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Tonight I discovered the value of the food scale (I bought one after all these people on MFP kept insisting you have to have one).
I had an old gallon wine bottle filled with pennies. I wanted to pour them out and cash them in, but it looked like a major pain in the *kitten* to sit there and count them all.
I used my food scale to weigh $1.00. Then I weighed the bag. Then I weighed the rest and subtracted the bags. I divided the total by the weight of $1.00.
Took less than two minutes. Accurate down to a few cents (some of these pennies were ancient with strange crud on them). Tonight I took them to a coin kiosk in a local store and turned them into bills.
My wine jug had $40.03 worth of pennies and I found that out without counting them.
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FatToFitChaser wrote: »Just thinking about life. Is there really a purpose of it other then paying bills and dying or making kids to keep the so called family tree.
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FatToFitChaser wrote: »Just thinking about life. Is there really a purpose of it other then paying bills and dying or making kids to keep the so called family tree.
Sure there is. As many choices as one can imagine. Our flowcharts all differ. And, we all think about life's purpose from time to time. It's what keeps us growing & changing. Today's purpose may differ from yesterday's or tomorrow's.
Many yesterdays ago, I wanted to be a ballerina. A few tomorrows from now, I want to own a small home, have a small garden, a nice husband & 2 cats. Today, I just want a good night's sleep so I wake up in the morning & have an active mind, can take a 5-mi walk regardless of weather & send out a new bulk of CVs.
We all have "is it all worth it" days. They pass. It's the old dying off so the new can find room.
Have a great week.5 -
When traveling, I carry around a small, portable scale... it's the size of 2 CDs side by side. Today, it changed to giving me weight in stone, lol. I cannot change it. There are no buttons or knobs or instructions. (Yes, I'll google for them later.) But, fortunately, I can convert the measurement in my head. Well, I could this evening. Since I could never be accused of being awake in the morning, I fear I'll need to pull out my abacus at 8am, which fortunately, is also the size of 2 CDs side by side.
Good evening, All.
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Someone I can't forget even though they hurt me and have decided I am not worthwhile enough to be in their life. Our friendship/companionship/sexual liaison apparently meant more to me than it did them. I wish I could forget, but I find that I cannot. I dwell on the lost connection often.. as I do with so many others that have left, abandoned or hurt me (emotionally) in the past.
Why am I like this? Who knows.
P.S. The raccoon above me is quite charming. Super cute.5 -
CanesGalactica wrote: »Someone I can't forget even though they hurt me and have decided I am not worthwhile enough to be in their life. Our friendship/companionship/sexual liaison apparently meant more to me than it did them. I wish I could forget, but I find that I cannot. I dwell on the lost connection often.. as I do with so many others that have left, abandoned or hurt me (emotionally) in the past.
Why am I like this? Who knows.
P.S. The raccoon above me is quite charming. Super cute.
++ for raccoons. My childhood buddy had one as a pet, “Rambo.” He was cool.
I get the lost connections thing. I don’t connect with people easily so when I do and lose that, it takes me forever (if that’s even long enough) to let it go. It’s sucks. Sorry you’re wrestling with old memories
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Reckoner68 wrote: »CanesGalactica wrote: »Someone I can't forget even though they hurt me and have decided I am not worthwhile enough to be in their life. Our friendship/companionship/sexual liaison apparently meant more to me than it did them. I wish I could forget, but I find that I cannot. I dwell on the lost connection often.. as I do with so many others that have left, abandoned or hurt me (emotionally) in the past.
Why am I like this? Who knows.
P.S. The raccoon above me is quite charming. Super cute.
++ for raccoons. My childhood buddy had one as a pet, “Rambo.” He was cool.
I get the lost connections thing. I don’t connect with people easily so when I do and lose that, it takes me forever (if that’s even long enough) to let it go. It’s sucks. Sorry you’re wrestling with old memories
Yeah, it's been a few years since we last talked. I get why they avoid me, but it still hurts. It's like being slapped across the face and being told that you're pond scum or that you're a bad person somehow for being authentic for how you felt about someone.
I understand that from their perspective, I am avoided for their mental health as I could not provide what was needed, but still.. it kinda sucks. And that seems to be a pattern in my life regardless of what I try or how I may attempt to amend it. It all just.. falls apart.2 -
Camping
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CanesGalactica wrote: »Reckoner68 wrote: »CanesGalactica wrote: »Someone I can't forget even though they hurt me and have decided I am not worthwhile enough to be in their life. Our friendship/companionship/sexual liaison apparently meant more to me than it did them. I wish I could forget, but I find that I cannot. I dwell on the lost connection often.. as I do with so many others that have left, abandoned or hurt me (emotionally) in the past.
Why am I like this? Who knows.
P.S. The raccoon above me is quite charming. Super cute.
++ for raccoons. My childhood buddy had one as a pet, “Rambo.” He was cool.
I get the lost connections thing. I don’t connect with people easily so when I do and lose that, it takes me forever (if that’s even long enough) to let it go. It’s sucks. Sorry you’re wrestling with old memories
Yeah, it's been a few years since we last talked. I get why they avoid me, but it still hurts. It's like being slapped across the face and being told that you're pond scum or that you're a bad person somehow for being authentic for how you felt about someone.
I understand that from their perspective, I am avoided for their mental health as I could not provide what was needed, but still.. it kinda sucks. And that seems to be a pattern in my life regardless of what I try or how I may attempt to amend it. It all just.. falls apart.
A lot of my darkest days revolve around the realization of what knowing me “well” seems to do to people that get close to me. I try not to dwell on that aspect cause it’s a pretty deep and dark spiral that’s tough to get away from, but sometimes the thoughts go that route.
I tell myself that it isn’t true, even if it feels that way most times1 -
ArmyVeteranM1A1C wrote: »Camping
Beautiful 5th wheeler..0 -
slimgirljo15 wrote: »ArmyVeteranM1A1C wrote: »Camping
Beautiful 5th wheeler..
Thanks, my safe place
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Reckoner68 wrote: »CanesGalactica wrote: »Reckoner68 wrote: »CanesGalactica wrote: »Someone I can't forget even though they hurt me and have decided I am not worthwhile enough to be in their life. Our friendship/companionship/sexual liaison apparently meant more to me than it did them. I wish I could forget, but I find that I cannot. I dwell on the lost connection often.. as I do with so many others that have left, abandoned or hurt me (emotionally) in the past.
Why am I like this? Who knows.
P.S. The raccoon above me is quite charming. Super cute.
++ for raccoons. My childhood buddy had one as a pet, “Rambo.” He was cool.
I get the lost connections thing. I don’t connect with people easily so when I do and lose that, it takes me forever (if that’s even long enough) to let it go. It’s sucks. Sorry you’re wrestling with old memories
Yeah, it's been a few years since we last talked. I get why they avoid me, but it still hurts. It's like being slapped across the face and being told that you're pond scum or that you're a bad person somehow for being authentic for how you felt about someone.
I understand that from their perspective, I am avoided for their mental health as I could not provide what was needed, but still.. it kinda sucks. And that seems to be a pattern in my life regardless of what I try or how I may attempt to amend it. It all just.. falls apart.
A lot of my darkest days revolve around the realization of what knowing me “well” seems to do to people that get close to me. I try not to dwell on that aspect cause it’s a pretty deep and dark spiral that’s tough to get away from, but sometimes the thoughts go that route.
I tell myself that it isn’t true, even if it feels that way most times
What do you do when all your days are dark? There are never "light" days for me anymore. Haven't been since I was 18.0 -
Boomers, so glad that meme went mainstream.1
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CanesGalactica wrote: »Reckoner68 wrote: »CanesGalactica wrote: »Reckoner68 wrote: »CanesGalactica wrote: »Someone I can't forget even though they hurt me and have decided I am not worthwhile enough to be in their life. Our friendship/companionship/sexual liaison apparently meant more to me than it did them. I wish I could forget, but I find that I cannot. I dwell on the lost connection often.. as I do with so many others that have left, abandoned or hurt me (emotionally) in the past.
Why am I like this? Who knows.
P.S. The raccoon above me is quite charming. Super cute.
++ for raccoons. My childhood buddy had one as a pet, “Rambo.” He was cool.
I get the lost connections thing. I don’t connect with people easily so when I do and lose that, it takes me forever (if that’s even long enough) to let it go. It’s sucks. Sorry you’re wrestling with old memories
Yeah, it's been a few years since we last talked. I get why they avoid me, but it still hurts. It's like being slapped across the face and being told that you're pond scum or that you're a bad person somehow for being authentic for how you felt about someone.
I understand that from their perspective, I am avoided for their mental health as I could not provide what was needed, but still.. it kinda sucks. And that seems to be a pattern in my life regardless of what I try or how I may attempt to amend it. It all just.. falls apart.
A lot of my darkest days revolve around the realization of what knowing me “well” seems to do to people that get close to me. I try not to dwell on that aspect cause it’s a pretty deep and dark spiral that’s tough to get away from, but sometimes the thoughts go that route.
I tell myself that it isn’t true, even if it feels that way most times
What do you do when all your days are dark? There are never "light" days for me anymore. Haven't been since I was 18.
I don’t honestly know. I’m working with therapy and meds, even lookin into EMDR. Wish I had some good answers but it feels like I’m kinda finding my way through a dark maze with all of this. Been feeling pretty good lately which has been great, but this has been a good time for me every year for the past two or three and if traditions hold I’m gonna hate everything come January/February. I just keep trying, tho my own predilection toward sadness kinda works against me, too1 -
ArmyVeteranM1A1C wrote: »slimgirljo15 wrote: »ArmyVeteranM1A1C wrote: »Camping
Beautiful 5th wheeler..
Thanks, my safe place
I have a caravan that is mine 🙂1 -
Reckoner68 wrote: »CanesGalactica wrote: »Reckoner68 wrote: »CanesGalactica wrote: »Reckoner68 wrote: »CanesGalactica wrote: »Someone I can't forget even though they hurt me and have decided I am not worthwhile enough to be in their life. Our friendship/companionship/sexual liaison apparently meant more to me than it did them. I wish I could forget, but I find that I cannot. I dwell on the lost connection often.. as I do with so many others that have left, abandoned or hurt me (emotionally) in the past.
Why am I like this? Who knows.
P.S. The raccoon above me is quite charming. Super cute.
++ for raccoons. My childhood buddy had one as a pet, “Rambo.” He was cool.
I get the lost connections thing. I don’t connect with people easily so when I do and lose that, it takes me forever (if that’s even long enough) to let it go. It’s sucks. Sorry you’re wrestling with old memories
Yeah, it's been a few years since we last talked. I get why they avoid me, but it still hurts. It's like being slapped across the face and being told that you're pond scum or that you're a bad person somehow for being authentic for how you felt about someone.
I understand that from their perspective, I am avoided for their mental health as I could not provide what was needed, but still.. it kinda sucks. And that seems to be a pattern in my life regardless of what I try or how I may attempt to amend it. It all just.. falls apart.
A lot of my darkest days revolve around the realization of what knowing me “well” seems to do to people that get close to me. I try not to dwell on that aspect cause it’s a pretty deep and dark spiral that’s tough to get away from, but sometimes the thoughts go that route.
I tell myself that it isn’t true, even if it feels that way most times
What do you do when all your days are dark? There are never "light" days for me anymore. Haven't been since I was 18.
I don’t honestly know. I’m working with therapy and meds, even lookin into EMDR. Wish I had some good answers but it feels like I’m kinda finding my way through a dark maze with all of this. Been feeling pretty good lately which has been great, but this has been a good time for me every year for the past two or three and if traditions hold I’m gonna hate everything come January/February. I just keep trying, tho my own predilection toward sadness kinda works against me, too
Ah. Therapy never really worked for me. I have tried before.
Happy that it's working for you, though!
And yeah, it kinda seems like my "on" mode is permanently set to "sad".1 -
CanesGalactica wrote: »Reckoner68 wrote: »CanesGalactica wrote: »Reckoner68 wrote: »CanesGalactica wrote: »Reckoner68 wrote: »CanesGalactica wrote: »Someone I can't forget even though they hurt me and have decided I am not worthwhile enough to be in their life. Our friendship/companionship/sexual liaison apparently meant more to me than it did them. I wish I could forget, but I find that I cannot. I dwell on the lost connection often.. as I do with so many others that have left, abandoned or hurt me (emotionally) in the past.
Why am I like this? Who knows.
P.S. The raccoon above me is quite charming. Super cute.
++ for raccoons. My childhood buddy had one as a pet, “Rambo.” He was cool.
I get the lost connections thing. I don’t connect with people easily so when I do and lose that, it takes me forever (if that’s even long enough) to let it go. It’s sucks. Sorry you’re wrestling with old memories
Yeah, it's been a few years since we last talked. I get why they avoid me, but it still hurts. It's like being slapped across the face and being told that you're pond scum or that you're a bad person somehow for being authentic for how you felt about someone.
I understand that from their perspective, I am avoided for their mental health as I could not provide what was needed, but still.. it kinda sucks. And that seems to be a pattern in my life regardless of what I try or how I may attempt to amend it. It all just.. falls apart.
A lot of my darkest days revolve around the realization of what knowing me “well” seems to do to people that get close to me. I try not to dwell on that aspect cause it’s a pretty deep and dark spiral that’s tough to get away from, but sometimes the thoughts go that route.
I tell myself that it isn’t true, even if it feels that way most times
What do you do when all your days are dark? There are never "light" days for me anymore. Haven't been since I was 18.
I don’t honestly know. I’m working with therapy and meds, even lookin into EMDR. Wish I had some good answers but it feels like I’m kinda finding my way through a dark maze with all of this. Been feeling pretty good lately which has been great, but this has been a good time for me every year for the past two or three and if traditions hold I’m gonna hate everything come January/February. I just keep trying, tho my own predilection toward sadness kinda works against me, too
Ah. Therapy never really worked for me. I have tried before.
Happy that it's working for you, though!
And yeah, it kinda seems like my "on" mode is permanently set to "sad".
One of the most real epiphanies I had in the last twelve months wasrealizing I was addicted to sadness. I dunno if it’s cause I can “feel” it but there’s a draw to it. In small doses, it’s strange how it can make me feel good...but then if I sit there too long, it becomes overwhelming. Learning to live with that has been tough but illuminating2 -
Reckoner68 wrote: »CanesGalactica wrote: »Reckoner68 wrote: »CanesGalactica wrote: »Reckoner68 wrote: »CanesGalactica wrote: »Reckoner68 wrote: »CanesGalactica wrote: »Someone I can't forget even though they hurt me and have decided I am not worthwhile enough to be in their life. Our friendship/companionship/sexual liaison apparently meant more to me than it did them. I wish I could forget, but I find that I cannot. I dwell on the lost connection often.. as I do with so many others that have left, abandoned or hurt me (emotionally) in the past.
Why am I like this? Who knows.
P.S. The raccoon above me is quite charming. Super cute.
++ for raccoons. My childhood buddy had one as a pet, “Rambo.” He was cool.
I get the lost connections thing. I don’t connect with people easily so when I do and lose that, it takes me forever (if that’s even long enough) to let it go. It’s sucks. Sorry you’re wrestling with old memories
Yeah, it's been a few years since we last talked. I get why they avoid me, but it still hurts. It's like being slapped across the face and being told that you're pond scum or that you're a bad person somehow for being authentic for how you felt about someone.
I understand that from their perspective, I am avoided for their mental health as I could not provide what was needed, but still.. it kinda sucks. And that seems to be a pattern in my life regardless of what I try or how I may attempt to amend it. It all just.. falls apart.
A lot of my darkest days revolve around the realization of what knowing me “well” seems to do to people that get close to me. I try not to dwell on that aspect cause it’s a pretty deep and dark spiral that’s tough to get away from, but sometimes the thoughts go that route.
I tell myself that it isn’t true, even if it feels that way most times
What do you do when all your days are dark? There are never "light" days for me anymore. Haven't been since I was 18.
I don’t honestly know. I’m working with therapy and meds, even lookin into EMDR. Wish I had some good answers but it feels like I’m kinda finding my way through a dark maze with all of this. Been feeling pretty good lately which has been great, but this has been a good time for me every year for the past two or three and if traditions hold I’m gonna hate everything come January/February. I just keep trying, tho my own predilection toward sadness kinda works against me, too
Ah. Therapy never really worked for me. I have tried before.
Happy that it's working for you, though!
And yeah, it kinda seems like my "on" mode is permanently set to "sad".
One of the most real epiphanies I had in the last twelve months wasrealizing I was addicted to sadness. I dunno if it’s cause I can “feel” it but there’s a draw to it. In small doses, it’s strange how it can make me feel good...but then if I sit there too long, it becomes overwhelming. Learning to live with that has been tough but illuminating
I'm not addicted to it, but I just seem unable to escape it... if that makes sense at all.
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Reckoner68 wrote: »CanesGalactica wrote: »Reckoner68 wrote: »CanesGalactica wrote: »Reckoner68 wrote: »CanesGalactica wrote: »Reckoner68 wrote: »CanesGalactica wrote: »Someone I can't forget even though they hurt me and have decided I am not worthwhile enough to be in their life. Our friendship/companionship/sexual liaison apparently meant more to me than it did them. I wish I could forget, but I find that I cannot. I dwell on the lost connection often.. as I do with so many others that have left, abandoned or hurt me (emotionally) in the past.
Why am I like this? Who knows.
P.S. The raccoon above me is quite charming. Super cute.
++ for raccoons. My childhood buddy had one as a pet, “Rambo.” He was cool.
I get the lost connections thing. I don’t connect with people easily so when I do and lose that, it takes me forever (if that’s even long enough) to let it go. It’s sucks. Sorry you’re wrestling with old memories
Yeah, it's been a few years since we last talked. I get why they avoid me, but it still hurts. It's like being slapped across the face and being told that you're pond scum or that you're a bad person somehow for being authentic for how you felt about someone.
I understand that from their perspective, I am avoided for their mental health as I could not provide what was needed, but still.. it kinda sucks. And that seems to be a pattern in my life regardless of what I try or how I may attempt to amend it. It all just.. falls apart.
A lot of my darkest days revolve around the realization of what knowing me “well” seems to do to people that get close to me. I try not to dwell on that aspect cause it’s a pretty deep and dark spiral that’s tough to get away from, but sometimes the thoughts go that route.
I tell myself that it isn’t true, even if it feels that way most times
What do you do when all your days are dark? There are never "light" days for me anymore. Haven't been since I was 18.
I don’t honestly know. I’m working with therapy and meds, even lookin into EMDR. Wish I had some good answers but it feels like I’m kinda finding my way through a dark maze with all of this. Been feeling pretty good lately which has been great, but this has been a good time for me every year for the past two or three and if traditions hold I’m gonna hate everything come January/February. I just keep trying, tho my own predilection toward sadness kinda works against me, too
Ah. Therapy never really worked for me. I have tried before.
Happy that it's working for you, though!
And yeah, it kinda seems like my "on" mode is permanently set to "sad".
One of the most real epiphanies I had in the last twelve months wasrealizing I was addicted to sadness. I dunno if it’s cause I can “feel” it but there’s a draw to it. In small doses, it’s strange how it can make me feel good...but then if I sit there too long, it becomes overwhelming. Learning to live with that has been tough but illuminating
Do you find yourself listening to sad, depressing songs often?1 -
IslandGal3 wrote: »Lack of sleep. I'll be riding the struggle bus today.
My Dad wants to run errands. Somebody bring me a gallon of coffee.
Permission to come aboard your struggle bus? Running on 4 hours of sleep here
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