Need to Lose 100 LBS -Robins Thread !

Hi!

I just stumbled upon here... and thought i'd check it out!

I recently just moved out on my OWN, own... and am having a really hard time with it. I am a homebody, anyways, but this is out of my comfort zone. I have lost a lot of friends and it has taken a toll on me (the ones that aren't really your friends.. but you don't see it until after the fact). With anxiety and low self-esteem, it is a whole lot of being hard on myself (why doesn't anyone like me, what is wrong with me, etc.), I knew I needed to do something. So here I am, again. I did Weight Watchers and lost 40lbs... but life happened and I slacked, so now I have 65lbs to lose!! The place that I am living is a huge complex, lots of room to walk and it has an outdoor pool! I can walk to the movie theatre, store, etc. I am super excited to do that when the weather gets warmer.

So I do have anxiety, probably some depression, the bds (the body issue), introverted, worrier, etc. Yay, flaws! On this journey I am hoping to discover how to love myself and how other people see me (I am my own worst enemy!). Sometimes I do really good and other times the wagon is so far away that I just can't keep up. This weekend I should be all settled into my place, with groceries bought and it'll be go time!

I will continue to read old posts and get more inspired.

I have a few 5k's coming up in the next couple of months that I am excited for, because I really just do them for the t-shirts!!

Happy Friday, everyone!!

So WOW, I finally caught up. I have had a really hard time being motivated, not walking or watching what I eat, and have gained back 10 lbs. Still under 200 thank goodness, but so close it's scary. I need to get back into taking care of myself. Today is the first day of the rest of my life, and I will take care of myself today. So far so good, logged all my food (now to keep from eating after I get home, that's the trick)! and am under calories for now. I'll be taking lunch here in about 30 minutes and plan to walk over to the gym and work out for a few minutes, haven't been in months. I thought I missed the big Chi-town race but I guess that's this weekend? Good luck to everyone. DH is stable and doing fairly well, his pulmonologist put him on a maintenance dose of Prednisone so his breathing has stabilized and he's not having too much problems. Life is cruising along.
Tracy
TX

Hey everyone ... it's April Fools Day today ... hope no one plays any tricks on you today ... those pranks sometimes are not fun at all!

Since is the first of the month ... it's check in time for myself even though that normally happens on a Monday (Tuesday for a second weigh-in for the Amazing Race Challenge I'm registered into that runs until May) ... Well ... March started out ok, but then it fell apart. I sometimes think I have some sort of evil twin inside my brain who wants to see me fail at everything I do ... but that's a topic for a shrink, not for MFP pals ... it's just that sometimes when I decide to do one thing, I find myself doing the opposite. My sis told me once she has a similar thing happen sometimes ... I remember her telling me once that she didn't want to share with anyone her decision to try something different or new because when she did, she experienced the same kind of phenomenon that I just complained about!

But, before I do my check-in ... @GOINSTD12, I'm glad to see you posted today and hope you come back often. Also glad that your hubbs is stable with that COPD for now. Prednisone is used for so many inflammatory illnesses ... it's a hard drug on the system, but sometimes the only thing that will work. Thank God I haven't had to be on it for the past few years.

@jaded33jade ... thanks for the MFP friend request ... however, I prefer to keep my friendships thread based cause I use my home page for private notes to myself. Please lets get to know one another on here, ok? Thanks again.

So ... March results
I had a whole lot of goals for March ... so many that it was overwhelming me, and like I said, the month started out good but went down hill.

The nutrition goals had been to have net cals of 1611 with a 40/30/30 macro percentage split ... Well, I was right on the first half of the month and then the "Ides of March" hit and I over ate most days. ... I also started to fool around with my calorie and maco goal instead of just waiting it out for the month. Ended up that I overage by enough calories on the average to have gained a pound a week instead of losing. And, surprise, surpise, half of that gain was during the weeks I was eating at goal ... go figure. Anyway, this mornings weight has me up a whole 5 pounds over what I was on March 1st. ... depressing to say the least, but not surprising. On the positive side, I have been successful in increasing my protein intake from it has traditionally been ... and I secretly wonder if it's those extra protein grams that sent me into a spin. Maybe I'm one of those people who does better on a more vegetarian diet.

Fitness goals for March had been ...
RobinEgg's Ankle Strengthening challege ... pooped out
30-Day squat challenge ... pooped out
Amazing Race challenge .... still in it but pooping out

Personal goals for the month were also a wash.
The house's spring cleaning is still a work in progress
The bushes did get cut back, but the naturalized weedy growth around the perimeter is still standing.
The indoor seed starting hasn't started.
Meal plans? What's that?

So, for April I am going back to basics for my goals ... along the lines of "KISS" ... keep it simple, stupid.
In April I will
1 Log all my meals and exercise in MFP
2 Work on improving my diet by focusing on just one aspect at a time
3 Finish the housecleaning and spring yard work ... in between the rain-drops (we are forecaste to almost daily rain until mid-month)
4 Focus on trimming away that recent gain to get back on track ... I still have a goal to drop 50 pounds this year!

Follow through with Consitent Focus
Niki

ps ... sorry for the typos ... but I won't go back and fix em.

@jaded33jade - Sorry you're in such pain. Have you tried Voltaren? My sister and brother swear by it. I work late evenings, so I don't get home until around 1 am. Because my hubs is disabled and I'm his only caregiver, I fix him breakfast before I leave around 2:30 pm, then he snacks for the rest of the day until I get home, when I then make him dinner, usually around 2 am. Very unhealthy for both of us, but what can I do? He has to eat something nutritious besides the snacks (powdered donuts, chocolate, peach cups, honeybuns, Ritz, etc). And of course when I cook for him it's near impossible not to eat something too, though I take my full day food with me to work. I think I'm just going to start skipping "dinner" altogether and just save it for when I get home. I usually end up eating 3-4 things by the time I go to bed, adding around 400 calories or more to my daily total. I know I need to do something but it's so hard not to eat after I get home... I get stressed then also and the urge to eat increases. We usually go to bed around 4-5am, then I get back up at noon and start all over again. <Sigh> We do have a HHC person that comes 4 days a week, but only for 2 hrs a day and she mostly just cleans. I try to get hubs to let her help him with his exercise and meds but he really doesn't want to.
@Nikion901 - Yes, he's much more stable now, but the Dr said this is a "last resort" so I don't really know what that means. At least he's feeling fairly good right now, I just have to take it day by day. We don't see her again until September so.....
@skinnyjeanzbound - I read your post about your "skinny jeans" now being your "fat jeans" - what a victory! Yes you might not have met your goal and you might be yoyo-ing right now, but still, you have to keep your accomplishments in mind along with any perceived failures.
@Robinsegg - I missed you all. Sorry I was gone so long. Sorry too that you aren't going to make it to Chicago, and I hope that your tests are not bad news.

AFM: I thought I was losing my gym membership as they discontinued the special program they had for employees at my workplace ($100/each/yr in groups of 5) but since they made that decision after people already started renewing, they have decided to extend it another year and then end it next year. Yay! Sure wasn't looking forward to having to pay 3x the price!

April goals:
Get back on track, track my food every day.
Gym 2x a week in Apr, 3x in May
Walking 1x/day for 30 minutes on off-gym days, 1x/day for 15 on gym days.
Stretching exercises concentrating on the BC side every day (I'm so stiff still! after 2 years!)

Ideally, get back to 189 by May 1st - that's 10 lbs, but I'll take ANY loss as a victory.

Tracy
TX

@GOINSTD12 - No I have never heard of Voltaren, but I am currently taking Lyrica. I have just started it though. My normal pain comes with fybrio-myliga and a few other things. The pain I am in right now is due to over doing it.. basicly my own fault because I knew better. But thank you for caring
Just wondering if you have tried making premade meals for your hubby. Kinda like a packed lunch. He could just pop it in the microwave and have a good meal while your out. Just wondering.


@kayla201453 - I understand what your going through. Starting up again my self. I have also recently came back. I have got to get this weight off this time. It's proably the only medical problem I have I can do something about.

@jaded33jade - Voltaren is a topical RX pain relieving gel. My sister suffers from arthritis and recurring very painful shingles. My brother has had back surgery and chronic pain just about everywhere. They have both told me that Voltaren helps tremendously. I have pain in my wrists and hands. I use it and wear gloves over it to sleep. It does help some but I think it depends on the person. It might be something to ask your pain management doctor about.
@MrWufpack - welcome, and thanks for your encouraging story. We know in our heads what we must do to get healthy and stay that way - it's much harder to put it into practice consistently.
Tracy
TX

changed my goals for April today ... 1500 calories intake cap, 225 min a week exercise in 3 sessions minimum, 50% carb, 30% fat, 20% protein. ... Eat back of calories NOT allowed unless over the minimum required for the week (900 calories)

This plan worked for me back in 2014 when I had a good loss that was only maintained in 2015 and is being lost in 2016 to date ... and during that time I have adjusted my goals numerous times which is probably why I haven't had better success.

This is part of my April goal to go back to basics and simplify.
And, as today is no longer April Fools Day, this is for real!
Niki
Follow through with consistent focus

@MrWufpack You are quite welcome. I look forward to getting to know you.

@RobinsEgg I am sorry I have not gotten the chance to know you yet. I can understand the troubles with going through depression, I have to battle with it myself. From what I see you have been light of encouragement to people here. I am sorry to see you go, although I do understand having to get away from a computer. If at anytime you feel you would like someone to talk to or just chat, feel free to message me on here or my email.

Peace and Love and keep Shinning Bright

@robinsegg Oh, how sad I feel to know that things have been so hard for you. You have been inspiration to eveyone here, cheering us on even when things are hard for you. I hope you will be able to check back and report in the future at sometime. I'll probably be here struggling along.
Love you, Kaye

First let me say thanks to all of you who sent me condolences on the loss of my husband, Jim. And Toots I do appreciate the prayers. When we suffer a loss nothing makes sense without trusting in God and looking for his support and love. It's been a few days over a month and I still miss Jim.

Yesterday started out as a good day but turned into a push/pull contest. I had offered to help a family member and they wanted the help on their timeframe, not mine. I took the path of least resistance but then resented not speaking up. But it ended well, I had dinner with my grandson and his family and wound up laughing which is something I haven't done much the past month.

Robin, I am so sorry to hear about your setbacks. Despite your personal struggles you have always been willing to give of yourself to motivate and inspire others. I would like to communicate via phone to "payback" so to speak all the support you have given me. Perhaps I can "payback" some of the encouragement and support you have given me through this group. I left you a message with my phone number. Also, please know that you deserve your full attention and you are really stronger than you think you are.

Please feel free to call me anytime although these days I don't get started until after noon, most days. And I am a nightowl.

To try to overcome the inertia that has descended on me I made a list of to do's and decided to follow them. Nothing spectacluar, mostly self care items, like feed the cats, take meds, take vitamins, take a morning walk, etc. I did that this morning and while it was very difficult, I actually feel better. . Walking down the hill was a breeze, but coming back up was harder. My next task is to go downhill to the garage and get the gas can and put gas in my car. I drove it and forgot to fill up and noticed I was dead on empty when I pulled into the drive.
I've been driving Jims big Suburban the past few days. Don't dare drive my that car and try to make it to the gas station. I am out in the boonies and my nearest family is about 30 miles away.

My friend, Jeannie is on Spring break from teaching next week and she is spending the week with me. I want her to have a good time. She works with special needs kids and works very hard. I got tickets to Cirque du Soleil and we are going all day to the Korean Spa which has salt saunas, jade hot tubs and many any treatments which we just might try. Just thinking of all the activity wears me out, but I need to push myself and get back in motion.

I looked into going to the Biggest Loser Weight loss camp, and may do that some time in the future, but have too much on my plate now and I know this sounds crazy, but I need to get in better shape before committing to any program with lots of exercise and their program does require lots of exercise. They say they will tailor it to your fitness level, which mine is pretty close to zero.

In researching weight loss camps one theme that kept cropping up was pushing your limits and I remembered a time when I went to Epcot and silently pushed my limit so my group would not be held back. That time I was astonished at what I was able to accomplish physically. Perhaps we all have deep wells of physical limits which we never try to reach, unless someone or something pushes us there . I remember reading about a 95 lb mother who had a car fall on her son on a deserted highway and she was able to lift the car off his body, thus saving his life. Under different circumstances, she couldn't lift over 100 lbs. It's an interesting concept

I am planning to fly to Daytona to celebrate my oldest daughers birthday on the 15th. She's flying down from Nashville, Tn. While I am there the contractor is going to move all the furniture out of the downstairs and pack it in pods and then they are repairing the wood floors in the kitchen that were damaged last summer. They will then sand all downstairs floors one day, stain the next and then two days for varnish coats Since the insurance company has to pay for my accommodations, why not Florida

The following weekend, Jim's son and family are flying in from Pennsylvania. They are going to go thru the house with me and determine if there is anything they might want that I will not need when I move. I thought it was too early, because I have no idea what I will need or even when I am moving but they insisted. Also, I've discovered people grieve at different rates and in different ways. I am still in the crying stage but his children don't express their emotions very much, so they are in a different place, but I am sure, still in pain and shock. I would have just liked to waited longer. Maybe this will be therapeutic.

Jaded33jade - Have you every tried a natural product with Boswellia and DLPA which is an amino acid? I get mine from a Dr I met in Houston who runs a natural pain clinic, but you can also find at the drugstore. I used to have severe Fibromyalgia which is now under control with those supplements and I try to exercise in a pool at least 2- 3 times weekly, which I haven't been doing lately.

Kayla, welcome aboard

Well I hate to go, but that list is waiting for me. Best wishes for a wonderful week ahead

Katrena

@tracy (goins)-- I saw you started the ball rolling with planning April goals; thanks for the reminder.

I need to get back to logging every day. I'm already off to a bad start as I didn't log anything all weekend. However, I think laurie will attest that we surely did enough walking and running to make up for our caloric intake. So tomorrow I will start fresh and begin logging every BLT (bite/lick/taste) as kelley likes to say.

In addition, I really need to add more strength training into my work outs, so every gym visit will involve some form of weight lifting and/or core work. I think my shoulder may be healed enough to try some push ups and planks again as well which I will start tomorrow evening (just too dang tired tonight). My goal is to do those at home on my non-gym days.

Still plugging away at my UA You vs. Year Challenge to run 1000 k in 2016.

My goal for April is to lose 5 lbs. and then another 5 in May so I can start the summer where I left off last fall at about 185.

Grading Goals:
1. 1/41 AP Lit Theory papers

Fitness Goals for the month of April:
I will run 3x/week and at least 2 5ks/week
Week 1 = 1/3 runs, 1/2 5k; Week 2 = x/3 runs, x/2 5k; Week 3 = x/3 runs, x/2 5k; Week 4 = x/3 runs, x/2 5k
I will run a 5k start to finish twice with no walking breaks: 1/2
I will run an 8k three times: 1/3
Push ups & planks =

You vs Year Challenge:
132 k done/ 868 k to go

Exercise Goals:
Sun-- Shamrock Shuffle 8k with Laurie!! DONE + walk gunner DONE
Mon-- walk gunner
Tues-- walk gunner + gym
Wed-- walk gunner
Thurs-- walk gunner + gym
Fri-- walk gunner
Sat-- walk gunner + gym

@KJEFFRIES2 I'm so sorry to hear of your loss.
Thank you for the advice. No I haven't heard of that before I may need to look into that. I would love to exercise in a pool but sadly it's not warm enough just yet. But soon

Afternoon everyone. I have been laying down most of the morning trying to relax my back. I felt ok when I got up until I sat down and went to get up. Go figure. Anyway upon weighing myself I have lost 2.8lbs. 12lbs so far. (Happy dance) I'm still not able to do much on the lines of exercise but I do wear a tracker. Through the day of my regular routine I normally walk a mile. So I will keep doing what I'm doing until I can do more.