Confessions
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I have a lot . Just working in the courage to post them.
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I was a binge drinker myself. Not hard alcohol, but I was addicted to the taste of cider (hard cider in the US). As any cider drinker knows, a pint can be upwards of 300+ calories. I was drinking 3-4 pints a night, easily. So that was 1000+ all by itself, and of course, I needed to eat too. So I was probably packing over 2500 calories a day, with very little exercise, just because of my drinking habit.
I haven't given up drinking all together. But now I drink wine, and if I do have beer, I'll mostly limit myself to a pint. But no more cider, except on rare occasion.0 -
A whole box of oreo golden double stuff.
A family size pack of the fun size kit kats, and the Hershey bars. (Did this about two months ago!).
A tub of ben and jerry's.
Pringles. One serving is the whole box, right?
I also used to hide when I was eating. I still do that up to a point.0 -
Gladly making up a bowl of cake mix and going at it while I watched Family Guy late at night was a regular occurance
Full packets of biscuits
Full multibags of crisps
Sugar sandwiches
I love cake mix too....0 -
When I'm drunk, I sneak into the kitchen and eat ice cream outta the carton or massive amounts of cheese nips or chips. lol. Thankfully I only get THAT drunk like once a month. haha :laugh:0
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I used to polish off 20 pieces of boneless wings, fries and 3 beers for dinner about 2-3 x week.
DARK TIMES.0 -
I have an obsession with frosting, especially my own home-made stuff. I sometimes make it just so I can eat half of it with a spoon (straight from the bowl), and save the other half for cake or cookies, which I also eat way too much of. I also went through a phase in high school when my friend and I would buy a bag of double-stuffed Oreos and a jar of caramel sundae sauce. We would sit in front of the TV and dip the Oreos in the sauce, one by one, until the entire bag was gone. I also LOVE timbits and could easily eat an entire 20-pack box in one sitting. I have a serious sugar/baked goods addiction...... but I'm working on it.0
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I used to buy 40 ounces of Mountain Dew (my crack), and use that to wash down a Snickers bar, Peanut M&Ms, and half a chocolate cake, after going to the Safeway hot food buffet and getting the macaroni and cheese with the chinese beef chow fun, and eating them mixed together.
Sickening and yet making me wish I could still have it (to escape into a food coma).0 -
Doritos....by far a bag of Cool Ranch doesn't stand a chance in my presence. After that I am in love with Boneless wings from BWW and Beer. Not the cheap beer but the good beer, from micro brews and such. Unfortunately it is also the higher calorie beer. There I said it....I have an addiction.
Oh and lets not forget about the all general.....I Love Food!0 -
I'm so embarrassed by how I look I don't go back to my home town.
I haven't had a picture of just me taken in over a year.
I haven't had a picture of me taken with my husband in just as long.
Food used to be my best friend. I completely ate my feelings. This summer, I got up to 225 pounds (I'm only about 5'4).
I used to get winded slow-jogging half a mile.
My weight gain destroyed my feet.
SINCE JOINING THE FORUM:
In addition to the 25 pounds I lost on my own, I have lost an additional 9 pounds in a couple of weeks.
I have faithfully logged my foods, and while I do eat some junk, I have at least balanced to a place that is acceptable.
I HAVE NEVER GONE OVER MY CALORIE ALLOTMENT (Sorry, I'm really proud of that)
I have worked out every day.
I can now run three miles in a row at a 10-12 min/mile pace without feeling like I'm going to die.
I'm starting to feel like I'm accomplishing something.
I don't feel hopeless anymore! :-)0 -
I love this thread.
I have no self-control, still. I am petite (5'1) and people used to be amazed at the food I could eat. They'd comment on it, they thought it was funny. It really wasn't. I'm better now, but I still struggle with it. My mom brought home a large pizza the other night 'cause Domino's was doing the $$5.99 deal and I literally ate half of the whole thing before she even had 2 slices. I don't know how to stop at one. I used to be the same way with drinking. I would say I would just have one or two drinks but then end up drinking half the bottle, and then of course I'd eat anything and everything in the house. And then I would go 4 or 5 days without eating anything to make up for my binges. When I got drunk enough, I would purge (this didn't happen very often, and I'm ashamed of it, but it did happen). I've told maybe one person that until now.
I don't drink at all anymore and I am working hard to change my eating habits. It's a long road, but I've made progress. I'm proud of myself and my body now, whereas I used to be so ashamed of it.0 -
My mom and I would go to the local Mexican Restaurant and go through not one, but TWO large cheese dips and probably about 5-6 baskets of chips. And we'd still order regular meals and eat every bite. We left completely stuffed saying we'd never eat that much again...until the next time we went there. It was a vicious, never-ending cycle. Looking back I can't believe I put that much food into my body in one sitting...0
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I see I'm not the only one who polishes off an entire box of macaroni and cheese. OMG, I could eat that every meal, every day.
I also can't stop at just a little bit of ice cream. I've regularly eaten entire pints of Ben & Jerry's. Sometimes I would buy packs of ice cream bars to share with co-workers. "Share" being an overly generous term for letting someone else have one while I eat the rest...0 -
I ate a whole bag of extra long strawberry Twizzlers last week.0
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I love this thread.
I have no self-control, still. I am petite (5'1) and people used to be amazed at the food I could eat. They'd comment on it, they thought it was funny. It really wasn't. I'm better now, but I still struggle with it. My mom brought home a large pizza the other night 'cause Domino's was doing the $$5.99 deal and I literally ate half of the whole thing before she even had 2 slices. I don't know how to stop at one. I used to be the same way with drinking. I would say I would just have one or two drinks but then end up drinking half the bottle, and then of course I'd eat anything and everything in the house. And then I would go 4 or 5 days without eating anything to make up for my binges. When I got drunk enough, I would purge (this didn't happen very often, and I'm ashamed of it, but it did happen). I've told maybe one person that until now.
I don't drink at all anymore and I am working hard to change my eating habits. It's a long road, but I've made progress. I'm proud of myself and my body now, whereas I used to be so ashamed of it.
And look how far you have come. Great job!0 -
I would make what I called 'cheese cups' at night -- a coffee mug filled with cubes of different cheeses, melted in the microwave and eaten with a fork.... then, sometimes, i would drink a bit of the cheese grease that was left over.
OMG I have to admit that sounds soooo yummy lol.
I always wobbled between shame and trying to disguise my habits (eg. the pretending its for too people trick) and times when I couldn't even hide it and almost gave up... i almost got defiant about it, like 'yeah am eating 2 meals and a dessert designed for sharing to myself, i don't even care what you all think'. Agh, bad stuff going on.
My older sister tried to help me when I was a teen, and she'd confront me about stuff. Even if she clearly SAW me eat something or found the wrapping stashed in my room, I would still deny eating things!!
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I can pack nearly a whole medium pizza. I facking love pizza. I try not to order it when I'm stoned anymore. it's the worst.
and Breakfast buffets. or buffets in general. I only eat one plate now, where I used to go up for 3rds, even 4th's !
oh god and chip bags. like big chip bags. I can eat a whole one of regular lays. mm.
ok
obviously i was a fatty xD0 -
Totally understand that. Sometimes I would just be craving so much for NO REASON beside being bored and would go to multiple fast food restaurants just to not feel ashamed for wanting multiple things. After that, I'd feel guilty and keep eating and eating and eating.... usually by eating drained ramen with a whole seasoning pack poured on it.
It was pretty epic, if I must say so myself.
Sometimes I'll do this to this day, just because I know I can once in a blue moon. It holds a certain kind of comfort to it, regardless of how destructive it can be for one's health and weight loss.0 -
I love this thread ~ admitting what we DID and how we have changed/trying to change/ ~ its so motivating
And honestly ~ some of you can pack it away :laugh:
My confessions
* Totally guilty of ordering 2 meals pretending the 2nd is for someone else (thinking back ~ did they ever really buy that terrible attempt at covering up my gluttony)
* I used to volunteer to go to Taco Bell by myself to grab dinner for the family so I could order extra food for me and eat it in the car on the drive home because I didnt want them to see/judge how much I wanted eat (again - looking back - I didnt even enjoy the extra food because its hard to really ENJOY it while driving)
* When I was single & didnt want to cook dinner, I would buy a box of hostess cupcakes or ho ho's and eat the whole box in one sitting. ( i mean - this just makes my stomach hurt thinking about)
Phew!
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LOL this made me laugh haha.I used to polish off 20 pieces of boneless wings, fries and 3 beers for dinner about 2-3 x week.
DARK TIMES.
dark times.
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I used to claim I did not understand why I was fat ' Idon't eat any more than anyone else"
but I would sneak donuts on my way home from the super market and hid the bag in the outside trash, I would eat a whole tub of cake icing, I would take condesed milk and freeze it and eat it like ice cream. I would eat a whole loaf of french bread with butter and cheese....
I am trying so hard - I still have not stopped drinking ..... that has to be next0 -
Seriously Goldfish crackers should put serving size: 1 on the label.0
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I used to eat an entire 14" pizza with cheese stuffed crust for dinner all by myself. 2 years of this type of eating was enough to pack on an extra 50 lbs which I am still trying to lose.
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When I went to Michigan State, Wednesday night was $0.99 Whopper night. I used to get 4..... and I wonder why I had the biggest tits on my floor.... which was coed.0
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Seriously, I'm a never ending pit. I could eat and eat and eat...
My worse was a medium pizza all to myself. I would stop myself at 5 or 6 pieces but I could eat the whole thing.
I could finish ANY dessert by myself, no matter HOW many calories. If my hubby and I ordered dessert to "share" it usually meant he would have a few bites and I would polish off the rest.
Breads are the worst. I could eat a whole loaf of french bread in one sitting.
If I let myself, I could probably still do it. But the guilt and the weight aren't worth it.0 -
I never got in to the drinking or fast food that much, but I am guilty of just about ALL of the above behaviors. At my very worst before escaping my abusive marriage, I would buy one or TWO DOZEN donuts at the bakery on the way home and eat them all! I also often eat a half gallon of ice cream in one day, and on occasion it has been creeping up to two.
I purged from age 12 (my pic) to age 24 when the media started talking about how dangerous it was. I had kids, and couldn't die and leave them with their abusive dad- we had to get out. So I quit purging, but never have been able to quit binging.
I have a sister who is anorexic.
I am defintely ordering that book about Food: The Good Girl's Drug. I am like an alcoholic with food. Even going to different stores to buy ice cream so no one notices how much I buy!
This thread has been really helpful for me to see that I am not alone and that I CAN change these behaviors.0 -
I confess that I used to have dangerously disordered eating habits. I struggled with anorexia all throughout high school. When I became pregnant with my daughter, I forced myself to eat for my baby. My metabolism was so out of whack from years of starvation that I packed on an incredible amount of weight eating what would be considered a fairly normal diet. I kept a food log during my pregnancy. I used to log my food obsessively. I always ate between 1800 and 2000 calories a day and I still gained about 65 pounds because my body was so used to running on about 500 calories a day.
I confess that after I had my daughter, my anorexia morphed into binge-eating because I was so depressed at how much weight I had gained that I said 'screw it!' and stopped caring. I confess that I used to buy whole boxes of snack cakes and whole big bags of chips and sit in the computer room when my husband was at work and the baby was napping and just gorge myself and eat every last crumb of it and hide the wrappers because I was so ashamed of what I had done. I felt like such a disgusting pig.
I confess that I used to sneak out of the kitchen in the middle of the night and eat entire half gallon containers of ice cream in one sitting, and hide the empty container at the bottom of the garbage, and then when my husband went looking for ice cream, I would act just as puzzled as he was when there was none left and no sign of the carton anywhere...
I confess that I used to make homemade frosting just to sit around and eat it all with a spoon...
When we started trying to conceive a second baby, I tried losing some weight because I was worried that my weight was affecting my fertility and I became pregnant after losing a few pounds...very early into the program...so I stopped trying to lose weight and tried to just...maintain as well as possible. I ended up only gaining 20 pounds with my second pregnancy and after I had my son, I weighed 2 pounds lighter than I had weighed when I conceived.
That was a huge boost for me...I felt like losing weight in a healthy way with sustainable changes was achievable, for the first time in a long time.
And now I confess that the way I used to eat, while I sometimes miss it, and I sometimes consider backsliding, it makes me feel sick to my stomach! I know I am on the right path and I can't wait to reach my goal of a healthier ME!
I think it is therapeutic to share our food demons with each other, and we can offer each other good support here...I felt a lot less ALONE after reading some of these confessions. 0 -
I wish I could say that All my confessions are things I've put behind me but they're not, they've just changed form.
I confess that since joining mfp if I don't reach my own expectations of myself for the day, I feel so guilty,
And in an extremely excessive way because it's even if my day wasn't too bad and I'm still under calories and just didn't get any exercise in. I feel miserable . Like I'm cheating myself and I'm never going to get anywhere if I don't push harder than I have been altogether and I'm so scared I won't make it and my body will just stay like this0 -
I have no self control... If there is junk food anywhere around me I will eat it.
There have been days when all I do is literally sleep and eat.
Cheese is my greatest weakness! I love it. I can easily get all my daily calories out of just eatin cheese. Disgusting I know!
I use to stop by McDonalds get a large order of fries and a Mc Flurry and then throw all the evidence away before I got home.
I have been doing much better here lately, but even this past month while at the training academy I made a B on my first test and eat 2 depression doughnuts and didn't even care who saw me.
I have lost 70lbs, 12 on here, but damn it I have a long way to go and I am going to get there0 -
I ate an entire bag of Frito Honey BBQ Twists Chips by myself in the passed 3 days.
I have a pint of vanilla ice cream sitting in my freezer bought after a long day and night of research and studying in the library.
I have had more cookies, cake, Mtn Dew Code Red, and Brisk Fruit Punch in the last 4 days than I've had in the passed 5 months (also bought after studying and researching for hours)
*This is why I need to avoid the on campus convenience store*
I have eaten 2 meals at dinner in the Cafeteria on campus (its not the best tasting or most nutritious and its all you can eat)
I snack all the time (especially when I'm bored)
I have started to eat well beyond no longer being hungry, I eat till I'm full or stuffed on bad days
:ohwell: Wow I hadn't realized how much control I let go of ("lost" seems to imply that I hold less responsibility for my actions and this was all definitely my responsibility to keep up with). Maybe I'll put this list up in my dorm so that I know what to look out for and to stop doing.
Thanks for posting this Joselo :flowerforyou:
~Tammi0
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