, save one. nup, that never happened either. I am such a pig!
I'm not proud of myself...but I have days where I can eat the world. Like, disgustingly huge amounts of food. Not sure how it all fits in there...but yeah. Kinda gross.
Same here. Then, once the eat-the-world feeling wears off, I feel so disgustingly sick/full and my stomach feels like it wants to pop, and I wonder how I could have gotten to this point of fullness without feeling the discomfort beforehand. I have no idea how it happens! It's like my stomach goes numb for a while, then suddenly feels everything at once.
Yep that is definitely me!
I'm surprised that so many people can relate! I always feel so much guilt and self-disgust afterwards and all alone.
You're definitely not alone @Susieq_1994 although i know what you mean. I often feel that no one else could ever binge eat the way i do, the sheer quantities, probably because i feel such self disgust and i think everyone has better self control than me.
If it wasn't so embarrassing, I'd tell you guys the stuff that I have eaten in a sitting or over the course of a day...but seriously..it's BAD!!!!
But just know, that you guys are not alone!
More embarrassing that potato wedges, chicken strips, a large pizza and 500ml of icecream? and that was just dinner! I can't even recall what i might've eaten in the day
Or the days i used to eat a 1L tub of icecream, poured over with single cream. (just as a snack!)
@orangesmartie
I know when I was around 300 pounds I could eat a big Jethro bowl of ice cream piled high with either two or three brownies, two pieces of cake, or 10-12 homemade cookies.
I remember eating the leftover uneaten food on my mom or sister's plate when we would go out to eat to Perkins.
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