200+ Recommitting for the New Year!

Sleep won. I'll have to get up early tomorrow to run.

Amy - American Gods is quite bizzarre. I'm about 1/2 way though. It's not making much sense to me.

As to Zombie movies - they generally aren't my cup of tea but I'll have to put one on the Netflix cue. I guess it's time to get moving. Hopefully, I'll get to checkin tonight.

Had a proud moment last night during workout, convinced husband to go, but I arrived around 20 minutes before he did as when he goes, we usually ride in together as the Y is about 20 minutes from where we live and we both work downtown, so it is more convenient for us to ride in to work together and then go to Y immediately after work. However, he usually only likes to work out for about 20 -30 minutes whereas I prefer a 40 -50 minute workout.

Anyway, so we drove into work separately yesterday as he was unsure if he would even be going to the Y and I knew it would be too tempting to not go if he wasn't going to go, and we were riding and we would just go home.

I have a goal to walk/run in at least 5K's this year and for my first one (in March) I would like to walk it in less than an hour, so I have been pushing myself as I am training to get to 2 miles in 38 minutes or under. I have been really close recently but not having actually met the 38 minute mark, it is has been 38:12 or 38:25, so being that I had a head start before he ever got there, I pushed myself to keep going when I thought my legs were going to fall off. I had been there for 20 minutes and managed to get 1.15 miles in before he ever arrived. Then while he was there, he walks at a much faster pace than I do, I was able to keep up with him and finished my 2 miles in 36 minutes. So while he was finishing his workout, I was able to do my cool down and still get in almost a 45 minute workout.

If I can keep that pace, then I shouldn't have a problem achieving my overall goal of less than an hour for my first 5K.

One positive: I also must admit with the issues from within our marriage in 2010, it is also an opportunity to spend more time together, so I am willing to do a condensed workout when he goes with.

Negative: He has to be at work by 7 a.m. and I at 8 a.m., so I have to get up an hour earlier and get to work an hour early, however he too sacrifices and stays at work until 5 p.m. when you could get off at 4 p.m. But I am not only missing about 20 minutes of my workout but also an hour of sleep.

I just keep telling myself it will all be worth it in the long run.

Adg- my husband and I hit a pretty rough patch last month but are working thru it. Any time you can spend with your husband is good to repair hurts in a relationship. That is one thing jeff and I don't have too much of and we are attempting to find more time together. Having a kid sure does change that dynamic. And awesome job on the walking!!!!woohoo!!

Victoria - I'm half way through reading the book too. I've kept up with it and get it, but i can really see how listening to it would throw me for a loop. There are some books I think for me are better to listen to and some are better to read!

Kristina - I hope you feel better, enjoy your friends.

Well I'm home today. Gracie is having an ear infection i think, so I'll take her to the doc later on and hopefully we will nap too. I'm sore all over and could use the extra rest.
Jeff might be going to meet a friend he hasn't seen in a long time , and with g being sick that may mean no working out. So my goal today is to watch what I eat. And either do 100 minute work out tomorrow or do 350 minutes next week to make up for what I missed this week. Boo.

Hi all! I read the thread this morning and then THOUGHT I posted without ACTUALLY posting.:laugh: I'm a dork! I had a rough night last night with a fibro-flare up and could have easily stayed in bed all day and wrote the whole thing off on fibromyalgia. I would have gotten away with it too...'cept the fact that I KNOW I feel better when I exercise. So I trudged out of bed this morning and took the kid & dog for a walk in the snow. We met a cute old man with a cute little dog named "Indy" - he thought it was funny that his dog is named after a character in an American film and that I happen to be American. (Sometimes I don't get what the Germans think are funny but he was a sweet guy anyway) After the walk (which ended up being longer than planned due to the German guy and the beautiful snow falling), my aches and pains were almost gone (I did rub a bit of eucalyptus oil on my sore points to help with the pain) and I proceeded to get my run in (2.5 miles at a 12:30 pace - not bad for me) and my P90X in.

ADG: It weird how women can lose themselves in family/kids. My mom did that. Her kids became her world and she and my dad ended up with two completely separate lives. I always keep that in mind and plan me & hubby alone time where we don't talk about the kid/ money stuff/ work stuff and just enjoy each other's company.

Lacey: I hope Gracie feels better soon!!! Ear infections are the WORST.

Kristina: Enjoy your old roomies!!!

Kendal: You know what's funny??? Before moving to Germany, I would have been right with you on the complaining about customer service but now I'd say you are lucky they got around to "helping" you at all. Seriously, "customer service" in Germany does NOT exist. You're lucky if companies do things when they say they will (think: hook your internet up or come to fix your furnace) and there's no way in hell that they are gonna give you even a window of time for when they MIGHT appear. I seriously MISS the days of the cable guy saying he will be there between noon and 6 pm - you can't even pin these people down to a specific DAY let alone a period of time within that day. The weirdest thing is that all the Germans just accept it. No one complains - they just work with it. Weirdest damned thing I've ever seen. But my totally American nature feels you on the frustrating lack of helpfulness of your bakery people. It's good that you walked out - they shouldn't benefit from your business if they're gonna treat you like that! I'm sorry your period is being a pain - feel better soon. :flowerforyou:

Hi all!! so hard to get on here these days (as it is my daughter is in bed and my son is nursing so i'm typing with one hand...

Anvy - i don't know how you don't go postal with that kind of service. there's nothing more aggravating to me than poor service. I would have done the same as Kendal: had anoutburst and then go to management and then regretted the whole thing! i can't count the times!! i'm in Canada by the way (hence the centigrade temperature). I'm foreign, but not as foreign as you are right now i know a couple swears in german if that helps?

Bethany (Mrs Marv) - i STILL have nightmares about missing class and i graduated Uni 8 years ago! when i was a first yeart i sat in the wrong class but was too embarrassed to get up and so i sat through some sort of advanced physics.

Sullen- thanks for the tips on eating, excercising with kids etc. i'm especially empowered to hear about how you started running - everyone starts somewhere - it's hard to remember that (i assume runners have always run marathons and the like, so they are they and i'm not a they) starting wt for the week is 235 - even though i know i've gained this week, last week's flukey 5 lbs came after a week of meeting my goals (something i haven't done this week). in 3 weeks i'd love to lose a pound a week, so be 232 lbs.

Lacey - your tip about logging the treat early and "earning" it is BRILLIANT! i am very bribe orientated - that will suit me perfect. i need to do the same with diet coke - i drink it like water! sorry to hear about the ear infection - the only thing worse than having one is a 4 year old with one. how'd the doll thing work out? is G back in the teacher's "good graces"? poor little thing

ADG - my mom lost herself in us and work. now she's retired and we're grown and she and my Dad are in two completely different worlds. Enjoy loving yourself and taking care of yourself.

As for me - I made cupcakes last night as a "treat" - yeah, they're all gone. I truely want to reach the point where food doesn't dictate my day - where I can sit down and eat what I want and stop when I'm full. I love "healthy" foods - i eat relatively healthy most of the time... unless there are treats in the house - then I eat them all up and go back to eating well. THE most important thing to me is teaching my kids well. My mom was always on a diet, always unhappy with herself, how clothes didn't fit, etc. She had us on diets in grade school (we were the fat kids, but nothing that couldn't have been nipped in the bud). we'd watch all the other kids eat icecream at the dayhome and we'd get canned fruit. So everyone knew we were dieting. I can remember stealing food, I was so hungry (or I thought I was anyway) - eating bread in the bathroom. Then they'd give us a dollar on the weekend to go to the store and buy junk (back in the day a dollar bought you a pop AND a bag of chips! - i'm 34). So many mixed messages. we were enrolled in figure skating for YEARS, then as a reward get greasy arena burgers and fries for supper. I want my daughter to love herself no matter what she's inherited that she'd prefer were different, love herself no matter what she weighs, no matter if she shaves her eyebrows off accidentally (yes, i was that kid).And take care of herself BECAUSE SHE DESERVES TO. The first step to teaching her thse things is to learn to love myself AS IS. Why is that so hard? I look at their beautiful little bodies. My children are perfect - 10fingers, 10 toes, my daughter was even born with a cleft lip that required repair at 3 months old. She is perfect. How I pray I can find grace in my klutzyness, beauty in my bumpy skin, stealth in my extra layers To steal a line from He-Man... I HAVE THE POWER!!! on that note, off to bed with me, clearly the cupcakes have gone to my head (better than my butt!)

Hello everyone,
So glad to see that you're all here. I don't have any other friends who are working on losing weight, so I feel like a major piece that is missing for me is accountability. It's easy to make excuses, etc etc etc when there's no one to call you on it
So...great to meet you all, and see how hard you're working!

I'm feeling much better and the back pain is gone!!! My first client canceled so I was able to get my run in - 3 miles at 13:57 pace. Tried the new shoes I picked up at the Detroit Expo in October (same brand and size as my old shoes)... On a whim, I looked at treadwear of new and old shoes. I should have been using the new shoes when I started this training. The BodyBugg should be here tonight - YEAH!!! I can't wait to try it out.

I forgot it was weigh in day and already had my running gear on when I saw the scale. I was afraid I'd skip the run if I took it all off. I'll weigh in tomorrow. It wont be pretty as were are having Thai food for dinner. I shopped yesterday and bought out the produce dept so I can cook healthy the rest of the weekend.

Welcome Izzy!!!

I'll take more time to respond to everyone over the weekend. Congrats on the lose Amy!!!

TGIF and enjoy the weekend!!!

Happy Friday! I am back at work, happy about it. Gracie is at school..her mental health day (lol) did its job and now she is good to go. That and the hot pink shoes I bought her last night at Target for $10. Totally worth the money.


I weighed this morning to torture myself, I am always WAY up Friday..210.6. But last Friday I was like at 211.2 or something, so hopefully that bodes well for my Monday morning actual weigh in..

Hi ladies. We made japanese food last night and I'm up a little this morning, so I'm going to see if tomorrow is any better before I weigh in.

Its been hectic at work the past couple days. They swapped out my computer and gave me a laptop and I've been trying to find the right settings for it (we use dual monitors so its a matter of figuring out the settings two times)

We're supposed to get more bad weather Monday and Tuesday of next week (or maybe Tues/Wed...they aren't sure yet). Thats another reason I need to set up my laptop stuff.

The cake/party thing went off great today. I was happy about that.

A lady here at work asked me if I was still losing weight cause it looks like I've lost more. YAY! that made me feel good, especially since I haven't worked out all week. I'm looking forward to starting P90X over again (and getting it right this time).

TOM is finally starting to retreat. ....starting to......hopefully it'll be gone by Sunday.


/my randomness

Sarah- a beer every once in a while isn't too bad....like you said, up the water and you'll be good

Lacey- glad G is feeling better. I had so many earaches when I was a baby they put tubes in my ears. Eventually I quit having earaches though. Hot pink shoes can fix just about any bad day.

Kristina- sorry you aren't feeling too hot.

Victoria- great job getting your run in! I forgot to weigh in till after I got dressed this morning, so I decided to take my jeans off and weigh (hadn't put shoes on yet). If it was more than just taking off my pants, I would have skipped it. lol

izzy- Hi!!! this group is all the support I have and its all I need. Tell us a little about yourself. age? family situation? relationship? kids? pets? where are you from? we talk about everything in our lives, not just our weight loss and I think thats probably why we've kept this group going for so long....

Amy- My family was a lot like yours when I was a kid. Food was a reward. Even now mom and dad have to have a dessert every day after dinner (I'm talking a big hunkin dessert too). Its part of the reason my 12 yo brother is 205 pounds. Granted, he's now an inch or two taller than me, but he's always been husky. I hate to talk to him about his weight though cause I know he's developing a self esteem complex. Mom always tells him not to eat so much and makes him self concious about his size but at the same time, he eats because they keep so much junk food (aka "snacks") in the house and he has also learned to eat dessert after every dinner. Plus he eats out of bordem I think. He's used to eating "snacks" at certain times and ends up eating most of the day when he's really not hungry. I know thats how I got to be so big.

hmfishy- my boyfriend bought these chocolate cake roll things (think the little debbie chocolate rolls, only these are about 3 times bigger and don't have that chocolate coating). When I'm in a grocery store, I can walk past every sweet thing there and say "I don't need to eat those calories so theres no need to waste the money." But once its in the house, I can't stop myself. I had one yesterday and went back for a second a couple hours later and reminded myself that I'd already had one. I know he had good intentions cause I was the one who originally said I wanted something sweet, but I didn't buy it for a reason...

adg- good luck with the 5k! There is so much excitement on those days that you will probably increase your pace without realizing it.

Thanks everyone for the words of encouragement, it is really needed.
WARNING LONG POST:

Just a quick note to all with signifcant other and children: I did put my children and work and everything and everyone before me and in the big picture everyone turned out ok. My daughters are beautiful and have a much better understanding of themselves and how to take care of themselves, emotionally, spiritually and physically, it's about communication. We talked and still talk about it alot!! What I did fail at was keeping my husband engaged and me as a person fulfilled. For the last 5 years we have led two completely different lives... and it hit me one day, I don't know him anymore and I don't know me. I don't know his likes, dislikes, hobbies etc. and I am just on auto-pilot. We still talked, had a very amicable relationship, but we found ourselves co-habiting, we were more like roommates. Everything hit really hard and we had to face if we were going to have a future together. The youngest graduates in June of this year and will be moving out on her own by August. Faced with this, my husband and I had to sit down and take a long hard look to see where we would land after she moves out. We have struggled but we are moving in the right direction. We've agreed that 27 years is far too long to make such a hasty decision. We are finding ourselves re-connecting... only time will tell. I am not saying we are headed for divorce but we have had to make some drastic changes in our relationship if we want it to work. So we have decided to start 'dating' each other again. Sounds weird I know, but it is kind of funny how the brain works. Therein lies why I have decided to take care of myself and do what I need to for me... I did 27 years ago when we first started dating so why not now.

On another note: Had a moment of defeat yesterday, I have been very faithful in documenting my food (love the barcode scanner feature on the Droid btw). In addition, I have only missed 3 days of workouts since Dec. 27th. After having met and exceeded my personal of walking 2 miles in under 38 minutes (walked it in 36 minutes on Wed.) I had a really hard time getting motivated to even go to the Y yesterday.

However, I played a trick on myself, I try to always bring my workout clothes into the office with me, so I can change before I leave and be able to go straight the treadmill while my husband changes (gives me a few extra minutes of workout this way). So I was already feeling defeated and had found that I was talking myself out of even going to the Y. So before I left work, I went ahead and changed from my work clothes to the workout clothes, knowing I would feel kind of stupid having gone to the extra effort but then not go.

I knew the first question of my husband's mouth when I arrived home (he drove in separate and went straight home from work) would be "how was your workout" and I would feel stupid telling him I didn't go (yet, I was coming in the door in my workout clothes.) I also knew I would never go run errands dressed in my workout clothes, so my choices were to go home, run errands or go workout. So I decided I might as well go workout but I would only go for 20 minutes, just to feel better about myself.

For some reason, last night, the Y was packed, there wasn't a parking space to be found, except way back at the end of the parking lot where they park the buses, I thought to myself, I should go home and I could tell hubby it was too full. I then think I'm already here so I should at least go in. So I park in the boonies, and as I pass the windows where the machines are I notice it is not as busy as it looked from the outside. (Apparently there were some basketball, volleyball or indoor soccer games going on.) Again, I tell myself just do a quick 20 minutes it is better than nothing.

I step on the treadmill and set the timer and I automatically put in 30 minutes and start walking, when the time remaining flashes on the screen I realize what I have done and tell myself, it may say I have 29 minutes to go but I can stop it anytime I want. So 32 minutes later, I am finishing up with my cool down.

Felt a ton better and glad I tricked myself into going... Didn't feel like it was the best workout I've had but at least I worked out!!

Sorry for the long post :-/