30lbs to lose... Started AGAIN yesterday (Darn Lockdown Snacking)

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  • MommaGemz
    MommaGemz Posts: 494 Member
    Day 124 (Monday)

    Happy Monday everyone! I'm trying my trick this week and I'm wearing the tight pants! I need that extra reminder that I'm not out of the woods and I'm certainly not done yet, so I've got to stay on the ball. I lost another pound of water weight, so I'm hoping to be back at my low point again by the weekend.

    Today I was generally more hungry than normal throughout the day. I kept to my pre-planned eating menu. And I got in all my steps today. It's super hard during the Fall because I love Pumpkin flavored everything! Pumkpin chocolate chip cookies, pumpkin rolls, pumpkin muffins, lattes, cheescake, pie, ice cream - you name it! I had a few carefully measured desserts over the weekend, but it just leaves less room for actual meals. So I'll have to cut that out until Thanksgiving week.

    Daily Goals:
    Calories - ✅
    Steps - ✅
    Water - ✅

    @kcd394 Hiking during the Fall sounds divine! I am so jealous that the leaves change color where you are! Wishing you that wonderful "whoosh" soon!

    @GabiV125 I'm hoping your shoulder is feeling better!

    @clutterqueen I can't imagine what it would be like to live alone during this pandemic. My heart goes out to your daughter that she feels better soon. It's taking a tool on everyone for sure. Hugs!

    @thelastnightingale What do you think you'll do on your time off?

  • GabiV125
    GabiV125 Posts: 3,128 Member
    Hi there!
    @MommaGemz - if a full day of rest is not always working out, maybe some partials could, like some relaxing evenings. I’m with you with the logging- I can give a day or a meal break, but won’t stop it until I get where I set to be. I did in the past and lost the momentum.
    @kcd394 - a long hike in fall colors sounds amazing. Pretty green where I am, but looking forward for autumn. Congrats on the scale going down!
    @clutterqueen - my heart goes to you and your daughter. It is good news that she talks to you, just not easy to gouge from the distance, if your words made a full impact. Keep on talking and listening.
    Mine is the same -we are lucky she has a roommate she likes, but she still gets gloomy some days. I turned into my parents-yesterday I reported the color of the new neighbor‘s dog, when we ran out of updates.
    @thelastnightingale - how is your staycation going? I hope choke full of relaxing activities.

    My left shoulder hurt for about 2 months now, on and off. It improved but I still can’t reach my arm backward, and I wake up with sharp pain some nights. I couldn’t get myself to go to the doctor, because it will most likely mean more than one visit for a steroid injection. Who knew I move it so much?
    Any yoga shoulder stretches are greatly appreciated Clutterqueen

    On the other hand, I’ve been eating much better and after analyzing my last 3 months it looks like my trend is 1lb in 3-4 weeks. That is 12-16lb in a year, not bad at all.
  • MommaGemz
    MommaGemz Posts: 494 Member
    Day 125 (Tuesday)

    This day was all STRESS. It's not that anything bad was happening, but that (beyond my control) several events got reschedule to all occur today. This included my first working call with my book publisher. I do feel better at the end of the day though. Now that I know what to expect from the whole book writing process. I tackled most all of the events for the day. Voting will have to wait until tomorrow because the "computers were down." Boo.

    Daily Goals:
    Calories - ✅
    Steps - ✅
    Water - ✅
  • clutterqueen
    clutterqueen Posts: 1,652 Member
    @GabiV125
    My favorite yoga stretch for hurting shoulders is “clock pose”. The clock poses I saw online were not what I was taught in class. They involved a standing pose and I believe it’s more effective lying down.

    First start with lying down and extend both arms to a “t”,Palms up, with knees bent. Then gently lift hips and slide them a few inches to the right and then let legs together gently fall to the floor on the left. Leaving your left arm and hand still, Take your right hand and slowly, gently move it in a circle, like a clock, keeping your upper body’s fat head still, only moving the right arm. You should Stretch the arm out so the right hand touches the left hand as it goes by. Make sure to keep the right arm pretty even with the floor, almost dragging it along the floor in a circle. The second rotation I do, I pause For about 40 seconds at each place I feel tension. You may only move a couple more “degrees” before pausing again if you have a lot of shoulder tension. When you finish that rotation, complete 4 more, pausing as often as needed. The last rotation should feel better than the first. After you’ve completed 6 complete rotations, move your arm the opposite direction and complete 6 slow rotations this way. When you’ve finished the 6th, bring arms back to a “t”,gently raise knees back up. Center the hips. Then raise hips and move them a few inches to the left and let knees fall to the right. Repeat entire sequence on the right side, moving left arm around the circle, keeping head and rest of the body still. After you’ve paused at tight spots on 2nd rotation, complete six rotations and then switch direction and move the arm the opposite way. Complete six full circles this direction. Then with arms back in a “t”, raise knees back up and you are done. You can do this more than once a day if needed. I used to have a herniated disc at c4/c5 and this stretch has given me much needed relief over the years. If you can’t figure this out from my written directions, let me know and I’ll try to make a video and figure out a way to attach or send. Also “thread the needle” is a good shoulder stretch( although it doesn’t give as much relief to me as clock pose). You can google it and find video instructions on YouTube. Once again, let me know if you can’t understand my directions.
    The other thing you may want to do, is be aware I you are keeping your shoulders up instead of relaxed. Don’t wear your shoulders as “ earrings”! Make a point to bring them back down. It took me a long time to realize that when I was driving and someone would cut me off or brake hard in front of me, I’d tense my shoulders and then keep them up the rest of the day instead of making it a point to relax them back down where they belong.

    My day:
    Exercise: ✅
    Tracked: ✅
    Under: ✅ ( only ate a tiny piece of fudge today!)
  • GabiV125
    GabiV125 Posts: 3,128 Member
    Thank you so much Clutterqueen. The instructions are very clear, and detailed, truly appreciate this. I’m starting this stretches after my full day zoom training .
    I did chuckle at what to do with my fat head 😁
  • MommaGemz
    MommaGemz Posts: 494 Member
    Day 126 (Wednesday)

    This day was fairly calm and relaxed. I wore the tight pants again. Everything was completed today without this sense of rush or pressure. I even did some meditation and worked on my book in the afternoon. The scale is creeping back down again, so I'm happy to see that. It was only .6 up from my "low."

    Daily Goals:
    Calories - ✅
    Steps - ✅
    Water - ✅

    @clutterqueen "Don’t wear your shoulders as “ earrings”!" I love this!! <3
  • darleenturner
    darleenturner Posts: 79 Member
    MommaGemz wrote: »
    Hi everyone! The lockdown (and all of the snacks around the house for my kids during the lockdown) have had their effect. I did have 25lbs to lose anyway and ended up gaining another 5 due to stress, snacking and comfort eating - Booooo.....

    I'm married, in my 40s, and have just started home schooling 2 young kids who are not old enough to really work independently. There is alot of sitting in my day while I teach them. For exercise, I'm just trying to start out with getting in 10,000 steps a day. I figure that is the baby step for exercise. In Texas, it's already really hot so I have to do most of that walking indoors. My main strategy to begin is to track my food diligently, drink more water, and get in those steps!

    I'm looking for some accountability friends to help with support and motivation. We can check-in and commiserate together :smiley:

    I feel your pain. Put on 25lb during lockdown and now have about 50lb to loose. Try to do 10000 steps a day but on busy work days I am stuck at a desk and its very cold and wet here in England so cant be bothered sometimes to get huddled up to go for a walk.

    I have done some indoor walking but its not quite the same without a treadmill.

    I have always taken it one step at a time and aimed for little goals. I only look at loosing the next 7lb.

    Please feel free to add me. Use my mobile so wont let you add friends
  • MommaGemz
    MommaGemz Posts: 494 Member
    Day 128 (Friday)

    I feel like I should start putting a warning label on Friday. Bad choices are made on Fridays. Fridays I feel exhausted from the week. I'm physically, mentally and emotionally tired. Teaching, working, writing, "Momming," and I desperately feel the need for some sleep and a day off. It's the day I'm most likely to say "screw it all" and quit everything.

    Poor choices were made today, I've lost my motivation and energy for losing weight, and I just feel stuck.

    This is likely just "Friday" talking. I'll rest tomorrow, and feel more positive on Sunday. I hope.
  • kcd394
    kcd394 Posts: 397 Member
    @mammagemz i also said screw it today...

    It was less busy today and i actually left at 530 (wow!), But today i ate way too many calories... partook of the treats i bought my techs a couple 3 times through the day. Then i bought some steak to have with my salad for dinner. Bad snacking choices were made. I am still kinda slacking in motivation to keep going, but i did clean up the kitchen and put effort into cooking today. I did feel the whoosh finally this morning and noticed my ring was really loose on my finger this evening before i ate. I had a mini goal of 180 this weekend but i was at 183 this morning... may not happen for a couple more weeks. Haven't added any exercise yet cause I've been getting home late. Gonna go to bed early tonight as i have to go in early to do extra things before regular appts start at 8. On the plus side this is my last Saturday i have to work until December (been doing every other one for a while). Have a good weekend all!
  • B_Plus_Effort
    B_Plus_Effort Posts: 311 Member
    edited October 2020
    hi my 40 something fellow I used to struggle with the pantry being full of oreo cookies and such and blame the wife and kids, but then i ranned into a super fit young lady ex body builder in her 50s (Asian) so she looked 28 ha ha at a party, we had a bit of a chat and she looked me right in the eyes and said, "no one's shoving all that junk food in your mouth" , I said Message Received Ma'am! and decided to put on my big boy pants and develop some self control

    Here's what works for me during the weight loss phase (not long term just when I'm loosing weight) write things down, me and you are about the same age so we are no strangers to putting pen to paper, so do it manually, make it a ritual, and write down on a piece of paper everything you eat, don't get carried away you don't have to put down 17 M&Ms or 42 grapes, just be generic, even that will prevent you from eating just so you don't have to write it down

    here is mine as an example, it's just Monday - Friday

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  • clutterqueen
    clutterqueen Posts: 1,652 Member
    @MommaGemz You were exhausted from wearing so many hats all week. Tomorrow you will take some time for yourself and feel refreshed and ready to get back on track. I’m still wondering if maybe you’re restricting your calories too much, not eating enough of your exercise calories back. That can definitely cause fatigue right there, without everything else you are tackling. Tomorrow, take a moment and get out some pants you were when you started this journey. Even put them on, and watch them fall right down! You did that! You are one of the most disciplined people I’ve encountered. But perfection isn’t realistic. So value progress, not perfection.

    @kcd394 I have a feeling when things settle down a little and you have time to exercise, your weight is really going to start dropping!
    In the meantime, do what you can!

    My day:
    Exercise: ✅
    Tracked: ✅
    Under: ✅

  • MommaGemz
    MommaGemz Posts: 494 Member
    Ha Ha Ha.... And just when I feel like throwing in the towel.... **Whoosh!** It's not a new low, but pretty darn close. (And I also slept until 10am this morning - Ahhhhhhh, I feel so good)

    @clutterqueen It could have been a "eat some more food" and my body felt better day. I am definitely going to take your suggestion to heart and try to adjust the calories and see how I feel.

    @kcd394 We can do it, we can do it, we can do it. Slow and steady. Our group has seen some ups and downs and we will steer through this one as well. I hope your Saturday work goes quickly!
  • thelastnightingale
    thelastnightingale Posts: 725 Member
    It's a long catchup one...

    I had a bit of a fail when it came to taking any days off this week - I ended up working so much on my days off, due to urgent things happening and my colleagues needing my specific help.

    Honestly, one day I didn't go to sleep at all (worked through the night, took a power nap at lunchtime), it was that crazy. And because I didn't sleep, I had to eat more to stay awake, which meant I ate right up to 100% of calories burned.

    That's the bad news.

    The good news is my weight has started to fall again, so the sudden shakeup in routine has actually helped. (What a silver lining!) Things had been stubbornly stagnant for a while, but my weight is falling and my appetite is normal.

    I did a virtual race today and whilst it was super hard, I finished. When I first started, I couldn't breathe properly, to the point where I walked for a little bit and thought I might need to abandon things and go home to die, but I managed to work through it and breathe more normally and run the rest. I haven't moved this far in such a long time - way pre-pandemic, for sure.

    My legs are OK, so I think I might have been allergic to the pollen where I ran - I'm going to be more strict with taking allergy meds and will keep an eye on it. I drank lots of water and took some allergy meds when I got home, and am completely fine now.

    The other good news is I got some feedback at work before the weekend and whilst there were some things for me to work on (who doesn't need to keep improving?), there were also some things that really just made me feel appreciated. I'm tearing up now just thinking about it. There's nothing better than when a group of people turn round unexpectedly and tell you that they see your contribution and they value it. It's such a gift. I feel thankful.

    I'm also watching a digital show tomorrow - I was very into the arts before the pandemic hit, so this is me doing something nice and familiar for myself. (Running badly is also familiar, I guess!)

    So, whilst it wasn't the week I wanted, I feel like I'm ending on a point of positivity where I feel more like me, I feel happier, and I feel like I'm accomplishing things again. I didn't think I could do the run, but I did it anyway. I used to be very much 'feel the fear and do it anyway' pre-pandemic.

    I'm also going to try to re-take some of my missed holidays next week. There's something big happening at work, but it's just one thing as opposed to a million things, and one of my colleagues (same grade) has agreed to cover for me if I need it, so that's really nice. It's a genuine offer as well.

    And now I'm off to take a bubble bath, because again, doing nice things for me should be a priority. (Also, it might help with muscle aching tomorrow after my run.)

    @MommaGemz Two hours to vote is quite something. We have local polling stations over here for every few streets, and we have a whole day to vote, so I've never had to queue for more than a few minutes (yes, we're very spoilt that way).

    Nice to see you whooshing too - this group is so in sync sometimes, it's hilarious. :)

    @muszyngr Great strategy - I'm not really into pen and paper, but as well as using the MFP app, I keep a spreadsheet with extra data to hold myself accountable, which is a similar way of doing things.

    What a bit of tough love... hard to hear, but true. No one is shoving the junk food in our mouths, we're all responsible for our own food choices.

    @kcd394 I'm with @clutterqueen on this, you sound exhausted. If you're not happy you've got the balance right with knowing how many of your exercise calories to eat back, try having a really lazy day where you only have your regular calories to worry about, not your exercise calories too. I know I'm a bit of a hypocrite when I say rest is important, but hey, it takes one to know one!

    Hope you manage to get some downtime at the weekends from next Saturday onwards - that will be nice, having more time at the weekend to relax.

    @darleenturner Lovely to see another new face - I didn't put on as much as you during lockdown, but because I was already at my heaviest, that extra lockdown half stone put me in a bad place and my overall goal was, therefore, higher than yours. I'm now about 34lb down since May, so it can be done. I've found this thread really helpful in that regard - we're all accountable for our own actions, but it's just really nice being able to support each other when we're all on a similar journey.

    Hope to see a fellow Brit stick around!

    @clutterqueen Well done for voting - it's very strange over on this side of the pond seeing how long it takes for the result to be known.

    We've just moved to stricter rules where I live, so we're not allowed to mix indoors anymore over here unless it's with someone you already live with. I think a lot of us might have made different decisions a year ago had we known what would happen now, but we can't go back and get a do-over, we just have to keep making the best choices we can every day and look forward. I really feel for you being apart from your mom and wishing you could do more. I have no answers, just empathise with how tough that feeling is. You haven't done anything wrong, even if it might feel like you have sometimes.

    Well done on your run - 6 1/2 miles is quite a distance!
  • MommaGemz
    MommaGemz Posts: 494 Member
    Day 129 (Saturday)

    Rested today and didn't log. It's feeling like Fall here in Texas, so I made a nice beef and veggie stew. I miss cooking foods like that, but they are so, so very hard to put in the food tracker. I could do the whole recipe calculator, but it's really such a pain. So I avoid soups, stews, casseroles, and anything that is "combined." I also had some Maple cookies and a few bits of Halloween candy. It'll probably offset the whoosh from today, but I just needed some comfort food today. Back to steps and logging tomorrow!
  • GabiV125
    GabiV125 Posts: 3,128 Member
    @MommaGemz -end of busy weeks are hard and emotional for the entire family, because we are influenced by their moods, too. I never knew either when my body just wants a little more food, or I just messed up and moved my bed in the pantry. Glad to hear you got your big woosh and some extra rest.
    @kcd394 - don’t be so hard on yourself, you’re coming off a long and very busy period at work . Your body has been fighting to stay afloat, once you get the well deserved rest, you’ll see the results on the scale too.
    @clutterqueen - sorry to hear about your mom. It’s already hard as it is , but to cut the traditional holiday get together , is feels like a separate slap. Sorry. You run 6.5 miles? And leave to tell the tale? The snail in me is speechless.
    @thelastnightingale - group work appreciation is the unicorn of workplace - congrats. Also congrats on the scale budging after being stubborn for so long. I’m googling virtual race after this message for sure. You turned a potentially bad week into a very accomplished one, I’m so impressed. So happy you’re happy ,but please do not lose any more nights for work. If in a year nobody will remember the current emergency, then it’s not an emergency. Value you first. Always you. Wish you a great vacation-staycation .
    @darleenturner -welcome and do not look back, just focus on today.
    @mszyngr - welcome and thank you for sharing your trick. Glad it worked for you.
  • GabiV125
    GabiV125 Posts: 3,128 Member
    As for me, I finished the week with 2 weird long days at work, barely hitting my 10k steps, but ate ok. I’m visiting my daughter at college this weekend (4h driving) and last night, Saturday, I had my off the charts snacking. We waited a little too long to go to dinner and the girls wanted different foods, so we picked from 2 places and brought the food in the hotel room. So after dinner just opened one snack after another, and sure enough I got a 4th night in a row with bad sleep.
    We’ll drive back today and starting tomorrow, I’m getting back in the game, and then one of these days, the scale will smile to me too.
  • MommaGemz
    MommaGemz Posts: 494 Member
    Day 130 (Sunday)

    Sundays are a true work day for me. They are the "get everything done that requires no child interruptions" while Daddy is watching them. I finish these days feeling worn out, but also very accomplished.

    One change I have made is to reduce the number of steps I aim for each day. Since I have some required "butt in chair" time, it is just getting unreasonable to also get 10K steps on top of home schooling, work, and writing. My new steps goal (until book is done) is 7,500. It was actually totally manageable today and not stressful. It is still a good number that requires me to get up and move intentionally, but not so high that I have to carve out an extra hour at night to finish it. I logged all food today and got that important water in. It has become so apparent lately that when I skip my water, then next day I'm all bloated because my body decides to hoard it all.

    Daily Goals:
    Calories - ✅
    Steps - ✅
    Water - ✅

    I hope you all had a great weekend! @GabiV125 I hope you have a wonderful trip visiting your daughter!

    @thelastnightingale Wow, way to go on that virtual race! Sorry you didn't get the time off you were looking for - maybe soon you say? Rest is so important!

    @darleenturner Welcome! I don't actually engage with the Friends list because it's just one more thing to track on this site, but do feel free to post here and tell about your goals, and life, and how your days are going :)
  • MommaGemz
    MommaGemz Posts: 494 Member
    Day 131 (Monday)

    Today is my husband's birthday, so I definitely didn't make my calorie goal. I didn't go crazy, but he requested a specific dinner and my Mom brought him donuts (rather than a birthday cake). So I had a donut and a reasonable portion of my special "Baked Potato Soup" (carby, cheesy goodness!)

    I had a busy day today - Mondays usually are. I had the added complication of a "floater" in my eye for most of the day. That makes it harder to focus on anything visually and tends to give me a headache. I'm getting them more frequently and my eye doctor says that's normal "for my age" :'( The time I would have spent writing I took some Tylenol and laid in a dark room until it passed. I think this will definitely be an early-to-bed day.

    Daily Goals:
    Calories - Nope
    Steps - ✅
    Water - ✅
  • clutterqueen
    clutterqueen Posts: 1,652 Member
    @MommaG Happy birthday to your husband! That’s nice your husband wanted donuts rather than a cake! It’s easier to limit yourself to one donut than to cut a narrow slice of cake( and then not go back for more slivers!)
    I’ve never heard it’s normal to get floaters at a certain age. I’m 56 and have never had that. Stay on top of it.
    It sounds like you’re doing a remarkable job of balancing the kids, the schooling, the writing and your regular work stuff ( not to mention household chores) along with exercise and eating right. It seems like you found a good option not putting so much pressure on yourself to complete a higher number of steps when you’ve got so much on your plate right now, esp when you’re able to stay under your calorie goal ( planned indulgence excepted)!! I like how you’re always analyzing how things are working for you and then tweaking them. I’m learning so much from you!
  • clutterqueen
    clutterqueen Posts: 1,652 Member
    @GabiV How is the shoulder doing? Feeling any better? How was the weekend visit with your daughter?

    @DarleenTurner Welcome to this group! They are all very encouraging. Just when I feel like “Throwing in the towel”, someone always lifts me back up with just the encouragement I need! The very best part of our group is we are able to be really honest about what are struggles are. No one tries to minimize anything, just offers encouragement and often sorely needed advice! ( at least for ME!)
    If you can’t get out for a walk due to the weather, have you considered doing any virtual workouts you might enjoy or dancing? It doesn’t have to be walking.

    @thelastnightingale I’m so happy to hear about your great feedback at work. Being appreciated at work makes all the difference in the world!!!! That’s awesome! Sounds like you’ve been crazy busy, yet you managed to see a loss on the scale! You are doing so well!

    My day:
    Exercise:✅
    Tracked: ✅
    Under: ✅
    While staying under with calories, I’ve been managing to consume too much sugar which really bloats me. That coupled with not drinking enough water! Not a good combo.
    I need to address that but not in next couple of days as my brother is coming to town for a distanced visit. He’ll be here on business.
    I’ll address it after the visit.
  • MommaGemz
    MommaGemz Posts: 494 Member
    @clutterqueen And a great thing about donuts is that I can throw the rest in the freezer and I'm not tempted to finish the whole dozen before they go stale :p The floaters also 'could' be hereditary, because my Mom gets them on occasion, too. But since I wear glasses, I'm at the optometrist every year to get a check 👍 I hope you have a great visit with your brother!
  • MommaGemz
    MommaGemz Posts: 494 Member
    Day 132 (Tuesday)

    I've had quite the roller coaster ride with the scale this week. I feel overall I'm trending down, but I've had some days in which water retention caused me to pop back up. Yesterday was the last "celebration day" we'll have until Thanksgiving. I don't count Halloween, because I'm not a candy craving person. Our kids get candy for a few days then we throw away anything that's left over. In fact, we might not even do Thanksgiving this year since we won't have any family over. I can make turkey and mashed potatoes any day of the year. We'll see when it gets closer. Thanks 2020 - taking the fun out of holidays all year long.

    My overall goal for the next month is to log consistently until Thanksgiving. I still want Saturdays off for steps, but I do think that I can give this a focused shot until the next holiday.

    Daily Goals:
    Calories - ✅
    Steps - ✅
    Water - ✅
  • clutterqueen
    clutterqueen Posts: 1,652 Member
    @mommaGemz I’m glad you go to the optometrist every year and stay on top of the eye situation!
    Glad the scale is trending down. You are SO LUCKY big to be a candy craving person! Me, I LOVE chocolate!!! Could eat GOBS of it if there were no consequences!
    I agree, Thanksgiving will be very different this year! No need for the traditional meal if the family doesn’t insist on it. Last year, my one daughter only got Christmas Day itself off, so we traveled there. They wanted to get Chinese for Christmas and we did. Very easy! No mess, no stress! We will probably do it again this year. For years I used to just make a lasagna ahead of time to bake on Christmas Day so I wasn’t stressed with all the cooking. Could just make a salad and rolls and get to enjoy the day with everyone else.
    I think it’s very healthy to have one day off for fitness goals. I’ve been struggling with this for a LONG time. Finally, with my last injury, ( short lived thank God!) I had a heart to heart with myself and realized I have to take it easy one day a week if I expect my body to keep performing the other six! I had been jogging 6 1/2 miles a day, 4 times a week and then riding 21 miles or so on
    my spin bike 3 days a week, Plus 2 longer weights/strength session and 1 light session each week. I have to respect my body if I want it to keep going. At 56, I am nowhere near ready to stop jogging, cycling or doing weights! It’s hard though. Sometimes I would start to walk and end up jogging the whole thing. It helps if I don’t wear a sports bra or athletic pants. Then I can’t jog.

    I’ve learned a lot from @MommaGemz, how she’s always analyzing what’s working in her life, making changes for better efficiency and reevaluating and then tweaking things here and there! That’s why she’s so very successful! That and the fact that she posts her reflections of her journey almost daily. Major accountability, all the good, the bad, the ugly! The other thing she does is when she messes up, she brushes herself and MOVES ON! No dwelling on the past. Getting right back on track the next day! IT IS WORKING!!!
    We are watching and we are learning! Thank you for sharing your journey!

    My day:
    Exercise: ✅
    Tracked: ✅
    Under: ✅

    Visit with my brother and sister-in-law is going well. Will see them for a hike in the morning and then lunch, Social distancing outside, of course. 😊
  • GabiV125
    GabiV125 Posts: 3,128 Member
    Hi, last night I wrote a big message and then lost the whole thing.
    I love this thread, I love the group and I love the openness of messages. This is the first time I’ve been able to talk weight loss struggles, current and past, and come back at it, even the very next day.
    I’m not insightful, patient or driven, I don’t know how to read my body (fake) hunger signs and I learned so much here. The application part is still in progress but the learning part is the foundation .
    I’ve been carrying extra weight for 14y and every year I’d lose 10lb before Christmas and then get all of it back within 3 months. Since July, I lost 3lb, which is not much in the bucket, but is against my historical trend, meaning that all this is working for me.

    The visit with my daughter was nice, a little too short, but nice. She’s trying to make some big decisions and I am there for her to talk, but not to make the decision in her place. My parents did that to me and every once in a while I wonder what my life would be if I had chosen my own path.
    Traffic coming back Sunday was horrible, 7h instead of 4.5h . My back and right leg were cramping some even Tuesday. So I’m taking it rather slowly this week and see where I get.
  • MommaGemz
    MommaGemz Posts: 494 Member
    @clutterqueen & @GabiV125 I am so glad that you are finding a place of support here in the thread! Honestly, when I first started this thread I thought I'd just be talking to myself day after day and forever, but I am so thankful we now have this space together!

    I feel that there is, in all aspects of life, this pressure to be able to do anything perfectly and effortlessly and that is just not realistic. Having a space where we can all say, "Yup, I just gave up today", and admit setbacks, has been so VITAL in me being able to stay on this path. Having the "permission" and acceptance to just have a bad day, or bad week, and then pick myself up and keep going has been so refreshing.

    Thank you everyone for contributing to this supportive environment! It wouldn't have happened without everyone's honesty and encouragement <3<3<3
  • clutterqueen
    clutterqueen Posts: 1,652 Member
    I visited with my brother and sister-in-law again today before they left late afternoon. My sis-in-law and I took her dog and went for about a 90 minute hike this morning and then a little loop later ( I’d already done my regular spin bike routine and strength stuff early this morning). Then we all met for lunch at a beautiful lake spot across from a restaurant that served a yummy curbside grilled chicken sandwich. The side was fries. Luckily, they weren’t the kind I enjoy so I ate very few. It was great just to enjoy the peace of being lakeside and catch up. I love being with them because I can always be transparent and tell everything how it is. It is very freeing to be that way. I’ve been more that way with more people in my life the last several years rather than keeping certain things tucked away. Nothing really to hide. Just not being completely open.

    I realized something tonight- after my Mom called me about 7 times today and my sister called me several times to discuss the drama with Mom. My first instinct wasn’t to reach for chocolate to “eat my feelings” soothe them or whatever like has been my MO for years in dealing with her! Major break through! That’s not to say, it won’t happen tomorrow though.

    My day:
    Exercise: ✅
    Tracked: ✅
    Under: ✅

    I did not drink enough water today. We wore masks hiking and in the car. Really cut into my water intake. Gotta do better tomorrow!
  • MommaGemz
    MommaGemz Posts: 494 Member
    Day 133 (Wednesday)

    Yay! The trend is definitely downward. I hit my previous "low" so maybe tomorrow there will be a brand new low?

    I had horrible sleep last night. My daughter was up for so many reasons and kept me awake. The issue is, and why I;m usually tired most of the time, is that I have had insomnia all my life. Even if I'm tired, and have taken melatonin and magnesium, it still takes about 30m to an hour to fall asleep. Evening interruptions and it takes about 30m to fall back asleep. Multiple interruptions and I could be up for hours. It was so bad last night I woke my husband up, told him he was WFH that day, so I could take a "sick day" and recover that sleep. He totally did. When I woke up at 9am he had the kids well into their school time. I did feel more rested even though I did feel "off" for some time just due to such weirdness in my schedule. It was a struggle to get my daughter to sleep tonight and I hope there's not a repeat performance. I just bought both my kids little noise machine/night lamps (because my son has been wanting one) and maybe it will help them both sleep a little easier (and me...)

    Daily Goals:
    Calories - ✅
    Steps - ✅
    Water - ✅

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