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toriann319 wrote: »I have always been shy in person, but very “out there” online. To be able to just randomly start talking to someone in person, I’d pass out before I even got the chance to say “hello”.
I’ve ALWAYS used humor, wit and a hellacious sense of humor as my wingman, my escape, a cover-up. I’d be lying if I said I’ve lived a hard life, because I haven’t. I’ve just simply made it hard on myself by letting my anxiety take over who I really think I could be. In all actuality, I’m a simple southern girl with social and obsessive anxiety, depression, ODC, germophobia and wear my heart on my sleeve while still building walls around my emotions. An entire disaster, if you ask me. 😂
Honestly, this place has made me overcome a few fears, as crazy as that sounds. When I first started, I wanted to make friends, but I didn’t want to talk to anyone first. I could never be the first to start a conversation. Even if it meant simply typing out a few words, my mind would be overflowing with a thousand questions; “What if they don’t reply?” “What if it’s annoying to just immediately start talking to them?” “Should I say something funny or just introduce myself?” “What if I say something to offend them because it was just funny to me?” “Is this too much to say in one message?”... and the list goes on. Eventually I psych myself out and just wait for someone to talk to me first, no matter how much I am dying to know everything about them. Here, I’ve learned that people are here to support one another, to interact with one another, and to bring out the positive and best in all situations. I’ve never had a close knit family so the “family” I have gained here is absolutely amazing. I’ve slowly realized that it’s okay to comment on every one of their posts to spread a positive word and support them reaching for their goals, it’s okay to message someone every day to ask how their day is going because you truly care, it’s okay to continue asking questions to keep a conversation alive for days, even weeks, because the interaction is what keeps us accountable and motivated. No one has ever made me feel annoying for checking in daily, no one has ever made me feel out of place for participating in forum shenanigans, no one has ever made me feel like I’ve completely inconvenienced their day by saying hello.
I saw where someone stated that she doesn’t let anyone get to know her, because she feels that once they know her, they can hurt her... and that statement hit different because I know. I completely understand. I’ve always been one on a search to find “needy” people, to find people who need help, who need a shoulder, ear or piece of advice. I’ve always been a sucker for someone who opens up to me and tells me everything about them, right down to the roots. I, however, have never let anyone who’s like-minded, find me, probably the most needy one in the bunch. 😂
It’s great to find people who can relate to you, it oftentimes makes you feel less alone in the world, even if they may be on the complete opposite side of it. 😉 All I know is that I’ve made relationships and connections with people here that I hope last a while. I’m alone more than I am with anyone else, so having that conversation about your day, or about who you are, or being able to dive in to someone else’s interests makes it that much easier to make the time well spent, move along faster. 🥰
Thanks for this! Soooo relatable, esp the overthinking part!1 -
I was reminded today, that despite my best efforts, my medical condition is something I'll need to deal with for the rest of my life. It's one of the reasons I really kick started my weight loss. I never want my medical condition to define me or have people treat me differently or like I'm some fragile bird, so I don't like to talk about it unless I need to. Just kind of sucks having a setback after doing so good for so long. Nice to have a place to vent about it I guess.8
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I feel like life is passing me by and I don't know how to catch up and do things that feel meaningful. I'm a mom and I know that is meaningful but I'm not sure who I am other than that.14
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StargazerB wrote: »I feel like life is passing me by and I don't know how to catch up and do things that feel meaningful. I'm a mom and I know that is meaningful but I'm not sure who I am other than that.
I can feel your words so much. Having been an empty nester now, for about 10 years, my advice to you is trying to carve out some interests and goals for later; what kinds of things are important to you(helping animals, environment, elderly, anything that clicks with you). Because when that later comes, it's such an empty feeling and so many questions of 'what now?', especially if your kids don't stick close to home. Everybody tells me it's time 'for me', to do anything I want, but the problem is I don't know what I want.
I spent so many years being something for somebody else, always doing as a parent, wife and childcare provider. When all that ended for me I had to go searching for things that mattered. It's become a constant work in progress.7 -
StargazerB wrote: »I feel like life is passing me by and I don't know how to catch up and do things that feel meaningful. I'm a mom and I know that is meaningful but I'm not sure who I am other than that.
I can feel your words so much. Having been an empty nester now, for about 10 years, my advice to you is trying to carve out some interests and goals for later; what kinds of things are important to you(helping animals, environment, elderly, anything that clicks with you). Because when that later comes, it's such an empty feeling and so many questions of 'what now?', especially if your kids don't stick close to home. Everybody tells me it's time 'for me', to do anything I want, but the problem is I don't know what I want.
I spent so many years being something for somebody else, always doing as a parent, wife and childcare provider. When all that ended for me I had to go searching for things that mattered. It's become a constant work in progress.
My fear is becoming an empty nester and feeling like I wasted my life. I'm trying to do small things for myself. It's hard, everything I do is planned around my children and their needs. The pandemic has made it so much worse too.
Good luck to you on finding things you enjoy. ♥️3 -
Oh man - even with the transient nature of MFP - i don't know that I could put the ideas somewhere other than my head.
There is a strength here. You are all amazing and beautiful.7 -
Miss_Chiev0us wrote: »Even if I'm 4 months in remission. Every day I feel like this, like something is pressing up against the back of my head as someone whispers in my ear.
"Sssshhhhh.... don't turn around. Just listen. I am holding a gun against the back of your head. I'm going to keep it there. I'm going to follow you around like this every day, for the rest of your life."
"I'm going to press a bit harder, every so often, just to remind you I'm here, but you need to try your best to ignore me, to move on with your life. Act like I'm not here, but don't you ever forget... one day I may just pull the trigger... or maybe I won't.
I have kind of learned to live with this the best way I can by living my best life everyday. Some days are just harder than others. Thankfully I've had really great days for a few months now.
i adore your attitude and i'm happy to know you. thank gob for the really great days. seriously...1 -
From a young age I ran calls with my dad who was a firefighter and paramedic. I saw people brought back to life, people who where not brought back, and the aftermath of murders and suicides carried out by various means. That is all for now.14
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brustmannzwei wrote: »From a young age I ran calls with my dad who was a firefighter and paramedic. I saw people brought back to life, people who where not brought back, and the aftermath of murders and suicides carried out by various means. That is all for now.
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A month ago the doctors told me my husband had a stroke. Two days later they tell me it wasn't a stroke, it's a large brain tumor. Three weeks ago they removed the brain tumor (he's healing up well!) and then told us it was malignant but not brain cancer. After a whole bunch of test they have narrowed it down to a neuroendocrine cancer that has metastasized to several areas. I have been caring for him and trying to keep up with my job (who knew I could do so much work from the hospital?).
But sometimes I need to take off my Super Woman cape and I can come here and look at pretty pictures and funny memes or read witty, funny or interesting conversations. It's my break from what I'm up against. I was surprised to read in this thread that other people use it as a break too. Makes me feel less alone in my thoughts.
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A month ago the doctors told me my husband had a stroke. Two days later they tell me it wasn't a stroke, it's a large brain tumor. Three weeks ago they removed the brain tumor (he's healing up well!) and then told us it was malignant but not brain cancer. After a whole bunch of test they have narrowed it down to a neuroendocrine cancer that has metastasized to several areas. I have been caring for him and trying to keep up with my job (who knew I could do so much work from the hospital?).
But sometimes I need to take off my Super Woman cape and I can come here and look at pretty pictures and funny memes or read witty, funny or interesting conversations. It's my break from what I'm up against. I was surprised to read in this thread that other people use it as a break too. Makes me feel less alone in my thoughts.
I'm so sorry this is happening 💔 Prayers for you and your family. There are amazing treatments and doctors out there so never lose hope. Hugs3 -
MiNinaLisa wrote: »Miss_Chiev0us wrote: »Even if I'm 4 months in remission. Every day I feel like this, like something is pressing up against the back of my head as someone whispers in my ear.
"Sssshhhhh.... don't turn around. Just listen. I am holding a gun against the back of your head. I'm going to keep it there. I'm going to follow you around like this every day, for the rest of your life."
"I'm going to press a bit harder, every so often, just to remind you I'm here, but you need to try your best to ignore me, to move on with your life. Act like I'm not here, but don't you ever forget... one day I may just pull the trigger... or maybe I won't.
I have kind of learned to live with this the best way I can by living my best life everyday. Some days are just harder than others. Thankfully I've had really great days for a few months now.
i adore your attitude and i'm happy to know you. thank gob for the really great days. seriously...
I adore yours and so happy to have you and to have had you there for me through my hard times. Je t'aime ma chérie. Xox2 -
@RAinWA I'm so sorry your life is so crazy and worrisome right now. Hugs, prayers and good thoughts to you and your dh. Every day is a gift.Miss_Chiev0us wrote: »A month ago the doctors told me my husband had a stroke. Two days later they tell me it wasn't a stroke, it's a large brain tumor. Three weeks ago they removed the brain tumor (he's healing up well!) and then told us it was malignant but not brain cancer. After a whole bunch of test they have narrowed it down to a neuroendocrine cancer that has metastasized to several areas. I have been caring for him and trying to keep up with my job (who knew I could do so much work from the hospital?).
But sometimes I need to take off my Super Woman cape and I can come here and look at pretty pictures and funny memes or read witty, funny or interesting conversations. It's my break from what I'm up against. I was surprised to read in this thread that other people use it as a break too. Makes me feel less alone in my thoughts.
I'm so sorry this is happening 💔 Prayers for you and your family. There are amazing treatments and doctors out there so never lose hope. Hugs
Thanks to both of you. He's getting the absolutely best care possible and we are very hopeful for the future - medical advances are so amazing and he has a really good attitude which helps.
Now, I just have to work on my tendency to want to control things. That is hard work!4 -
@RAinWA I'm so sorry your life is so crazy and worrisome right now. Hugs, prayers and good thoughts to you and your dh. Every day is a gift.Miss_Chiev0us wrote: »A month ago the doctors told me my husband had a stroke. Two days later they tell me it wasn't a stroke, it's a large brain tumor. Three weeks ago they removed the brain tumor (he's healing up well!) and then told us it was malignant but not brain cancer. After a whole bunch of test they have narrowed it down to a neuroendocrine cancer that has metastasized to several areas. I have been caring for him and trying to keep up with my job (who knew I could do so much work from the hospital?).
But sometimes I need to take off my Super Woman cape and I can come here and look at pretty pictures and funny memes or read witty, funny or interesting conversations. It's my break from what I'm up against. I was surprised to read in this thread that other people use it as a break too. Makes me feel less alone in my thoughts.
I'm so sorry this is happening 💔 Prayers for you and your family. There are amazing treatments and doctors out there so never lose hope. Hugs
Thanks to both of you. He's getting the absolutely best care possible and we are very hopeful for the future - medical advances are so amazing and he has a really good attitude which helps.
Now, I just have to work on my tendency to want to control things. That is hard work!
Having a positive attitude makes all the difference. When I found out my cancer was aggressive and stage 3, I thought my life was over. I never lost hope. Of course you guys will have some bad days, that's normal. It's frustrating, it's scary. The best thing to do is try to live 1 day at a time and have faith that everything will go the best way it can. When I was in treatments I met so many people with metastatic cancer that has been living with it for years. The word cancer is scary af, we often hear about the negative side of it but there's so many beautiful survival stories ❤ Your husband will need you and by the looks of it, he's got a good woman by his side. Stay strong.9 -
Miss_Chiev0us wrote: »@RAinWA I'm so sorry your life is so crazy and worrisome right now. Hugs, prayers and good thoughts to you and your dh. Every day is a gift.Miss_Chiev0us wrote: »A month ago the doctors told me my husband had a stroke. Two days later they tell me it wasn't a stroke, it's a large brain tumor. Three weeks ago they removed the brain tumor (he's healing up well!) and then told us it was malignant but not brain cancer. After a whole bunch of test they have narrowed it down to a neuroendocrine cancer that has metastasized to several areas. I have been caring for him and trying to keep up with my job (who knew I could do so much work from the hospital?).
But sometimes I need to take off my Super Woman cape and I can come here and look at pretty pictures and funny memes or read witty, funny or interesting conversations. It's my break from what I'm up against. I was surprised to read in this thread that other people use it as a break too. Makes me feel less alone in my thoughts.
I'm so sorry this is happening 💔 Prayers for you and your family. There are amazing treatments and doctors out there so never lose hope. Hugs
Thanks to both of you. He's getting the absolutely best care possible and we are very hopeful for the future - medical advances are so amazing and he has a really good attitude which helps.
Now, I just have to work on my tendency to want to control things. That is hard work!
Having a positive attitude makes all the difference. When I found out my cancer was aggressive and stage 3, I thought my life was over. I never lost hope. Of course you guys will have some bad days, that's normal. It's frustrating, it's scary. The best thing to do is try to live 1 day at a time and have faith that everything will go the best way it can. When I was in treatments I met so many people with metastatic cancer that has been living with it for years. The word cancer is scary af, we often hear about the negative side of it but there's so many beautiful survival stories ❤ Your husband will need you and by the looks of it, he's got a good woman by his side. Stay strong.
I have always admired your attitude and strength during all you have gone through - truly amazing. And you are right, it's scary as hell, but we are trying hard to take it one step at a time.
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toriann319 wrote: »I have always been shy in person, but very “out there” online. To be able to just randomly start talking to someone in person, I’d pass out before I even got the chance to say “hello”.
I’ve ALWAYS used humor, wit and a hellacious sense of humor as my wingman, my escape, a cover-up. I’d be lying if I said I’ve lived a hard life, because I haven’t. I’ve just simply made it hard on myself by letting my anxiety take over who I really think I could be. In all actuality, I’m a simple southern girl with social and obsessive anxiety, depression, ODC, germophobia and wear my heart on my sleeve while still building walls around my emotions. An entire disaster, if you ask me. 😂
Honestly, this place has made me overcome a few fears, as crazy as that sounds. When I first started, I wanted to make friends, but I didn’t want to talk to anyone first. I could never be the first to start a conversation. Even if it meant simply typing out a few words, my mind would be overflowing with a thousand questions; “What if they don’t reply?” “What if it’s annoying to just immediately start talking to them?” “Should I say something funny or just introduce myself?” “What if I say something to offend them because it was just funny to me?” “Is this too much to say in one message?”... and the list goes on. Eventually I psych myself out and just wait for someone to talk to me first, no matter how much I am dying to know everything about them. Here, I’ve learned that people are here to support one another, to interact with one another, and to bring out the positive and best in all situations. I’ve never had a close knit family so the “family” I have gained here is absolutely amazing. I’ve slowly realized that it’s okay to comment on every one of their posts to spread a positive word and support them reaching for their goals, it’s okay to message someone every day to ask how their day is going because you truly care, it’s okay to continue asking questions to keep a conversation alive for days, even weeks, because the interaction is what keeps us accountable and motivated. No one has ever made me feel annoying for checking in daily, no one has ever made me feel out of place for participating in forum shenanigans, no one has ever made me feel like I’ve completely inconvenienced their day by saying hello.
I saw where someone stated that she doesn’t let anyone get to know her, because she feels that once they know her, they can hurt her... and that statement hit different because I know. I completely understand. I’ve always been one on a search to find “needy” people, to find people who need help, who need a shoulder, ear or piece of advice. I’ve always been a sucker for someone who opens up to me and tells me everything about them, right down to the roots. I, however, have never let anyone who’s like-minded, find me, probably the most needy one in the bunch. 😂
It’s great to find people who can relate to you, it oftentimes makes you feel less alone in the world, even if they may be on the complete opposite side of it. 😉 All I know is that I’ve made relationships and connections with people here that I hope last a while. I’m alone more than I am with anyone else, so having that conversation about your day, or about who you are, or being able to dive in to someone else’s interests makes it that much easier to make the time well spent, move along faster. 🥰
I think you're pretty awesome and I'm glad you're here. 😊4 -
GymGoddessGoals wrote: »I'm always in pain. ALWAYS. And while it is better now that I have maintained my weight loss, continue with my fitness/therapies and manage a balanced food plan; I am still in a lot of pain. Sometimes I really would like to take pain medication (other than OTC meds) because some days it is honestly more than I can handle. Today is one of those days. I would love to go home, bomb myself outta my mind with a pain med and just lay in bed with ice packs just crying. Today I feel like giving up.
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I cared for my mom for the past 2 1/2 years. She had lung cancer & a brain tumor. She had 2 brain surgeries, chemo, radiation, & gamma knife over those 2 1/2 years. My husband & teenage daughters were my only support system b/c no other family (on my mom's side) lives here. She passed away in April and because of Covid, we only had 9-10 people at the funeral and weren't allowed to have a visitation. It was such a difficult time.
About 5 months after her diagnosis, 3 family friends (2 were father & son) passed away suddenly around a week to 2 weeks of each other.
Then, last summer, while all this with my mom was still going on, my husband fell from the roof of our building/business & had to be airlifted to a neighboring city (we live in a small town) & was in the ICU with a cracked skull, brain bleed, dislocated shoulder, broken vertebrae, broken ribs, broken thumb. I pretty much lived at the hospital for a while. I literally remember leaving his room to walk to another section of this huge hospital to be with my mom for her gamma knife surgery (they transported her from the nursing home that she had to go to after her second brain surgery, b/c I was told she had to have 24/7 care after that), & then going back to his room afterward. At one point a doctor told me if I didn't go home & get some rest, I was going to wind up in the hospital myself. So, I went home for one night (his sister stayed with him) & came back the next day.
In those 2 1/2 years, I made it through things that I didn't think I could handle. It was rough...really rough, but it made me realize that I'm stronger than I thought I was. I also have anxiety & panic disorder, which made it worse, but somehow I got through it. Most people would think of it as, "What did I do to deserve this?" or "Why is everything bad happening?", (& believe me,
I did for a while) but through much thought & meditation, I realized the good within the bad....that I got 2 1/2 extra years with my mom that many people with her diagnosis likely didn't get. My husband is also now (a little over a year later) recovered almost completely. Even the doctors are amazed.
Anyway, sorry that's so long, but it was a lot to go through & I didn't want to leave parts out.
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Social media helps us present ourselves to the world without the struggles, defects, inadequacies and vulnerability of real life. As humans we need to show that vulnerability to others . That is what makes us humans and why we develop strong ties with others. I am grateful for all the stories shared in this thread.10
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toriann319 wrote: »I have always been shy in person, but very “out there” online. To be able to just randomly start talking to someone in person, I’d pass out before I even got the chance to say “hello”.
I’ve ALWAYS used humor, wit and a hellacious sense of humor as my wingman, my escape, a cover-up. I’d be lying if I said I’ve lived a hard life, because I haven’t. I’ve just simply made it hard on myself by letting my anxiety take over who I really think I could be. In all actuality, I’m a simple southern girl with social and obsessive anxiety, depression, ODC, germophobia and wear my heart on my sleeve while still building walls around my emotions. An entire disaster, if you ask me. 😂
Honestly, this place has made me overcome a few fears, as crazy as that sounds. When I first started, I wanted to make friends, but I didn’t want to talk to anyone first. I could never be the first to start a conversation. Even if it meant simply typing out a few words, my mind would be overflowing with a thousand questions; “What if they don’t reply?” “What if it’s annoying to just immediately start talking to them?” “Should I say something funny or just introduce myself?” “What if I say something to offend them because it was just funny to me?” “Is this too much to say in one message?”... and the list goes on. Eventually I psych myself out and just wait for someone to talk to me first, no matter how much I am dying to know everything about them. Here, I’ve learned that people are here to support one another, to interact with one another, and to bring out the positive and best in all situations. I’ve never had a close knit family so the “family” I have gained here is absolutely amazing. I’ve slowly realized that it’s okay to comment on every one of their posts to spread a positive word and support them reaching for their goals, it’s okay to message someone every day to ask how their day is going because you truly care, it’s okay to continue asking questions to keep a conversation alive for days, even weeks, because the interaction is what keeps us accountable and motivated. No one has ever made me feel annoying for checking in daily, no one has ever made me feel out of place for participating in forum shenanigans, no one has ever made me feel like I’ve completely inconvenienced their day by saying hello.
I saw where someone stated that she doesn’t let anyone get to know her, because she feels that once they know her, they can hurt her... and that statement hit different because I know. I completely understand. I’ve always been one on a search to find “needy” people, to find people who need help, who need a shoulder, ear or piece of advice. I’ve always been a sucker for someone who opens up to me and tells me everything about them, right down to the roots. I, however, have never let anyone who’s like-minded, find me, probably the most needy one in the bunch. 😂
It’s great to find people who can relate to you, it oftentimes makes you feel less alone in the world, even if they may be on the complete opposite side of it. 😉 All I know is that I’ve made relationships and connections with people here that I hope last a while. I’m alone more than I am with anyone else, so having that conversation about your day, or about who you are, or being able to dive in to someone else’s interests makes it that much easier to make the time well spent, move along faster. 🥰
I think you're pretty awesome and I'm glad you're here. 😊
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My family grew up in a place and time when people were still feeding bears along the roadsides. Bears are very smart but they started living for their food rewards. If you didn't feed them something they would look through your car window and pull your wipers off. If they became angry they could knock tempered glass out of your vehicle in two shakes.
The bears became accustomed to entertaining themselves with playfoods and living for the food rewards. That's all they wanted to do and it destroyed their quality of life. These food reward people encounters were almost the bane of their existence.
Some order out of all of that chaos had to be imposed.
Entertaining myself with playfoods and living for the food rewards did the same thing to me. I'm not going out like that.5 -
Diatonic12 wrote: »My family grew up in a place and time when people were still feeding bears along the roadsides. Bears are very smart but they started living for their food rewards. If you didn't feed them something they would look through your car window and pull your wipers off. If they became angry they could knock tempered glass out of your vehicle in two shakes.
The bears became accustomed to entertaining themselves with playfoods and living for the food rewards. That's all they wanted to do and it destroyed their quality of life. These food reward people encounters were almost the bane of their existence.
Some order out of all of that chaos had to be imposed.
Entertaining myself with playfoods and living for the food rewards did the same thing to me. I'm not going out like that.
For some reason - and in all seriousness - this seems like it could be a great plot for a Lars von Trier film. The analogy is engaging.1 -
A month ago the doctors told me my husband had a stroke. Two days later they tell me it wasn't a stroke, it's a large brain tumor. Three weeks ago they removed the brain tumor (he's healing up well!) and then told us it was malignant but not brain cancer. After a whole bunch of test they have narrowed it down to a neuroendocrine cancer that has metastasized to several areas. I have been caring for him and trying to keep up with my job (who knew I could do so much work from the hospital?).
But sometimes I need to take off my Super Woman cape and I can come here and look at pretty pictures and funny memes or read witty, funny or interesting conversations. It's my break from what I'm up against. I was surprised to read in this thread that other people use it as a break too. Makes me feel less alone in my thoughts.
i hear you so loudly on this. when something obscure health wise arises out of nowhere ,and an initial diagnosis is made, that is alone enough to deal with. then upon further testing more serious maladies rear their ugly head, it's a complete faceplant. i'm so sorry that you and your husband are going through this. i also had a rare condition occur in a very fast timeline and through months of tests, was eventually diagnosed with stage four lymphoma. i have a great medical team supporting me and i hope your husband does also also. if you ever need to vent or would like a new friend - please feel free to add me. my thoughts and vibes go out to you and your husband/family6 -
Miss_Chiev0us wrote: »MiNinaLisa wrote: »Miss_Chiev0us wrote: »Even if I'm 4 months in remission. Every day I feel like this, like something is pressing up against the back of my head as someone whispers in my ear.
"Sssshhhhh.... don't turn around. Just listen. I am holding a gun against the back of your head. I'm going to keep it there. I'm going to follow you around like this every day, for the rest of your life."
"I'm going to press a bit harder, every so often, just to remind you I'm here, but you need to try your best to ignore me, to move on with your life. Act like I'm not here, but don't you ever forget... one day I may just pull the trigger... or maybe I won't.
I have kind of learned to live with this the best way I can by living my best life everyday. Some days are just harder than others. Thankfully I've had really great days for a few months now.
i adore your attitude and i'm happy to know you. thank gob for the really great days. seriously...
I adore yours and so happy to have you and to have had you there for me through my hard times. Je t'aime ma chérie. Xox
we will always have a connection T. i'm so proud of how far you've come and your tenacious spirit. you are a force to be reckoned with , and deserve nothing but the best that i KNOW your new life will bring you. je t'aime trop aussi, mon coeur0 -
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y’all ever think back to something you’ve done like some old memory just floats through your brain randomly and u are just horrified with some *kitten* u did, or the person u used to be ?
this happens to me and like i will literally start walking away from where’ve i am, like i think i can physically get away from the memory, or i will even accidentally say out loud “no” like i can stop my former self
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I've read each of the posts on this thread. I'm sending so much love to each of you going through challenges right now. My heart goes out to you and those concerned in each situation.
2020 started with my niece's funeral. I live a long way from my sister (my niece's mum) and the rest of my family, and as a result of world events haven't been able to visit to help give in-person support for my sister or to unite in our grief. My body is still recovering from the trauma leading up to and of my niece's death, as it was a stressful time.
It's definitely shaken my core beliefs and will probably take a while to adjust. But as a result I have posted less frequently on my MFP status, as I'm not feeling as 'light and fluffy' as social media often demands, or particularly 'inspiring and motivational', which tended to be what I was posting before.
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I'm afraid of failure. I don't think I have what it takes to be good at anything. As soon as something becomes challenging, I abandon it. I'm 25 and I feel stuck in my life and its been like this for 4 years now. Feels like my life is a complete waste. Nothing ever changes. I'm terrified of making any moves forward because I don't want to fail or be rejected. But being stuck is also causing me anxiety and depression. Just stuck.13
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sweet_ermengarde wrote: »y’all ever think back to something you’ve done like some old memory just floats through your brain randomly and u are just horrified with some *kitten* u did, or the person u used to be ?
this happens to me and like i will literally start walking away from where’ve i am, like i think i can physically get away from the memory, or i will even accidentally say out loud “no” like i can stop my former self
So much yes. And I will obsess over it and be anxious/humiliated/ragey all over again and start thinking about how the people who “witnessed” said event prolly also think about it and how pathetic/embarrassing/etc. I was and then will want to crawl in a hole and die.10
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