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I used to eat a huge meal before I went out. Then at a restaurant order a lot of food, but wouldn't finish it and just say I had left overs for tomorrow. But when I got home they never made it to tomorrow.0
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many times in the past i have eaten a whole medium takeaway pizza to myself with a side dish of mozzarella dippers- with alcohol of the side!0
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I think there is something therapeutic to this post... Look at the past, acknowledge that it happened, forgive myself for it and keep moving in a better direction.
I the past:
I never went anywhere with out my pepsi. First 32oz and by the 44oz. I carried it around like a security blanket. Now I call it poison water....
During my divorce I took a lot of comfort from food. The deli on the way home made fried potatoes and smothered them in nacho cheese sauce...I stopped everynight on the way home for those. I probably wouldn't have stopped but they changed the cheese sauce ruined them... THANK HEAVANS!
I remember during my miserable marriage running to McDonalds to get breakfast. I pulled mine out and scarfed it down and then had to stop by another so I could go home and eat with my husband.
Currently i am on a diet program recommended by my dr and I currently I am doing better, but not perfectly and I really have to fight the urge to hide if I go off program. I write every bite of what I eat down right down to the one bite of chocolate ice cream and the candy bar from the vending machine at work.0 -
i used to drink TWO bottles of wine in a night, then eat...well i would never remember what i actually ate after that!0
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Just thought I would add to this, I am 5 years sober today.
Big, hearty congrats on this. It's a HUGE accomplishment!0 -
Just thought I would add to this, I am 5 years sober today.
Big, hearty congrats on this. It's a HUGE accomplishment!
Thank you! I have to say, those first 90 days were not easy and I cried a lot, but boy was it worth it. I can not believe how obsessed with alcohol I was, and did not realize I was until I stopped. Believe it or not, NOT drinking is way easier than drinking. No more having to figure out how to get it done with out looking like I had a problem. :bigsmile:0 -
I read every single post on this 7-page thread. It's actually a relief to know that I'm not the only one who has a dysfunctional relationship with food.
I have a lot of food allergies and sensitivities. Things that will give me rashes, bloating, violent diarrhea and gastrointestional distress for days. My confession? I eat things that I know will make me sick, because I WANT IT. Because they taste good. Because sometimes I justify that the week of feeling bad is worth that bite or plate of --whatever--. I can't eat any dairy - but will discreetly snatch up snack-sized chocolate bars from the office treat stashes and eat them at my desk. If it's leftover in the fridge, sometimes I'll say screw it and eat that piece (or 3) of leftover pizza with cheese on. If there are chocolate chip cookies in the house? Forget it. I eat them and pay for it later.
I wish I could say that I've conquered this habit, but I haven't. I'm far better about it than I used to be - but I still eat things that I know will make me sick - in addition to making me fat. It's a struggle every day.0 -
I'm afraid people will always see me as fat no matter how small I get.0
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I'm afraid people will always see me as fat no matter how small I get.0
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Sometimes for dinner I would get the family size bag of chips with a jar of cheese dip and eat the entire thing
Yes, my old time favorite.0 -
I used to be able to finish off an entire 12-pack of coke in 2 days and finish an entire bag of tostitos with queso dip in one sitting.
Proud to say now that I can't do that anymore. It took a long time to get here, but it feels good to finally get control.
My relationship was food was my way of self-sabotage in response to years of stress and borderline depression.0 -
I'm afraid people will always see me as fat no matter how small I get.
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I'm afraid that I'll fall back into my old eating disordered habits. I'm afraid of a lot. I'm a giant wiener.0 -
Confessions. Oh how I wish they obsolved feeling so guilty.
I am afraid to loose the weight because I have never been able to keep it off. There I have said it, out loud, sort of. And the shame I feel after gaining it all back and seeing people I havent seen since I was thin is just too much. Because they look at you with those "what happened to you??" eyes. Knowing that you gained it all back.
I have no problem eating healthy and excercising and loosing weight in the beginning, its the after attaining goal that I have trouble with it. Because it really is a lifestyle change. You cant just go back to eating everything you love all of the time or it all comes back. Its almost fun to loose weight; all the attention you get from people telling you how great you look, all of your clothes fitting perfectly - even loosely; buying new outfits and showing off your new body. It makes all of that hard work completely worth it. But then what? Nothing. Nothing happens after that. You have to continue to eat healthy and excercise and work just as hard to keep it off. But you dont have the added benefit of losing anymore weight because you are at goal. Sure I tone up slightly more but so slightly that no one notices, most of all me. When I stop seeing positive changes in my body I start to get discouraged. Its hard to do all of the hard work just to keep something that you already worked hard to get. It most areas of life you set a goal, you work hard to achieve it, and then you are done. You move on to something else. There is nothing where you keep working your *kitten* off to keep what you already have. It doesnt even make sense. Its depressing.
But alas if I dont then I just gain it all back and I have to start from square one. And losing weight in my early 20s was sooo much easier than it is now. So I really need to get a handle on finding a happy balance that I can achieve and then keep without feeling so deprived and without feeling like I am working so hard without getting anything in return.
OMG! That.
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I lived DIRECTLY behind a McDonalds for 6 months. Seriously, you could look out my window and see the golden arch, and on hot days smell the cooking fries in our house!
Instead of walking across the intersection to the grocery store to buy food, 9 times out of 10 I would just hop our back fence and walk across the parking lot for a couple double cheeseburgers, fries and a Dr. Pepper off the dollar menu.
Some days I did this for breakfast, lunch and dinner. And dessert. And sometimes a midnight snack.
Wow. I can't believe I just admitted that. I want to go run and hide my face now.0 -
I have eaten a whole thing of ice cream numerous of times.
I have eaten a whole bag of salt and vinegar chips easily.. For breakfast.
Lots of days where I just sat on the couch all day - I still have the occasional day like that...
I could eat like... 3lbs of chicken wings... easily.
I would eat like 3 plates at a Chinese food place and then get desserts.
Going up 13 flights of stairs would have me dying for 20 minutes.
I never drank water... Mostly chocolate milk, juice and energy drinks.
I gave up for awhile and just stopped caring and ate whatever I wanted and just thought I was going to be fat forever.0 -
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I used to always go to fast food restaurants such as BK and McDonalds and order 2 hamburgers, 2 chicken sandwiches (or sometimes wraps) and a large fry and have it all gone within 10 mins.
I've cooked up an ENTIRE box of pasta and eaten it all myself.
Bought cartons of Chinese (especially chicken fingers...mmmm...) and devoured them
You know those delicious boxes of Little Debbie snack cakes? I would easily plow through one of those in one sitting. Same with the Hostess (I think) mini doughnuts
God, I could go on foreverI feel like I have pretty much gotten my binging under control, but its something I just have to take day by day, because I think the urge to binge will always be in the back of my mind.
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After my roommate' brothers 21st birthday party a few years back, I was so brutally hungover that I couldn't function.
So, I needed some greasy food, which included:
2 Sausage, Egg, and Cheese McGriddles from McDonald's
1 Sausage, Egg, and Cheese on a Croissant from Dunkin Donuts
A whopper with cheese, a McChicken, and a large fry
To echo everyone's thoughts-- I've eaten a bag of chips in one sitting, a large pizza, etc...
My problem has always been snacking with the idle time. Now, I'm much more capable of saying... Am I hungry? Do I need that? Also-- I discovered the salted (I know...) nut mix from Whole Foods. It keeps me full and kills hunger pangs.0 -
Could eat a whole pizza by myself.
I could easily eat hot chips for every meal.
I remember weeks where I would go without eating a single vegetable or fruit.0 -
Oh, I can relate to so many of these posts!
:blushing: This is surprisingly hard to write. My biggest thing was regularly eating entire bags of chips with dip. Usually followed by an entire block of chocolate. And always getting Italian or Indian take away and eating it all. I don't eat meat and I would pretty much just eat potato and bread products until I was full. And like somebody else said, nutella would not last a day. I will never be able to be in the same room as nutella:laugh:0
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