Self Hate -- Weekend Rant

sjohnny

I loved this post, and I hope you are still reading it!

Two weeks ago I had two dates that I met online I was really looking forward to- one more than the other but I was excited to meet both guys. Saturday night guy and I texted for two days straight and he asked if we could meet for drinks on Friday because "he just couldn't wait". I walked out the door thinking I looked hot, I even texted my friend and told her that the poor boy didn't stand a chance. I had that much confidence in how I looked. We had drinks he went off to his other plans and I went home.

The next morning as I was getting ready for my coffee date, drinks guy canceled for that night. Now, he could have met someone while out with friends the prior night, he could have been turned off by my personality but all I could focus on was my size. So, as I’m getting ready for my next date my confidence is a bit deflated but I still thought I looked good- profile pic. We had an awesome date I really felt we had a connection. He didn't ask for another date and I was devastated, two in one day was a bit more than I my shaky self-esteem could handle.

I told my friends I was just too big to date and that I was done. I couldn't handle the rejection anymore. I ran straight to my not good for me ex, but he reminded me of one very important thing. I WAS sexy to someone. And although we cannot be together he found me desirable and wanted to me. Now I need to find a way to put my big girl panties on and go back to dating because no one is going to find me sitting at home with the cats.

Good luck and vent away it's healthy!! :flowerforyou:

You may have already started down a dangerous path.

firstsip

I'm sorry... but anyone in this thread that thinks it is okay for her to acknowledge the problem, but not address the problem, probably has the exact same problem.

Enjoy hating yourselves, since you obviously relish in the pain you cause yourselves.

I'm going to move on from this thread because I'm actually trying to be healthy and there are too many in here content with how they are when they know they have a problem.

(Which, coincidentally, is what this guy will do unless he is just emotionally damaged too.)

Peace out!

What a disgusting comment.

Sorry your post got hijacked with such weird negativity, OP.

UsedToBeHusky

I'm sorry... but anyone in this thread that thinks it is okay for her to acknowledge the problem, but not address the problem, probably has the exact same problem.

Enjoy hating yourselves, since you obviously relish in the pain you cause yourselves.

I'm going to move on from this thread because I'm actually trying to be healthy and there are too many in here content with how they are when they know they have a problem.

(Which, coincidentally, is what this guy will do unless he is just emotionally damaged too.)

Peace out!

What a disgusting comment.

Sorry your post got hijacked with such weird negativity, OP.

I apologized for it. I let my frustration get the better of me.

BossLadyDSimp

Hey ... everyone is entied to their opnion ... I just ignore the negative ... maybe if UsedToBeHusky would have wrote me personally I would have told her that I actually do have a life coach and share these issues with her! Didn't feel like i had to say that but THERE YOU GO ... help is being sought, happy!

I appreaciate everyones post ... I wrote people indvidually ... I am working on myself, thinking positive, and letting this experience be a real wake up call and lesson about my life!!!

Thanks again everyone!

BossLadyDSimp

Google "Dove Real Beauty Sketch" or "Dove commercial with sketch artist." It is interesting.

LOVED IT! THANK YOU!