The Sober Squad- Alcohol Free Living

It gets easier everyone!! Hang in there for the miracle!! I remember someone telling me when I had a few days, I think, that I will have a life beyond my wildest dreams and to keep going. I thanked him, but in my head I said, "yeah, right". He doesn't know what I have been through. Now I think there is at least some truth to this. I have been through hell most of my life, but I was keeping it going with the self destruction with alcohol. Why would I ever want to take myself down?? Haven't I been through enough?? I couldn't see it at the time and when I could I didn't care. It is sad when you decide you are drinking so much that you don't care if die this way. Alcohol can make you out of your mind. I didn't always drink that heavily, but I just kept going and could not stop. I just quit cold turkey once I talked to my now sponsor. I went through 2 other sponsors and dismissed them, lol. I am a tough one, I know. I drank up to the time of calling this sponsor of which she wasn't happy, lol, as she would of rathered I called before I drank. Every day is a new day and I believe I will never be out of the woods, so I can't drink again. I am so excited that it can be 9 mo. on Tuesday.

Fell off the wagon this weekend & bought a bottle of vodka "to see if I can quit with booze in the house". Yeah right! Had a couple martinis and it didn't take long to realize I made a huge mistake. Poured the remaining bottle down the sink this morning! No more.

Hello all. I've posted several times in the past but I'm not a regular so I'm just getting caught up on everyone. I'm happy to hear of those hanging in there and those struggling. To the suffering please keep trying. Don't give up.

I celebrated 6 years of sobriety in August. For me the only thing that has ever worked is the program of AA. Seeking and growing a relationship with a higher power of my understanding, working the steps as outlined in the Big Book with a sponsor and helping others. I've tried almost all other methods before surrendering to AA. AA is the LAST thing I tried and the only thing that's worked.

What I've realized that drinking was just a symptom. I have a living problem and I drank so I could live. I drank until that solution to live no longer worked. I came into sobriety not wanting to be AF for life but to learn how to drink like a lady and develop some coping skills. After several attempts of trying to do this on my own and moderate I realize that I'm not a moderate drinker and I never will be. I was at the point where it was do AA or go on to the bitter end. I chose AA. Today I still can't say that I'll be AF for life. I can say that in this moment I don't want to drink and I pray daily for my HP (higher power) to keep me sober today and at the end of the day thank my HP for another day of sobriety.

From the outside looking in I have a great life (and I really do)...loving and supporting husband, 2 kids, good job, good home, nice car, no DUI/OWI's, legal issues, etc but on the inside I was dying...I was paralized with depression, anxiety, anger and fear.

@lorainequiche59 I don't have decades of sobriety/recovery but I do have experience in this area.....to answer your question about dealing with freinds/family that just kind of stop talking to you because of your life choice to stop drinking. What you're enduring is normal, what I had to tell my family is this is my issue not yours and please don't censor yourself on my behalf. My "friends" that I had before recovery I realized were just drinking buddies and never really true friends and my new friends are in the rooms of AA. The best thing about these friends is we truly care from the bottom of our heart about the quality of our lives. Not to say my drinking friends didn't care for me but it's different. Recovery is life and death for us.

Good luck to all and if you have questions at all about AA and if you need help getting connected in your local area please reach out to me. I'm happy to help. I live to help others who struggle with addiciton, it's my life's calling.

Think I need to do this... I suck at moderation, but I know how hard its going to be with Halloween and the holidays... plus I work nights in a bar. But I make such crappy choices, and all the beer does not help my waistline.

I didn't want to pop into this thread at first; it felt a bit unfair seeing as a lot of folks here still struggle on a daily basis. But, while cleaning last night, I came across two bottles of liqueur that I'd received almost 4 years ago, and I never finished them. I tossed them out into the sink, and minutes later I saw this post pop up in the recent feed. I figured... maybe a sign.

I drank quite heavily when I was younger - somehow I had a higher tolerance level, and my friends used to make it a game to see how much alcohol they could give me. I happily played along. You'd think I'd have learned from my dad's mistake, having been the one to have to clean up after him most nights - instead it just made me feel 'more powerful' for not losing my crap when drinking like he did. Having an addictive personality, it obviously wasn't the best decision to make. It led to a few years of pretty hardcore drinking, and learning how to vomit shamelessly in public.

I'm thankful that, although I took to alcohol, I never quite got into going out / partying / etc. And when I moved away from my very encouraging friends, I was faced with the reality that I really just didn't enjoy drinking. I still tried it from time to time, but I slowly found myself transitioning over to AF living. Last night was the first time I realized that I hadn't drunk alcohol since the last time I tried to use some of that very liqueur I'd tossed out as a replacement for milk in coffee. That was 2 years ago.

Aaaand that's my little story. To everyone else still pushing and fighting every day - my respect, and more power to you!

I had a death in the family saturday ... drove 12 hours to the funeral, which was today.

I was the only sober person at the funeral.

I Guess alcoholism really does run in the family.

Day 3 guys - my goal is to lower my numbers....my LDL, my resting HR, my BP, my waistline......I said to myself, I need to see results, enough talk, more action