Confession Time! ((ABSOLUTELY NO JUDGEMENT))
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*post boyfriend update*
I honestly teared up reading this. I'm so sorry that you are going through this. You deserve the best and I can't believe that it went down the way it did.
My heart breaks for you. You have nothing to be embarrassed about or anything and I really hope you aren't putting up a wall around your heart. I know it hurts to love but I think that being able to love the way you do/did means you have a beautiful soul and there has to be someone out there who will appreciate that. HUGE HUGS!!! 0 -
Susieq_1994 wrote: »Confession: I'm all excited because I went for a walk with my husband (I've been doing daily walks to help with the sciatica pain, on the doctor's recommendation), and downloaded a free pedometer app before we left--I got 1600 steps on that one little walk! Also, he bought an ice cream bar at the store we ended up in, and I didn't get one because I already commited in the Fitbit thread to sticking to my calories. It's a small win, but I'll take it.
Do you guys think the scale will be nice to me tomorrow if I regale it with tales of my fabulous will power?
Good job on the walk and resisting ice cream! I know you'll get the fitbit!0 -
Italian_Buju wrote: »So I have now tried all the Quest bars I wanted to try.
Cookie dough, chocolate peanut butter and cookies and creme are my faves. White chocolate raspberry was good too. Not a single one was gross and I never felt like I had to choke one down. This is a new staple for me.
I'm so happy you liked all of them. I love the cookie ones too.
Try the cookies and cream one out of the freezer. Game changer. I will not eat them any other way from now on.
Uh oh. I've never heard or thought of that. Now I really want to buy one to try it.
I had never heard of it either, and it happened more by accident than anything. I left my QB in my lunch bag in the fridge at work all day, but I usually eat one on the way home after working out, so I ate it anyway. It was a really hot day and that cold dense bar was just what I needed. I will not eat the cookies and cream ones any other way from now on. Unless, of course I forget to stick it in the fridge.
If you DO try it, please let me know if you like it.
Oh, I WILL be trying it. Just gotta get the bar now. 0 -
donthegeek wrote: »donthegeek wrote: »Ok, confession time. My wife and I went out geocaching in the desert yesterday to get some steps and I got the truck stuck in an arroyo (back east it would be called a wash). Instead of getting in a workout, I banged my knee, and had to swallow my pride and ask my son to drive out and get me out of the sugar sand. I think I'm more embarrassed about getting stuck than the rest of the day but we went to Chili's for lunch (Ribs, Fries, Beer) and Freddy's for dinner (Patty Melt, Fries, and Frozen custard). Not only did we get stuck, but I ate things I shouldn't have eaten.
Lesson learned -> Getting stuck in the desert leads to overeating!
I'm unclear as to why these are things you shouldn't have eaten???
Individually, each meal would have been ok. What has bummed me out is the fact that it was so easy to go back to my old habits with just a little push from stress.
Now that I've got it out there, I can look at it and say - Don, pay attention and focus on the prize.
That's the spirit. Face it and move on.
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AngryViking1970 wrote: »I don't know what happened here, but all of a sudden I can access the boards again from work. I guess someone in IT figured out that MFP doesn't fall into the blocked category of "games".
So, we extracted 168 lbs of honey from the hives that had capped boards. That's not as much as we'd hoped; the wet weather really did a number on the bees' foraging.
But still, we're hopeful that they be able to draw more comb so we can harvest again in the fall. What we did get, though, looks really good. I can't tell you how it tastes, though, because honey is gross. LOL My husband and son love it, though.
Sounds yummy to me. I love honey.0 -
*post boyfriend update*
so that's the end of that.
after a solid month of seeing each other almost every. single. day. and him making the point to "be exclusive," dude decided that "i don't think that this is working for me."
i got about three hours of sleep last night, they weren't concurrent either. so apologies for the rambles.
first he said it was because *i* wanted too much commitment, to which i kindly reminded him that *he* was the one that wanted to be exclusive, then he just said that he wasn't sure if i was the *one* for him.
i do know that a lil more than a week ago, his ex-wife from six years ago reached out to him to try and rekindle things. he initially said he wasn't interested, maybe that changed?
or he simply just panicked and fled.
same end result.
i'd be lying if i said i wasn't devastated. and this is probably stupid of me too, but i really, honestly, thought he was the one for me. finally after all the horrors, and downright brutal treatment i endured both physically and emotionally...i thought it was actually my turn to be happy.
i'd also be lying if i said i wasn't furious with myself for allowing myself to get so involved and excited and be so foolish.
i should know better.
i do know better.
i think i'm just going to take a break from everything for a while.
my brain keeps flashing this lil image of a tiny hand setting a brick on a wall that's slowly being finished.
*ETA* can i also add how ridiculously embarrassed i am about all of this?
I am so sorry for your pain. Hugs...0 -
orangesmartie wrote: »HerkMeOff2 wrote: »I have ate at least 5000 calories today
tomorrow is a new day! (or today actually). Be kind to yourself. Do not say negative things to yourself. Do not tell yourself off. Move on and start fresh with your next meal. You got this.
Someone needs to listen to their own advice more often
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The only time I was ever happy with my body was when I was dying from anorexia. Every once in a while I could see my spine and rib cage and realized that wasn't right, but only for a split second. I was (am?) legit looney about my body image.
I don't remember ever being happy with my body image. I remember deciding after I got married and my daughter was born that my health was more important than my screwed up body image. I was in recovery when I got pregnant with her... the thought of the damage I could have done to her by not feeding myself properly sobered me right up.
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Finally caught up. I had SO much fun this weekend and I'm so sad it's over.
The concerts Friday and Saturday were amazing (there were a few problems with them-delay, pauses etc but overall everything was great). The weather held out for the most part. There was some lightning that I was getting worried about at about 1130 Saturday night. I didn't want them to have to cancel the rest of the show but thankfully it moved away from us finally. It was actually really cool to see the bolts of lightning with the lights and lasers from the show. I did sit in VIP for about half an hour just because I had the ticket and wanted to try and see how it was. I don't like crowds so we usually just chill in the back row. VIP was AWESOME though!
I put the jewels on my face and we all wore glowing stuff. We got a lot of compliments. My parents were able to use the two extra tickets I had and seemed to have fun too. My dad said it was like Wizard of Oz and Christmas on steroids haha. My mom said she had a lot of fun people watching (there were a lot of weird people to watch). The stage and lasers were awesome. I'm planning on putting some pictures up in the batcave when I get home. I also won a trivia game so I got a bracelet.
Yesterday was a day to relax. We swam and I put sunscreen on the areas I could reach and didn't really think much of it. Now my neck and back are burned.
My boyfriend and I got along so well. It was like the old days again. He stayed over a couple nights but we are still working on getting back to normal. The next time I probably see him will be Thursday for the therapy.
I'm so glad the weather was nice this weekend. Now we are under a flash flood warning. It's pouring here. Good timing.0 -
kelly_c_77 wrote: »orangesmartie wrote: »HerkMeOff2 wrote: »I have ate at least 5000 calories today
tomorrow is a new day! (or today actually). Be kind to yourself. Do not say negative things to yourself. Do not tell yourself off. Move on and start fresh with your next meal. You got this.
I am copying and pasting this to your wall RIGHT NOW!!!
I wish I could remember the advice you gave to that other poster a while back...
Haha - and apparently I'm not the only one to have noticed @orangesmartie0 -
*post boyfriend update*
so that's the end of that.
after a solid month of seeing each other almost every. single. day. and him making the point to "be exclusive," dude decided that "i don't think that this is working for me."
i got about three hours of sleep last night, they weren't concurrent either. so apologies for the rambles.
first he said it was because *i* wanted too much commitment, to which i kindly reminded him that *he* was the one that wanted to be exclusive, then he just said that he wasn't sure if i was the *one* for him.
i do know that a lil more than a week ago, his ex-wife from six years ago reached out to him to try and rekindle things. he initially said he wasn't interested, maybe that changed?
or he simply just panicked and fled.
same end result.
i'd be lying if i said i wasn't devastated. and this is probably stupid of me too, but i really, honestly, thought he was the one for me. finally after all the horrors, and downright brutal treatment i endured both physically and emotionally...i thought it was actually my turn to be happy.
i'd also be lying if i said i wasn't furious with myself for allowing myself to get so involved and excited and be so foolish.
i should know better.
i do know better.
i think i'm just going to take a break from everything for a while.
my brain keeps flashing this lil image of a tiny hand setting a brick on a wall that's slowly being finished.
*ETA* can i also add how ridiculously embarrassed i am about all of this?
((Hugs)) I'm so so sorry!!!
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orangesmartie wrote: »Morning all
Checking in, having a good day today, which makes for 5 good days in a row. Double bonus because I am at work today. I don't usually work Fridays, but am earning extra £££ for our holiday, so small sacrifice.
Had a lovely long walk along the river with @girldownsouth yesterday.
No plans for the weekend, beyond chilling out a bit, cooking a bit, swimming a bit, and chilling out a bit more. Which sounds wasteful of time off. But believe me it'll be such a welcome change from running round after a 2 year old every weekend.
I'm so glad you are doing okay/better.
I'm still jealous that you are able to walk with a fellow poster. Super jealous even!
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girldownsouth wrote: »I'm still working on getting caught up.
I went on a walk at lunch yesterday with a co-worker so that was good. I'm thinking about walking again today.
I have today and then half a day tomorrow for work so I'm in vacation mode already. This weekend I have my Red Rocks concerts so I'm really excited (Pretty Lights Friday and Saturday). Hopefully no one laughs at me since I'm older but I bought jewels for my face so I'm going to put those on and I have Glowbys for my hair (fiber optic glow barrettes for hair). I'm just going to have fun. I'll try to post a pic in the batcave from my phone later of my trial run of the jewels to see what you guys think.
Friday morning we are going to Original Pancake house. Strawberry waffles and home fries here I come. Yay.
Cool! I used to be a raver and did all the decked out gear at one time. I've been an EDM DJ for over 5 years. I remember when Pretty Lights was just an up-and-coming midliner. Now he headlines all of his shows. Do you by chance like Bassnectar? He is always doing shows at RR.
Yes, I actually like Bassnectar as well but I've never been to their concert yet (I'm determined though!-I need to just go, I need more money haha). This will be my 3rd year going to the Pretty Lights Red Rocks concerts so I'm really excited. I look forward to it every year. Tickets sell out so fast though.
That is awesome that you are an EDM DJ. We would get along pretty well. That's my favorite type of music. I'm kind of jealous, I always thought being a DJ would be pretty fun!
This is all very interesting... Froggy, I think that you should skip the counseling and find a new romance. A single guy, with similar interests, who doesn't snore...
I was thinking THE SAME THING @girldownsouth!!!
Well the good thing is my boyfriend and I have been getting along A LOT better (had a fun time at the concert and this weekend in general-I'll post more later when I'm caught up).
We do have our therapy appointment this Thursday. I have made it clear that if nothing changes I will leave though.
I am glad you're getting along better. But, you know, if not, keep our resident male in mind!0 -
Oh @KylerJaye I'm so, so sorry that you're hurting, and that he turned out to be an *kitten* after all. Please be kind to yourself - sounds like you did absolutely nothing wrong.
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So, house is clean, laundry is nearly caught up, dinner is in the oven, and I'm going to be under calories even with BBQ chicken, mashed potatoes, and green beans for dinner! I'm calling today a mini-win!
To put things in perspective, I struggle with completing tasks, I get so distracted by everything else and then get overwhelmed and say "screw it" and just stop. That's one of many reasons why I dropped out of school and have gone to college at least 7 times in the past 5 years. I've always been that way and always struggled, but no one ever seemed to take me seriously when I said I couldn't help it. It took me until now to realize I had ADD, and to get help. Thanks to hubby, who finally listened and realized I had a problem, I think I'm going to get better. I'll take these side effects if it means I can be a better wife, mom, and everything else!
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Froggy, glad you had a great weekend. It's lovely to hear you sounding so happy!0
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I think that's what she meant.girldownsouth wrote: »orangesmartie wrote: »Morning all
Checking in, having a good day today, which makes for 5 good days in a row. Double bonus because I am at work today. I don't usually work Fridays, but am earning extra £££ for our holiday, so small sacrifice.
Had a lovely long walk along the river with @girldownsouth yesterday.
No plans for the weekend, beyond chilling out a bit, cooking a bit, swimming a bit, and chilling out a bit more. Which sounds wasteful of time off. But believe me it'll be such a welcome change from running round after a 2 year old every weekend.
I'm so glad you are doing okay/better.
I'm still jealous that you are able to walk with a fellow poster. Super jealous even!
Especially because it's me...
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Ooh, that's still quite a haul. Where do you sell your honey? Does it have to be treated in any way before you can sell it?AngryViking1970 wrote: »I don't know what happened here, but all of a sudden I can access the boards again from work. I guess someone in IT figured out that MFP doesn't fall into the blocked category of "games".
So, we extracted 168 lbs of honey from the hives that had capped boards. That's not as much as we'd hoped; the wet weather really did a number on the bees' foraging. But still, we're hopeful that they be able to draw more comb so we can harvest again in the fall. What we did get, though, looks really good. I can't tell you how it tastes, though, because honey is gross. LOL My husband and son love it, though.
Glad you can access the forums again!
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*post boyfriend update*
so that's the end of that.
after a solid month of seeing each other almost every. single. day. and him making the point to "be exclusive," dude decided that "i don't think that this is working for me."
i got about three hours of sleep last night, they weren't concurrent either. so apologies for the rambles.
first he said it was because *i* wanted too much commitment, to which i kindly reminded him that *he* was the one that wanted to be exclusive, then he just said that he wasn't sure if i was the *one* for him.
i do know that a lil more than a week ago, his ex-wife from six years ago reached out to him to try and rekindle things. he initially said he wasn't interested, maybe that changed?
or he simply just panicked and fled.
same end result.
i'd be lying if i said i wasn't devastated. and this is probably stupid of me too, but i really, honestly, thought he was the one for me. finally after all the horrors, and downright brutal treatment i endured both physically and emotionally...i thought it was actually my turn to be happy.
i'd also be lying if i said i wasn't furious with myself for allowing myself to get so involved and excited and be so foolish.
i should know better.
i do know better.
i think i'm just going to take a break from everything for a while.
my brain keeps flashing this lil image of a tiny hand setting a brick on a wall that's slowly being finished.
*ETA* can i also add how ridiculously embarrassed i am about all of this?
Ugh ugh ugh. I'm so sorry this happened! Don't feel stupid, don't feel embarrassed. Take a break, sort yourself out, but do not let this make you think that that's it for you.
I know it's hard right now, but try to find something positive to take from the relationship. I went through something similar last spring. I KNEW he was the one, he made it seem like he felt the same way and then I got a text at 2 am saying it was over - and I never found out what changed, literally over night. For me, before that last relationship, I was convinced that I was never going to be in love with someone, never going to BE loved by someone, never feel that *spark*, never open up to anyone. But that relationship showed me that it CAN happen. I'm sad things didn't work out with him, but I tell myself that it can happen again. I realized that I can open up to people, and it's a wonderful feeling.
You are an amazing person and have so much to offer. And I firmly believe that if this didn't work out, then that just means something better is on its way.0 -
My cherry liqueur is just cherries and vodka. Later on some sugar gets added. Maybe I'll add some almond extract at that time and see what happens. Can only imagine good things.orangesmartie wrote: »pofoster21 wrote: »
Yes! I thought so when I read it, and forgot to mention it. I LOVE the cherry/almond combo. I have an Evans cherry tree (beautiful red, sour cherries) and I never know what to do with them all. I've already made cherry liqueur and there are still SO MANY cherries. I might make some jam/compote if I get a chance before they go bad, or before the birds get to them.pofoster21 wrote: »orangesmartie wrote: »In honour of @LBuehrle8 arriving in blighty today I have made meatloaf with roast potatoes and veg and a cherry and almond crumbleand custard, all from scratch
Sound fabulous (of course I couldn't eat the meatloaf.. but the cherry and almond crumble and custards sounds FABULOUS!)
Make cheesecake and put the cherry + cherry liqueur on it. Then invite me over for some!
And me. And put ground almonds in the biscuit base,
Also, bottle some cherries with vodka. Cherry vodka and lemonade is awesome.
In waitrose, they sell a bakewell vodka. I may have a bottle in my fridge.
Oooh and also, cherry ice cream. I have a recipe for that too. (alright, its Ben and Jerry's recipe. Its still awesome.)
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*post boyfriend update*
so that's the end of that.
after a solid month of seeing each other almost every. single. day. and him making the point to "be exclusive," dude decided that "i don't think that this is working for me."
i got about three hours of sleep last night, they weren't concurrent either. so apologies for the rambles.
first he said it was because *i* wanted too much commitment, to which i kindly reminded him that *he* was the one that wanted to be exclusive, then he just said that he wasn't sure if i was the *one* for him.
i do know that a lil more than a week ago, his ex-wife from six years ago reached out to him to try and rekindle things. he initially said he wasn't interested, maybe that changed?
or he simply just panicked and fled.
same end result.
i'd be lying if i said i wasn't devastated. and this is probably stupid of me too, but i really, honestly, thought he was the one for me. finally after all the horrors, and downright brutal treatment i endured both physically and emotionally...i thought it was actually my turn to be happy.
i'd also be lying if i said i wasn't furious with myself for allowing myself to get so involved and excited and be so foolish.
i should know better.
i do know better.
i think i'm just going to take a break from everything for a while.
my brain keeps flashing this lil image of a tiny hand setting a brick on a wall that's slowly being finished.
@KylerJaye, I'm SO sorry to hear this. I don't think you have anything to be embarrassed or ashamed of, you followed your heart and even though it didn't work out this time, doesn't mean it wont'. Take some time to grieve if that's what you need. Just remember, we're all here for you when you're ready to come back.
Also...
You're good enough
You're smart enough
And doggone it, people like you!
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kelly_c_77 wrote: »Out of embarrassment, I refuse to say how many slices I ate...but I also had greek salad and pasta salad!!!
Sounds like it was good! Did you see my old confession? Once I ate 17 slices of pizza...
It was a bet and I lost by like half a slice haha.
I missed that post somehow! But wow, that's impressive but also crazy that you lost!!!!0 -
I know I said advice isn't my thing, @KylerJaye, but I realized that this is kind of a subject I actually have some experience with, so I've just come back to say that when it comes to commitment, no matter what comes out of his mouth and no matter if he's the one that pushes it for it at first, it never, ever worked out for me with a man when he started saying/feeling that it was "too much". Every time it was a clear indication that he wasn't someone who was good for me or someone I should try to make things work with, because whether he's just "not ready" (barf) or "panicking because his feelings are too strong" (double barf) or he's just using it as an excuse because he wasn't that into it or wanted to get back with his ex or any number of other things, it's just one of those instant red flags that say that a healthy, functional relationship is NOT in the cards.
I'm not trying to get all zen on you here and say everything happens for a reason or whatever, but I am definitely saying that men who pull this particular maneuver are not going to be men you can have a normal, happy relationship with regardless. And at least he pulled it now and not six months from now...cold comfort, probably, but as someone who once spent 3.5 years with a guy I should have broken up with after he said something along these lines six months in, it's still a good thing you didn't waste any more than that with him IMO.
Even super awesome men are sometimes bad choices for long-term relationships, unfortunately. It's not a reason to give up on finding someone great if that's what you want, though. All the hugs, most seriously.0 -
I'm sorry things didn't work out @KylerJaye I second the sentiments that you are definitely good enough and don't take it personally, we all think you're great here!0
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Also, if it would make you feel better to hear about anyone else's awful exes, just say the word and I bet we can add some supremely cringeworthy stories to the Batcave thread. 0
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quiksylver296 wrote: »pofoster21 wrote: »quiksylver296 wrote: »I went through my friends list and deleted people that I've had no interaction with. 2 of these people I know in real life. What is the point of being friends with someone if they NEVER comment on anything you post?! I need interactive friends.
I'm interactive, I swear! Just busy!
And apparently a bit worried Mo will delete you!
Of course!
Never gonna happen, quik! I was even talking about you this weekend, referring to you as "my friend who lives in Iowa". I also mentioned @pofoster21, in regards to her taking us horseback riding and on a tour of NYC.
IDAHO!!!! BTW, Idahoans really love it when people do that. LOL 0 -
@KylerJaye, I already quoted Mo on your situation..but I also think @peleroja's 2nd post about it is perfect!
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*post boyfriend update*
so that's the end of that.
after a solid month of seeing each other almost every. single. day. and him making the point to "be exclusive," dude decided that "i don't think that this is working for me."
i got about three hours of sleep last night, they weren't concurrent either. so apologies for the rambles.
first he said it was because *i* wanted too much commitment, to which i kindly reminded him that *he* was the one that wanted to be exclusive, then he just said that he wasn't sure if i was the *one* for him.
i do know that a lil more than a week ago, his ex-wife from six years ago reached out to him to try and rekindle things. he initially said he wasn't interested, maybe that changed?
or he simply just panicked and fled.
same end result.
i'd be lying if i said i wasn't devastated. and this is probably stupid of me too, but i really, honestly, thought he was the one for me. finally after all the horrors, and downright brutal treatment i endured both physically and emotionally...i thought it was actually my turn to be happy.
i'd also be lying if i said i wasn't furious with myself for allowing myself to get so involved and excited and be so foolish.
i should know better.
i do know better.
i think i'm just going to take a break from everything for a while.
my brain keeps flashing this lil image of a tiny hand setting a brick on a wall that's slowly being finished.
*ETA* can i also add how ridiculously embarrassed i am about all of this?
Want me to take him out for ya? I know a guy.
That sucks hard. I'm so sorry.0 -
*post boyfriend update*
so that's the end of that.
after a solid month of seeing each other almost every. single. day. and him making the point to "be exclusive," dude decided that "i don't think that this is working for me."
i got about three hours of sleep last night, they weren't concurrent either. so apologies for the rambles.
first he said it was because *i* wanted too much commitment, to which i kindly reminded him that *he* was the one that wanted to be exclusive, then he just said that he wasn't sure if i was the *one* for him.
i do know that a lil more than a week ago, his ex-wife from six years ago reached out to him to try and rekindle things. he initially said he wasn't interested, maybe that changed?
or he simply just panicked and fled.
same end result.
i'd be lying if i said i wasn't devastated. and this is probably stupid of me too, but i really, honestly, thought he was the one for me. finally after all the horrors, and downright brutal treatment i endured both physically and emotionally...i thought it was actually my turn to be happy.
i'd also be lying if i said i wasn't furious with myself for allowing myself to get so involved and excited and be so foolish.
i should know better.
i do know better.
i think i'm just going to take a break from everything for a while.
my brain keeps flashing this lil image of a tiny hand setting a brick on a wall that's slowly being finished.
*ETA* can i also add how ridiculously embarrassed i am about all of this?
Oh @KylerJaye , I'm so SO sorry. My heart breaks for you. You have no reason to be embarrassed about allowing someone in...about hoping that this one might work out...about trusting and giving. It takes immense courage to hope, to love, to open yourself because the risk of hurt is high. Your bravery WILL be rewarded someday, even if the hurt is too much at this moment to consider anything else.
Hugs comin' atcha from Oregon.0 -
Gross/embarrassing confession: At least three times in the last week, the end of my belt has dropped into the toilet water. ARGH. I don't what I am doing different to make this happen.0
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