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endurovet · February 4

Last night was a little better - but boy am I jealous of 2 hrs of deep sleep!!! I had a 5-ounce steak from Eatzi’s that looked so good in their display case, but the flavor was a little disappointing.
At least my weight is back down to “baseline” at 191. I pulled something below my left shoulder blade riding Baraq yesterday, so my back has been bothering me all day - I’m getting ready to go stretch out on my yoga mat. But I’ve come across an intriguing PBS program “The Real Crown” (Inside the House of Windsor) - it’s much better than the Netflix series, I lost interest in that pretty damn quickly.

endurovet · February 4

Ugh, I knew I couldn’t string together 2 decent nights in a row! Yesterday was a stress-fest because Zach drove out to visit his dad** - Z had asked him to help fix the grill on his car even though I advised Z that “juice probably wasn’t worth the squeeze” - I’d be happy to deal with the little body shop in Mesquite who fixed a scratched & dented fender on my little Buick for a reasonable cost…
** Zach must do 100% of any effort involved in maintaining a relationship with his father as far as calling him, driving out to his place, etc. etc. Of course I realize it’s completely up to them to negotiate their adult relationship, but Zach wants so badly for his father to behave somewhat normally - from what I can see, that’s never gonna happen. My ex-mule Coyote is still alive at age 33 even though he looks like the wrath of God (aka a walking skeleton) - I know Michael has done none of the routine maintenance you need to do for senior equine like dentistry, special feed, etc. Zach sent me some photos which just broke my heart all over again - while I would dearly love to bring Coyote home and give him the kind of pampering that he deserves, I know Michael would keep him from me just for spite. (Long backstory: Michael and I had switched horses when I was pregnant with Zach since Coyote was still fairly green & had tossed me a few times, so I took over his Arabian Wynkhy. When everything came to a head, Zach was about eight months old - Michael was moving out & he threatened to take Wynk to the slaughterhouse. I could only save one animal at a time so I let him take Coyote while I kept Wynk. I gave Wynk the TLC he deserved, until he died peacefully at age 25)
So it took me a long time to go to sleep last night - grieving my ex-mule, worrying about my son, etc.
Cortisol + a chili dog = 1 lb weight gain

leanstrongsexy · February 4

I felt the same way when I left my ex. My son was 18. I asked him before I started looking for a place if he wanted to come with me.
I told him it was up to him. He knew what I went through all those years I was married to his dad. When his dad had a stroke a couple years ago, my son became his primary caregiver because no one else would put up with him.

I try not to interfere with any holiday gatherings and stuff. I only demand my son spend the weekend with me for Mother’s Day and my birthday.

leanstrongsexy · February 4

So yesterday was a complete write off. I ate BBQ chips and dip for supper. I just wasn’t in the mood to cook anything. I would have gone out to get junk food but I wasn’t in the mood for that either so I asked my son just before I got off work if he would bring me barbeque chips and dip. He said yes so I didn’t leave and that’s what I had for supper.

I turned 60 this year, but starting midway through last year I noticed things don’t taste the same as they used to.

When my aunt complained about this, I figured it was because she had surgery same with my uncle, but I haven’t had any major surgeries. I haven’t had anything major happen in my life other than the death of my aunt and dad five years ago, but I don’t think that would change my taste buds. Getting older really does change your taste buds who would’ve thought.

Anyways for food I buy a lot of healthy choice Gourmet steamers. There’s three different kinds that I buy. The chicken and broccoli Alfredo. The Beef Merlot and chicken teriyaki. I don’t use the sauce that comes with it because I don’t have a microwave so I just heat everything up in a frying pan with a little bit of butter and I throw the sauces out because I figured the sauces have the most sugar. Or the most calories. There’s also a pan seared Highliner herb and garlic haddock that I really like and that’s what I’ve been eating lately. I have so much food frozen in my basement that I should cook and eat. I’ve just not in the mood for it.

endurovet · February 5

Unfortunately I have little-to-no room in my freezer since my hubby has stuffed the drawers with his little baggies of brown rice, salmon, & turkey from the carcasses he dismembered after Christmas… Granted, there is a lot of miscellaneous stuff that I really need to go through, defrost for the dogs, or throw out. Ugh - cleaning out fridge & freezer is one of my least favorite chores!
I bought a big bag of “Keto General Tso’s chicken” at Costco which looked promising but was actually perfectly awful. I choked down a couple of servings, but the rest is gonna go to the dogs; it has the texture of flavored cardboard! If I’m gonna have Chinese food, I’ll go ahead & splurge on the oil-soaked, sugar-laden sauces of a real Chinese joint.
Made a small start by going by my mom’s old facility & starting to pack her china cabinet. Gotta call my client who runs estate sales tomorrow - I don’t care about any proceeds (not that there’s true value to all of that stuff); I’ll happily donate it just so it doesn’t end up in the landfill. Reminds me to get back to purging a lot of my junque!

endurovet · February 5

Fortunately I partially caught up on a little deep sleep last night before I completely lost my mind! I know there is underlying stress about my medical tests Thursday - some of it is catching up on routine stuff like a mammogram & Pap smear, but also doing a lung scan to see if I have pulmonary fibrosis.
Nothing to do but keep pacing forward, but it still feels like going down Class IV rapids, trying to keep my head above water!

endurovet · February 6

Our weather has warmed up this week in what no doubt is a mini “false spring” - but I was very pleased that Aphrodite Alligator came out, Peran got her fed because it was 74° the other day. Of course they go into semi-hibernation over the winter, but I was still worried about her. Somebody posted a wildlife cam video of a bobcat that had caught a baby alligator, which gave me anxiety about my baby! The pond is back up to full capacity with our recent rains, which means she’s gained about 30% more living space.
(I’m distracting myself by looking at my old baby photos since I have to go for some doctor’s tests in a little bit)

This was from July - I can’t tell that she’s grown any since we released her in the pond in September? I’m sure she’s going to be stunted to some extent from malnutrition

leanstrongsexy · February 7

Wow. A pet alligator. So Texas seems to be an interesting state when it comes to pets. LOL.

So my sleep was way off the day before last night. Wednesday going into Thursday. I fell asleep just after ten the at 2:11 I woke up. Not sure why but I could not go back to sleep. I don’t care what the Fitbit says I don’t fall asleep again between 8 & 11 I was just still trying to sleep. Anyway I slept somewhat decent last night but deep sleep was not.

I burnt the roof of my mouth the other day and everything I try to eat now hurts. I may have to eat yogurt for a while until it heals. It is so raw. I hope it’s better by Sunday.

Have you had any issues with foods you love not tasting the same? I’m having this issue now. I turn 60 in June. When my aunt who I looked after for six years, complained about things not tasting the same and her loss of appetite I thought it was just her. But it’s not. About six months ago, I noticed the chicken I cook doesn’t taste the same anymore to me. Since 2010, when I went back to work full-time, chicken was the easiest thing for me to eat while I was on the road for 12 hours. Because I could eat it with my fingers while driving and now I can’t stand the taste. I’m cooking it the exact same way. It just sucks.

Same goes for some of the beef I’ve cooked. It’s also why I’ve been eating more ready to eat frozen meals.

endurovet · 3:34PM

Well, while I love her dearly, Aphrodite really doesn’t qualify as a “pet” - it’s more like Batman & Robin, she’s my “ward”! 😂🤣
Our local game warden confiscated her last spring from some ignorant people who had smuggled her in from Louisiana (where it is legal to purchase baby alligators; it’s not legal in Texas where you’re supposed to have a special permit), they were keeping her in a 50 gallon aquarium & feeding her chicken nuggets - she was extremely malnourished. I kept her in a water trough for several months until she was strong enough to live in the pond. He’s letting me slide her in under my USDA certification, but I don’t think she’ll ever be able to be released back into the wild - so if Texas Parks & Wildlife doesn’t let me keep her, I’ll have to place her in a sanctuary. She swims away from me because I am the mean lady who has restrained her, given her shots & drawn her blood but since Peran has been The Good Guy, just bringing her food, she will swim over to him when she sees him!
I think she is permanently stunted but we’ll see how much she grows this year!

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