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Confession: I had a massive binge yesterday. All I did was eat, sleep, game and eat some more! I don't want to even hazard a guess at the calories but I do know, I feel horrible today from it. I will go to the gym today.
Also everyone who gave me advice on plantar fasciitis and the frozen water bottle rolling, I love you. Today things seem to be going well, I am hoping that I can start back on my regular training schedule next week.
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berlynnwall wrote: »Oh my gosh, I am so mad. My sister (as I have briefly mentioned before) is a mess... she is at this point basically a homeless criminal who goes around getting into trouble. Anyway, today I got a call from the Idaho prosecutor's office. They said I had a subpoena to appear in court next week. I was very confused when they told me I was being called as a witness to a crime at a casino, since I haven't been to a casino in over 10 years. Turns out my sister was the witness - all her friends got arrested, and because she has warrants up the yang, she used my name and gave my mom's phone number. Now I'm worried that this wasn't the first time. I can't believe her nerve.
That really sucks. I have family members that do this with my name. The other thing that is really common is getting utilities/phones in your name. You might want to start checking into that. Getting the companies to acknowledge that you're not the person who signed up can be really annoying and difficult, but the sooner you start getting it taken care of (if you're in this position) the better because it really does screw with your credit etc.
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Call me crazy, but I get so confused when I have a qualified doctor telling me to do a low carb diet instead of CICO because some bodies react to carbs differently to others and this might work better for me, and then this kind of thread appears
http://community.myfitnesspal.com/en/discussion/10197215/question-about-ketosis-does-it-really-help-you-burn-fat-faster-than-cico/p1
and I start to question everything. But then I think, well, these are random people on the internet, no qualifications, possibly trolls just wanting to confuse the situation, but they are all saying the same thing so it can't be UNtrue. But do I then question the validity of my doctor? Low-carb is a way of life for people with certain conditions so it's not unhealthy but it just frustrates and confuses me when a group of people are so adamant that their way is right and everything else is wrong (this can be applied to sooooo many other things in life). This is almost playground bullying, their way is right an no-one should say anything or even suggest something different.
I get to a point where I feel so helpless, CICO hasn't worked for me and funnily enough it isn't working for my mum and my nan struggles with her weight as well, so it could be a genetic thing that carbs just don't sit well (or maybe too well?!) with our bodies and limiting it is the solution.
Either way, I'm going ahead with the low-carb plan and my mum said she is going to do it as well, and if we lose weight where before we couldn't, then I think this should be something that is taken into consideration for obese and overweight people.
Sorry rant/moan/verbal diarrhea over.
Although I'd say I was a believer in CICO purely from a scientific standpoint, I've seen enough posts on here from reliable, sensible people swearing that low-carb is the only thing that works for them personally to accept that there isn't really a one-size-fits-all prescription when it comes to weight loss. There are always going to be unique biological situations.
What harm is there in trying a different approach anyway? Isn't the definition of insanity doing the same thing over and over again, expecting a different result? Lol. It's not like you're shelling out vast amounts of money for a miracle weight loss pill or doing something silly that risks your health... just altering your intake.0 -
riderfangal wrote: »Too tired to post today. My ex decided at 1:43 AM that would be a good idea to start texting me drunken garbage.
I would keep all those texts...in case you need them in the future. Sorry he's so difficult! Has he always been like this? Didn't you say you've been sober for quite awhile?0 -
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Thank you all for the kind words and acknowledgment of my post.....it really took a lot for me to put that out there, as I feared I might be seen as trying to gain sympathy for my health situation, which was not the case.......
I am up way too late tonight, it is nearly 2am, but after this post I am just gonna check the batcave quickly and go to bed. Tomorrow I get to sleep in, and then I am going to have a nice protein packed breakfast and head to the Y. I only have one errand to run tomorrow, and then I plan to come home and spend a couple hours cleaning my place and cooking dinner etc, as my sister and her family are coming in from Indiana Friday to see us.
We only see her once every few years, so it is always nice when they come. Then we are meeting up with her closest girlfriend and her family for dinner, whom I have not seen in 17+ years! Its gonna be a great day. Makes me nervous though, I cannot lie. My sister and I are about as different as you can get.
She is almost ten years older than me, very slim and healthy, a business professional and world traveler with a stay at home hubby. My mother spent a lot of time when I was younger trying to convince me that she just tolerates me cuz I am her sister. Most of the time I know that is not true, but I cannot deny that I always remember that.
Here is a perfect example, when I was 11 years old I choked on pizza and it lodged into my lung and I spent a couple of weeks on life support, and several months in the hospital. My sister was a couple hours away at school, and my mother never called and told her. She just happened to call home one day to check in and that is how she found out. Even though she rushed up to see me, I still have those weird doubts in my mind.
Her and I are close in the sense that we talk regularly and such, but she does not REALLY know me or what goes on in my life. Every time I see them I cry when they leave because I love them so much but I feel like they are here, but not here, you know what I mean??
Sorry I am so heavy today, lol. Hopefully you guys all know I am normally not such a drag, but this last couple of weeks life has chewed me up and spit me out! I know things are getting better soon.....with the exception of having to deal with my son's bike situation I really feel like the worse is behind me.
On a nice side note, a lady that I was on parent council at my kid's school with dropped a card with $20 in it off at my work today to go toward my son's bike fund. I can't recall if I mentioned that before or not. She said she wanted to give him $10 and then when she got to my work she said her boyfriend gave him $10 also. So sweet.
Ok good night all.....see you tomorrow!
Ugh I am so sorry your mom was like that with you. Did she always try to make wedges between your sister & you?
I am hoping that things will turn around for you health wise & will keep you in my prayers.
That is so sweet that someone contributed to his bike fund.
Oh yes, she tried to play divide and conquer with all of us.....here are some examples.
When my sister got married, she asked me to do a reading at her wedding......my mother told me that she did not want me in the bridal party because I was fat (which, for the record, I was less than half the size I am now), years later my sister told me that was not true, and even pointed out that one of our cousins was bigger than I and a bridesmaid.
She left me behind when my sister had her high school grad, and then told her I did not want to come.
The whole not telling her I almost died was a crazy one too.
I know there is more but those are the ones that come to mind right away.
Your sister sounds lovely. Your mother sounds defective. Your man sounds overall well intended but sometimes unhelpful. Can you tell him that it is not a crime but your personal preference is ____ and you want his support as you get where you want to be?
I hope you have a nice visit with sis. Hugs
+1. I'm so sorry. Sib relationships can be strained from things that parents do and I know how hard it is. I don't speak to my younger brothers (who I raised; I was a sister-mom to them since they're 7.5 and 8.5 yrs younger) due to a lot of parental drama after parents divorced. They listened to their dad and I haven't spoken to them in 2? years. Something like that. I'm still sad over it but have hope they'll wisen up one day (my oldest younger brother is special needs and very gullible so I don't know that he will ever "get it" because he just really can't). I miss them.
I'm also so sorry about your health problems. My dr recommended to put me on a med that causes weight gain and I said no, let me try diet and exercise first, and luckily it's working. I know there are a lot out there that make it so much more difficult.
Oh that sucks! I hope you reconnect with them!
Unfortunately the meds I take that cause that I have no choice but to take, two are diabetic insulins and one is depo that controls the tumors in my uterus, and I have to take it at a higher dose than for birth control.0 -
Yesterday was Upper Body Day and he came down to talk to me in the midst of my workout -- I normally don't let him watch because an audience and/or conversation can really throw off my focus and form. I was just finishing up a lat pull set and moving on to upright rows when he was there. He stood behind me watching both lifts for a few minutes, then blurted out, "Holy *kitten*, you look like you're ALL muscle!" Then he offered to take pics of me so I could see what my back looked like.
Nice to know he's so impressed.
Nice!!! Way to go! Post the ALL muscle pic!
You (and everyone else on here) may be sorry you asked for that! It's pretty scary-looking... I think it's mostly the effect of the shadowy dim basement lighting. Will try and remember when I get home from work.0 -
Susieq_1994 wrote: »Italian_Buju wrote: »
Here is a perfect example, when I was 11 years old I choked on pizza and it lodged into my lung and I spent a couple of weeks on life support, and several months in the hospital. My sister was a couple hours away at school, and my mother never called and told her. She just happened to call home one day to check in and that is how she found out. Even though she rushed up to see me, I still have those weird doubts in my mind.
That's horrible! It sounds like your sister does care a lot about you, though--I hope it isn't too late for you to have a good relationship with her. Your mother was really a piece of work, from all of your stories about her. :-/
She does, I know she loves me, and she made sure even when my nieces were younger that they knew me well even though they did not see me often. My oldest niece has my name as her middle name even, that really made my mother mad!
My mother was more than a piece of work, she was defective as someone else said.....remember a while back I said there was a story about what she did to me right before she died.....but it was a long story....I did not feel like anyone would read it back then, but we have come a long way since then and now I think some people might be interested.....when I have time later today I will type it out.....that will REALLY show all you guys what she was like....
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Susieq_1994 wrote: »kellyjellybellyjelly wrote: »Susieq_1994 wrote: »Hi everyone. I haven't really responded to any posts today because I've been really depressed and spent my entire day in bed, only getting up to pray and then going right back. My app wouldn't let me access the forums either, so I couldn't even catch up until I dragged my sorry carcass out of that bed (with coaxing from the ever-supportive Mr. Susie, who bribed me with a trip to the supermarket. I *really* love the supermarket.)
Anyhow, my thoughts are with all who are going through bad times, and big YAY to those who are having great times, and a big "HAVE A SUPER GREAT TIME" to all who are going on vacation. Patricia, that Fitbit looks awesome! My husband considered all of your posts and asked me if I want him to really buy it now; after some thought, I told him not to, because the earning of the Fitbit by my birthday has given me some motivation and drive to "earn" it, and I don't want to lose that so soon, since I've been struggling SO MUCH lately. A few posts that stuck out in my mind today:
@kelly_c_77 Sorry that you couldn't resist the grocery store munchies. Tomorrow is another day, don't lose hope!
@Italian_Buju You're really having a terrible run of luck. So sorry about the bike and everything else that's going on right now.
@nonoelmo Too bad about the sword, and I hope you feel better soon; but a big YAY about the loan.
@FroggyBug Glad to see you checking in, and it stinks that your relationship isn't working out. I hope you feel better by your birthday so you can celebrate. I agree that life seems to have gone downhill since February for a lot of people... Not a very good year for me, either. As for your question about soreness--my legs aren't sore at all. Weirdly, I never seem to get DOMS in my legs, ever, no matter what I've done to them. Walking, exercise bike, 30DS, five million stairs... They never seem to get any worse than just a little stiff. A blessing, I think.
To all who have spoken of assault, it horrifies me that it seems to be so common and so few speak of it. Glad that many of you have gotten the help you needed and didn't let it rule your lives. I admit that I'm still terrified to death of strange men due to my own experience, and I can't stand to let any male (except my husband) stand behind me, no matter how far away he's standing.
The transformation pictures were amazing. Great job to both of you who shared them, and AWESOME on the three years of logging, Ceci (can't remember your exact username. Oops.)
@Glinda1971 Super great job on your steps; you can totally hit the 25k mark.
... I know this post is super long, but to update everyone on my progress today: Despite being horribly depressed, after being dragged out of my bed I went grocery shopping, did some food prep, cleaned up the kitchen, and did my exercise. I came nowhere near my calorie goal, because eating felt like a chore today--I helped it out with a bit of ice cream, but I admit that the oatmeal I logged in there is totally a lie. That's just the next day's pre-fast meal. Didn't do any stairs today; but hey, I got out of bed, right?
I am hoping you're feeling better today.
I think it's wonderful that you set up a goal to earn your Fitbit, because that will make it all the more special.
I agree! My husband "set it up", actually; it was his idea since he knew I wanted a Fitbit, and I think it was a great idea.The struggling that I've been going through over the past several months are just... Gone. Completely not there. It's weird not to feel like I need to eat everything all the time now... It's quite awesome! I've even gotten into a routine on my exercise bike; I've done 30-65 minutes every single day for going on two weeks now. I wouldn't say I'm fired up or motivated, it just feels like I've fallen back into my previous healthier habits somehow.
I am feeling somewhat better today. I wouldn't say I'm 100%, but I've gotten up and done some cleaning, laundry, food prep, etc. ever since I woke up; today has been quite busy, and keeping busy is much better for my sanity than staying in bed all day will ever be.
Hope everyone else is also having a good day!
My goals for today, as set when I woke up, are:
- Food prep (Done already!)
- Housework (Also done!)
- Climb a few flights of stairs
- Walk to the nearby Panda grocery store for the things we couldn't find yesterday (Yay steps! Yay walk!)
- Do 45-60 minutes of exercise
- Try to eat to my goal today, including the calories I missed out on yesterday.
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kellienw335 wrote: »riderfangal wrote: »Too tired to post today. My ex decided at 1:43 AM that would be a good idea to start texting me drunken garbage.
I would keep all those texts...in case you need them in the future. Sorry he's so difficult! Has he always been like this? Didn't you say you've been sober for quite awhile?
Yep I forward then all to my e-mail. This has been going on for nearly 3 years now and to be honest it gets very tiresome. For the most part I have learned to ignore it and not fan the flames but some days it is really really tough. He has been diagnosed with depression and as being bi-polar so I try to cut him some slack but I just wonder if I am going to have to live with this for the rest of my life. That thought makes me want to just sit down and cry!0 -
xLoveLikeWinterx wrote: »So...mini update on me.
We're inching closer to adopting a dog. They're calling my references now and if all goes ok, then mid July they will be bringing her up for a meet n greet with my kids/us. I'm very happy about this, DH is on board but still a bit of a Negative Nancy about it. He did admit that he was being unfair to me about it. Everyone here knows I will be doing 95% of the work for the dog. If I'm ok with it then it's not an issue.
I also had another woosh yesterday, so now I'm 6.4 lb from goal (Tubbs, I'm comin for ya! ) This is my pattern though- huge wooshes for like 10 days, stuck for 10 days, gain a bit for 10 days, repeat. Overall I'm still losing at a decent clip, so I'll take it.
Bought some pants online and a new blazer for work. I went from a 14 in blazers (I have a giant chest) to a 10, and from 12 in work pants to a 6/8 depending on style. Hoping to end up back in a 4/6 for pants, because I have a bunch in my closet from back in the day *cough*4yearsago*cough* that I'd love to wear.
Another dental appointment tonight for 3 fillings (*grrrr*). I have to take half a Xanax before I go bc I get panicky. I've had so much work done and the anesthetic ALWAYS wears off halfway through, so every time I go in it's painful. The dentist last time said he gave me enough for a 300 lb man and couldn't give me any more. It lasted 60 mins then wore off
I am so happy for you that you are getting your dog! Good for you for standing up for yourself and getting what you want!0 -
Italian_Buju wrote: »Ok, I am just gonna gab for a bit if that is alright. This is mostly about crappy health stuff, so if you are not interested just skip on by, but I felt that I have some friendships here that might be the best support I have for this particular issue.
I wish I could help you more. I know my words probably won't come out the way I want them to (I seem to never know what to say even though I have a lot of sympathy for what you are going through).
I don't have full blown OCD but I do have bipolar disorder and anxiety so I have a lot of days where I'm already having a bad day and one little thing will set me off and stress me out. I think that is why I have a tooth/gum infection right now too (as an example). I woke up this morning clenching my jaw so hard that everything was back to hurting again. So, I know what stress can do to someone and their body. I also TOTALLY understand needing a good nights sleep. I know that when I have trouble sleeping I get stressed, moody, mean and depressed.
First, I know you are super busy but is there any way you can pack your own lunch so that your SO isn't giving you so much? Or maybe splitting the lunch between two days? Or maybe let him know that you don't need so much lunch? Can you maybe talk to your daughter without having to have snacks in the room? I'm not trying to be mean or anything but I think that may help. You may have to start with little changes like that so you aren't overloaded.
The one good thing is that you've been able to lose weight before so I know you can do it again. I have a lot of days where I want to eat everything because of stress etc but I know that I want to get down to a healthier weight so most of the time that helps to stop me. I try to make sure I'm logging every single thing I eat and I want to make sure that I'm in the green. Maybe you can let us know if you are having bad cravings or tell us when you are doing well so that we can help/praise as needed.
Anyway, I hope that you feel better soon!
I actually pack my own lunch 99% of the time now. Last week he packed one, and my daughter and I split it and still had well enough.
Also I am aware now of the night time snacking and late night gabbing with my daughter, she is only home two more months, but I have already gotten that in check. The key for me is actually going to bed earlier.
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I got my Modcloth dress order in and I hate both of them, I think. The polka-dot dress makes me feel like Minnie Mouse and is all awkward, hits me at a weird place at the hem, and makes my waist look wide...
It's frustrating to always look so much bigger than other people wearing the same size. Like...both of those dresses are the smallest size they even came in on the website but I certainly don't look it. I hate the way clothes fit me.
So that was a fail and the return process is a real pain from Canada, so I guess I'll be trying to pawn these off on a friend or something. And I still have nothing to wear for the wedding apart from my old black bartending cocktail dresses, which is...not ideal.
I think that pink polka dot one looks so cute on you!0 -
Oh God!riderfangal wrote: »Too tired to post today. My ex decided at 1:43 AM that would be a good idea to start texting me drunken garbage.
If your son is home with you, turn the phone on silent and ignore him!
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MissKalhan wrote: »Confession: I had a massive binge yesterday. All I did was eat, sleep, game and eat some more! I don't want to even hazard a guess at the calories but I do know, I feel horrible today from it. I will go to the gym today.
Also everyone who gave me advice on plantar fasciitis and the frozen water bottle rolling, I love you. Today things seem to be going well, I am hoping that I can start back on my regular training schedule next week.
I love you too
Glad it is feeling better!! My chiropodist taught me that!0 -
Trying to combine responses:) We'll see how this goes!pofoster21 wrote: »For those in the US and the Brits celebrating the 4th along with us what are your weekend plans?
I am going to my mom's in Long Island and getting 2 long rides in to Montauk on my bike and at least one swim. My sister and her husband are visiting from Seattle too. I may cook Saturday if I can fit it in. Back at barn to work Sunday. Anyone have any fun things planned?
I'm taking off work tomorrow and doing some yard work early then going on a hike with my parents. The 4th will be more laid back - a couple of friends over and then watching the local fireworks show. We are SOO dry in the northwest right now. I'm really worried about fires this weekend.Glinda1971 wrote: »My legs are amazingly not really sore today. Those were the most steps I've taken since I got my Fitbit (like 12,000 more).
I remember when I first started walking that if I did a mile they were sore and a mile felt like a long ways. So that's progress.
That is so awesome Glinda!!Italian_Buju wrote: »
Here is a perfect example, when I was 11 years old I choked on pizza and it lodged into my lung and I spent a couple of weeks on life support, and several months in the hospital. My sister was a couple hours away at school, and my mother never called and told her. She just happened to call home one day to check in and that is how she found out. Even though she rushed up to see me, I still have those weird doubts in my mind.
That is crazy! From the sibling's point of view, I would be furious at my mother if something like that happened to one of my brothers and she didn't bother telling me. I'm also a couple of hours away from the family, it's no excuse. I hope you have a good relationship with your sister despite your mother's actions. Enjoy your family time!
Yes to that - your mom is messed up @Italian_Buju. @spamarie I hope you feel better soon! Hot and pregnant does not sound like a fun combo.
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pofoster21 wrote: »xLoveLikeWinterx wrote: »I ended up eating a bit more than usual last night (just about 150 cals-ish higher, so NBD) and had a 2 lb woosh this morning... what the whah?? IDK but I'll take it.
So now @tubbs I think we're almost identical in stats... I have 8 lb to go to goal, about 5 after that. I desperately need new work clothes because they're hanging in weird places and un-tailored work clothes bother me lol... I may hit up cheap clothes to get me through the next few months until my spree at goal lol...
And I may have found a dog from the local rescue group near me... He's 5 yrs old, housetrained/shots/neutered, Beagle and he seems adorable.
Ohh take him take him!!!!
I second this! Adopt him and please post pics!! (Though maybe you already have? I'm behind in the thread. )0 -
riderfangal wrote: »Too tired to post today. My ex decided at 1:43 AM that would be a good idea to start texting me drunken garbage.
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Italian_Buju wrote: »
Oh God!riderfangal wrote: »Too tired to post today. My ex decided at 1:43 AM that would be a good idea to start texting me drunken garbage.
If your son is home with you, turn the phone on silent and ignore him!
Definitely going to do that tonight . Tomorrow me and the little man are heading to the lake for the weekend and I am not going to let him ruin it.0 -
@MissKalhan glad your foot is feeling better, I can totally relate on the binge day but getting back on it too!0
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