Motivation, Success and Frustration Sharing!

Oh my god, completely forgot what's the date today, and just got an email from my old gym, where I started my weight loss, that it's my 1 year anniversary as a member.

Literally saw the email and burst in tears, cause I've come so far. Losing more than 50pounds and maintaining it, working out so much, binging a lot less, having a healthier relationship with food, I bloody did it in one year. I think I'm crying happy tears and also cause it's like a RIP for the girl I used to be, the one that cried a year ago feeling hopeless in a battle against herself.
So everyone, if you're struggling, lacking motivation, it is inside you, If you want something bad enough, you will make it happen. You are not supposed to feel trapped in your own body, your inside and outside can be in alignment.

I just did something foolish and discouraged myself. We got a new digital scale, and I weighed myself on it yesterday morning for the first time - 170.6 - a 2.4 lb weight loss since I started tracking calories on 11/4. I meant to wait until Friday to weigh myself again-my last weigh-in before a week of travel for Thanksgiving. But I just couldn't resist hopping on the shiny new scale...and I was 171. Even worse, it tracks on my phone, so I couldn't just ignore it. I got on again a minute later and it was 170.6, but the damn phone thinks I gained weight. I feel silly for being so easily discouraged, but these are early days & I've struggled so much with my weight for the past 4 years. Sigh.

Yeah, @Evamutt , I planned to weigh myself just once a week, but I think I got seduced by the shiny new scale and wanted to step on it again. I will weigh myself one more time before we head out on our Thanksgiving trip. Thanks for the reinforcement.

I was at our local surplus & salvage store today looking for wool socks, and I found a couple of really nice lightweight polyester/merino wool running shirts for $9.99! They're even purple- my favorite color. They fit me well, but quite snugly, which is not good for my ego right now, but I'm going to concentrate on how great they'll look next year. I've looked and looked for synthetic longsleeve exercise tops and haven't found them in my cheapo stores (I shop almost exclusively at Goodwill), but Land's End had a 50% off one item sale tonight and I just ordered a nice shirt- and it's also purple! I feel like rewarding myself for my effort with some clothes that actually work...I've been running and sweating in cotton and then getting cold (we're in the low 40's and getting colder).

I had a rest day from running (as ordered by my friend who's training me). I took a long walk, but I look forward to running again tomorrow.

Thank you, guys!

So, I'm the queen of extremes. Binged today. Ashamed to write it here, but we are all in this in the good, the bad and the ugly. right? I tracked it all, which is both good and bad, cause I know what it will take me to fix this set back, but then it was a binge after all, and it cost me 3 day progress. I do binge less and less, and I know what are the triggers. This time it was PMS, bad mood and just feeling a bit ill, so skipped the gym, did groceries and then somewhere in the middle zoned out and bought everything I shouldn't have eaten.

Trying not to beat myself up about it, calculated the damages and made a plan of extra cardio to still finish the week with -1kg as planned. Just wish the bloat and feeling like an elephant would go away faster.

Thought I ought to do some good to my body as an apology, so bought a lot of vitamins.


@Rachel0778 I've never had this problem. I need a lot of me time, people drain me, so I often cancel or leave saying yes to any social activity to the last moment,to see if I will be up for it. Was supposed to go for drinks tonight with girl friends, clearly not feeling it, so just said no. I'm quite upfront and blunt already, but since I read the book "The life changing magic of not giving a *kitten*" , I never feel guilty for flaking out, saying no, and when I do show up, my friends appreciate it more than if I came not being in the mood for it

@JannaFowler1 welcome! Good job on 20pounds lost and I wish you patience, determination, strength and optimism for the 150, cause luck has nothing to do with weightloss haha

For me personally, I only have 2 friends who get the relationship I have with food/fat loss/body image,etc. to the core of it, everyone else either can't relate at all or I feel like that's too much for them, therefore MFP is the perfect place, cause one way or the other, people get where you're coming from, give constructive advice and sometimes criticism.

@JannaFowler1 20 lbs is impressive in only a month and a half! I'm a stay at home mom of 2, and my kids have been motivating me to run. On weekends, we often run together, and when we aren't running, we're hiking.

I'm glad you're here! I've found it helpful to talk here, as not everyone in the rest of my life understands my struggle.

@JannaFowler1 Welcome! Glad to have you as a part of the group. I am also an emotional and stress eater so I can totally relate to that struggle!

@gymprincess1234 Sorry to hear about your binge. I hope you're able to reflect on what lead up to it and move past it without too many feelings of shame and guilt. As far as social stuff goes, a lot of my events are for professional and community development for my career so many of them are not optional to cancel on as you can with close friends. Honestly, you're making me miss being in grad school when I did have a more flexible social schedule

@SusanDSME It's so cool that your kids are such a big part of your active lifestyle!

HAPPY FRIDAY!!!! I am seriously so excited that I only have one day of work left before the weekend. It's gearing up to be a slower day at work today (thank goodness!). I had a great time out with the humane society dogs and ended up knowing one of the employees and my fellow dog walker so I already have built in friends there! There was a 12 year old dog there that absolutely broke my heart. Once I'm retired, one of my dreams is to rescue older abandoned dogs and give them a good quality of life before they pass away.

@Rachel0778 Thanks for the welcome! If any of you want to add me as a friend feel free, seeing as I don't have any! lol

I've been really good this week, the hubbs brought home fudge from his work yesterday and I had 0 pieces of it. As much as I would have loved to have some, I want to be healthy more. I hope everyone has an awesome weekend.

@gymprincess1234 That's so awesome about your dress! Let us know how it fits/looks. I'm so glad you aren't being too hard on yourself about a mess up, they happen. I love the idea of rewarding yourself for meeting your goals, I never thought of that.

So impressive about your traveling eating & exercise SusanDSME. Welcome JannaFowler1. I'm an introvert myself & have acquaintances at dog park & church but have very few friends, 2 actually & feel uncomfortable in gatherings so I tend to avoid them. My best friend whom I'm seeing today has been annoying with all her "diet" advice from ww & other sources. she was in weight watchers years ago. I know she's trying to be helpful with all her pointers, but I'm not in weight watchers nor am interested. she's lost 60lbs 3 times she reminds me, so she has a lot of knowledge about losing wt (she gained it all back) & she thinks I'm obsessed with calories. When she asks me why don't I want to eat this or that, I tell her it's too many calories & won't fill me up. She asks so I tell her. so I'm going to try to avoid the subject. I gave her all my clothes that got too big, which she appreciates. She says she's happy being a size 16, but my old pants were size 18-20 & they fit her for the most part, some are a little snug. I don't tell her she ought to lose wt or give her tips except I encourage her to try to eat more often, she doesn't eat till near dinner time & by that time she feels weak. Anyway I didn't know I was going to vent till I got started. I didn't know I was so frustrated with her till I started to share. I'm glad I can share here. I can't think of anyone else I can share with, as I don't want to say anything to anyone I know among ppl her & I know of course.