Daily accountability and check in

alvarotaipe12 wrote: »

Hey guys! New job is exciting but demanding.

I just about remember my grandma's phone table, a little knee high thing. The phone had an old dial pad on it that you had to turn with your finger for each number. I guess that's where the phrase 'dial a number comes from.

Also had an old phonebook that you could flip by putting a little selector on a letter to open that page, all very high tech and used to get told off all the time for 'playing with the phone'.

Getting up without a snooze optimumme, well done, something I have been unable to do for 46 years 🤣

I read the below this Morning. It's interesting, I need some changes work wise, in work, following the stuff I did last week but also personally, am I going to get what I want from this job or am I beating my head against a wall.

I don't have a plan, so I'm still bobbling along in the sea, drifting in the wind.

I don't know what the universe is or where I am. I am also getting frustrated by things that are either my own fault because I don't have a plan, OR because I'm banging my head against the wall.

I've got a meeting today, maybe I can bring it up, although my boss and I over the last year seem to misunderstand each other and it can be difficult.

"Someone who does not know that there is an ordered universe does not know where he is. Someone who does not know the natural purpose of the universe does not know who he is or what the universe is.

Someone who fails in any one of these ways could not tell the purpose of his own existence either. So what do you think of the man who fears or courts the applause of an audience who have no idea where they are or who they are?"

This was Marcus Aurelius. Book 8 section 52. From my very dog eared Meditations copy.

It does affect me in a broader sense, I am tired after work, race home, only to doomscroll, I'm not even enjoying playstation time which was always my escape. I'm not organising fishing because I don't feel I can properly relax when I go. It is mentally draining, like being on high alert all the time.

May be selfish, I'm a good leader to my team, or I think I am, they can be quite needy and we often plan things or adjust around their personal issues. I can't remember the last time one of them or my own leader asked me how I was as an open question. Maybe it's just work, I don't 'expect it' but I spend over 40 hours each week here with them.

Ive got all the tools, time and support, I just struggle to put it together.

This was a bit of a braindump sorry, its not a cry for help or attention, I haven't slept too well this week and am a bit tired, I was tapping away and just put my thoughts to the paper.

I'll see how I get on with my boss, I have a meeting later and maybe I'll bring it up for discussion.

I'll also plan to take my wife for a walk when I get home now that we have later and colourful sunsets. I'll do a couple of puzzles, read and get an early night.

Oh yeah, I've been reading this puzzle book. Murdle, its full of the murder mystery logic puzzles with an interesting story element attached. They get harder in 3 stages. I got 2 from Amazon for about £10 each and have done one or a couple each Morning.

Amazing progress walkintofit, well done. It's always interesting to see the kind of weight we carry around in a different context, such as a bowling ball or bag of flour.

I love the volunteering interbeing, what kind of work do you do with them?

Decent enough evening for me, no walk as my wife had already been out, so we had dinner and a bit of quality time. I did get to bed a bit earlier and my smart watch seems to think I have higher energy levels in response, so all good there 🤣

Goal today is a simple one, pick up a decent lunch and track it using cronometer.