Black Team Week 11

Girlmom282109

So I was PM'd the other day and was given a request for a challenge and I thought it was great.

We are to post something here everyday about the positive things we have done for the day.

Here is mine. I passed my math class with a 77% and I actually saw 169 today!! YAY ME!!

renae77

Hey Sam that is a really good request. As I sit here thinking about anything I have done today that was positive not much is coming to mind. One thing I did do is take up for a Lady I work with that is a very very hard worker. So guess that could be positive.

On another note, I have spent my evening not so well. Was glad to be home from work, the I got yelled out and it really hurt my feelings and made me mad and I cussed and got up and walked out. So needless to say I have spent my evening crying. And to top it off my cat has been missing for 2 days so that didn't help with the crying spell. I sit here still with tears in my eyes and my nerves are shot so I finally broke down and took a nerve pill. Had a prescription for them but never took them. I can't handle much more this evening.

I am hoping you are all doing well. Sorry to come here and vent. I have felt like I was finally doing good with the scale moving and me eating better and moving more too and then everything seems to fall on my head. I know it isn't the end of the world and it could be worse so I am off of here to get some much needed rest. Have a great night everyone!

lynniejones

Today I got "unstubborn" and went to both the Doc and the Chiro.
That is all.

SatelliteCrush80

Sam- Congrats on both counts...YOU GO GIRL!

Renae- I'm sorry you're so upset. Hopefully you'll feel better after you've had some time to relax.

Hmmm...positive things?

*Bought my mom's birthday card
*Managed to stay out of Trader Joe's when I stopped for gas on the way home
*Bought a new pair of capri pants from NY & Company...they were originally 36.95 and I waited til they went on sale and paid 14.99 today!

loreeb18

Dave and I were talking about losing weight tonight and I had a mini meltdown.

I now have 2 or 3 pairs of size 4 jeans that fit well. I wear XS shirts, when I try most size small shirts on at the store, they're baggy. The other day I went to Kohl's and tried on a pair of size 2 dress pants that zipped, buttoned, and didn't give me a muffin top. Yet, I still feel fat.

I wore contacts today instead of my usual glasses and Dave said without my glasses on, he can see my face has gotten really thin.

I look at my wedding picture from 2 years ago when I wore a size 10 and I think I looked fat.

Lately I've been obsessing over my weight. I look in the mirror and don't see my collarbone sticking out or the area in between my bewbs looking bony. I look at the "fat" I see on my hips and below my belly button. And whenever I eat, I feel guilty. Not just when I eat badly. Today I had 2 cups of grapes and was still hungry so I made 2 pb&j's with natural pb and whole wheat bread and I felt guilty. I understand if I'd eaten half a cake by myself. But I shouldn't feel guilty eating healthy. I either feel guilty or I still feel so hungry after I'm done eating.

Dave said he doesn't want me feeling guilty about eating and be so obsessed with losing that I'm not happy. We talked about it and I decided to give the dieting a rest for a little bit. I switched my goal to maintenance. I've done that before but freaked out being scared of gaining weight so I'd switch it back after only a day or 2. Dave wants me to go a week without counting calories too but I said I need to ease into it. I'm home with a computer all day. If I try to avoid logging now, I'll just obsess over numbers in my head. So I'm gonna start with the higher calories and try to work into it.

This isn't really listing something postive like Sam said to but I needed to just get it out there. Thanks for reading my "book". I my black team!

musicmom04

hey black team!

well, today my parents came to visit, and i found out my mom has been doing weight watchers for the past 2 weeks! i'm so glad, cause she's always down about her weight, and i hope that seeing me lose 47 lbs has inspired her a little bit. i'm headed to mass next friday for a week to see my sister i haven't seen in over a year, and my best friend i haven't seen since last may, so i'm hoping for some good reactions. have a good night, friends, i'm off to bed

Marla64

Hey-- ran for the first time since Saturday-- woot woot!!!!

Busy week with Sarah competing. Very sad to have her knocked out, in such a disappointing fashion-- but, my standard chaos has resumed-- and I flourished today.

Spent time with the kids, cleaned my desk, filed months of bills and ran three miles.

That should take care of the next three days of positives-- ha.

Later, my friends--

God bless us all this day!

72lori

Missed this last night. Yesterday, went to the gym, finally worked my legs, which I've been avoiding. Did yard work, took care of hubs who has some serious back issue, he can't move, helped DD clean her room- like really clean it.

Off to take DH to doctor. Poor man!

arewethereyet

Positives!
(and y'all know I love me some proud moments 0

yesterday-I took the day off work to get to a doctor. his diagnosis is mild asthma brought on by enviromental toxins. In essence, my lungs close up when I come near perfume. Might not seem positive to you, but it was an affiramation that I aint crazy for me!!

My friends and family look at me crazy when I tell them I cant go into a place because of the smells in the air. Or get into their car if they just spritz the cologne. Now I know it is real, and I have a inhaler to help me when I have an attack.


today-I went to the gym at 7am to be abused by a beautiful, muscular short lady:grumble: :grumble:
My trainer is awesome and got me a sweet deal for 12 sessions. Last time I lost 4% body fat or near to it. This time it is about that last 8 freaking pounds..........I told her size 6 or 10 pounds and she gets a bonus!

I did everything she told me to do.......and added 1 to each challenge!

arewethereyet

Dave and I were talking about losing weight tonight and I had a mini meltdown.

I now have 2 or 3 pairs of size 4 jeans that fit well. I wear XS shirts, when I try most size small shirts on at the store, they're baggy. The other day I went to Kohl's and tried on a pair of size 2 dress pants that zipped, buttoned, and didn't give me a muffin top. Yet, I still feel fat.

I wore contacts today instead of my usual glasses and Dave said without my glasses on, he can see my face has gotten really thin.

I look at my wedding picture from 2 years ago when I wore a size 10 and I think I looked fat.

Lately I've been obsessing over my weight. I look in the mirror and don't see my collarbone sticking out or the area in between my bewbs looking bony. I look at the "fat" I see on my hips and below my belly button. And whenever I eat, I feel guilty. Not just when I eat badly. Today I had 2 cups of grapes and was still hungry so I made 2 pb&j's with natural pb and whole wheat bread and I felt guilty. I understand if I'd eaten half a cake by myself. But I shouldn't feel guilty eating healthy. I either feel guilty or I still feel so hungry after I'm done eating.

Dave said he doesn't want me feeling guilty about eating and be so obsessed with losing that I'm not happy. We talked about it and I decided to give the dieting a rest for a little bit. I switched my goal to maintenance. I've done that before but freaked out being scared of gaining weight so I'd switch it back after only a day or 2. Dave wants me to go a week without counting calories too but I said I need to ease into it. I'm home with a computer all day. If I try to avoid logging now, I'll just obsess over numbers in my head. So I'm gonna start with the higher calories and try to work into it.

This isn't really listing something postive like Sam said to but I needed to just get it out there. Thanks for reading my "book". I my black team!

Hi Lori, sorry your feeling so down. Your mind hasn't had a chance to catch up with your body. Keep exercising and find some joy in the new you.

Pick a focal point on your body that you love....not just like....LOVE

Everytime you look in the mirror, first focus on this spot. Mine is my arms. I make a muscle and feel it...smile and know I have worked my butt off for that muscle.

I have a long way to go and have a fluffy pillow smack dab in the center of my body...I hate it.......but I love the muscles in my calves much much more.

You will work through this.

One thing though......check into going from high deficit to maint. cals all at once. Banks wrote a book (teehee) about adding 100-200 a day for a few weeks. The body may react to instantly getting an addl 1000 calories a day. It all depends on your deficit.

Mine was like 800 cals a day and when I ate maint for the 1st week I gained. So add them back slowly:drinker:

Nonibug

Hmmm, positive things...well maybe just my whole past few days have been positive...?:laugh: Seriously though, I do find something positive in every single day somewhere along the day:flowerforyou:

Not much time right now, gotta get my doggy to the vet, myself to a Drs appt for a B12 shot, then some shopping and bills to pay, then tonight.....GRETCHEN WILSON!!!!:drinker: Have a great Friday everyone

ksproston

Dave and I were talking about losing weight tonight and I had a mini meltdown.

I now have 2 or 3 pairs of size 4 jeans that fit well. I wear XS shirts, when I try most size small shirts on at the store, they're baggy. The other day I went to Kohl's and tried on a pair of size 2 dress pants that zipped, buttoned, and didn't give me a muffin top. Yet, I still feel fat.

I wore contacts today instead of my usual glasses and Dave said without my glasses on, he can see my face has gotten really thin.

I look at my wedding picture from 2 years ago when I wore a size 10 and I think I looked fat.

Lately I've been obsessing over my weight. I look in the mirror and don't see my collarbone sticking out or the area in between my bewbs looking bony. I look at the "fat" I see on my hips and below my belly button. And whenever I eat, I feel guilty. Not just when I eat badly. Today I had 2 cups of grapes and was still hungry so I made 2 pb&j's with natural pb and whole wheat bread and I felt guilty. I understand if I'd eaten half a cake by myself. But I shouldn't feel guilty eating healthy. I either feel guilty or I still feel so hungry after I'm done eating.

Dave said he doesn't want me feeling guilty about eating and be so obsessed with losing that I'm not happy. We talked about it and I decided to give the dieting a rest for a little bit. I switched my goal to maintenance. I've done that before but freaked out being scared of gaining weight so I'd switch it back after only a day or 2. Dave wants me to go a week without counting calories too but I said I need to ease into it. I'm home with a computer all day. If I try to avoid logging now, I'll just obsess over numbers in my head. So I'm gonna start with the higher calories and try to work into it.

This isn't really listing something postive like Sam said to but I needed to just get it out there. Thanks for reading my "book". I my black team!

Lori - Hugs honey. I don't want to sound cliche, but I do know what you're going through and how you feel. I'm very proud of you for recognizing this and I am proud of Dave too for being so darn supportive. You recognized that you're having a problem and you are taking steps to help yourself. Please feel very positive about that.

arewethereyet

Hmmm, positive things...well maybe just my whole past few days have been positive...?:laugh: Seriously though, I do find something positive in every single day somewhere along the day:flowerforyou:

Not much time right now, gotta get my doggy to the vet, myself to a Drs appt for a B12 shot, then some shopping and bills to pay, then tonight.....GRETCHEN WILSON!!!!:drinker: Have a great Friday everyone

Roni, you should have your av shot and the one in your profile with the yellow shirt as your before and afters.

Girl you look 10 years younger and 100x healthier!!

I am so proud of your accomplishments!

Oh and have fun at the concert:drinker:

ksproston

I finally made it to our local farmers market last night. Didn't get anything besides 2 onions. But, when I got back, we walked to FILs to look at our garden. Early corn is ready. Picked 6 ears for dinner tonight. Tomatoes and cucumbers will be ready soon. I'm guessing the taters still have a couple weeks. Fairly small yet. Can't tell if we missed any onions or not. Weeds have overgrown those two rows. Didn't do what we needed to there obviously. I'd love to find some nice, big onions.

familygirl37167

Good morning black team,

My postivie for the day is you know that my dad is visiting from Ga this week wednesday i gave in and had pizza bufftet,

Yesterday i walked 8.5 miles and burned 625 calories and I made the family homemade cookies and homemade eggrolls and flautas (mexican taquitos) and I didnt eat any of them I at my cauliflower and chicken and banana. And just to let you know homemade chocolate chip cookies are my absolute favorite.

My friend who is doing WW came over yesterday and said Tamara you have more will power then I had, I said why is that she said lets look at what on your table alone

* 2 dozen Dunkin Donuts
* Bag of tootsie pops
* I bag of ande mints
* 12 dozen chocolate chips cookies
* Chocoalte pop tarts
and * eggs rolls

And I never touch any of it, She said dosent it tempt you I said I have been doing it so long it does not even phase me anymore.

My postitive for today Friday, I walked 7.5 miles today and going to get a pedicure and let my 4 year old get her nails painted.

I hope my whole black team has a great day!!!!!!!!!!

lynniejones

Lori, hang in there. You and Dave are an awesome family and you are going to get through this together!


My positive for the day is that I am going to have a wonderful weekend at the lakes, biking, hiking and eating! LOL.
This week has been an anything I want to eat week, will get back on it next week. Let's see if my second Marla can go away!

Thinking of you guys while I am out there having fun!

Lynnie

arewethereyet

I finally made it to our local farmers market last night. Didn't get anything besides 2 onions. But, when I got back, we walked to FILs to look at our garden. Early corn is ready. Picked 6 ears for dinner tonight. Tomatoes and cucumbers will be ready soon. I'm guessing the taters still have a couple weeks. Fairly small yet. Can't tell if we missed any onions or not. Weeds have overgrown those two rows. Didn't do what we needed to there obviously. I'd love to find some nice, big onions.

sounds yummy

I love fresh picked foods. When I went to MIL a few years back in TN I went out of our way to a farm to pick fresh veggies.

I cooked dinner and we had a great time. The entire time my MIL:grumble: I dont taste no difference.:grumble: dont see why ya gotta go to the country for food

:laugh: :laugh: Funny as heck!! The corn was my favOrite........mmmmmmm no butter needed:flowerforyou:

72lori

Lori- self body image is ver hard, I understand. At some point you have to tell yourself to be happy with what you have. You are still young, you are small, enjoy it. I wish I would have done this years ago. Now there are things that will never.... well, just never. It is what it is. Enjoy what you have, try telling yourself everyday that you are NOT fat.... over time you will start to believe it. Our minds are amazing things.

Jeannie- I wouldn't have thought you were crazy about the smells. I avoid perfume like the plague. Even Andrew's chain of stores kill me. I won't walk down a candle isle, I won't go near a perfume counter, I get pissed when DH decides to spray smelly **** throughout the house or puts those little trees in my car. I can't stand it when somebody beside me at the gym comes in reeking of perfume, cologne or hairspray. My family looks at me like I've got horns too! It gives me a headache and makes me feels bad. I'm glad you got something to help you. Funny but one day after DH decided to Febreeze half the house I told him I would rather smell farts! It's easier on my smeller.

Lynnie- hope you enjoyed your whatever week. I've had a whatever month.....:blushing:

Alright off to the pharmacy to get DH's meds to give him relief.

Marla64

Jeannie-- my husband is the same way with the perfumes-- although, he seems to be a bit better.

Years ago he made a real, uh, stink about it. Even went so far as to force me to tell my visiting mother, who positively bathes in Estee Lauder Youth Dew (hasn't worked-- ha) that she needs to bag the perfume during her visit. I wanted to die. She was totally ticked-- but, what was I to do?

Funny, though-- back in 1993, he and I were performing Handel's Messiah with a church choir-- I was SOOO excited. Here I was, practicing with these hoity-toity choir people and musicians from Princeton, New Jersey-- la-di-da-- all of whom were real, live musicians, sight-readers of music, et cetera-- and me. It was my first ever experience singing with a choir, one of the most difficult pieces of music out there.

They couldn't believe I didn't read music, 'cause I was right there with 'em all-- thank God for good pitch and an anal retentive memory--

BUT-- here's the funny, perfumy part--

The night of the performance arrives. Men in black tie, women in white blouse, black skirt-- very formal, very professional. Here am I, a lowly mother of three kids at the time, all excited for her first gig, and a night out to boot--

So I get all dolled up, hair all pretty, make up that I used to wear at the time (hush, David) and as my last act of primping, I squirt a bit of my "signature fragrance," Opium down my blouse. There-- sighhh-- I'm all ready to go.

We get in my teeny-tiny Mitsubishi Tredia for the 35 minute ride to the church and off we go. Keith starts to "Ahem," and snort and sniff and looks at me-- "What did you put on?"

"Oh, just a spritz of Opium."

Oh my-- the hullabaloo-- you woulda thought he was in the car with Pepe Le Pew--

You people and your allergies-- :noway: :laugh:

Today I can get away with it-- he's a kinder and gentler General Patton-- but, I'm lucky he didn't throw my butt alongside Route 1 in Princeton--

Later my friends--

72lori

Jeannie-- my husband is the same way with the perfumes-- although, he seems to be a bit better.

Years ago he made a real, uh, stink about it. Even went so far as to force me to tell my visiting mother, who positively bathes in Estee Lauder Youth Dew (hasn't worked-- ha) that she needs to bag the perfume during her visit. I wanted to die. She was totally ticked-- but, what was I to do?

Funny, though-- back in 1993, he and I were performing Handel's Messiah with a church choir-- I was SOOO excited. Here I was, practicing with these hoity-toity choir people and musicians from Princeton, New Jersey-- la-di-da-- all of whom were real, live musicians, sight-readers of music, et cetera-- and me. It was my first ever experience singing with a choir, one of the most difficult pieces of music out there.

They couldn't believe I didn't read music, 'cause I was right there with 'em all-- thank God for good pitch and an anal retentive memory--

BUT-- here's the funny, perfumy part--

The night of the performance arrives. Men in black tie, women in white blouse, black skirt-- very formal, very professional. Here am I, a lowly mother of three kids at the time, all excited for her first gig, and a night out to boot--

So I get all dolled up, hair all pretty, make up that I used to wear at the time (hush, David) and as my last act of primping, I squirt a bit of my "signature fragrance," Opium down my blouse. There-- sighhh-- I'm all ready to go.

We get in my teeny-tiny Mitsubishi Tredia for the 35 minute ride to the church and off we go. Keith starts to "Ahem," and snort and sniff and looks at me-- "What did you put on?"

"Oh, just a spritz of Opium."

Oh my-- the hullabaloo-- you woulda thought he was in the car with Pepe Le Pew--

You people and your allergies-- :noway: :laugh:

Today I can get away with it-- he's a kinder and gentler General Patton-- but, I'm lucky he didn't throw my butt alongside Route 1 in Princeton--

Later my friends--

LOL. Pepe Le Pew! I understand!

annaliza

Good afternoon everyone.

Oh man, I just went blank trying to think of positives LOL

I got some really good work in today. Wrote some code that worked really well and fixed a report that's been bugging me for months.

I stayed within my calorie range.

I kissed and hugged my kids and told them I loved them.

I didn't spit on anyone, blow up on anyone or flip anyone off (oh wait...there was that one guy...but he doesn't count :laugh: ).

It's been a pretty good day :happy:

Take care my Black Team friends!

72lori

I was very proud of myself today when I went shopping and had stuff in my hand and then told myself I didn't need any of it, put it down and left. I went looking for one thing, they didn't have it, which always leads to buying stuff I really don't need. I did good.

I finally got up the balls to call about the job. I didn't get it. :happy: :drinker: There was a brief moment where I was a little ticked, more of the 'what the hell is wrong with me' thing, but I'm over it. I'm not applying anymore unless a certain school has an opening- not the one I interviewed for, I had told myself that from the start, not sure why I caved. I'm weak, what can I say?

Anyway, it's a relief and now my brain can get back on track. All it's thought for a week was 'oh crap, oh boy, oh no, what have I done?'

arewethereyet

:noway: Poor Marla......but I get him, sorry. I have a really good friend who BATHES in her sent. NO seriously........she uses shower gel, then shampoo and condition, then the after body splash, then the body lotion, then the spritz of smell..............I can see the cloud as she walks from her house. I have learned to take my own car to whereever we are going.

I just dont enjoy dinner with hives, no oxygen and snot running down my face:laugh: :laugh:

Lori-I avoid all those too! My husband had 6, count em SIX air fresheners in his truck. I hop in and hop right back out. He was mad . get your butt back in here he says............no WAY I tell him.

I asked him about the AF he tells me it is 1........I am exaggerating as usual. So I get a towel and cover my face, and pull out 6 fresheners from the AC vents, the damn tree hanging on his mirror, behind the sun visors.

He apologized and we took my car:glasses:

72lori

:noway: Poor Marla......but I get him, sorry. I have a really good friend who BATHES in her sent. NO seriously........she uses shower gel, then shampoo and condition, then the after body splash, then the body lotion, then the spritz of smell..............I can see the cloud as she walks from her house. I have learned to take my own car to whereever we are going.

I just dont enjoy dinner with hives, no oxygen and snot running down my face:laugh: :laugh:

Lori-I avoid all those too! My husband had 6, count em SIX air fresheners in his truck. I hop in and hop right back out. He was mad . get your butt back in here he says............no WAY I tell him.

I asked him about the AF he tells me it is 1........I am exaggerating as usual. So I get a towel and cover my face, and pull out 6 fresheners from the AC vents, the damn tree hanging on his mirror, behind the sun visors.

He apologized and we took my car:glasses:

I get it! My husband always thought it was in my head, so he would try and hide the air fresheners in the car. I always knew they were there. My nose knows! I started throwing them out the window into the driveway when I would detect one.

I also had a coworker that used to have them in her car, I always offered to drive to lunch! I get almost panicky when I'm in a new situation and I might be faced with closed up cars and air fresheners. It sounds so silly to most people, but it's really a big deal if you are bothered by that stuff.

When we went to the Poconos, we ran out to this little grocery store for food. My hubs rounds the corner with a pack of air fresheners. I just look at him, he sheepishly says "I thought it would be good for the musty smell in the house." I glared. He put them back. :laugh:

arewethereyet

:noway: Poor Marla......but I get him, sorry. I have a really good friend who BATHES in her sent. NO seriously........she uses shower gel, then shampoo and condition, then the after body splash, then the body lotion, then the spritz of smell..............I can see the cloud as she walks from her house. I have learned to take my own car to whereever we are going.

I just dont enjoy dinner with hives, no oxygen and snot running down my face:laugh: :laugh:

Lori-I avoid all those too! My husband had 6, count em SIX air fresheners in his truck. I hop in and hop right back out. He was mad . get your butt back in here he says............no WAY I tell him.

I asked him about the AF he tells me it is 1........I am exaggerating as usual. So I get a towel and cover my face, and pull out 6 fresheners from the AC vents, the damn tree hanging on his mirror, behind the sun visors.

He apologized and we took my car:glasses:

I get it! My husband always thought it was in my head, so he would try and hide the air fresheners in the car. I always knew they were there. My nose knows! I started throwing them out the window into the driveway when I would detect one.

I also had a coworker that used to have them in her car, I always offered to drive to lunch! I get almost panicky when I'm in a new situation and I might be faced with closed up cars and air fresheners. It sounds so silly to most people, but it's really a big deal if you are bothered by that stuff.

When we went to the Poconos, we ran out to this little grocery store for food. My hubs rounds the corner with a pack of air fresheners. I just look at him, he sheepishly says "I thought it would be good for the musty smell in the house." I glared. He put them back. :laugh:

It is funny. I can go to a claimants home with dog poop or cat poop in the living room, walk right in and sit down to talk business.............but have some insence burning:noway: I make them sit out front:laugh:

Girlmom282109

So what am I proud of today? Hmmm???? I haven't really done anything, kind of a lazy day for me just ran some errands. I guess I'm proud that my girls were good for me while we were out. I got stopped about 4 times at the store because A was smiling at everyone and making them laugh.

Oh I know what I am proud of I made marshmallow fondant and didn't try any of it. made hubs do it.

I have to make A's cake for her family party here and then some time next week I have to make and freeze fondant and chocolate buttercream frosting for their party in NY. Wish me luck on a loss next wednesday.

Lori- I know how you feel I have been trying to find new bottoms for my bathing suit and every time I go into the dressing room I come out and go why do I even bother. I still see the fat girl in the mirror. When my belly is covered I say hey that girl in the mirror kind of looks skinny but the minute the belly is out I am like what am I thinking. I too am obsessed with my calories. The other day I was talking to my mom about the new dark chocolate reeses cups and told her that each one has 46 calories. I also told her that was a lot for 1 piece of candy. She told me that I shouldn't worry about a meesily 46 calories just to not over do it.

Jeannie- I love my smells. I never do strong ones though. just light and barely there.

annaliza- I bet that guy deserved it.

Tamara- you have more will power then I do. All that candy and you haven't touched it. WOW!!!!

Hope everyone else is doing great!!!

MTGirl

Hi Black Team!! My positive - for yesterday I got squarely back on track again. In a big way!! I got totally p*ssed because I'm up about 7 or 8 lbs of water weight and wasn't even doing anything about it. So there sodium! Anyhow - for today, even though I took the day off I still got up at 7 and hauled my 13 year old daughter out of bed and we went and walked around the lake. Only 1.4 miles, but I haven't done even that much for a month! So yay! Had to take 5 year old for her kindergarten check up and shots. She is cranky, tired and sore now!! Off to the store for some Tylenol chewables.

arewethereyet

My positive today: I was nice to my hubby when he came home from PT and made him a nice piece of swordfish and salad.

renae77

My positive for today is I worked very hard today to make some good money and I have had junk food around me all day and haven't even craved any of it! Major plus for me!!

Hope everyone is doing good.

SatelliteCrush80

My positive for the day is that I got to work early :bigsmile: It was only by 10 minutes, but early is early,

musicmom04

my positive for the day is that i felt thin. i know i'm a way off from that, but i didn't feel fat and bloated :drinker: