JUST FOR TODAY -- One Day at a Time .... Daily commitment thread for 2019
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@nimackay98 My condolences for the loss of your step dad. My step dad was an important man in my life too and really more of a grandfather to my kids than my dad.
@jacqui2494 I love gardening too. On days that I can't bear to go to the gym or go for a long walk I'll just go out into my garden with clippers in hand and an hour will fly by - it's good for my mental health.
@MLHC1 Love your hubby's comment, "I've noticed you're shrinking."
My appetite is back! Darn I thought I was just sticking to my food plan and it was working. I'll have to be careful about my meal selections. I love having a big dinner so making high protein nutritious breakfast and lunches allow me to enjoy a 500-600 calorie dinner with 2 glasses of wine. Eating a big breakfast for some reason makes me hungrier the rest of the day. I am really trying to eat whole fruits and vegetables and lean protein (eggs, chicken, fish) and avoid any bread, rice, added fat and processed foods.
JFT 4/22/19
Pre track day for 1500 calories
Make dinner in the morning
Do Range of Motion exercises 2-3X
Get out of the house and go for a mini walk on a local flat trail
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lafayettenana wrote: »@MLHC1 Love your hubby's comment, "I've noticed you're shrinking."
My appetite is back! Darn I thought I was just sticking to my food plan and it was working. I'll have to be careful about my meal selections. I love having a big dinner so making high protein nutritious breakfast and lunches allow me to enjoy a 500-600 calorie dinner with 2 glasses of wine. Eating a big breakfast for some reason makes me hungrier the rest of the day. I am really trying to eat whole fruits and vegetables and lean protein (eggs, chicken, fish) and avoid any bread, rice, added fat and processed foods.
Thxs, Lol!
By eating a nutritious breakfast, you kick-start your metabolism! This allows you to burn energy properly which is where the motto "breakfast is the most important meal of the day" comes from. This information came straight from my doctor. 😁
On the flip side, large dinners tend to be stored. But I'm with ya on the wine, I love having a glass at the end of the day. However I was pregnant / breastfeeding for the last 2 years so I've been drinking bedtime tea instead. I plan to just stick with the tea now.
Keep up the great work and stay strong!!🤩2 -
JFT - Tuesday May 21 - Determined
2.5L of water - Did get 2 in
Calories in green -
Walk 1 Mile -
Squats - 20
5 Fruits and Veggies - 1/5
Only 1 evening Snack -
5 something at bathroom break -
Something on commercials -
Write in Journal -
Do not disappoint myself, be conscious of my choices -
JFT - Wednesday May 22 - Determined
2.5L of water
Calories in green
Walk 1 Mile
Squats
5 Fruits and Veggies
Only 1 evening Snack
5 something at bathroom break
Something on commercials
Write in Journal
Do not disappoint myself, be conscious of my choices
I don't know what was wrong with my yesterday, I had no energy whatsoever and was starving all day. I had a two hour nap late in the afternoon and didn't feel like cooking when I woke up so went and bought McDonald's for supper. It was awful, I didn't even log everything I ate.
Not surprisingly after a weekend of no tracking and only sitting and then yesterday my weight is up a bit today. It looks like a nice day though so I think I'll be able to get a walk in.
We are keeping Michaela overnight tonight so that Lauryn can pick a shift up early tomorrow without having to worry about getting Jonah to school and getting her here. I will have to go pick Jonah up from school tomorrow.
I'm going to catch up on the posts, make some breakfast and then clean. If I'm done that early enough, I think I may go for a walk early this afternoon.
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@bookmeister86 - I am originally from the only bilingual province in Canada and had to learn French in school. It was not my favourite subject and I struggled immensely with it. I don't speak it at all, but I always test myself when I see it written to see what I remember. I think you are studying French because your partner is French and you want to speak to his family. You also want to know something about wine and cheese and you want to be prepared just in case. You are doing a great job learning French.
@jacqui2494 - What part of Australia are you in?
@korina75 - I love your mantra, that is what I have been living for the last year. Just because I had a bad day, or week doesn't mean I should give up, it just means keep trying.
@MLHC1 - Congrats on the 10lb Loss, I was so excited when I lost the first 20 and have been wishing for the next 10 to go. Maybe if I start doing instead of wishing it will. 10 can make a big difference depending on your perspective. I'm happy for you that your husband noticed.
@lafayettenana - I am right there with you on the appetite being back. I try to have a breakfast of some kind that includes protein too.
@Bex953172, @mytime6630 - I hope you are both doing ok.2 -
Well it's not lactose intolerance. Apparently he was misdiagnosed as a youth and never suffered from it. The tests say so. But diary makes him sick... It always has....Idk...
He has an appointment to get blood tests done tomorrow and he'll pick up the stuff for his urine test then too.
I'm just tired.8 -
Ongoing Goals
1. Rake up more magnolia leaves
2. Declutter mudroom
3. Declutter spare bedroom
4. Store away spare bed linens
5. Laundry in basement
6. Hyundai being picked up Weds 5/29 - get title and keys
7. Pick up dress Fri 5/24
8. Sign/return HMUA contract
9. Hearty annuals for planters under deck
10. Pick up sticks under wisteria arbor
11. Scoop leaves out of frog pond
12. Cut plywood for tabletop
13. Tablecloths for ceremony table/grill/snack table
14. Snack/drink table decor mock up
15. Apply for marriage license
16. Finalize ceremony
17. Photography timeline
18. Call Inn with questions re: music/decor/ceremony space plan b
19. Nail appointment
20. Facial Friday 5/24 10:30AM
21. Check HPT stock at home
JFT Tues
1. WATERS NOW!!! Got so busy at the pool store I didnt stop for 3 hours, tis the season
2. Log all food
3. Eat packed lunch
4. Cook dinner at home - quesadillas?
5. Be kind
6. Empty dishwasher
7. Bed by 9:30
JFT Wednesday
1. Log all food
2. Waters NOW
3. Eat packed lunch
4. Cook dinner at home
5. Two from to-do list; HMUA Contract and hyundai keys/title
6. Vitamin Shoppe/Mall on lunch break
7. Call bridal shop for Friday appointment
8. More water!
9. Review this list later
10. Bed by 9:30
@Snowflake1968 Wedding is June 22 - so ONE MONTH FROM TODAY!!! AHHHH!!!
@HEGoddard0928 you and Matt have been in my thoughts. Sorry this season has been tough for you guys sending you so many hugs!4 -
HEGoddard0928 wrote: »Well it's not lactose intolerance. Apparently he was misdiagnosed as a youth and never suffered from it. The tests say so. But diary makes him sick... It always has....Idk...
He has an appointment to get blood tests done tomorrow and he'll pick up the stuff for his urine test then too.
I'm just tired.
Youre almost there! The end of a marathon! Youre so close to the answer of his problems and how to sort it, so hang in there! Done trip on the last hurdle!
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This is the first day in a long time where I haven’t managed to log on until the afternoon. The morning was hectic but I have got everything done on my mental list so far so time to post some belated goals!
Tuesday goals recap:
- morning run ✅ yay 10 miles!
- pack snacks and schoolbags ✅
- check school trip situation ✅
- reports work? ✅
- home lunchtime for car and shake ✅
- errands after work - get fuel for car ✅
- kids’ homework and hair wash ✅
- bed by 9:30 ❎ no, up late working 😩
Wednesday goals:
- morning workout ✅
- Pack snacks and schoolbags ✅
- Remember class photo day (wear something nice and do hair 😉) ✅
- Early to work, pick up German snacks for geography lesson ✅
- Sort kids for class trip ✅
- Home lunchtime for car and shake ✅
- Reports drafts x3 to boss ✅
- Check handover ✅
- Leave by 4:10 to pick up kids ✅
- Help L pack for school camp-out
- Piano lesson for kids and prep dinner for straight after
- Pack kit for warrior class
- Check train tickets for tomorrow
- Bed by 9:30
Catch up with you all later. Tomorrow I’m off work as I’m heading to an appointmebr with a psychologist, which is required before you can go ahead with preventative breast cancer surgery. A bit nervous but hopefully it will help with it all. X4 -
@Faebert. I hope tomorrow's appointment is helpful and that you have the necessary information and support for whatever comes next.3
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Hi everyone, I haven't been about much but I've still been making mental goals. And missing them
I'm back on it now and I'm determined to stay on it. I've put 2lb on since my last post and I know it's because I've hardly done any of my exercises and I didn't hit step target for every day either. I'm not blaming the donuts or
I'm behind by about 30 pages so I'll just sneak in if that's ok and start afresh.
JFT 2/5 Thursday
1. Log all food & drink
2. Stay under calorie target
3. Take at least 5500 steps
4. Stay focused and have fun
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Wednesday 22 May
I read posts this morning but forgot to post my own goals!
Log accurately
Stay in the green
5 fruit and veg
Fitbit excercise goals
Jan challenge think so but not good with my logging
Feb challenge
Mar challenge 4 miles admiring the views
Apr challenge my flight south has been cancelled and I am staying on Skye for another 2 weeks!
May challenge not good at this one!
Yesterday's sloth did not do too much harm. No early swim today, we overslept so it's on the plan for tomorrow!3 -
JFT 5/22 Recap:
30 minutes yoga Did 10 minutes
30 minutes running Plus a 20 minute walk!
log all food & stay in green Going to book club but my plan is to have tea after yesterday's bad day
Drink more water -Fill bottle at least twice Didn't exactly fill it twice but drank so much water I'm calling it a win
Choose healthy at lunch out
Meditation x 3 (one minute breathing exercises) Did 1
Heading out to book club but not planning on over indulging. Keeping myself honest on here!3 -
@Snowflake1968 I’m in Brisbane. Australia’s best kept secret. We have delightful weather particularly in the winter. Warm sunny days and cold nights. We have over 2000 kms of dedicated cycle ways and walking paths particularly along the river. No excuses here for not exercising.
I find the hardest part of exercise of any kind is getting started.
1. Logged food ✅
2. Exercised for 45 minutes ✅ mix of walking, stretching and body weight exercise
3. Stayed in the green zone ✅
4. Planned meals ✅
5. Picked up garden leaves ✅
6. Eat after dinner 😡
23rd May
1. Log food
2. Healthy choices when out to lunch
3. Pick up more garden stuff
4. Do laundry
5. Plan dinner
6. Stay in green
7. Exercise in afternoon at least 40 minutes up some hills.
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Slept though alarm this am for the first time in years (I usually wake up at least 15 minutes before it goes off). No morning walk and had lunch meeting, so I figured I would not make my goal of 60 minutes intentional walking. Was raining off and on when I got home from work, but really wanted to walk outside. Put one my rain gear (told myself to at least try for part of the goal). Had a lovely 62 minute walk around the neighborhood (when I was within 15 minutes, I just had to get it). That happened only because I wanted to meet my goal and I figured it was what a committed person would do. Anyway,
Wednesday May 22, 2019
Log Accurately-
60 minutes walking-
Trash to the curb-
Continue Desk work/file clean out at office-
Buy salad stuff for church dinner and prep-
Thursday, May 23
Log Accurately
60 minutes intentional walking
Productive work day
Enjoy choir dinner
Be careful of emotions
May 23 was wedding anniversary, would have been married 33 years. For some reason, this day can be tougher than the actual anniversary of my husband's death. If I do get overwhelmed, I can take off work. Hoping it won't hit too hard.
Good luck to all trying to meet goals. Not meeting them for one day is not the end of the world, we just have to keep trying.
Ginny7 -
I've been dipping into the snacks at work lately which adds up. Last sundays exercise has my hip still hurting so think will probably have to get it replaced over the winter break. I have been in denial about it getting worse. And in denial about how much it is probably affected by weight.
tomorrow:
NO SNACKS2 -
Yesterday's commitments:
- Log everything I eat
- Stick to food plan
- Be in the green with a 250+ deficit
- 4 bottles water 3.5
- No alcohol
- Run to work
- No eating whilst standing
- Savour every bite
- Talk back to sabotaging thoughts
- Give myself credit!
- Stay positive
- 45+ minute lunch break
- French vocab (new + practise)
- French podcast
- Talk to boyfriend in French
- Duolingo
- Finish work at 5pm
- Practice presentation before class
- Pack suitcase for long weekend
- Gratitude journal There's always something left undone isn't there?!
Today's commitments:
- Log everything I eat
- Stick to food plan
- 3+ bottles water
- No eating whilst standing
- Savour every bite
- Talk back to sabotaging thoughts
- Give myself credit!
- Stay positive
- 45+ minute lunch break
- French vocab (new + practise)
- French verbs (practise)
- French podcast
- French reading
- Talk to boyfriend in French
- Duolingo
- Leave work by 6.45pm
Weekly calorie balance: 140 in the GREEN
Today's positive thought: I'm off to see my mum today!
Words for 2019: Mindful Moderation
How I will exercise mindful moderation today: By sticking to my plan and allowing myself ONE G&T on the train home. And not buying any snacks, so that I can have a dark KitKat from my mum's massive stash when I get home
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Morning all. Sat on my train ready to set off on the two-hour journey up to see the breast team’s psychologist.
Had a rough night last night. I’ve realised just how much fitness has become part of my identity in the last couple of years, especially since the break-up of my marriage. It’s how I fill my spare time and a huge part of my self-esteem and mental health. The idea of being forced to stop post op scares the hell out of me. Mostly because I’m not sure what else I have in my life that brings me the same fulfilment. Of course my children and my job, but when the work day is done and the kids are in bed or with their dad and I’m on my own again, what is there?! Friends and family already think I do too much so I can’t share my fears with them. But they simply can’t understand how it feels to have gone from the unathletic chubby girl to someone who feels fit and strong and is now terrified that it was all a lie and this will send me back to how I was!
I’m sorry for venting in this way, but it helps to write it down as I really don’t feel like I can talk to anyone in real life. I guess all I can do for now is be honest in the appointment and focus on one day at a time. So, goals...
Wednesday goals recap:
- morning workout ✅
- Pack snacks and schoolbags ✅
- Remember class photo day (wear something nice and do hair 😉) ✅
- Early to work, pick up German snacks for geography lesson ✅
- Sort kids for class trip ✅
- Home lunchtime for car and shake ✅
- Reports drafts x3 to boss ✅
- Check handover ✅
- Leave by 4:10 to pick up kids ✅
- Help L pack for school camp-out
- Piano lesson for kids and prep dinner for straight after ✅
- Pack kit for warrior class ✅
- Check train tickets for tomorrow ✅
- Bed by 9:30 ❎
Thursday goals:
- get up early, prep for gym class ✅
- Warrior 6:30 ✅
- drop kids to school ✅
- pack laptop and snacks ✅
- train at 9:40 ✅
- reports on train
- appt 12:30
- meet sis for coffee after
- train back @ 3:04pm (get healthy late lunch/snack)
- bed by 9:30
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@Faebert You might have to take a pause while you recover but I bet if you talk to your drs they can give you things you can do while in recovery. Sorry you are having to go through all that! Big hugs!
@bookmeister86 Have a great time with your Mum!
@cory17 Sorry your hip is bothering you. Have you tried swimming until you can get it replaced? It definitely helps to be in water. My aunt had hers replaced last year and feels amazing now. And her recovery wasn't too bad either!
@ginnytez That's so sad, I'm sorry for your loss. I imagine that is a really tough anniversary every year. Big hugs to you.
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JFT 5/23
45 minute run
30 minute yoga
110 points in apple watch challenge
stay within calories
drink extra water
5 veg/2 fruit
5 minute meditation
Intention for today is listen to my body. I want to make sure that I eat enough and make good choices with food. Yesterday I did not eat enough and slept poorly. I was overtired and didn't feel like going back downstairs to eat but I am not doing myself any favors by denying myself food when I clearly needed it. I was in a deficit and that doesn't happen too often so I just pushed through the hunger. Anyway, I am letting it go and today I'll listen to my body. It's my big run day so I definitely will need fuel. I'm still doing a may apple watch challenge and want to cap out my points today. Tomorrow will be an easy day/rest day so I know I can do it! Mantra for today is MAX THOSE POINTS!
Have a great day all!3 -
JFT Wednesday
1. Log all food👎 eh, kind of but not entirely
2. Gym to lift weights on own👍
3. Drink 150oz water👍
4. Healthy snack after dinner 👎
JFT Thursday
1. Log all food
2. Barre class
3. Drink 150oz water
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Good morning all! I've procrastinated a lot this morning so I better hurry, but big hugs to all who are struggling through difficult times.
Yesterday 5/22:
1. Give Rukia her a.m. pills 😁
2. Stay within calorie goal😞 went a few hundred over.. Bleh
3. Go for a walk at lunch😁
4. Give Rukia her p.m. pills😁
5. Do workout😁
6. Cook dinner😁
JFT 5/23:
1. Give Rukia her a.m. pills 😁
2. Stay within calorie goal
3. Go for a walk at lunch
4. Go for another walk after dinner1 -
Thursday May 23
Log accurately
Stay in the green
5 fruit and veg
Fitbit excercise goals
Jan challenge
Feb challenge
Mar challenge
Apr challenge
May challenge1 -
JFT Thursday
1. AM run: 3 miles. Therapy exercises: lunges, push-ups, ankle lifts, plank. Feed cats. Meds. Tea! Update JFT by 7:00.
2. Before school: Update first directions. Update class websites. Meet with M about honors projects. "Triage"?
3. Class 1-2: Prep for final; write sample essay.
4. Planning: Grade late work. Enter. Grade projects. Enter.
5. Class 4: Final exams. Evaluate assessments and assign standards. Select quizzes to replace some projects.
6. Drink more water. No, more. Keep the pitcher in the fridge full. You're not actually hungry. Make some tea. Drink more water!
7. Draft essay. Chop celery. Prep cheese. Pack lunch.
8. Gratitude journal. Read 10 pages of Shortest. Pack towel?
9. Therapy exercises at 8:30: lunges, push-ups, ankle lifts, plank. MEDS. Floss, rinse, brush teeth. In bed by 8:45; devices off by 9:00. Alarm set for 5:00. Update Goodreads Friday.
Scale goalsEnd of 2017: 174.6
End of 2018: 189.2
January 2019: 186.0
February 2019: 187.0
Today: 192
Ongoing plans/ideas behind the cut1. Purchases: Go to Mac store and see if they can retrieve the files off the iMac. Look for an "ugly Christmas sweater" and a long-haired doll at thrift stores. Practice French braiding. Go to used bookstore and look for Design for How People Learn (Julie Dirksen), On Writing (Stephen King), Dying for a Paycheck (Robin Hardman), The Prince (tr. Tim Parks, Russell Price, or Robert Adams), The Secret Adversary (Christie). Add lamp and wobble board to grocery list.
2. E2: What should the controlling ideas be in a study of world literature? Review world lit options. Create vocabulary lists for each unit that come from the texts used: Animal Farm, Julius Caesar, Wes Moore, I Am Malala. Find a way to incorporate changing words from one part of speech to another. Students need to know how to review multiple sources and synthesize information in order to draw a conclusion. Need practice with the difference between transitions and overlapping (at end of paragraph - "another issue is Y" vs "there are other issues besides X"). Quit using "in conclusion" and "I believe" and other writing-about-my-writing phrases. Confusion between direct/indirect objects and prepositional phrases. Use the UDHR and the Declaration of Independence to study paraphrasing; use that to front-load Machiavelli and how to deal with challenging texts. Confusion between everyday / every day and similar constructions.
3. E1: Need practice with quoting & paraphrasing sources, identifying claims that would need support, use of last names for reference, and capitalization practice (common/proper nouns, titles). Difficulty using possessive nouns in their own writing. Honors: practice subject/object pronouns (my friend and I / my friend and me). Poetry: Revise "Songs are Poetry" handouts.
4. Curriculum Development: Writing mini-unit. Review scholarly research on 5PE. (I think I can have this as an intro to the research unit so that they also get exposure to how quotes are integrated and cited.) Parallel structure; use of emotional language, specific detail. Use "Write About a Pebble" lesson from Atwell. How long should each unit take? Do research on characteristics: curiosity, persistence, resilience, creativity, responsibility, optimism, courage, integrity, authenticity, leadership, self-awareness, humility, compassion - others? Include grammarly check on essays! Review assessments. What is the purpose for each unit? What should the controlling ideas be in a study of world literature? Review world lit options.
5. Professional Development: Write blog post weekly. Comment on 3 posts each week -Tu Th Sun? Check with PSC. Talk with Z about articles and/or conference proposals.
6. Medical: Dentist. Onco. PCP. Call to set up checkups with Dass (October). GET MAGAZINES FOR COLLAGES FROM DOCTORS.
7. Theater: Audition for Mamma Mia???
8. House: Mineral oil on tile spots. Check with D about ceiling and taking items to the dump.
9. Fun: Open beading on Thursdays. Coloring at library on Tuesday.
WFTY: Climbing.
Positive thought: I can do it. I can do it. I can do it.3 -
I am thankful and grateful that Jesus has blessed me with another day to show him how much I trust him by making him my comforter and not food. I will allow God to be my protector, friend, provider, and savior. I will allow the lord to handle all circumstances in my life that I cannot control. But I can control what I eat and my portions.
JFT:
Stick with my plan
15 minutes of cardio
Be joyful
Laugh
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Ongoing Goals
1. Rake up more magnolia leaves
2. Declutter mudroom
3. Declutter spare bedroom
4. Store away spare bed linens
5. Laundry in basement
6. Hyundai being picked up Weds 5/29 - get title and keys
7. Pick up dress Fri 5/24
8. Sign/return HMUA contract
9. Hearty annuals for planters under deck
10. Pick up sticks under wisteria arbor
11. Scoop leaves out of frog pond
12. Cut plywood for tabletop
13. Tablecloths for ceremony table/grill/snack table
14. Snack/drink table decor mock up
15. Apply for marriage license
16. Finalize ceremony
17. Photography timeline
18. Call Inn with questions re: music/decor/ceremony space plan b
19. Nail appointment
20. Facial Friday 5/24 10:30AM
21. Check HPT stock at home
22. Mulch front yard
23. Trap rock under front porch
24. Pressure wash back deck
25. Paint back deck
26. Paint handrails on front deck
27. Pressure wash garage doors
28. Weed gardens
JFT Wednesday
1. Log all food
2. Waters NOW
3. Eat packed lunch
4. Cook dinner at home
5. Two from to-do list; HMUA Contract and hyundai keys/title
6. Vitamin Shoppe/Mall on lunch break
7. Call bridal shop for Friday appointment
8. More water!
9. Review this list later
10. Bed by 9:30
JFT Thurs
1. Log all food
2. WATERS
3. Eat packed lunch
4. Cook dinner at home
5. Two from to-do list; store bed linens and photography timeline
6. Empty dishwasher
7. Call car mechanic for check up next week
8. Request 401k Loan documents
9. Review this list later
10. Bed by 9:30
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@cory17 Sorry that you're a candidate for hip surgery. I postponed my knee surgery for many years (successfully as I stayed very active with tennis and hiking). When I could no longer do the things I loved and I was prevented from doing bucket list things (hiking the Inca Trail) I finally pursued getting my surgery. It took 6 months from the day I decided to get it done to the actual surgery. I had things on my calendar (3 week South America trip) that prevented it from happening so once you decide it's time there will need to be a block of time to take time off and recover.
@AJB1014 Wow with your list of things to do you don't need to do extra exercise. That's a lot.
Today will be a full day with post op appt with my surgeon and PT. Lots of questions for him such as when can I drive and what's the right balance of resting and activity. I am getting restless being at home but my body is telling me to still take it easy.
JFT 5/23/19
Pretrack to 1500 calories - I have been keeping it in the green or slightly over by under 50 calories so doing pretty well
Prep dinner this morning
Read this afternoon
Take care everyone.2 -
Wednesday JFT:
✔▪Pack lunches
✔▪Maintain baby's daily schedule
✔▪Breakfast
▪✔Log Food / ❌Stay under calorie limit
❌▪Devotional Time
✔▪Run by pharmacy & pick up a few other items while there
✔▪Waxing Appt
❌▪Review Budget
✔▪Lunch
❌▪Exercise (x2 DVD)
✔▪Asthma Appt for kiddo
✔▪Evening schedule
PMS took over my day yesterday! Not to mention I was the official "taxi driver" for eveyone so I was just busy. The asthma appt went well except for the nurse accusing me of lieing! I was explaining to her how we use a mail in pharmacy to save $$ bc each maintenance inhaler cost $200. So even though we have some delays in getting our prescriptions here, we can afford it. (This pharmacy just had a delay in shipment of the medicine but this was a rare incident; and we've ironed it out so it won't happen again.) She went straight to her phone bc she didn't believe the inhaler cost that much but what did she find, Oh I was telling the truth!! Sometimes people overwhelm me!! Maybe there are parents out there that don't have their children's best interest at heart but that is NOT me!! I have two kiddos with lung problems, trust me I have put the time and work into educating myself (with the best doctor's in town plus NICU team of people. This nurse just randomly jumped into the middle of things.) Everyone else knows and trusts me wholeheartedly!! I recently changed doctor's for one of my kiddos bc the other one just up and moved and her associate wouldn't take that doctor's patients. So I guess the new doctor is just doing their own "info gathering" on us. Needless to say, they only saw that I am honest and I am creative at finding affordable ways to take care of my kiddos!!
Sorry for the rant but my PMS emotions allowed that incident to bring me down emotionally. I just wish people didn't negatively judge so quickly!!
Moving on.....
▪Pack lunches
▪Maintain baby's daily schedule
▪Breakfast
▪Log food / stay under calorie limit
▪Breakfast
▪Teenager to school, wait 20 min. then take him to work for the day
▪Pick up RX
▪Devotional Time
▪Lunch
▪Last day of school for kiddos, early release at 1:15pm
▪Review Budget
▪Exercise (x2 DVDs)
▪Organize garage
▪Evening schedule
@Faebert sending you positive thoughts and hugs!! Just lean on the medical support team you have!! I'm here for you as well!! Msg me anytime, whether you need to just let something off your chest or need someone to just "talk" to. You are not alone in this!! We are here for you lady!!🌻
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Now that I've written this, I'll apologize for the book. I needed to get this out, but in the real world there are people, namely my mom and all who know her, can't see this.
Yesterday was really hard for me. I went to my stepdad's office to clean out his stuff. His office mate went on and on about how he felt like he knew me and how much my stepdad (Ray) talked about me and the girls and how much he obviously loved us. These are all good things, but I never realized he loved me. I thought we had both just survived living with my mother and that we had a bond from that. I knew he loved the girls, but I thought he just liked me. Hearing that he was proud of me and that he loved me rocked my world. I can see in his death that what Butch told me is true.
Ray and I haven't seen each other in 4 or 5 years because of some things with my mother. He was in the wrong and had been for a long time, but I still had him out to the house every Thursday. (I still caught hell from my mother every time I saw her.) He celebrated every holiday with my family even if it wasn't on the actual day. A year or so earlier he had even been put in jail for not following the courts orders. When I got him out of jail, he promised he'd take care of things. My mother was having a very hard time making ends meet on her own. I found out that he didn't do what he'd promised me, and that mom had issued a warrant for his arrest. I told him that until he cleared this up and did what the court ordered he wasn't welcome in my home. Having the police show up there to arrest him is not what I wanted my children to see and she knew he was there every Thursday. He never contacted my again. I was devastated that he didn't care enough about me and the girls to do what was right in the eyes of the law.
I assumed he was angry with me. I was actually afraid to see him. Finding out that he apparently never mentioned this split to his good friend and that he still talked about me and the girls all the time made me see a different possibility. He knew my mother had been on my back about seeing him for years. He and I both knew she could be very hurtful when she is angry, hurt or she perceives someone did her wrong. Maybe he saw my action as me just not being able to take the strain my mother put on me any longer. Maybe, just maybe, he stepped back to save me.
I don't know his reasons, but I know I was wrong about him. Not once do I ever remember him giving me a hug, but when I look back there were other things he did that showed love and kindness. He had his flaws as we all do, but things are always what they appear. I wish I hadn't been so afraid, thinking he hated me, to reach out and say lets meet somewhere for dinner. Somewhere other than my house. We are in a border city if we met in his town, its in a different state. Not that I want to avoid the law, but I wish I'd done something. Still feels like cheating on my mom, but he was my dad from the time I was 10. She never understood that, she thought I would divorce him when she did. Despite all of this I always loved him (well not when I was a teen).
When I went to his house after he died, it was the loneliest place I'd every seen. He has always been one to hold grudges, but I never realized the toll it took. His hatred for my mother, and his sister, and his little brother, and whoever else, jaded him and stole all of the joy from his life. Maybe if I'd at least reached out he'd have had my family and know he was loved. He would have still died alone just because of the nature of the condition (aortic aneurysm ruptured), but he would have died knowing he mattered to someone.
Ok, I have been a binging sluggish mess for a while now. Maybe I can fix today.
JFT Thursday
- Up at 6:30 More like 7:30, ball cap kind of day.
- Work by 8:00 More like 8:20
- Breakfast <300 cal I had 4 Hershey's kisses. It is below 300cal, but it was a poor choice
- Finish us report for Jit
- Lunch <300 cal
- Maybe play with VDA
- Home by 4:00
- Shower get ready
- 8th Grade Promotion Ceremony
- No alcohol
- Dinner <800
- Bed by 11:00
Positive thought for the day: It's good to be loved, make sure the people you care about know you love them.
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@ginnytez - Prayers that this anniversary is filled with more joyful memories and content than pain. Take care.
@Faebert - You've got this. I was once defined by my fitness. I was more confident and happier than I'd ever been. Then I punctured my Achilles and had to have it repaired. That was 3 weeks until surgery and 6-8 weeks non-weight baring after surgery. I freaked out a bit. Doctor asked my what it was I wanted to do that I couldn't do as I recovered. I was missing one of the 5K races in the runners series I was in. I was in 3rd place for points, now that was a wash. His advice was to sign up for a race for 3-4 weeks after you get clearance to run. That goal kept my diet in check and kept my mood up (God knows when I put on weight I run like a flat footed slug). It still made me antsy and anxious wondering if I could get by in shape in a month, but he assured me if I was running 10 miles now that I'd be able to run 3.1 by then. I ran my race. It was slower than before, but I still managed to be proud of myself. My runner friends were proud of me too. They knew what I'd been through. It felt good. From there I just kept improving. My old abilities returned faster than I expected. Being fit going and having a goal, made it much easier for me though there were days when I went a little stir crazy. Best of luck!3 -
JFT - Wednesday May 22 - Determined
2.5L of water -
Calories in green -
Walk 1 Mile -
Squats - 20
5 Fruits and Veggies - 2/5
Only 1 evening Snack -
5 something at bathroom break -
Something on commercials -
Write in Journal -
Do not disappoint myself, be conscious of my choices -
JFT - Thursday May 23 - Determined
2.5L of water
Calories in green
Walk 1 Mile
Squats
5 Fruits and Veggies
Only 1 evening Snack
5 something at bathroom break
Something on commercials
Write in Journal
Do not disappoint myself, be conscious of my choices
Had a much better day yesterday, hopefully I can carry it through today too. I have Michaela with me today, we are going to take Lauryn to work and then we are going out for breakfast and maybe some treats. This afternoon, we have to pick Jonah up from school then come back to get Lauryn. After they leave I'll make supper then get ready for swimming. My friend is supposed to join me tonight and we are going out for coffee beforehand.
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