Why are you fat???

Poor diet. I've been on birth control and anti-depressants, two things known for weight gain. I was also lazy and binged.

I "was" fat because I love food on a good day, bad day and any day! Hated working out, started to hate myself, hate my life and let myself go and go. Nothing is to blame expect me...

I love food.. a lot. I actually used to eat fast food every day and way too much cheese. That plus barely moving from the couch/computer made me fat lol but I am working on it.

Why did I get fat?

I fell in love. I got way too comfortable in my relationship.

At my heaviest, I was 148.7. That doesn't sound heavy, but I'm 5'4", Asian and have a relatively small frame. Wish I had "before" pictures to share with everyone. I signed up for mfp after I lost about 27 pounds.

Loving all your honest sharing here.

For me, I simply had nothing to look forward to (poor social life means no one to meet, no event to "look good" for) for a period of time - and that just fueled a couch potato lifestyle.

A poor excuse, of course...!

A few reasons. i'll make it quick: It started at age 16. I was 5'9 and 110 lbs. A walking skeleton and I damn sure knew (& hated) it. I read fitness magazines and did the exact OPPOSITE just to I could gain weight. :laugh: I used to even use a ladel as a spoon and ate til I got nauseous, waited a few minutes, then ate again. It worked. In a year I had gained 10 lbs.

Age 19, 164

I have a large frame, 164 is a 'skinny me'. But I have a 'ruler'-shaped body (wide waist, even when boney, and no hips). I wanted curves (boobs. lol). So I ate a bit more.

Age 20, 172 lbs. I felt so fat (but, god, I LOVED my new so-called curves!:drinker: ). All my guy friends said I was sexy. Yay me, right?
Same year, a few things happened that caused me to not want to be seen as sexy anymore. By the end of the year, I gained 20 lbs.

I was now seen as intimidating, tough, and no man would dare mess with me because I milked comical rumours that I was a fighter, lol.

Steadily, I gained weight (and bravado).

Age 23, college (late bloomer). 216 lbs. Freshman, first semester. Quick and easy meals. I gained 10 lbs within a month. Whoa. My friends started dating people. Everyone seemed to have their eye on someone else besides me. My tough and purposely intimidating exterior worked even when I didn't try! Oops. :ohwell: :embarassed:

Age 24: College, 2nd year. September. I wanted to date, lol. I wanted to feel attractive, to feel worthy of being pursued.:ohwell: I started taking fish oil and walking daily, and did some tae bo. In 2 months, I lost 20 lbs. :bigsmile: People noticed. guys noticed. By the end of the year, I was down to 174. People thought of me as hot. It was like the twilight zone. I wasn't used to it and still saw myself as the one people didn't see as worth it.

Then I moved back to my home town, and the old issues came out again. I didn't like getting hit on, guys flirting with me. I gained back the 30 lbs within 4 months. I soon gained the reputation of not liking it when men hit on me, and "letting them know it." Yep. heh.

Fast-forward February 2011. 206 lbs. I just entered a weight loss challenge. I so had it in the bag (I can be a bit... competitive) as I knew I could gain and lose weight quickly when I try. I was getting over some old issues. I kind of wanted to be thin again, feel strong, run fast, yes, but I still was uncomfortable with the thought of men finding me physically attractive. I didn't lose an ounce.

In fact, from February to August 2011, I gained 30 lbs.

Over the summer, I had met this guy. Awesome guy. I mean, he was all music & wisdom, comedy & quiet charisma. I felt safe with him and he liked me (wth, right?! :laugh: ). Despite my appearance at the time (I looked 12 months pregnant), he looked past it and wanted a relationship with me. But, I had already committed to a teaching gig in India for 6 months. :noway: I FELT pretty when I was with him. :bigsmile:

But, you know, off I went. Off to spicey east-india! I quickly got used to the hot cuisine, it caused me to eat slowly for a change, my meals were mostly vegetables, beans, eggs, fish and goat. I drank water like a fish, within 4 months, lost 40 lbs. (also took CLA/safflower oil). Yay me! :drinker: :bigsmile:

While there, I worked out a few issues and self-esteem problems. Nothing opens your eyes like seeing people in deeper water than you.

My trip got cut short by a month. I came back to Canada with a new perspective of myself. I'd become a lot softer towards people (i mean men, lol). More assertive & diplomatic in my self-preservation (versus aggressive tactics).

Now, today, in 2012, I'm 'fat' only because it takes more than a day to get fit! :bigsmile: I'm a new me and I'm making my body get in sync.

Why am I fat? Yeah, well, it's actually a long story; also, let's not allow the question room for assuming I'm staying this way. :happy:

**and if anyone's wondering what happened to the guy, well, charm is a prettier word for manipulation, and it's gotta be something that stays on the 'do-not-tolerate' list. I don't CARE how well he plays the guitar! :laugh: **

I think it's because as a child i was just overweight, weather it was 'baby fat' or what, I dunno..ANYWAY
I got used to it and when I finally realized everyone was picking on me and such, I fought back and started an even more unhealthy eating habit, I stopped eating but being an emotional eater, I would start binging, so I switched to Bulimia. Whilst still struggling with bulimic thoughts and the strong want to continue, I am only just coming to grips with how overweight and unhealthy I am.

I want to find out who I am, to feel and look amazing. and I will, without the help of my little friends.



that was prob a bit more then the question asked for xD

Quit smoking...

One thing only......... fructose

Lazy... actually I have been at both ends of the scale. I was anorexic in my late teens. Before that I was a heavy child and was teased alot. Then peer pressure set in and my weight went from 80kg to 43kg and I'mm 170cm tall so it was pretty bad. But anorexia didn't make me happy either. So through the help of my partenr at the time I put weight back on and I guess I never stopped. I've just never found the happy medium.

But now I am determined to make the change for the better. eat better, exercise and make some new friends along the way.

Lazy.

And I Love Nacho Cheese!! I used to put that *kitten* on EVERYTHING!!

I got pregnant and seriously overate and just sat on my tush most of the day. I gained 70+ pounds in my pregnancy.

Not caring what I ate, and being overly-stressed. During the school year, I always gain weight but I eat well/work out over the summer. So, I'm just trying to get back on track.

I was just looking through old photos and I was still a normal size at age 4 but I know when I started school I was already overweight at age 5 and it has continued. My family was all large people who smoked and never did anything physically active. Meals always included 2nd or 3rd portions. Candy and chips and highly processed foods were readily available.

So I am fat because I grew up learning unhealthy habits and once I reached being an adult and started to learn how unhealthy and not normal (not normal for people of healthy weights) my habits were, it took me many years before I was ready to accept that I needed to change. It is still hard for me to accept some things that I can no longer do on a regular basis.

Well I was a little "overweight" before my pregnancy because I really didn't watch what i ate. If I wanted a burger I'd have one , if i wanted ice cream I wouldnt think twice. Thennn I got pregnant. I gained about 30 lbs from that itself.
But that was then and this is now! I'm watching my diett and walking with my little one. Cant wait to be toned and fit like i was about 2 years ago!!!!