Let me know you a little better

tinak33 wrote: »

Tenebrous_D wrote: »

I ramble at times. Like I'm about to do now. It bothers me that some people only focus or say anything to me about things I say when I'm feeling down or hurt, and not on the positive or funny (at least I used to think so) things I post. I'm pretty transparent with my emotions. I wear them on my sleeve, I guess you could say. I hate feeling ignored. I don't like the fact that I don't know how to ask for help sometimes and it comes off like self pity and deprecation. It's not being passive-aggressive, it's horribly trying to throw a hint, because something in my mind holds me back from putting the plea for help out there. I hate the feeling of being left out. To me, it seems I'm only included if I interject myself into the situation or conversation. That never invited feeling. I just want to feel like I'm thought of when I'm not around. Like, "hey you know who'd like to see this or go to this? T. J. would. Shoot him a text." All these thoughts I've just talked about are the ones that snowball. They grow and grow until I reach that point I can't take it anymore and I just let them go. The snowball rolls into a wall and breaks apart. Things are cool for a bit, then later on down the road, there I am, rolling down the hill again.

To me, I suppose the best way to say how I feel about myself in the eyes of others, is 'often misunderstood'. I think that probably happens a lot, especially in an online forum like this, where often tone and context take a back seat to the receiver's interpretation of what's being said.

Same.... except a little on the opposite side, for the posting...
I will do the big heartfelt rambling post.... and then delete it because in my head, it's an online forum. lol
No one cares. But the few times I did bare part of my soul on here, it largely gets ignored. Whatever.
We just need to remember this:
Just because no one quotes or makes a point of commenting on those things... doesn't mean that what you said didn't resonate with someone else.
And just because no one texted or called you when they thought about you, doesn't mean you aren't thought of by people. Maybe they just got distracted by something else.
You matter. We all do.

Also, yes. Asking for help is very difficult. I tend to sigh a lot, until my mom looks at me and says "you could just ask for help, you know..."
As if she didn't know me....

PS - I almost deleted this.

tams_89 wrote: »

I often never let my guard down. I'm quiet and I'm not open to many people. I find it hard to make friends but if I let you in and show you the real me then you have a friend for life.

Finding_Strength wrote: »

I am pretty quiet until I get know you.. then all bets are off

CoffeeAndContour wrote: »

slimgirljo15 wrote: »

I'm unforgiving, *kitten* on me once and you'll not likely ever get another chance. I'm working on this (learning to let things go) and my very black and white way of thinking.

I’d never guess you could be anything other then your sweet, sassy self Jo. But anyone who would screw you over deserves your wrath.

SnackherBarrell wrote: »

glgcam5150 wrote: »

SnackherBarrell wrote: »

glgcam5150 wrote: »

slimgirljo15 wrote: »

I'm unforgiving, *kitten* on me once and you'll not likely ever get another chance. I'm working on this (learning to let things go) and my very black and white way of thinking.

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