Need to Lose 100 LBS -Robins Thread !

@mnwalkingqueen Oh no, so sorry to hear about your job loss. I was hoping for a better outcome for you. Hugs.

No fast food today, but snacked endlessly at home. I'm still not back on 'time', so am going to bed early again tonight. I just can't seem to keep my eyes open past 8pm.

@robin--We haven't had a family get together in over a year b/c of all of the fighting. We see my SIL and her family, but not my MIL . For about a week, my DH told me not to erase the recordings b/c he wanted to figure out some way to save the messages. I think he wanted them so when she later denies the spiteful things she said, he could prove her wrong. I told him I didn't like him getting so caught up in her drama--that's exactly what she would want--but I did as he asked and left the messages alone. Finally, he erased them the other day. I think he realized saving them wouldn't be productive for anyone. Plus, she leaves a new "treasure" every day, so no need to save the old ones.

@niki--I love the quote you posted. Part of the reason I won't respond to my MIL's messages is that I have nothing nice to say to her right now. She's been very mean and hurtful toward me, and I feel the 23 years that we got along and she called me "daughter" was all an act. I'm trying to let my anger go with the knowledge that she's clearly not in her right mind, but it's not easy. Anyway, the Buddha quote reminded me of a Blake poem that I love:

A Poison Tree
BY WILLIAM BLAKE
I was angry with my friend;
I told my wrath, my wrath did end.
I was angry with my foe:
I told it not, my wrath did grow.

And I water'd it in fears,
Night & morning with my tears:
And I sunned it with smiles,
And with soft deceitful wiles.

And it grew both day and night.
Till it bore an apple bright.
And my foe beheld it shine,
And he knew that it was mine.

And into my garden stole,
When the night had veil'd the pole;
In the morning glad I see;
My foe outstretched beneath the tree.

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@Skinny - that's one heck of a poem! It wouldn't sit so well with the Buddha but it took him a looong time to reach his comfort spot!

Well, it's a metaphor warning against the dangers of letting one's anger fester--eventually it could hurt someone. I think the Buddha would agree that it's better to be honest about anger--air it out and let it go--rather than try to cover it up with false smiles and "deceitful wiles."

@Mnwalkingqueen Holly, I was so sorry to read your news. Do not blame yourself; it is nothing you did. I hope you are quickly able to find a new job that you like even better. These things knock us down for a while, but we can move beyond them and even learn and be better for it. I know that is something you can do. I wish you the best.

@holly So sorry you lost your job. That is really rough.

Welcome to the newcomers. Most of us here check in to the thread more often than we check the home page. Check in here often and share. You will get plenty of support.
Today DH had surgery to remove the skin cancer from his right hand. It wasn't very deep, but it was about the size of a dime, so the stitches pull the skin really tight. He is extremely limited on what he can do until the stitches come out in 9 days.
We had lunch at Subway and I had a 5 mile walk so my calories are okay for today.
Onward and downward. Kaye

I'm new here. Just started and the food is the hardest part for me. I can't out run my bad eating habits. My wish for today is to be aware of what I put in my mouth and to track it:).

@mnwalkingqueen‌ - Holly, so sorry about your job. I know how scary and stressful that can be. I hope something even better is in store for you.

AFM - Doing fine food and exercise wise. Stress level is awful. DHs company is likely declaring bankruptcy today. No clue if he'll have a job at the end of today or not. I do know his pension will be worth half what it was yesterday. That's a big blow to our plans for retirement and since we're both 56 our time is limited to recover. It makes me mad knowing that decades of bad management caused this and the ones responsible probably have golden parachutes to protect them. We have a parachute with a broken rip cord and a few holes. Gonna be a tough landing.

Wednesday Wish: Just wishing my private wish for my sister, her family and our whole family today.

Coming a bit unrailed food-wise because of emotions this week. Trying to rein it in and regain control.
Today, I will be going to the school on my lunch hour to watch/listen to my daughter read her book that she wrote. It's "Meet the Author" day! At long last! She is 7, and this has been her universe for the past several weeks....writing her story, compiling, practicing, prepping, etc. I have no idea what the story is about, but she read it to my husband yesterday when I wasn't around and he said it is interesting...hmmm. My son may have let the cat out of the bag when he whispered it was about American Girl doll...of course, she is writing a true story and AG is also her whole world right now, too! My parents are coming to Meet the Author as well, so I'm looking forward to that.

March:
Calorie Goal- 5/21
Exercise Goal- 6/12
Veggie Goal-27/93 servings
Lift Goal: 3/8
Leg Press-185/200
Squats-180/200
Abs- 152.5/165
Back- 152.5/165
Triceps- 82.5/90
Biceps- 82.5/90

2015 Mantra: You Know Better! ~and~ Finish This Baby!

@Karen…my puppy has a sensitive stomach. We’ve gone through about 5 different dog foods and finally found one that lets him have “normal” bowel movements. However, as a puppy, he chews on anything and if we aren’t careful, he might get a lick of something before a plate is moved away or find something on the floor (my kids and husband are horrible about that). That usually results in one or two times of diarrhea. This was just the first time in a while and it happened to be overnight so I had to deal with it. Vet thinks he’ll just outgrow it and if it lasts more than two potty trips, we do rice and ground beef mix.

Your poem makes me think of my husband’s family. They all get upset about things but never bring it up with them…just keep it all in and then get resentful. My family pretty much tells it like it is but gets over it quickly. We try to do the same thing with excitement and love…pretty expressive people and the noise level at our gatherings prove it.
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@Laurie…sorry to hear about your gain. You’ve been such a great example to us and I know you can get back on track.

@Holly…I’m so sorry to hear about your job. Those are tough times and I sure hope they gave you a good package. In my line of work, when someone has to be let go (individuals, not downsizing like for you), we can’t have them stay at work for even a day for security purposes, so they get some good packages.

@Kaye…glad the surgery went well. My daughter would tell you that stitches aren’t bad, but the needle they use to numb the area is awful (she had a mole removed on her hip last year and it was very traumatic for her).

@L2T…sorry to hear about husband’s pension. I hate when I hear stories like that. Especially because as you say, the top brass usually is a-ok – it’s the middle and bottom guys that suffer.

@Hansea…my daughter has been talking about her book too. She told me it will be 24 pages when she is done???!!!! We’ve been invited to read to the class this month, so I just have to figure out when and what. I did it last year and it was fun.

AFM…I had yesterday off. I slept in a little and then cleaned house. I got my carpet cleaned (which was my main objective), refrigerator and freezer cleaned out (gross), lots of tidying up and getting the house ready for spring. It was a beautiful day and the windows were open and I got some reading in too. Then it was supper out with my hubby, daughter, sister and soon to be brother in law. My son missed out because he was at a classmates working on their volcano project. My sister and I then hit the gym for a lifting session. Back home to stay up too late to read more (when am I ever going to learn?? Oh probably when this book series is done – ha).

Wednesday wish…that I could get the food under control like I have the exercise. I’m not sure why I seem to always struggle with one or the other.