JUST FOR TODAY -- One Day at a Time .... Daily commitment thread for 2019
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@korina75 Happy Belated Birthday... I apologize for missing it. Hugs & balloonsJFT 9/4 Recap
Drink water
Stay within calories
healthy choices
Yoga/strength training
I did go for a long walk yesterday and then did some stretching but today I am planning to do much more. I have been slowly gaining the whole month of august and don't want to be creeping up anymore. Back at it today, which is my birthday!
JFT 9/5
Drink water
limit alcohol
healthy choices
90 minutes exercise
Only one drink at lunch (husband is taking me out for my birthday) if I feel like having one, have too much car pooling and such tonight to do much more celebrating than that anyway. Going to try to do 60 minute run and 30 minutes yoga. Back at the apple watch challenge to try to get my good habits back on track.
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Hope everyone had a productive day. Love you beautiful people.
JFT TUESDAY
THIS IS ME GETTING A JUMP ON DOING BETTER, THEREFORE I'M POSTING TONIGHT WHAT MY PLANS ARE
FOR TUESDAY...
WAKE UP AT 5a.m. Bathroom Routine, Get Dressed
Make Coffee
Drink water
Get children up and dressed for school
Walk them to the bus stop
Back Home to begin me time... Read at least one chapter
Have brunch( something green/fruit/protein )
Take out trash
Do laundry while doing other simple things..i.e. mail,envelope for letter, tithes
Strip bedding and remake
Water
Empty a container
Dinner ???
Bed by 9:30 is my new goal?2 -
Round 2 -
SW - 185.6
CW - 186.0
The SW is the weight the day we started 2nd round. I managed to lose one pound last time. CW is my daily weigh in.
JFT - Monday Sept 9
2L of water - ☹️
Log all food - 🙂
Gratitude Journal - 🙂
Active 15 Minutes -👿
JFT - Tuesday Sept 10
2L of water
Log all food
Gratitude Journal
Active 15 Minutes1 -
Tuesday 10 September
Log accurately
Stay in the green
5 fruit and veg
Fitbit excercise goals
Jan challenge
Feb challenge
Mar challenge
Apr challenge
May challenge
Jun challenge
Jul challenge
Aug challenge
Sep challenge1 -
Yesterday's commitments:
- Log everything I eat
- Be in the green
100 over
- 5+ bottles water
- No alcohol
No excuse really, just felt like some wine after a draining day
- Exercise DVD
- No eating whilst standing
- Savour every bite
- Talk back to sabotaging thoughts
- Give myself credit!
- Stay positiveWork getting irritating again, now my direct report has left my to-do list is massive and I have people at me (via email) all the time...
- Finish work at 5pm
- Do prep for job interviewOnly a little, I couldn't really face it after a draining work day. Thankfully I have done a lot already and I have the whole day on Wednesday to finish
- Spend time relaxing (from 9)
- Gratitude journal
- Lights off by 11ish
Today's commitments:
- Log everything I eat
- Be in or near the green
- 4+ bottles water
- No eating whilst standing
- Savour every bite
- Talk back to sabotaging thoughts
- Give myself credit!
- Stay positive
- 30+ minute lunch break
- Finish work at 5pm
- Refresh memory on experience on train
- Reread wider reading and make notes
- Practise presentation
- Gratitude journal
- Lights off by 11
Words for 2019: Mindful Moderation
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eat a salad (healthy)
go to the gym at least 45 min
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Staying focused. Keeping within my calorie limit and doing my exercises.
Good luck everyone!3 -
JFT Monday
1. Log all food👎 stopped after lunch
2. Eat responsibly at dinner meeting tonight 👍 I think I did ok for what was offered. Are more salad than pasta
3. Drink 150oz water👍
4. Workout at home 👍
JFT Tuesday
1. Log all food
2. Stay lectin free
3. Gym
4. Healthy evening snack
5. Meditate
6. Drink 150oz water3 -
Good morning!
Yesterday 9/9:
1. Stay within calorie goal😁
2. WAIT AND THINK before reaching for all the snacks😁
3. Finish work at 5:20😁
4. Cook dinner😁
5. Put away clothes😔
JFT 9/10:
1. Stay within calorie goal
2. WAIT AND THINK before reaching for all the snacks
3. Finish work at 5:20
4. Buy groceries
5. Empty room for home gym2 -
JFT 9/9 Recap
90 minutes exercise/movement
Calorie Deficit
no alcohol
Well, not quite. But I did get 30 minutes in, stayed within calories (no deficit), and had a glass of prosecco bc my Mom took me out for a belated birthday lunch. Other than that did ok, and even though I didn't meet my goals I was actually pretty good. Today will be even better because I have a 90 minute workout planned (cycle or yoga plus swimming) and then a ton of kid activities tonight so will be busy busy with no time for lazing about.
JFT 9/10
90 minutes exercise
Calorie Deficit
lots of water
Keeping it simple and I will reach my goals today!4 -
@bookmeister86 Good luck on your interview. Sending you lots of good vibes!
@clicketykeys When is the play? Sounds like it's soon. Have fun!
Recap M 9/9 ~ no dog walk or workout before work = sad dog & sad me
1) Move hourly / stairs breaks / 5 somethings = Fitbit 7.642 steps, 250+ 13/14 & 37 floors
2) Prelog meals & snacks / preview Culver's online menu (% of sales goes to charity today) / net calories zero / 14c water = Not bad until... after baking cake, ate an apple, then decided it was a good idea to eat multigrain crackers with the apple. WAY too many crackers. Net cals -513 , sodium -989 , sugar green 10 
, fiber ok, protein good, 12c water
3) Post updated weekly w-i on JFT = not pretty but done
4) Progress on GA-C/V audit / clear some of Inbox at least it's not worse
5) Schwan's delivery / bake choc zucchini cake for dept food day T / bulk household items to curb for pick-up helped hubby organize at lunch & he took to curb after work / compost bucket to bin / update budget s/s / schedule furnace tune-up / review potential Oct. 5K checked website, I may do this one, which means 5Ks two Sat. in a row 
/ check healthcare prep instructions for next week find password for acct
6) Unplug 9:00 9:30 / floss 
/ retainers / bed & tv off 10:20
JFT T 9/10 ~ Thunderstorms again so no dog walk before work ~ our rain barrels continue to overflow!
1) Food day in office (co-worker's bday) so be picky & take small portions / if attend expo in evening, same approach / log/guesstimate all food / net cals zero / 14c water
2) Move hourly (when possible ~ meetings today) / stairs breaks / 5 somethings
3) Register for GBBG seminar / register for 5K? / attend volunteer expo 4:30? / Taxes in Retirement seminar 6:00 / Aurora password? / schedule furnace tune-up (coordinate date w/ hubby) / other?
4) UNPLUG 9:00 / FLOSS / RETAINERS / BED & TV OFF 10:202 -
@cschmitz110515 - Yup! We open on Thursday. Rehearsals are going until nearly midnight at this point and I *have* to get up by 6 AM to leave by 7 to make it to school on time. Sooo it's definitely a challenge. After this week it should ease up, since we won't have daily rehearsals after we open.3
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@PackerFanInGB That's so true! I find that consistency is key. I'm finding peace in the mantra/advice: progress not perfection. So even though I fell off track in august and it was hard to get back on track I'm not starting from 0, I'm starting more at a 2. And it didn't take me quite as long to get back in the swing of things as it did when I first started in January. We are all works in progress I suppose!
@KIKITVP Good for you! Hope you have a great day!
@djke1 Hope you enjoyed your healthy salad! With a smile!
@maryrobinson40 Thank you for the birthday wishes! Hope you had/have a productive and peaceful Tuesday.
@Snowflake1968 Hope all is going well with the job and that you are feeling better physically! How's your hip doing?
Only half way through the day but I have to be up at 6 am to get the kids up/fed/on the bus so I have been feeling like it's 5 pm by 2 lately! Ha! But today has been really productive. Have a chicken/rice dish in the crockpot, went to the gym and did my 90 minutes already, getting my hair done later and then the kids have activities all evening so getting some downtime in now by checking in with you all and reading a really good book. And I even have the laundry going! Some days are just like that. Rolling on like a freight train. Remind me when I'm complaining about a stressful day that sometimes I have my crap together. Anyway, hope all are settling into September and enjoying some cooler weather. 2 -
Checking in from Monday
1. NO AM RUN. Therapy exercises: lunges, push-ups, ankle lifts, box jumps, plank. Balance work. Feed cats. Meds. Tea! REVIEW UNIT PLAN.
2. Before school: Check class websites. Update first directions. Pull/copy subordinate clause work.
3. Class 1: Subordinate clauses. Movie. Input narrative grades.
4. Class 2-3: Subordinate clauses. Act 5 in parts. Return student work. Update class websites.
5. Planning: A - Get a Malala and pair with Wes Moore. B - Grade Socratic seminars. C - Input classwork grades. D - Set up absences in subfinder.
6. NO LIFTING - home to nap if possible. Drink more water. No, more. Keep the pitcher in the fridge full. You're not actually hungry. Make some tea. Drink more water!
7. Dinner: Pasta casserole. Rehearsal. Grade Socratic seminars.
8. Read 10 pages of Black Lagoon. Update Goodreads Friday. Weigh and prep celery. Prep cheese. Pack lunch.
9. Gratitude journal. Therapy exercises: lunges, push-ups, ankle lifts, box jumps, plank. Meds. Floss, rinse, brush teeth. Alarm set for 6:00.
JFT Tuesday
1. NO MORE AM RUNNING. Therapy exercises: lunges, push-ups, ankle lifts, box jumps, plank. Balance work. Feed cats. Meds. Tea!
2. Before school: Check class websites. Update first directions. CHECK WITH DOC ABOUT 2ND.
3. Class 1: Fix subordinate clauses worksheet and enter as freebie. Finish movie.
4. Class 2-3: Fix subordinate clauses worksheet and enter as freebie. Collate answers. Students who are not finished may not watch movie. Start movie. Closer: Arrange most --> least interesting characters.
5. Planning: A - Update class websites. B - Input classwork grades. C - Update lesson plans. D - INPUT SOCRATIC GRADES. Print Progress reports.
6. Drink more water. No, more. Keep the pitcher in the fridge full. NO SNACKING. You're not actually hungry. Make some tea. Drink more water! UPON ARRIVING HOME: PLAN AND LOG FOR TOMORROW.
7. Dinner: Beef stew. Rehearsal.
8. Read 10 pages of Lady from the Black Lagoon. Update Goodreads Friday. Weigh and prep celery. Pack lunch.
9. Gratitude journal. Therapy exercises: lunges, push-ups, ankle lifts, box jumps, plank. Meds. Floss, rinse, brush teeth. Alarm set for 6:00.
10. Ask about how to support new AP. Practice hair braiding with D. Check on appts for drs. Remind D to ask his dad about the table. Check with D about ceiling. START BLOGGING AGAIN. 3 posts/week? Create test for MLA format, poetry. Create unit plan for Malala. Put jewelry away. Fold laundry. Complete bartending course. Therapy exercises: lunges, push-ups, ankle lifts, box jumps, plank. Remember that M does not like surprises! Sign up for sub for doctor appointments. Check dates of classes and update semester plan. HM CTC Th 10/3. Request parent meeting with KC, EW. Friday to lab.
Scale goalsEnd of 2017: 174.6
End of 2018: 189.2
January 2019: 186.0
February 2019: 187.0
Today: 195.6
Ongoing plans/ideas behind the cut1. Purchases: Look for an "ugly Christmas sweater" and a long-haired doll at thrift stores. Practice French braiding. Go to used bookstore and look for On Writing (Stephen King), Dying for a Paycheck (Robin Hardman), The Prince (tr. Tim Parks, Russell Price, or Robert Adams), The Secret Adversary (Christie).
2. E2: What should the controlling ideas be in a study of world literature? Review world lit options. Create vocabulary lists for each unit that come from the texts used: Animal Farm, Julius Caesar, Wes Moore, I Am Malala. Find a way to incorporate changing words from one part of speech to another. Students need to know how to review multiple sources and synthesize information in order to draw a conclusion. Need practice with the difference between transitions and overlapping (at end of paragraph - "another issue is Y" vs "there are other issues besides X"). Quit using "in conclusion" and "I believe" and other writing-about-my-writing phrases. Confusion between direct/indirect objects and prepositional phrases. Use the UDHR and the Declaration of Independence to study paraphrasing; use that to front-load Machiavelli and how to deal with challenging texts. Confusion between everyday / every day and similar constructions.
3. E1: Need practice with quoting & paraphrasing sources, identifying claims that would need support, use of last names for reference, and capitalization practice (common/proper nouns, titles). Difficulty using possessive nouns in their own writing. Honors: practice subject/object pronouns (my friend and I / my friend and me). Poetry: Revise "Songs are Poetry" handouts.
4. Curriculum Development: Writing mini-unit. Review scholarly research on 5PE. (I think I can have this as an intro to the research unit so that they also get exposure to how quotes are integrated and cited.) Parallel structure; use of emotional language, specific detail. Use "Write About a Pebble" lesson from Atwell. How long should each unit take? Do research on characteristics: curiosity, persistence, resilience, creativity, responsibility, optimism, courage, integrity, authenticity, leadership, self-awareness, humility, compassion - others? Include grammarly check on essays! Review assessments. What is the purpose for each unit? What should the controlling ideas be in a study of world literature? Review world lit options. Schedule assessments for Fall 2019; plan out return times. Write 1 reflection weekly; type one in Classroom by Weds. Copy-paste to PB for comments due Friday. PB usernames 6 digits, no 19 or 20s, no birthdates. Homework: Online journal Mon due Tue; Reflection Tue due Wed; C&P journal in class Wed; Comments Thu due Fri. Bonus if you are the first response; further bonus if you respond to comments on your post. Grammar practice Mon & Wed; quiz Fri.
5. Professional Development: Write blog post weekly. Comment on 3 posts each week -Tu Th Sun? Check with PSC. Talk with Z about articles and/or conference proposals. NOTE: ATTENDED PRE FLEX DAY.
6. Medical: Dentist Oct 29 8 AM. Onco Oct 22 9:30. PCP Sept 18 10:15. ObG Oct 22 10:30. GET MAGAZINES FOR COLLAGES FROM DOCTORS. PCP - allergy shots?
7. Theater: Mamma Mia. Next?
8. House: Mineral oil on tile spots. Check with D about ceiling.
9. Fun: Open beading on Thursdays. Coloring at library on Tuesday. Put jewelry away. Edney Hack Nights alt Weds. ASL? Spanish/Portuguese practice? Practice piano. ROL Secret Adversary. Buy new bikes and bike night for car.
10. Volunteering ideas: Theater. Library. Animal shelter.
WFTY: Climbing. UGH. Was planning to show a movie to my honors classes but they didn't actually finish their work. Grrr. Also, why didn't this post? :P3 -
Discard 5lb challenge Round 2.
Name: Nikki formerly nlmackey98 (didn't want my email out there)
SW: 147.2
9/6: 144.2 -3#
9/7: 144.6 - oops blaming mother nature on this one. Tomorrow I'll blame the doughnut
910: 144.4 - Holding steady is better than gaining!
GW: 142
Been a little under the weather the past few days, but I feel much better today. Tired, but better. Being that I haven't felt well, CrossFit has not been on my agenda. That and well last time I was there I hurt my elbow so taking a little time is a good thing. I'll start back tomorrow or Thursday.
I slept in a bit this morning, which helped me a lot. Of course that means I'm behind on about everything today, including logging in and posting goals.
JFT Tuesday
- Log all food
- Stay in the green
- Not volunteer for anything at the Booster meeting tonight
- Eat only one bowl of chili for dinner. Cheese yes. Crackers/Tortilla Chips no...
- Allow one treat in the evening.
- Bible Reading
- No Alcohol
- Bed by 10:30 up by 4:30.
Positive thought: Cooler temperatures make outdoor activities more fun. Enjoy, but be careful of the early sunsets.
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Hey everyone, im back. Well -ish.
I need to go back to the drs, im not well again mentally. I shouted at Casey today, like really shouted at her. I just snapped and lost it.
Im just so sick of everything, sick of myself. I never have a good day. I never feel happy.
I know im doing everything i should for the kids, like food, bathing, dressing them, getting them to school, making sure they have everything, doing homework for Saskia like spelling and reading. Letting her play outside, making sure shes prepared for trips and after school clubs, teaching Casey words, potty training Marley.
But i dont get any enjoyment out of any of it.
Marleys first day of nursery and it was a another mums first time her daughter was going to nursery and she asked me if i was just as nervous or emotional and i said not really. But truth was i just couldn't wait to get rid of her for the day.
Even Saskia asked me "are you happy today mummy?" And the best response i could come up with was "when am i ever happy?" Thats not something i shouldve said.
Then i was walking back with a couple of mums ive done on a few occasions, as i crossed the road i switched places behind them and for a second she didnt see me and said to her friend 'Wheres "that girl?"' So that was kinda like, oh you dont even know who i am so that made me feel awkward as *kitten*.
I never do my makeup, i dont even shower every day anymore. I never look nice. I feel like everyone just seems some trampy mum rather than someone who just struggles everyday.
I have no self confidence. I have no umph to do anything, i couldnt even do the stats thing for you all. I just stopped logging in. I just stopped doing everything.
Everything just feels pointless. Like whats the point in sweeping and mopping the floor after every meal because the kids cant keep their food on tbe damn plates. I dont want to do that 3 times a day. And then when i dont i either get grief of ash because its "disgusting" or someone comes round like the gas engineer today and then my inlaws and its just embarrasing. Or throwing the rug in the washing machine and it doesnt even stay clean for half a day.
What is the *kitten* point.
I cant sleel propely, i cant ear properly. I just want to be like everyone else. Not just this weirdo person thata alright to say hi to but thats about it.
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PackerFanInGB wrote: »Just for Today | Monday - 9/9/2019
- Get up with alarm - NO SNOOZE
- Log every bite and every sip of water I started out really good and then my day went downhill and I didn't write it down, so it didn't get added.
- 30 minutes of intentional activity
- Read scripture or listen to daily devotional
- Podcasts: Half Size Me and Joyce Meyer
- Prep for Tuesday
- Journal before bed about anything on my mind...good or bad...worry or troubleshooting, whatever is on my mind I will write down.
- Bedtime: Gratitude Journal, Inspirational readings, Calm App or Bible.com daily inspiration, read more of the mystery I started. I did some of this, but not all of it so I'm giving myself a 50% on this one.
Monday started out on a slippery slope as our IT Dept made some changes to software over the weekend, which resulted in some of the software I use not cooperating. It continues into today... I love computers but it really messes a person up when they don't work correctly.
I'm finally going to get my hair cut tonight. So excited! I had to cancel my appointments for the past two months and I look like a hobo right now.
Tomorrow I go get fitted for a CPAP machine for a 3-month trial to see if it helps improve my quality of sleep. I'm not exactly looking forward to looking like an astronaut in bed with a big old elephant mask over my face, but I've got really high hopes for improved energy, memory and concentration. We'll see though..I have a feeling it won't be the miracle i've been hoping for. But what if???? Oh my gosh, to wake up feeling refreshed for once would be the most exciting thing EVER for me! Crossing fingers....
Just for Tuesday- Get up with alarm - NO SNOOZE
- Log every bite and every sip of water
- Step goal
- Read scripture or listen to daily devotional
- Podcasts: HSM, JM or P-n-P
- Remember to bring stuff home with me for my WAH day tomorrow
- Hair appointment by 4:00.
- Journal anything on my mind before bed
- Bedtime Routine: Gratitude Journal, Inspirational Reading, Calm or Bible.com app for meditation, read more of the current mystery by Blake Pierce.
Just for September- Update September budget and checkbook
- Pay bills
- Prep snacks for work week
- Declutter Tupperware cupboard
- Declutter bathroom drawers
- Declutter my closet
- Research "beginner circuit training"
- Research home businesses
- Steins - fall bulbs, buy and plant
WOTY 2019: Tenacity. I will never give up.
3 - Get up with alarm - NO SNOOZE
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@bex935172 I am so sorry that you feel so rough at the moment. I hope you have an understanding doctor who can help you. Sending you big hugs.1
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ZizzyBumble wrote: »Tuesday 10 September
Log accurately
Stay in the green just, why are there so many calories in a tiny bit of cheese?
5 fruit and veg
Fitbit excercise goals
Jan challenge
Feb challenge
Mar challenge time in the garden including hanging out washing and nearly getting blown away. It's very windy today!
Apr challenge
May challenge
Jun challenge
Jul challenge
Aug challenge
Sep challenge
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Snowflake1968 wrote: »Snowflake1968 wrote: »Oh sorry everyone ive not been on!
I started round two yesterday at 185.6. One pound down from round one
How is work going? Are you enjoying it? (I have been out of town a lot recently and I'm sure I've missed your yea or nay on the new job!) I hope you love it! Did the doc give you any exercises for your hip?
Peace and joy!
Thank you for asking. I absolutely love my job!
"I absolutely love my job!" Oh, how I love to read those words! Just think if those other jobs you applied for had come through?? You are getting to love on people who need it and it sounds like there is just enough variety to keep it challenging and interesting but not overwhelming.
Well, I'm glad you got to the "bottom" of your issue, lol! Would a donut pillow help?? A standing desk? Makes me uncomfortable thinking about it
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Sending hugs @bex953172. You are in the thick of the really relentless stage of raising small children and I know it does sometimes feel like a thankless task. I agree you should go and see the doctor but I would also say don’t assume everyone else is loving every second either! I think a lot of what you’re feeling is normal. And all I can promise is it does get better and so will you.
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@Bex953172 Please call your doctor and talk to him/her about how depressed you are. I finally called and got in to see a counselor last week and I'll be going to see her every two weeks now until I get some kind of resolution to the things making me feel stressed. Is there someone you could go talk to like that? A counselor maybe? Sometimes it's nice to hear what another impartial person has to say. In my mind, you have an extremely busy life! With all the cleaning and running after that you do with the kiddos, I'd be totally overwhelmed! It's not a bad thing to be happy to have your kids start school... I cannot tell you how many mothers I saw posting on Facebook how excited they were for their kids to go back to school! Everyone needs some alone time to just take care of themselves...just some quiet time to rejuvenate. It doesn't sound to me like you get much of that!
Can Ash help out by watching Casey an hour or so a day for you to go do whatever YOU want? Take a walk, go sit in a park or even in a library where it's quiet....soak in a bathtub and read a book....whatever it is that makes YOU feel better. If BEX feels better, the whole family will feel better. But life is give and take, and it sounds to me like you are always giving...
Just my opinion, of course! But I think you need some Bex time and I think that you DESERVE some Bex time.
I'm sending you hugs from way over here... I hope you can feel them honey. xoxoxo
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I am still here and reading everyone’s posts although I’ve been struggling to do my own. The house is in utter chaos with the renovations (don’t know why, it’s not major works?!!) and I am feeling very disorganised - I can’t get to my weights and home workout equipment, my bathroom scales are hiding somewhere and I am finding it all very annoying! Managing to keep up with running at least just to stop me going stir crazy!
Hopefully I’ll be back into normality sometime next week. Hugs to you all x3 -
@Bex953172
Dear, dear lady. I have been you, even now there are days I just want my kids to shut the f up and go away. It makes me feel like the worst mom ever, but I'm not. Neither are you. You put their needs before your own always. Maybe that needs to change a bit. It is ok to be a mom and still be your own person. Admittedly that is harder when the little ones are very little. I was good when the kids were infants, then it was just a schedule and a job I wasn't real emotionally attached (especially to the 2nd one). I was never the snuggly parent, but from toddler to about 10yo I struggled with it all. I went through the motions, smiled when I dropped off and picked up the kids, looked like I had my $h!t together, but lived in a fog. I had zero genuine emotions except for anger. All I had was that I could pretend to feel the way I was supposed to feel. It was 100% exhausting. I had unrealistic expectations of my children when it came to hygiene and cleanliness about the house. I was constantly frustrated and overwhelmed. I needed things to be perfect and predictable so I could cope. That just wasn't happening.
In order to get away from that, I took on a few part time jobs that would allow me to put the kids in childcare a few hours a few times a week. And I found that my local gym that provided up to 2 hours free child watch while you worked out. I was very fit. It gave me things that were for me and no one else. It gave me adult interaction. It gave me space from the kids that allowed me to be less critical and annoyed. I had decided to stay home because I thought that was what was best for my kids. I just didn't realize that 24/7 time together didn't work for my family. It was only a few hours and I didn't feel like I was letting others raise my kids. I just felt like I was giving the kids a break from me, and letting me reboot to being "me" not just "mom". Having some me time even if it wasn't down time was what I needed.
Maybe you could work something out to get an hour or two away. Maybe you could see a therapist to help you figure out what will bring you peace. Heck sometimes just getting it all out there to an objective party can take a load off.
I don't know how to help you, but know that I love my children from the bottom of my heart, but that I couldn't stand to be alone with them at times. I love them still and they are amazing young women despite their crazy *kitten* mom. I am still not a snuggly person, but when my oldest cuddles up to me on the couch and tells me about every stinking detail of her day, I know that I've done a good job. I like that she wants to be close to me. I like that she is comfortable and comforted by me. It's weird really, I need none of the things she is giving me, some of it is a bit annoying, but I love that she wants to give them to me. I know that she loves and trusts me. She did see me as the mess I truly was because I was always there for her. The times I yelled don't seem to have made a lasting impression because there were many other times when I was understanding.
I hope that rambling made some sense. Love you girlie!4 -
@Bex953172 You are doing a good job of parenting. Most young mothers feel the weight of responsibility from time to time. It’s exhausting to juggle children/home/job and find time for you. But it will get better. Nothing specific to add to the good advice already given. Just hang in there.
b]Scale Goals progress: [/b]SW: 227 (Mar 2014) Worsening hip problem made weight loss imperative.06/08: 167.4
Jan 2015: 220: -7lbs; Struggled on my own to lose that 7 lbs. Joined MFP on daughter's recommendation.
UGW: 153 (losing 1 lb per week)
Sept 2015: 189:✅ -38; Had my hip replacement op.
Oct 2016: 153:✅ -75: My lowest weight in a long time. It was a really struggle losing the final few lbs.
Nov 2016: 160:🤦🏼♀️ -68: A holiday and several family celebrations later.
Feb 2017: 164:🤦🏼♀️ -64 Christmas and more celebrations!
Aug 2017: 159.2:✅ -68.8 I seem to have reached an equilibrium around 160/5. l
Jan 2018: 165: 😏 Still working on discarding that last 12 lbs.
Jan 2019: 165: 😏 Still working at it.
Goal for Dec 2019: 155
Apr 2019: 162.4: 😄 Decided to concentrate more on health and fitness. I am increasing my strength training.
Jul 2019: 166.2: 💪🏻 Muscle % increasing, but so is weight. Measurements are decreasing. Holiday 20 - 27 July Is bound to push it up more!
28/07/2019: 169.6: 😜 Holiday baggage is the pits! This morning My Scale informed me that I was 'Overfat'. Let's see what I can do in 4 days to bring this back down!
29/07/2019: 169.0 😁 Phew! It’s shifting! Now I gotta stay on track.
30/07/2019: 168.2: Scale now says I’m ‘healthy’ lol!
31/07/2019: 168.4: Normal daily fluctuation.
1 Aug 2019: 167.8:07/08: 167.4==============================
08/08: 166.9
09/08: 166.4
10/08: 166.4
11/08: 166.3
12/08: 166.0
13/08: 166.0
14/08: 165.2
15/08: 165.2
16/08: 165.0
17/08: 164.4
18/08: 164.6 Normal bounce up after prolonged dropping
19/08: 164.6
20/08: 164.2
21/08: 163.4
22/08: 163.2
23/08: 163.0
24/08: 163.2 Normal fluctuations.
25/08: 162.6
26/08: 162.6
27/08: 162.8 I think I may have enjoyed the weekend a little too much!
DISCARD 5 LBS CHALLENGE 💃🏼💃🏼💃🏼💃🏼💃🏼
NAME: Terri
SW: 167.4
GW: 162.4
28/08: 162.4 - 5 lb It’s taken almost the whole month! And I could be up again tomorrow. 😂
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28/08: 162.4
02/09: 160.4
03/09: 159.6
04/09: 159.8: just a wee bounce 😂
05/09: 159.4
06/09: 159.5
09/09: 159.2
10/09: 158.9
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DISCARD 5 LBS CHALLENGE 2
NAME: Terri
SW: 162.4 (28/08)
GW: 157.4
CW: 158.9 - 3.5 😁
I haven’t been in the 150s since Aug 2017
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JFT: Tue 10 Sept- Meditation/Reflection 🌟
- Log CICO/stay in the green/hydrate🌟
- 25 + mins intentional exercise 🌟
- Craft Group 10.30am🌟
- Crochet Group 7 pm 🌟
- 6000+ steps 🌟
- 15+ mins declutter session (wardrobe)🌟
- Work on crochet. 🌟(I have a second cardigan to finish.)
JFT: Wed 11 Sept- Meditation/Reflection
- Log CICO/stay in the green/hydrate
- 25 + mins intentional exercise
- Grocery Shopping am
- Poetry Appreciation 2pm
- 6000+ steps
- 15+ mins declutter session (wardrobe)
- Work on crochet
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maryrobinson40 wrote: »Hope everyone had a productive day. Love you beautiful people.
JFT TUESDAY
THIS IS ME GETTING A JUMP ON DOING BETTER, THEREFORE I'M POSTING TONIGHT WHAT MY PLANS ARE
FOR TUESDAY...
WAKE UP AT 5a.m. Bathroom Routine, Get DressedDressed🙌
Make CoffeeCoffee🙌
Drink waterwater🙌
Get children up and dressed for schoolschool🙌
Walk them to the bus stop 🙌
Back Home to begin me time... Read at least one chapter... Read 5🙌
Have brunch( something green/fruit/protein )no fruit..🙌
Take out trashtrash🙌
Do laundry while doing other simple things..i.e. mail,envelope for letter, tithes 🙌
Strip bedding and remake😕. Didn't do
Water 🙌
Empty a container 😕 changed my mind and took a nap
Dinner ??? ☺ Bojangle's dinner box
Bed by 9:30 is my new goal?
Yayyyy me. Good might y'all😇🙏4 -
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Hey everyone, im back. Well -ish.
I need to go back to the drs, im not well again mentally. I shouted at Casey today, like really shouted at her. I just snapped and lost it.
Im just so sick of everything, sick of myself. I never have a good day. I never feel happy.
I know im doing everything i should for the kids, like food, bathing, dressing them, getting them to school, making sure they have everything, doing homework for Saskia like spelling and reading. Letting her play outside, making sure shes prepared for trips and after school clubs, teaching Casey words, potty training Marley.
But i dont get any enjoyment out of any of it.
Marleys first day of nursery and it was a another mums first time her daughter was going to nursery and she asked me if i was just as nervous or emotional and i said not really. But truth was i just couldn't wait to get rid of her for the day.
Even Saskia asked me "are you happy today mummy?" And the best response i could come up with was "when am i ever happy?" Thats not something i shouldve said.
Then i was walking back with a couple of mums ive done on a few occasions, as i crossed the road i switched places behind them and for a second she didnt see me and said to her friend 'Wheres "that girl?"' So that was kinda like, oh you dont even know who i am so that made me feel awkward as *kitten*.
I never do my makeup, i dont even shower every day anymore. I never look nice. I feel like everyone just seems some trampy mum rather than someone who just struggles everyday.
I have no self confidence. I have no umph to do anything, i couldnt even do the stats thing for you all. I just stopped logging in. I just stopped doing everything.
Everything just feels pointless. Like whats the point in sweeping and mopping the floor after every meal because the kids cant keep their food on tbe damn plates. I dont want to do that 3 times a day. And then when i dont i either get grief of ash because its "disgusting" or someone comes round like the gas engineer today and then my inlaws and its just embarrasing. Or throwing the rug in the washing machine and it doesnt even stay clean for half a day.
What is the *kitten* point.
I cant sleel propely, i cant ear properly. I just want to be like everyone else. Not just this weirdo person thata alright to say hi to but thats about it.
So yeah, that pretty much sums me up atm.
Bex --- I just wish I was there in person to give you the biggest, biggest long hug. But you know Bex ... all I hear in your post is everything that you do, for everyone, but nothing that you do just for YOU. YOU are important ... and you need to treat yourself and be kind to yourself, like you do for so many others. The way you are feeling is very common ... I felt this way many times myself when I was a stay at home mom. All you ever get to talk to is little people, and constantly cleaning up. The things you are doing, like constantly cleaning, etc... none of that will matter when you are unhappy. None of those things will make your children be less messy... because kids are kids. Our house looked a wreck almost all the time when our kids were little. It is the most thankless job ... and never ending. Plus, you are probably not really getting a lot of sleep with 3 little ones constantly needing your attention.
But what I don't see is anytime that you have to yourself ... to go out shopping, or go for a walk, or out to dinner, or to a movie. Is there anyway you can find someone to watch your kids so you can have some "me" time. Can Ash watch them for a afternoon or evening? Or your inlaws? Or is there a place where you can drop them off .. like a mom's day out place? Around here, many times churches have times when you can drop off your kids ... even if just for a hour. I used to sometimes do that, and in that hour, I would go home and even take a nap sometimes! Taking care of ourselves is one of the most important things to do. You are so important to all of us ... you have to be important to yourself to!
In the meantime, I am sending hugs across the ocean dear friend! 5 -
I am SO far behind again on posting and setting goals. ... I need to get with it. Only good thing is that my weight has not gone up ... yet. This is the time of year I give up, and gain, and I am not going to let that happen this year. I am 10 pounds from my goal weight for my height (5'11"), and I just can't seem to get there, but, at least the scale has stayed the same. I just need to work harder at it.
My ex-SIL pulled my brother out of the nursing home yesterday. I have to just let it all go. He lives 1000 miles from me, and I can't get there to stop her, and he is unable to say no to her. Already, she is telling me she has a doctors appt, and plans to drop my brother off at the ER, and just let him sit there for 3 hrs while she drives to her doctors appt.She is asking me what I think. He should have stayed in a home where he has 24 hr care, which is what he desperatly needs. I am worried, but, I have learned to let it go, and put it, like everything else, in gods hands.
Yesterday I took the paperwork into disability. I hate having to do this every year, but as long as our daughter tries to work, they keep checking her. Someone with schizoaffective is not going to get better.
Hugs to all of you on here. I love you all .... just sorry I am not as faithful getting on here. I want to retire, but hubby loves what he does, and because we run the business together, I also need to work. He is trying to slow it down, but when we have sales, we have to work. So my day is just that ... gym ... work... dinner... dishes... and lucky if I get in 2 hrs of sewing before doing the same again tomorrow. Oh well... could be worse!
JFT, Wed
1. concentrate on mindful eating
2. 8+ water. Drink 4 c before diet coke
3. go to the gym
4. log all food3
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